"Will you kill me?" Shen Shanruo was stunned for a moment after speaking. Pen %Fun %Pavilion www.biquge.info Is there anything else he is looking forward to? Since deciding to use Fang Xiaoyu, hasn't he been walking this path firmly?

Later, he even had the idea of getting rid of Fang Xiaoyu, because the more he came into contact with her, the more jealous he was of her, and he was always afraid that one day his good deeds would be bad in her hands.

Now that the king and the loser have been separated, do you still expect the other party to let him go for the sake of his former friends?

Even if Fang Xiaoyu let him go, poisoned, placed under house arrest, forced the palace, and controlled the court, all of them were capital crimes to exterminate the Nine Clans, could the emperor let him go?

Thinking about it, Shen Shanruo laughed self-deprecatingly.

"Are you afraid of death?" Fang Xiaoyu asked. For some reason, seeing Shen Shanruo's almost mocking smile, she also felt a little sad.

If it wasn't for Shen Shanruo using her, if he hadn't done something to kill her head, wouldn't it be the fault of this group of filthy adults for all of this?

At that time, Shen Shanruo was still a child, and he didn't have any ability to resist. He must be forced to accept who he is, and he will grow up with these hatreds.

What else can he do besides burying these hatreds in his heart and nourishing them with flesh and blood?

Including Mei Chunshui is the same.

No one wants to be someone else's pawn, or the kind of pawn that can be discarded at will. Whether it is Shen Shanruo or Mei Chunshui, including Ye Shucheng, who has died, each of them is a child who has been blackened by these filthy adults.

Even Zhou Ling, who is Jian An, was also used by Jian Zhengyan and his wife, and Jian Zhengyan and his wife were not used by their parents?

From generation to generation, the cycle of cause and effect, and the fruits of sin, who should pay for them?

Shen Shanruo was much calmer at the moment, he actually thought about Fang Xiaoyu's question seriously, and then came up with some answers, which made him think about it himself.

His originally pale face had regained some rosiness, but he was still not in great shape. He squinted his eyes and smiled and said, "I said that I was afraid of death, but I don't seem to be afraid of that when I think about it." It's just that...... It's just that when I think of dying, I always feel so much unwilling. ”

Shen Shanruo's starry eyes at this moment made Fang Xiaoyu feel as if he had returned to the time when he first met.

"Fang Xiaoyu, if I could, I would rather be Shen Shanruo from the beginning, the young owner of the Shen Family Medical Pavilion, and have nothing to do with this palace. It's not the second prince, it's not a pawn that is used by others, it's just a happy commoner who was happy at the beginning, and I don't have those family and country affairs and grievances that I need to worry about about it. ”

"If I could get to know you as a commoner, maybe I would still enter the palace and become the imperial doctor for the nobles. Being carried by a noble person who accidentally met, glorifying the ancestors, making the medical hall stronger and bigger, ignoring those troubles and struggles, and quietly becoming a doctor, will it be much faster than now? Maybe I won't have a chance to recognize you again, and I'll live in this world as an ordinary doctor. Maybe I will never leave the capital for the rest of my life, or maybe I will walk around the world with a medicine box on my back as an adult. I've thought about these different endings more than once, and each one is more peaceful and clear of conscience than now, but because I'm unwilling, I have never been able to abandon those resentments, and I deserve it to get to where I am today, right? ”

Shen Shanruo rarely shed tears. Even if he knew that he had been calculated by the emperor and Shang Jingwei, even if he knew that he had fallen into the pit dug by Fang Xiaoyu again, he was just pale and bloodless, but he did not shed tears.

That's because as early as a young age, he understood that tears do not solve anything, they are useless except to prove your weakness.

The day he knew who he was, he was no longer qualified to cry.

I once felt unbearable pain, and I hugged the quilt at night, wrapped my small body in it, and cried bitterly. But after crying, nothing has solved except for the sore and swollen eyes. Life will continue to go on like this, and his situation will not change in any way. The sun still rises in the east and sets in the west, and the rotation of the sun and moon is still uninterrupted. The pain and sadness are still there. Tears won't solve anything.

He hadn't cried in a long time. But now I want to cry.

It's really unwilling to think about it. Step by step to today, whether it's right or wrong, it finally ushered in the ending of either you die or I die.

He didn't really want that. He had a moment of hesitation.

After Ye Shucheng's death, after Zhou Ling's death, he also had a moment to think that if everything had not happened, it would be better to give up all his previous plans and be that civilian Shen Shanruo again.

Those who used him died. The so-called identity of the second prince is not so much that he wants this identity, but that it is just an unwillingness from many years.

Before he knew who he was, he loved his life. Although he had to learn to go up the mountain to collect herbs from a very young age, he was able to distinguish hundreds of herbs when other children were spoiled in their parents' arms, learned to pick herbs on the cliffs, and even diagnosed some smiling diseases on his own.

He was a doctor, and he knew from a very young age that he would be a life-saving healer in the future. Although tired and bitter, when he thought of the greatness of what he had done, he felt sweet.

But until that day, everything was shattered.

He knew who he was, how he was cruelly used, and the person who used him knew how much pain he would have but continued to use him.

That day, his world collapsed.

The hatred in my heart grows madly, and the things that I originally felt happy have become pain.

He began to complain and resent, why did other children have happy families without misplace, but he was going to be swapped and stolen? Why can other children be spoiled in the arms of their biological parents, but they have to face the discipline of people who are not their biological parents? Why did other children have to brave the wind, frost, rain and snow, and bear the danger of his life in the mountains and cliffs to pick herbs? Why is it that other children are held in the palm of their hands, but he has to be used by his biological mother and adoptive parents?

The more I think about it, the more I feel that I am a superfluous burden, and my life has no value for a moment. He even thought about cutting himself off, a child of a few years old held a knife across his neck, gritted his teeth to overcome the fear in his heart, and wanted to give himself a relief, but in the end he still didn't dare to do it, so he could only throw the knife and kneel on the ground and cry.

He cried and mourned his former self, and Shen Shanruo, who was originally kind as a blank piece of paper, was brutally killed by him at that moment, and was replaced by a ghost who was unwilling and vowed to take revenge.

"No, your hatred is justified, and I don't think there's anything wrong with it. The fault lies in Concubine Zhou, who swapped you with Ye Shucheng, and the fault lies in Da Zhou, who used despicable means in order to seize the world. In this whole thing, you are also the victim, and you may be the one who suffers the most. Your revenge, your struggle itself, is not a mistake, and you don't deserve it to get to where you are today. ”

Fang Xiaoyu can understand. Because if she puts herself in Shen Shanruo's shoes and thinks about it, she may be more unscrupulous and vicious than Shen Shanruo.

Shen Shanruo smiled, and for some reason, the depression in his heart that he couldn't vent was alleviated a lot.

Perhaps, there is nothing more joyful than praise from the enemy.

"You're just unfortunate enough to meet me and take advantage of me. It's just that one move is wrong, and all the good moves in the game will follow the wrong reversal. Fang smiled and sighed. She felt that since she was reborn in this life, she had become a little sentimental. Obviously, it took dozens of lifetimes to practice the iron heart, and it seems that they have all broken in this life.

But if she could, she actually really wanted Shen Shanruo to be a friend.

She has really been without friends for too long, too long. That's why she felt longing, even Mei Chunshui, who set fire to her in the previous life, she had fantasies.

"For the sake of Zeng's friends, Shen Shanruo, I will help you take revenge. I will help you kill the emperor of the Great Zhou and the King of Yun, help you get rid of the adoptive parents who used you, and help you make Zhou Ling die without a place to be buried. This is the only thing I can do for you as a friend. The corners of Fang Xiaoyu's eyes were a little moist, and he didn't know whether he felt pity or pathetic for Shen Shanruo.

"Are you going to kill me, then?" Shen Shanruo was silent and didn't speak, but at this time, Mei Chunshui stood up, walked in front of Fang Xiaoyu, and asked in a calm tone.

"Do you want me to kill you?" Fang Xiaoyu asked with an expressionless face.

"I don't know." Mei Chunshui was a little dazed.

"I'm not going to kill you. Although you have said that if I want this life, I will take it as I like. But to me, your life is worthless. So, I'm not going to kill you. Fang Xiaoyu smiled softly, and the indifference in that smile was like a sarcasm of the past.

"Thank you." Mei Chunshui's eyes lit up.

"Thank me for what?" Fang smiled indifferently.

"Thank you for avenging me. I'm sorry for you, but I still don't regret it. Mei Chunshui smiled at the corner of her mouth.

Fang Xiaoyu took a deep breath and said, "Are you bent on death?" ”

"No, I want to live, I want to live more than anyone else. But I know you won't let me live. If you want your father and your husband to be angry, killing me is the best result. Mei Chunshui seems to have seen through life and death.

"I said, I won't kill you." Fang Xiaoyu glanced at Mei Chunshui deeply, and then said with a strange smile: "Also, don't be in a hurry to thank me." Maybe you'll want to kill me later. ”

Mei Chunshui instinctively felt that her heart was beating a lot faster. Fang Xiaoyu's smile, she had seen it more than once. And every time, when she was about to clean up the enemy, that smile was the same.

"I'm not afraid of death, how else can you want me to hate you?" Mei Chunshui shook her head.

Indeed, she really didn't want to die. Although they had a relationship with Shen Shanruo as a couple, perhaps the same experience made them have the same pain and be able to understand the pain in each other's hearts, so the two of them warmed each other, but they also felt that life was not so difficult.

But she knew they wouldn't live.

Just poisoning the emperor, placing him under house arrest, and forcing the palace are all unforgivable capital crimes. Even if Fang Xiaoyu didn't want to dirty his hands himself, the emperor would not let them go.

It's good to be able to die together. There was no confusion in her heart anymore.

The damned enemies are dead, and she is sad and painful in her heart, but she is also relieved, so enough, she feels that there are not too many regrets in life. In addition to being too young, she felt that even if she died, it was not so terrible. Therefore, she didn't think that Fang Xiaoyu could threaten her.

"Mei Chunshui, do you have the impression that I am the kind of fool who knows that I am being used and obediently jumps into the trap?" Fang Xiaoyu chuckled, and then turned his back to Shang Ke, who was laughing with Shang Jingwei: "Ke'er, bring people up." ”

When Ke'er heard Fang Xiaoyu's words, she immediately stopped laughing with Shang Jingwei, slapped her palms twice, and said loudly, "Bring it in." ”

So, there were a lot of footsteps outside the door, and it was Fang Haozhi who walked in front, wearing a bright silver light armor, although he was not very tall, but he was also very handsome.

He took the first step in front of Fang Xiaoyu, took off the cold look on his face, and instead became a little shy: "Sister, I brought someone here." ”

Fang Xiaoyu touched Fang Haozhi's head with a smile and said with a smile: "Good job, when the matter is over, my sister will teach you the most profound top-level martial arts." ”

"Thank you, sister." Fang Haozhi clenched his small fists, and the excitement was all written on his face.

He has always been very envious of his sister and brother-in-law's unfathomable, handsome and compelling kung fu. He used to learn some three-legged cats from his father, and it wasn't a problem to fight the bad guys who were weak with three bad guys, but that's about it.

Later, he begged his sister to teach him advanced martial arts, and his sister did not refuse, but said that he needed to lay a good foundation first, so he didn't teach him anything at first, but gave him a series of methods to polish the foundation, and told him to train according to the plan. Finally, the foundation of his body was polished, and he was given a basic martial arts book, telling him to practice until he became proficient. This time, my sister was finally willing to teach him a top-level mastery, and of course he was very happy.

Different from Fang Haozhi's excitement, Mei Chunshui behind Fang Xiaoyu at this moment was as pale as paper, trembling all over, and his eyes were full of incredulity.

"How...... How could it be ......" Mei Chunshui's voice was trembling, just listening to the voice, just looking at his expression, it seemed like he had seen a ghost.

"How so? Aren't they dead? I saw them decapitated with my own eyes, how could they be here? How could they be alive! Mei Chunshui angrily grabbed Fang Xiaoyu's collar and shook her shoulders and asked angrily.

Fang Xiaoyu was afraid of Mei Chunshui's hand lightly, and said expressionlessly: "When I knew that you used me and almost killed my father and Xici, I was thinking, what to do to make you feel painful, how to make you regret to death!" ”

Mei Chunshui was stared at by Fang Xiaoyu's gaze, and was so frightened that she unconsciously took two steps back, her lips turned white, and she bit tightly.

"The first battle of Beiyan was to borrow my hand to frame Prime Minister Mei and Ye Shucheng." Fang Xiaoyu smoothed the folds of his collar and said lightly: "Mei Cangyun already has an enmity with me, if it is a gesture, it will not matter, but unfortunately you should not choose this way to involve me in it." Since you want Prime Minister Mei to die so much, I prefer him to live. ”

"You're right, it's true that you saw them being beheaded all over the house, and it's also true that the Prime Minister's Mansion has disappeared now. But there are other people who die, the real Prime Minister Mei Cheng is alive and well, just for today, I want to see you so embarrassed! ”

"Mei Chunshui, this is my revenge on you. Are you satisfied? Fang Xiaoyu had a mockery on the corner of his mouth, and his eyes were indifferent.

"Slut, it's really you!" Mei Cangyun felt dozens of years old, and her hair was already completely white. He pointed at Mei Chun's shivering, and finally shouted angrily.

Mei Chunshui suddenly felt cold and biting. (To be continued.) )