Li Qingshu left, the door was closed, the deserted ward was restored, and I sat on the edge of the bed that could be bathed in the moonlight, stiffening my body.

It was late at night, but I couldn't sleep anymore

This is destined to be a night that makes my heart shake, Xiaoyan, Li Qingshu, these two extremely important women in my heart, both said the most sincere words and hearts tonight, Xiaoyan's revealing heart made me sad, Li Qingshu's sincere apology made me not happy, maybe she came to see me, I was very happy, but when she apologized to me, I felt that Li Qingshu was getting farther and farther away, I felt that our relationship was more distant than before, I don't know why I thought so, but this is how I feel,

Just when I was thinking about it, I remembered one thing, I wanted to get out of bed, get out of bed as much as possible, and with an idea, I moved my body eagerly, quickly but extremely difficult to get out of bed, standing barefoot on the cold ground, holding the bedside table step by step anxiously walked to the window of the ward, holding the glass I looked down downstairs, and happened to see Li Qingshu who had just walked out of the hospital,

Looking at Li Qingshu who was slowly walking towards his car, I gently touched the transparent glass reflected by the moonlight with my hand, my fingertips slowly crossed the hard glass, touching the cold glass that could cover Li Qingshu's figure, I wanted to touch her, touch her beautiful face, my heart will be open, without the slightest dirty thoughts,

But after the apology, Li Qingshu made me feel that she was getting more and more distant, a piece of hard, cold glass had been blocked between us, I could see it, but I couldn't touch it, the glass bound my face, and the moon hanging in the sky was blocked by a thick dark cloud, giving me a short period of darkness, and my vision became pitch black, I couldn't see her, I couldn't see my fingertips, I couldn't see tomorrow

In fact, when Li Qingshu apologized to me just now, I especially wanted to be truly brave to say my heart, but after all, I was still cowardly, because of the gap in identity, because of the difference between heaven and earth, I was a confident person in life, but I was inferior in front of her, I don't know if the sign of fate will let me realize my heart's wish, but winter is coming, I long for a love that can warm my heart,

I was sentimental at every turn, I flashed tears again, standing in a small space and watching Li Qingshu, who couldn't see his face clearly, could only see his back, drove away, I slowly squatted down, I had a strong thought, Li Qingshu will not see me again in the future, I don't know why, my heart is full of such feelings,

I thought I felt wrong, but I couldn't help but think like this, I squatted by the window, leaned against the clean and transparent glass, closed my palms and clenched, clenched and closed, wanted to hold on tightly but could only helplessly let go,

In addition to the loneliness in the corner, the empty ward is full of sad inferiority complex, I thought that I would calmly guard her silently behind her, not asking for anything, as long as I can see her, but when Li Qingshu calmly talked to me, I understood that I wanted to really have her, my heart had an ambition beyond my strength, I wanted her to be my woman, no longer belonging to anyone, maybe my love for her has deteriorated, from this incident, worried about her eagerness, I feel that I have fallen in love with her,

But will my love just be a sacrificial thing that cannot begin?

It's dawn, but I hope it will be dark all the time, stay until last night, so that I don't have to face Xiaoyan, I sit by the window all night, with tired eyes open, staring blankly at the closed door, waiting for Xiaoyan, who will go out to buy breakfast for me every day, and I am not in the mood to enjoy the beautiful sunrise when my heart is filled with melancholy thoughts

I don't know if Xiaoyan will come again today, come or not, just let it be, continue to pretend to be stupid,

When I was gradually drowsy, the sound of hurried footsteps approached, and the door was opened, I raised my drooping head suddenly, looked at the door, and saw Xiaoyan panting and carrying a plastic bag, even if I was dazed, I saw the remaining sweat beads on Xiaoyan's cheeks, which were slowly falling, full of eager breath, looking at her, I asked suspiciously: "Xiaoyan, why is she panting, what's wrong, is there anything urgent?"

"It's okay, isn't it that I got up a little late, making breakfast is slower, are you a patient aren't afraid that you will be hungry, so I ran upstairs anxiously, hey, I can't do it if I don't exercise, it's tiring to climb a dozen floors,"

Xiaoyan was wearing a pair of very light pink sneakers, panting and saying, while putting the breakfast she had made on the bedside table, Xiaoyan said very indifferently, as if the qiē she made should be done, but the speaker was unintentional, and the listener was intentional.

As soon as Xiaoyan's words came out, I fell into shock, and I felt the urge to cry when I was sitting on the ground at this moment.

A dozen floors, a dozen floors

Maybe she did this before, I would treat it as a friend's concern, but after last night, I wouldn't think so, I understand, Xiaoyan was good to me before because she liked me,

The eagerness to cook and deliver food to me, the panting, sweaty appearance made me flash tears, I am a person who is easily moved, Xiaoyan did a qiē, so that I can't look directly at Xiaoyan at this time, I can only slowly move away from her body, slowly lowered my head, my brain is very messy now, I can only bury the changes in my face, let the tears of emotion flow back, but only when I raise my head will it flow back, and I can only fall when I lower my head

"Bingbing, what's wrong with you, by the way, why are you sitting on the ground, be careful of catching a cold, come, I'll help you to bed, why do you cherish your body so much, you don't care for yourself, who will cherish it, wait for the ruthless woman you saved to cherish you,"

Xiaoyan put down breakfast, and hurriedly walked to me, and said with a complaining face, there was still a trace of resentment in the words, I understood where some resentment came from, but I could only ignore it silently, with the help of Xiaoyan's support, stood up, sat on the bed, and left the cold ground,

I hid my feelings, sat on the bed peacefully, watched Xiaoyan carefully help me take out the lunch box, sat on the edge of the bed with steaming porridge, and began to prepare to feed me with a familiar car, but Xiaoyan is feeding me now, I am even more awkward, I am still embarrassed to be awkward before, but the awkwardness at this moment is a transcendent embarrassment,

I sat on the bed, and I didn't even see the soup spoon before Xiaoyan sent it.

"Bingbing, why are you stupid, drinking porridge,"

Xiaoyan asked suspiciously,

Seeing that Xiaoyan's surface has not changed in the slightest, it is still the same as usual, but what about the heart, will it become different like me