The first time Xiao Jingbei thought about the questions of "what is love", "love or not", and "how much love" was when Xiao Baobao was two years old. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

This year, because Mu Qingwan had a fifty full birthday, the Weiyuan Marquis Mansion held an extremely lively birthday banquet, Mu Qingwan was originally happy and quiet, but people would like to be more lively when they get older, so she did not refuse Feng Mingxiang and Yu's kindness.

Feng Zhige and Xiao Jingbei, who are daughters and sons-in-law, naturally also led their daughters back to the Hou Mansion to celebrate their birthdays.

In the middle of the birthday banquet, Xiao Baobao fell asleep in Feng Zhige's arms, and Feng Zhige was talking to several aunts of the Mu family and walked away at will, so Xiao Jingbei sent Xiao Baobao back to Liuyun Pavilion, where Feng Zhige lived before he got married.

On the way, Xiao Jingbei saw his legitimate father-in-law Fenglin, who was talking to Mu Qingwan.

has been married to Feng Zhige for more than ten years, but in addition to seeing Feng Lin in a hurry when he got married, this is the second time he has seen Feng Lin.

Compared with the hurried glance when he got married, Fenglin is undoubtedly much older now, and his temples are dyed with snow early.

However, these tranquilitys gradually disappeared in the increasingly excited conversation between him and Mu Qingwan.

The entanglement between Mu Qingwan and Feng Lin, Feng Zhige never deliberately concealed it, so although Xiao Jingbei couldn't say it very clearly, he also knew a rough idea.

Knowing the inside story, and seeing the difference between the expressions of his father-in-law and mother-in-law, of course Xiao Jingbei would not bump into Song head-on, in order not to let his father-in-law and mother-in-law see his existence and be embarrassed, he also deliberately hid in a hidden place.

Although the distance is not close, because of the relationship between practicing martial arts since childhood, even if Xiao Jingbei did not deliberately listen to Mu Qingwan and the two talking, the content of their conversation was still listened to by him word for word.

"Awan, it's been more than ten years, don't you think the punishment I got is not enough?"

"Ah Wan, look at us, we are all old, and there are still a few more than ten years to ......"

"Ah Wan, I confessed day and night in the Huangjue Temple, I just want you to forgive me......"

Xiao Jingbei could feel the sadness and remorse implied in Feng Lin's words.

After more than ten years of hard life, just to ask for forgiveness from one person, Xiao Jingbei thought that Mu Qingwan would forgive Fenglin under a soft heart, but to his surprise, although Mu Qingwan was indeed moved on his face, he still shook his head gently in the end.

Until the two people who should have been the closest in the world drifted apart, Xiao Jingbei still remembered Feng Lin's gloomy eyes.

Since listening to this conversation, Xiao Jingbei has been thinking back to the bits and pieces of his acquaintance with Feng Zhige for so many years.

Different from the past between Mu Qingwan and Feng Lin, who had countless grievances and hatreds, he and Feng Zhige met during an assassination in Huzhou City, when he fell in a pool of blood, he looked at Feng Zhige, who was still a child at the time, walking towards him step by step on the bloodstains, and the blood-colored flowers bloomed on the skirt of the lotus step.

That kind of scene may seem terrifying to many people, but in Xiao Jingbei's heart, it is a rare warmth and sunshine in his more than ten years of life.

Obviously born in a high family, but he can only be forced to walk on the verge of death, Xiao Jingbei has passed nearly 20 years in such days, his father who is lying on the hospital bed and knows nothing about anything, and Zhou Yuran, who was eager to let him die at that moment, of course they will not teach Xiao Jingbei what love is.

However, Xiao Jingbei never doubted that he was in love with Feng Zhige.

Even if he knows ****, in fact, almost all of them come from the two best friends who occasionally have a little weak heart of "words and deeds", but, put a person in the most important position in his heart, there will be more anger in his heart, as long as he sees her with a faint smile, it is as if he has seen the bloom of the lotus flower in front of the Buddha.

If this is not love, then he does not know what love is.

The so-called love does not know what to do, and it goes deep.

Xiao Jingbei felt that this was probably the case.

He didn't doubt his intentions, but what about Feng Zhige?

Thinking about the situation of the two getting along since he met Feng Zhige, he never seemed to have seen the performance of the woman who Wen Yue said "fell in love" in Feng Zhige.

What is shy, shy, and affectionate......

Wait, not to mention that I didn't see it from Feng Zhige, it was Xiao Jingbei himself, and I couldn't imagine that Feng Zhige had these emotions on his face.

So, does Feng Zhige love him?

Although Xiao Jingbei really wanted to give himself a positive answer, he really couldn't be sure.

Although he and Feng Zhige have been married for many years, there seems to be no other husband and wife between them from strange to familiar process, it seems that since they have become married, they live a life similar to that of an old husband and wife, from the beginning, Feng Zhige treated him with the same attitude, he couldn't see that he was particularly close, and he was never alienated.

If you talk about love, Feng Zhige never has the same reaction as other women when she sees her lover every time she sees him, but if she says she doesn't love it......

With Xiao Jingbei's understanding of Feng Zhige, she has never been a person who will wronged herself, no matter what the reason, if she didn't want to marry him, she would never marry him, if she didn't want to live with him all these years, she would never have lived with him for so many years, and gave birth to children for him.

Xiao Jingbei only felt as if he had two villains in his heart, constantly citing various examples to persuade each other.

This entanglement is a few hours.

Until the birthday banquet was over, he took Xiao Baobao, who had woken up, and Feng Zhige and got into the carriage to return to Anguo Mansion, but he still couldn't come up with an accurate answer, but secretly stared at Feng Zhige from time to time, his eyes were full of inquiry.

This exploration has been a long time.

Until the dead of night, he washed up and rested in a trance, and held Feng Zhige in his arms as usual, Xiao Jingbei's heart, which originally felt a little empty, instantly became steady.

Then, he laughed at his struggle for most of the day.

He and Feng Zhige have been husband and wife for a long time, and now it is not hypocritical to investigate whether he loves or does not love, he just needs to know that Feng Zhige is the wife who will be with him for the rest of his life.

His song has become more and more like a Luan Feng destined to soar high in the sky over the years, and no one can restrain her, but as long as she is still willing to be with him, he only needs to put her in the depths of his heart, deeper.

The luckiest thing in his life was that he met Feng Zhige in Huzhou City at a critical opportunity of life and death.

It seemed to be a new chapter in his life, and from this, he began to truly control his own destiny, and then he had a home that could convert his soul, a wife who was loved by him, and the continuation of their bloodline.

Sticking the soft delicate body in his arms into his arms, Xiao Jingbei showed a satisfied smile in the dark, no matter when and where, as long as there is her presence around him, even if he is poor, even if he is sleepy, he can always get peace.

She is his peace.

……

There was a regular breathing sound from his side.

Feng Zhige smiled silently.

She actually knew what Xiao Jingbei was thinking.

All day long, Xiao Jingbei looked at her with the same look of wanting to say something.

After being married for so many years, Xiao Jingbei has never hidden any of his thoughts in front of her, he almost presented himself in front of Feng Zhige like a blank piece of paper, so that Feng Zhige only needed a glance to see all the thoughts in his heart.

For Feng Zhige, love or not love is also a question.

Compared with Xiao Jingbei, who was forced to fight with death at close range since he was a child, Feng Zhige has seen more of the dirty and dark side of the world.

In later life, she was an orphan who was abandoned on the street, so she was adopted by the killer organization and became a killer who made it his profession to harvest human lives.

In her memory, it seems that since the age of sixteen, she has only been left with tasks in her life, and everything she has done is only to complete them.

In order to complete the task, she can stay like a rat in the sewer for three days and three nights, or she can set up a snig on the roof of a building not far from the target and stay motionless for five or six hours......

Even her innocent body was sent on her own initiative when she first started taking on tasks at the age of sixteen, in order to approach a mission target with a strong sense of vigilance and special hobbies.

As long as she can get the job done, she can use everything she has as the sharpest weapon she can be.

As for chastity, innocence.

In all her more than ten years of training, no one had ever told her that it was important.

Until now, she still remembers that when she took advantage of the mission target to penetrate her body with the most ferocious posture, she took out the blade hidden in her mouth and cut the man's neck, and the bloody blood sprayed her head and face, and the man greeted death with extreme pleasure on his face.

Life is so vulnerable.

In such days, Feng Zhige has passed more than ten years.

If it weren't for the destruction of her organization in a fire, and the fact that she came to this strange time, maybe she would have continued to be a killer who didn't know where tomorrow would have been, until one day she died in the mission.

became a cold su, and then had a family for the first time, her cold and hard heart also had a soft place, and her father and brother taught her what it means to be a relative with more than ten years of care.

If it weren't for the fact that she had a marriage contract with Zhao Tiannan and fought with him everywhere, maybe she would have stayed in the Han family until she grew old.

In fact, when she really trampled the world under her feet, she felt that it would be good if she really stayed in the Han family for the rest of her life.

Then, before she really became the queen, she became a wisp of soul in the depths of the palace early because of a glass of poisonous wine, and when she opened her eyes again, it was another life.

Meeting Xiao Jingbei and saving him was just a whim for Feng Zhige at that time, but he didn't expect that the young man who was saved by her in a pool of blood would become her husband later.

Husband, for Feng Zhige, this is undoubtedly a very novel word.

Before this, she never thought that she would also have the day when she would actually get married.

Even if she was with Zhao Tiannan at the beginning, even if her name was recorded in the royal jade, she never thought that she was married, at most she only lived with Zhao Tiannan.

After all, at that time, she and Zhao Tiannan, after more than ten years of getting along, were familiar with each other.

Although the marriage with Xiao Jingbei was instructed by Zhao Tiannan, the emperor, if Feng Zhige didn't want this family affair at that time, she had only one way to refuse, but for some reason, she didn't even think about refusing at that time, and even had a strange idea of "living with Xiao Jingbei is not bad".

Why?

Because Xiao Jingbei's eyes, which are usually frost-colored, have a distressing warmth when looking at her?

Or is it because he always puts her in a position more important than himself, trusting her as if he believed in himself?

Feng Zhige couldn't give an answer.

But she thinks that time will know all the answers, and as long as she keeps moving forward, there will always be a day when she knows.

It was under such a mentality that she married Xiao Jingbei.

Facts have proved that Feng Zhige's vision is not bad, in such an era when three wives and four concubines are justified, and even ordinary people with two dollars will think about marrying a concubine, Xiao Jingbei, who was born in a noble family, can guard the main room and not think about it, it is simply eye-catching.

Of course, if Xiao Jingbei really had the idea of enjoying the blessings of Qi people, Feng Zhige would let him know the price of seeing different thoughts.

Over the years of marriage, Xiao Jingbei can remember the time when she comes to dehydrate water every month, and will remind Mama Li a few days in advance without pulling it, so that she can prepare brown sugar water at any time.

He regarded all her relatives as his own relatives, and was filial to Old Man Han and Mu Qingwan like a filial father.

When she was pregnant with Xiao Baobao, for ten months, he took care of her daily life without pretending to others, washing her face and feet, dressing and eating, and taking care of her carefully.

During the ten-month pregnancy, by the time she gave birth to Xiao Baobao, she had gained a lot of weight, but Xiao Jingbei had lost a lot of weight.

This man never speaks sweet words, but he will express all the love in his heart with his actions.

Even in the eyes of people like Old Man Han, who didn't agree with this family affair at the beginning, Feng Zhige was also pampered by Xiao Jingbei in the palm of his hand.

In the past, Feng Zhige never thought that she didn't need to be spoiled, no matter where she was placed, even if there was nothing, she could survive with her tenacity, not like the flowers in the greenhouse, once she came into contact with the sun and rain outside, she would immediately wither and lose her vitality, but she was spoiled by Xiao Jingbei like this, and she gradually got used to it.

At the same time, she could feel the warmth in her heart as a result.

Looking back on the past, although it is true that two lives have passed, Feng Zhige still has a feeling that he seems to have changed as a person.

However, change is change.

Compared with the past, she also prefers this self who will really feel at ease by Xiao Jingbei's side now.

This place of peace is my hometown.

She had never felt like this before.

If this feeling is what people call love, then Feng Zhige thought, although her feelings are light and shallow, she probably loves Xiao Jingbei too.

However, will she tell Xiao Jingbei?

Of course not.

Perhaps, when they are all gray-haired, when their faces are wrinkled, and when they snuggle together and recount the past, she will tell him. (To be continued.) )