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Since returning to Beijing, this is probably the first official meeting between Mu Qingwan and Feng Lin.

After a conversation between Huzhou and Mu Qingwan, Feng Lin's whole person became a little more twilight, and he didn't show a smiling face on the way from Huzhou to the capital, which made everyone in the Hou Mansion silent.

Later, when he came to the capital, Mu Qingwan, as the head of the house, lived in the Rongxi Hall of the main courtyard, but Fenglin, the owner of the Hou Mansion, moved to the study, and even dined, the two were never together.

Such a strange situation certainly made the people of the Hou Mansion suspicious, but as early as the night they entered Beijing, they were warned by Mu Qingwan and Feng Zhige successively, and their mouths were naturally closed firmly, not only did they not dare to spread the situation of the Hou Mansion, but they also did not dare to chew their tongues in the Hou Mansion.

Feng Lin looked at the faint look on Mu Qingwan's face, and his heart was stirred again.

Since talking with Mu Qingwan on the eve of leaving Huzhou, Fenglin has been reflecting on his actions over the years for more than a month.

He and Mu Qingwan met at a young age, and they became husband and wife in the best years.

Until that year, he met Zhao Youjun outside the palace gate.

There is a saying in Buddhism.

Feng Lin thought, perhaps, Zhao Youjun was the doom of his and Mu Qingwan's fate.

At that time, Zhao Youjun was still the eldest princess who was favored by the Queen Mother, even if her words and deeds were vulgar, even if she was short-tempered, but if she revealed her intention to marry, I don't know how many promising men in Beijing would be overjoyed.

However, among these people, Feng Lin is not included.

Although the Feng family is thin, as early as the previous dynasty, the Feng family could be called a famous family.

Later, in troubled times, the young old Wei Yuanhou gave up the prosperous life at home with foresight. Following the current emperor to conquer the world, after the establishment of the Dawu Dynasty, the Feng family became a noble family in the Dawu Dynasty that was relied on by the new emperor.

Feng Lin was born in such a Feng family, and he was favored by his parents since he was a child. It can be said that his future is destined to be no shortage of power and wealth, and even so, how can he be ecstatic because of Zhao Youjun, the eldest princess.

What's more, at that time, he already had a wife by his side.

So. Zhao Youjun's inexplicable love for Feng Lin brought only trouble to Feng Lin and Mu Qingwan.

If the old Marquis Weiyuan was still alive at that time, Zhao Youjun would not even be able to cause any trouble to the Feng family.

However, the Marquis of Weiyuan at that time was Fenglin, and Fenglin, who attacked the title before reaching the crown, was much worse than the old Marquis Weiyuan, both in terms of external influence and deterrence to the people below.

At that time, Feng Lin was too immature, so that in the face of the coercion of the Queen Mother and the eldest princess of Qingping, in order to save Mu Qingwan's life, Feng Lin could only choose to compromise.

Until now. Feng Lin still remembers that when he was summoned by the Queen Mother, he confronted Zhao Youjun and said categorically that Mu Qingwan would always be his only wife, and if something happened to her, he would follow Huangquan.

He is so determined, so determined that he would rather die than divorce or kill his wife as the Queen Mother and the eldest princess of Qingping said.

He thought that he had expressed it so clearly that it was impossible for the Queen Mother and the eldest princess to be crazy enough to ruin him and the Marquis of Weiyuan after the founding hero because of his refusal.

He just didn't expect that the madness of the eldest princess of Qingping, who he couldn't love, would be even more than that.

Committed as a concubine with the dignity of a princess. What could be crazier than that?

Of course, Feng Lin was unwilling, but his wishes were obviously not important at this time, accepting the eldest princess of Qingping as a concubine, or watching Mu Qingwan die. He had no choice but to compromise.

Looking back now, he did have a true heart at that time.

He really wanted to save Mu Qingwan's life, and he really wanted to grow old with her.

Later, the palace released the news that the eldest princess of Qingping was suddenly ill, and the Marquis of Weiyuan's mansion moved to distant Huzhou silently overnight while having an extra concubine.

Feng Lin originally thought so. After arriving in Huzhou, without the imperial power on his head, he must be much more free to act than when he was in the capital. Even if there is an extra Zhao Youjun in the house, Zhao Youjun will definitely live in seclusion to reduce the chance of showing up outside because of the consequences of being identified by others, so that with the deep affection between him and Mu Qingwan, Zhao Youjun's feelings between them will not pose a big problem.

However, just as Feng Lin didn't expect that Zhao Youjun would be committed to being a concubine, this time he also didn't expect that Zhao Youjun not only did not live as simple as he expected, but also drove Mu Qingwan, the lady of the main room, to the remote Luoshuixuan, and he regarded himself as Mrs. Weiyuan Hou.

For Feng Lin, his wife is only Mu Qingwan, how can he agree to Zhao Youjun's request, so wronged by Mu Qingwan?

However, when Zhao Youjun threatened Mu Qingwan's life again, he could only choose to compromise painfully again.

O royal dead soldiers, if they move their fingers a little, his Ah Wan will die!

And then, and then again......

In everything, after the first time, there will always be a second time.

Faced with Zhao Youjun's pressing step by step, Fenglin could only compromise again and again.

Every time, he told himself in his heart that he was trying to protect Ah Wan.

After saying the same thing too much, he was convinced of this reason, but he forgot to look back to see if Mu Qingwan, who was protected by him, was really better off after his compromises again and again.

After such a depressed day for too long, there must always be a channel to relieve the depression in my heart.

That time, the drunken Feng Lin was rare and reckless, leaving Zhao Youjun and coming to Luoshui Xuan alone.

It was also on that night that Feng Lin saw Mu Qingwan for the first time after moving to Huzhou for a few years, and for the first time saw the despair in Mu Qingwan's eyes clearly.

At that moment, Feng Lin only felt as if his heart had been ripped out alive.

His compromises again and again, his self-righteous protection, did it only add to the despair in his Ah Wan's eyes?

For Fenglin, such a fact is like a bolt from the blue.

Feng Lin, who couldn't accept the facts, was in pain in his heart, so he could only indulge himself with the strength of wine, so he broke into the room regardless of Mu Qingwan's resistance and tears, and hugged Mu Qingwan tightly into his arms......

No one thought that it was only this night. Mu Qingwan became pregnant.

This news naturally can't be concealed, and Zhao Youjun, who single-handedly controls the Hou Mansion's back house.

Zhao Youjun already secretly hated Feng Lin for going to Luo Shuixuan without her, and learned that Mu Qingwan was pregnant, and she poisoned Mu Qingwan more than once to make Mu Qingwan have a miscarriage.

But for Mu Qingwan, this unexpected child in the belly. is the only bright color in her gloomy life, how can she allow her child to die at the hands of Zhao Youjun before she is born?

When Fenglin was snatched away, Mu Qingwan could only be silent.

When he came to Huzhou, he was seized by Zhao Youjun and rushed to Luoshuixuan, which was remote and uninhabited, Mu Qingwan was still silent.

It can involve the child in the womb. Mu Qingwan refused to compromise this time.

She stepped out of Luoshuixuan for the first time in several years and found Zhao Youjun directly.

Of course, Mu Qingwan didn't go to Zhao Youjun to fight hard, and Zhao Youjun had the protection of the dead, even if she fought with her, she would just die in vain.

Mu Qingwan only said one word to Zhao Youjun.

She said that if the child in her womb had any three lengths and two shortcomings, she would die with the child!

Zhao Youjun hesitated after hearing this.

People just have a strange mentality, Zhao is the more he grabs something, the more afraid he is of losing.

Zhao Youjun still remembered how firm Feng Lin's tone was when she said that she wanted Biluo Huangquan to follow Mu Qingwan, for her, Feng Lin was obtained by her exhausted means. She certainly didn't want to risk any loss of him.

Therefore, in the face of Mu Qingwan's desire to die, even if Zhao Youjun really wanted her to die, he could only stop.

In this way, Mu Qingwan gave birth to a child.

However, it seems that God still shows that this weak woman has not suffered enough, and the child has not opened his eyes since he was born, and he has invited I don't know how many doctors, but he can't say why.

Mu Qingwan was heartbroken, but later tried to convince himself to believe the words of one of the doctors. Her baby is just sleeping, she just needs to take care of her and wait for her to wake up.

And so on for eight years......

In the past eight years, out of inability to face Mu Qingwan or fear of seeing despair in Mu Qingwan's eyes again. Feng Lin never appeared in front of Mu Qingwan's eyes again, even if she gave birth to a daughter alone, even if their daughter was born into a deep sleep.

In the past month or so since he entered Beijing from Huzhou, Feng Lin has carefully broken away these long-sealed pasts, which is sad about the suffering he has suffered over the years, and even more bitter for his cowardice all along.

There is no one who does not yearn for freedom.

Even if it's the same stay-at-home. But one is his own will, and the other is forced by others, and the feelings in this are naturally very different.

When others can live in the sun wantonly, Mu Qingwan can only hide in a dark corner with rats and insects as companions, his original protection only brought Mu Qingwan such a life, why did he still believe that he was doing this for Mu Qingwan's good time?

On such days, as long as you think about it, it makes people shudder, Feng Lin really can't imagine how Mu Qingwan has come over all these years.

All the pain Mu Qingwan suffered was due to his wishful thinking and self-righteous so-called protection!

And his protection was just a seemingly perfect excuse he had made for his cowardice, and when he took out this perfect excuse again and again to convince himself, gradually, even he himself was convinced of it.

He was intimidated by the supremacy of imperial power, so he accepted Zhao Youjun into the palace as a concubine, and after taking this step, he had no further courage, so he could only accept Zhao Youjun's threats again and again.

It was he who nodded and agreed to allow Zhao Youjun to enter the mansion, and it was he who acquiesced to Zhao Youjun to call himself the wife of Weiyuan Hou, and even when Zhao Youjun drove Mu Qingwan to Luoshuixuan, he couldn't say a word of objection.

Even, in order to feel less guilty and feel better, he tried his best to sue himself, this qiē was all done by Zhao Youjun, he just couldn't do anything, he just wanted to protect Ah Wan's life......

Every time he thinks of these facts, Feng Lin can't wait to go back in time, so that he can go back to the time when a mistake has not yet been made, and slap himself in the face.

How could he be so shameless?

If, in the face of the coercion of the Queen Mother and Zhao Youjun, he could keep his heart and resolutely not back down, even if the final result was that he and Ah Wan died together, it would be much better than now, right?

There are no ifs in life, the past has become a thing of the past, and no one can answer this question.

Now, Feng Lin is most guilty of Mu Qingwan and the most grateful. But it's a phoenix song.

Because he couldn't face himself, Feng Zhige never went to see her once in the eight years that Feng Zhige was unconscious.

When Feng Mingwu was born under the joyful gaze of everyone in the Hou Mansion, Feng Zhige was sleeping; When Feng Mingwu was coquettish in his arms. Feng Zhige is still asleep; When Feng Mingwu was wantonly pampered by Zhao Youjun, Feng Zhige was still asleep.

Feng Lin is naturally ashamed of this daughter.

It wasn't until Feng Zhige woke up that Feng Zhige found the alienation in Feng Zhige's eyes when he looked at him, that Feng Lin faintly understood, and he seemed to have missed something very important.

And then. The Hou Mansion, which had been completely controlled by Zhao Youjun for more than ten years, gradually changed under the intervention of Feng Zhige.

Mu Qingwan, who had not seen outsiders for nearly twenty years, walked out of Luoshuixuan, and Feng Mingwu, who spoke disrespectfully to Mu Qingwan, got the lesson he deserved, and Zhao Youjun, who poisoned Mu Qingwan again, was just like Mu Qingwan at the beginning, and was imprisoned in the empty Chengming Hall with Feng Mingwu.

Mu Qingwan regained the stewardship that should have belonged to her, and was respected by the servants of the Hou Mansion.

This qiē is all because of the song of the phoenix that has not yet reached the 笄.

While Feng Lin was grateful, he also saw his weakness more clearly.

These things can be done even by a teenage girl, then. At the beginning, he held all the resources of the Weiyuan Marquis Mansion in his hands, why did he only choose to retreat?

After receiving the holy decree to return to Beijing, Feng Lin was happy in his heart.

Although he had already found that Mu Qingwan treated him a little lightly at that time, he still had thoughts in his heart, after returning to Beijing, would he and Ah Wan be able to go back to the beginning, as if nothing had happened?

However, even the fallen leaves from the trees will leave traces, and so many painful and desperate things have happened between them, how can it be that they have never happened?

After being rejected by Mu Qingwan. Feng Lin only felt that all his thoughts were lost, but after thinking about the past few years, he had to admit that Ah Wan rejected him. He is to blame.

Many thoughts flashed through his heart, and Feng Lin looked at Mu Qingwan's still soft and gentle face, and there was an indescribable bitterness in his heart.

"Ah Wan......" Feng Lin called softly.

Mu Qingwan raised his eyes and looked, there was not a single ripple in his heart, and there was only boundless tranquility in his eyes.

For so many years, I have been in pain. Desperate, happy and joyful, now she really sees it.

Even though he had already understood Mu Qingwan's attitude, seeing her expression, Feng Lin still felt a pain in his heart.

His fists were clenched, and after a long time, he took a deep breath and said, "Ah Wan, I came this time to tell you something." ”

Mu Qingwan looked at Feng Lin quietly, waiting for his next step.

"These days, I've also thought a lot, in the past 20 years, I have indeed made too many mistakes, and you should not forgive me, I am too demanding." Feng Lin suppressed the bitterness in his heart, and it was very difficult to say it.

"Ah Wan, I'm sorry for you, if it weren't for me, you wouldn't have had such a hard time all these years."

"Coming here today, in addition to saying sorry to you, I just want to tell you, I am going to go to the fold tomorrow and hand over the throne to Mingxiang......"

Feng Lin's apology only made Mu Qingwan feel a little emotional, but it didn't surprise her much, but his decision to let Feng Mingxiang inherit the throne made Mu Qingwan look up in surprise.

Feng Mingxiang had already asked for the title of prince, and it was normal for him to continue this throne in the future, but it was the future, and if it was placed now, it would have to be surprising.

You must know that Feng Lin is still less than forty, and now he is in the prime of life, which is the best age to make meritorious contributions to the top and share his worries, and he has returned to the capital, even for the sake of the old Weiyuan Marquis who has made great contributions to the Dawu Dynasty, in order not to chill the old ministers who have come all the way back then, the emperor will definitely reuse him.

At this time, handing over the throne to Feng Mingxiang undoubtedly announced that he would withdraw from the court.

In the capital where dignitaries and nobles are everywhere, I have never seen a handful of people who still hold power at an old age and refuse to give way to their children and grandchildren, when is there a son like Fenglin who is in the prime of life and lets his son take the title?

If this news spreads, whoever it is, I'm afraid they will also think that Feng Lin is crazy, right?

Before Feng Lin spoke, Mu Qingwan also guessed what Feng Lin wanted to say to her, but in any case, he didn't expect that the decision he said was this.

"You ......" Mu Qingwan frowned slightly, "Why is this?" ”

Mu Qingwan's concern warmed Fenglin's heart, and he said: "Over the years, my heart has not been truly calm, and when Ming Xiang inherits the title and the Hou Mansion is on the right track, I plan to go to Huangjue Temple to practice for a while, maybe, so that I can calm down a little." ”

If Fang Cai was just a little surprised, when he heard that Feng Lin planned to go to Huangjue Temple to practice, Mu Qingwan was only shocked in his heart.

Sighing lightly, Mu Qingwan's gaze at Feng Lin softened, "Why are you so troubled?" ”

Although so many things have happened between them, but in the end, there has been such a time of mutual affection, in the face of such a desperate Fenglin, how can Mu Qingwan not be moved.

Feng Lin smiled when he heard this, stretched out his hand and wanted to caress his hair as he did back then, but he put it down gloomily, and only said: "I have also thought about it carefully, you don't have to worry about me, just go to Huangjue Temple to practice for a while, and I don't want to become a monk." You don't have to worry about me, it's good to stop singing, you just need to watch her well and live the life you like. ”

And I, along with the ancient Buddha of the green lantern, will pray for you in front of the Buddha.

Feng Lin didn't say the latter sentence.

Some determinations do not need to be spoken.

He owes Mu Qingwan's mother and daughter too much, and now he can only make his heart feel a little better in this way.

After saying this, Feng Lin left without staying long.

Looking at his back, Mu Qingwan's eyes were slightly moist, and in the end, he only sighed.

They used to be so affectionate, and the memories they left behind were so beautiful, why did they come to this point?

This may be fate. (To be continued.) )