Zhao Zaicun stood in the courtyard and looked around.

No matter how small the house, the door is a small yard, and then three main rooms, two wings on the east and west sides, and even the wings are a little lifted, the rooms on the east and west sides are not only narrow, but also the lighting is not good, if it is said to be used to pile up sundries, but if you live in people......

But Zhao Zaicun now lives in such a room.

Zhao Zai has survived for more than 20 years and has never suffered such grievances.

After putting down a bed in the dark room, the remaining space is forced into a desk, which makes it a little difficult to move around, even if there is a desk, with the light in this room that has to be dark without lighting during the day, Zhao Zaicun can't really lie on this desk and read.

In fact, what's the use of him reading now?

Aside from the identity of the prince, there is no Zhao Tiannan **** who expects him to integrate what he has learned in books into the governance of the country, and there are few teachers who take the trouble to explain the words and sentences he does not understand.

From the noble prince of the dynasty, to the Shengdou Xiaomin who doesn't even dare to show his face, even if Zhao Zaicun already knew that he was not Zhao Tiannan's biological son, but when it really came to this point, he still felt that he couldn't accept it.

In the past 20 years, his food and clothing have been carefully waited on by countless people, and because he has been weak and sick since he was a child, the doctors of the entire Tai Hospital are also always worried about his body, lest something happen to his body when they are not paying attention.

But now, he is huddled in this small courtyard with his mother and sister, living a life he never imagined before.

He should be glad, glad that his sick and weak body brought from his mother's womb did not toss him at this critical moment, otherwise, with their current situation, I am afraid that he can only survive for life.

Since the day he knew his life experience, Zhao Zaicun has been depressed and afraid, just like a person who secretly took something that should not belong to him and is destined not to have it for a long time, he doesn't know when he will lose it, and he is also reluctant to lose it.

How can there be no reluctance?

He was once only one step away from the throne.

In the first twenty years of his life, everything he learned was only about how to govern the country better, and all the things related to ideals in his heart were also related to this.

After twenty years like this, one day he suddenly knew that what he had been carrying all along should not be his responsibility at all, and how could he not be disappointed when he was relaxed?

Zhao Zaicun once thought that he was not greedy for power, and even thought that the identity of the prince was just a constraint for him, but when he lost everything he felt disdainful before, after the initial relaxation, compared with the two lives now and before, he felt a little sad for no reason.

However, no matter how he felt, in a few days, all this should be over, far away from the capital, and his mother and sister found a small place where no one knew them to settle down, and then just lived incognito.

Sighing softly, Zhao Zaicun turned around and was about to return to his cramped room, but saw a slight sound from the courtyard door being pushed open from the outside.

Then, his mother quickly flashed into the courtyard, turned around and closed the courtyard door and turned around, but when she suddenly saw Zhao Zaicun standing in the courtyard, she suddenly lowered her head in a panic, as if she wanted to hide something.

However, his mother's cover-up obviously didn't help, and Zhao Zaicun still saw his mother's red and swollen eyes and the remaining tears on his face.

With a sorrow in his heart, Zhao Zaicun raised his hand and touched his chest.

Zhao Zaicun's feelings for this biological mother are complicated.

Without her, there would be no such thing as him, and from that point on, he must be grateful to her.

But it was also because of her that he had such an unbearable life experience, so he had a lot of resentment towards her in his heart.

Since he knew his life experience, Zhao Zaicun rarely talked to his mother, if it weren't for the sudden change that made them have to flee the palace, I am afraid that there will be such a cold relationship between them.

But, no matter what, no matter how many wrong things the woman in front of her has done, she is also his mother after all.

Therefore, after Zhao Zaicun was silent for a long time, his hands tightened, and he said softly: "Mother...... Mother, where have you been? ”

Zhao Zaicun just saw Zhuang Wanning coming back from outside and asked casually, and his words didn't even contain any meaning, just to break the deadlock with Zhuang Wanning.

They are mother and son in the end, and now in this situation, he will never be able to go without talking to her for the rest of his life.

However, this simple question made Zhuang Wanning tremble, and the words she said were a little squeaky, "I, I didn't go anywhere, I just walked around, walked around casually......"

Zhao Zaicun pursed his lips and was silent.

His mother is not a good liar, and she has lived a lonely life in the palace for more than 20 years, but the selfish methods in the palace have not learned a little, and she is obviously over forty years old, but she is still like a girl in her twenties, so that people can see what she is thinking in her heart just from her face.

He himself may still be reluctant to live in the palace, but for his mother, the magnificent court is nothing more than a gorgeous cage that has imprisoned her for more than twenty years, and she can finally escape from that cage, and she is afraid that she can only be happy and not have the slightest nostalgia in her heart.

His mother lived to be forty years old, but if you really want to say that there is someone in her heart, I am afraid that only her mother's family and that person are in her heart, and with their current situation, her mother is afraid that it will not even be too late to affect her mother's family, how can she go to see them, so......

She was the only one she went to see.

Zhao Zaicun's face was cold, disgust flashed in his eyes, and he didn't want to say a word.

Even if the woman in front of him was his biological mother, thinking of what she did, Zhao Zaicun could only give a shameless, ruthless and unrighteous evaluation.

He doesn't think that being a woman means sacrificing his life for the sake of his family, in his opinion, those women who have lived a lonely life for the family are unfortunate, but this does not mean that he can agree with everything his mother has done.

The palace has never been a good place, and it is very common for women to be reluctant to enter the palace, Zhuang Wanning did not enter the palace through the draft, but was stuffed into it by her mother's family, which means that even if she refuses to enter the palace, it will never affect the lives of her mother's family.

If she had made it clear at that time that she would rather die than enter the palace, although it can't be said to be certain, but at least there is a certain possibility that she can not enter the palace, after all, the relationship between her and Lin Zhan is in the eyes of the two parents.

But look at what Zhuang Wanning did, from beginning to end, she never fought for it, she only hid in the room all day long and washed her face with tears.

No matter how pitiful her appearance of pear blossoms with rain is, but in the end, she can only obediently obey the arrangement of her mother's family and enter the palace.

At this point, if Zhuang Wanning can keep to herself, with her non-fighting temperament, and the pattern that no concubine in the palace can conceive an heir, even if she can't be favored, at least it will not be a problem to survive well.

It is indeed a tragedy to fall in love with your lover but can only be separated, but in this era, there are several pairs of lovers who can be inseparable from each other, not more than Zhuang Wanning, and no less than her.

It was not Zhuang Wanning's choice to enter the palace herself, but it was her choice to obey the arrangements of her family, so even if there was a bitter fruit, she should swallow it herself.

But after seeing Lin Zhan again in the palace, she couldn't control her extravagant thoughts, and completely threw aside each other's identities and the lives of everyone in the Lin family, only caring about indulging her feelings, doing such ugly things, and even giving birth to two children for that person!

Zhuang Wanning, who was immersed in the joy of reuniting with Lin Zhan after a long absence, probably never thought about what kind of disaster it would be for them to give birth to a pair of children with such a background.

As long as Zhao Zaicun thought of this, he wished that he had never been born.

He thought that Hanyue, when he first knew his life experience, he was afraid that he had the same idea as him.

This is his mother, and he can't respect his mother.

Even when they fell into the current situation, she would even ignore the safety of her children and herself, and run out to see that man in the daytime!

Cho Jae-cun closed his eyes, he no longer knew how he should face his mother.

As for Zhuang Wanning, she could feel Zhao Zaicun's disappointment in her, and she panicked, she raised her hand and wiped the remaining tears on her face with her sleeve, and the slightly rough clothing left a few eye-catching red marks on her face that was slightly haggard but had always been well-maintained.

She tugged at her cuffs tightly, wanting to explain but didn't know where to start, she could only murmur: "Cun'er, don't worry, my mother won't go out again before leaving here......"

"Mother!" Zhao Zaicun interrupted Zhuang Wanning's words, "You should know what the situation is now, and you should know that we will leave the capital in two days......

Then, Zhao Zaicun turned his head weakly, he didn't know what else he could say.

At this time, the door of the west chamber suddenly opened, and Zhao Hongxiang, who was holding her hair at will, walked out.

Seeing the situation of the mother and brother standing opposite each other in the courtyard, she was stunned and said, "Mother, brother, you, what's wrong?" ”

Zhao Zaicun then looked at Zhao Hongxiang.

Dressed in a half-worn home-style gown, the material is no more ordinary, and the style looks a little old, wearing it on Zhao Hong's makeup is not a dress to dress up a person, but it seems that she is embellishing this dress.

Although her face is still as delicate and beautiful as before, it is not amazing, only the regret that the pearl is dusty.

With what he saw in his eyes, when Zhao Zaicun recalled the appearance of Zhao Hong's makeup, he was a little blurry.

In Zhao Zaicun's memory, his sister has been favored by her father since she was born, she is the most dazzling moon in the night sky, and she is the most noble daughter of the heavens in the world.

Since when did it start, although my sister is still the most favored princess Hanyue who dares to be coquettish and willful in front of her father, her personality has suddenly converged a lot, as if she suddenly became sensible at night.

Now that she thinks about it, she probably learned about the background of her brother and sister during that time.

A little girl in her early tens, who used to be spoiled and thought to be the most dazzling pearl in the world, learned overnight that her pearl was just a grain of sand with a bright appearance, and it could be peeled off at any time to reveal the inside under the surface.

And the price of revealing her identity is the lives of herself, her mother and brother, and even the lives of many people behind her.

He, an adult, has not fully accepted the fact that it fell on a little girl who was only ten years old at the time, and Zhao Zaicun could think of the gap from the clouds to the mud at that time.

And the reason why they have to endure all this is because they have such a pair of biological parents.

What a sad thing it is.

People can decide the path they want to take in the future, but the only thing they can't choose is their origin.

Zhao Zaicun suddenly felt that this small courtyard suddenly made him a little unable to breathe.

In the past few days after leaving the palace, in order to reduce the risk of his three being discovered, he has stayed in this courtyard without taking a step, but at this moment, he is desperate to go out for a walk.

"I ...... Get out for a walk. ”

Dropping this sentence, Zhao Zaicun didn't care about Zhuang Wanning and Zhao Hongxiang behind him, and staggered open the courtyard door and hurriedly walked out.

Walking all the way, Zhao Zaicun soon walked through the alley outside the courtyard and came to the street.

This is a place where ordinary people live, and there are ordinary people living around, so the environment is really not good, but it is unexpectedly very lively.

Standing on the street where people came and went, Zhao Zaicun only felt that his heart was full of hesitation.

This is a world that he has never been exposed to before, belonging to ordinary people.

Being constantly looked at by many passers-by, although he knew that it was impossible for these people to contact his past self, Zhao Zaicun still couldn't control his fear, he turned around and wanted to go back, but inexplicably stopped again.

Well, let's just take a look.

Maybe this is the last time he looks at the capital, in three or two days, they will leave, he doesn't know where they will go, but it will be a place far from the capital, and there will never be a day back.

Thinking like this, Zhao Zaicun looked at the pedestrians on the street, and was a little stupid for a while.

Then he heard a familiar voice trembling behind him, and froze at what it said.

"Your Highness, Your Highness......"

Zhao Zaicun froze on the spot, he only felt that the real world in front of him suddenly collapsed, and there was only one thought in his heart.

His identity has been discovered!

He didn't dare to turn around, lest he would face the guards who were holding cold swords against him.

After a long time, Zhao Zaicun's back was warm, as if a pair of trembling hands touched his back, and then, those two hands slowly moved down, wrapped around his waist, and finally hugged him tightly.

"Your Highness, Your Highness! You're okay, you're really okay......" The soft and poignant female voice seemed to only say this sentence, sticking to Zhao Zaicun's back and repeating it over and over again.

As soon as his mind was relieved, Zhao Zaicun suddenly recognized the owner of the voice.

His first wife, his former crown princess Chen Shuyi.

For Chen Shuyi, Zhao Zaicun has always felt guilty, unlike Wu Yuerou and Li Shenglan, who have never concealed their thirst for power, since the wedding, Chen Shuyi has always seen him as a person, not the identity of the prince.

Therefore, he couldn't bear to let her be sad for him in the future, he didn't have sex with her, hoping that this would leave a way back for her in the future, and even before faking his death and escaping from the palace, he also specially asked Feng Zhige, hoping that Feng Zhige could help Chen Shuyi after he left, so that she could leave the cage-like palace.

Zhao Zaicun didn't expect Feng Zhige's movements to be so fast, he had only been out of the palace for a few days, and Chen Shuyi had already left the palace.

The woman behind her, regardless of the fact that this was on the crowded street, she threw away all her shyness, and just wanted to tell Zhao Zaicun all the words hidden in her heart.

"Your Royal Highness, the concubine doesn't ask why you are here, but why didn't you take the concubine with you at the beginning, do you know that since the fire in the palace, the concubine can't eat and can't sleep at night in the past few days, so I can't wait to go to Huangquan with His Royal Highness......"

Zhao Zaicun never thought that Chen Shuyi, who was shy and dignified in his impression, could also say such explicit words.

He paused and said in a low voice, "I'm no longer Your Highness. ”

Chen Shuyi's hands stiffened, and then hugged Zhao Zaicun even tighter, refusing to let go at all, her voice was soft and tenacious, "You are no longer His Royal Highness the Prince, but you are still my husband." ”

A woman who was always dignified and elegant, but she could say such firm words at this time, if Zhao Zaicun did not have the slightest shock in his heart because of this, it must be a lie.

However, he knows his current situation, how can he watch Chen Shuyi give up a good life and be contaminated with suffering that should not belong to her.

Both of them shook slightly, and then Zhao Zaicun slowly took down Chen Shuyi's hands, "You, let's go." ”

As he spoke, he turned around, but he froze because of Chen Shuyi, who was very different from usual in his eyes.

Although they don't spend much time together, they have the impression that every time Zhao Zaicun sees Chen Shuyi, she never leaves any flaws in her appearance, but Chen Shuyi, who appeared in front of him at this time, although her clothes are neat, her slightly unkempt bun, red and swollen eyes, and haggard cheeks are enough to see the torment she has suffered in the past few days.

And all these sufferings are only because of him.

For the first time in his life, there was a woman who could do this for herself, and Zhao Zaicun felt both moved and guilty in his heart.

If she didn't have herself, with Chen Shuyi's scholarly family, she would marry a man who was a good match, and then her children would become kings, peaceful and happy.

Instead of being a widow in the eyes of outsiders, as he is now, she is also afraid of him.

Seeing Zhao Zaicun looking over, Chen Shuyi was a little cramped at first because of her image at this time, but then put down this crampedness, looked at Zhao Zaicun firmly and said: "Your Highness, no, husband, I won't go, a woman's marriage should be based on her husband, no matter what your identity is, we are a married couple, you are my heaven, where you go, I will go." ”

Chen Shuyi's voice was not loud, but the firmness in it was enough to move people, and the two maids who followed behind her lowered their heads in shock and fear because of her words, and then blocked Zhao Zaicun and Chen Shuyi in the middle one after another, blocking the sight of others.

His Royal Highness the Prince, who had obviously died in the fire, suddenly appeared on the street, and her young lady, who had just escaped from the palace, had to follow His Royal Highness the Prince......

Zhao Zaicunqiang pressed the touch in his heart and looked at Chen Shuyi for a moment, but felt that there was something in the eyes of the woman in front of him who had always been supple in front of him that he didn't dare to look at, so he took the lead and turned his head and sighed in a low voice: "You go back, you know my situation, tomorrow, we will leave the capital, and we will never come back." ”

Xu was to make Chen Shuyi die, and Zhao Zaicun mentioned the time of leaving to tomorrow.

And Chen Shuyi, when she heard the word "we", immediately understood the meaning, and after being surprised, she hurriedly asked: "Husband, where are you going, I'm with you!" ”

"Where to go......" Zhao Zaicun repeated Chen Shuyi's words in a low voice, but found that even he himself was only at a loss about the future, this world was so vast, but he didn't know where he would be able to go, "I don't know either." ”

The depression in Zhao Zaixun's words made Chen Shuyi feel distressed after hearing it.

This is the man she has kept in her heart for many years, her joy and gratitude when she knows that she can be married to him for the rest of her life, her helplessness and despair when she learns that he died in the fire, and the ecstasy of seeing him standing on the street when her heart is like ashes......

All of this is just because that person is him.

She may have accumulated a lifetime of merit in her previous life, so that she could become his wife in this life, and have the possibility of being with him for a lifetime, for her, it has nothing to do with status, wealth and poverty, as long as the person next to her is him, all this is enough.

Maybe it was God who showed her the way in the dark, and she met him again in this huge capital, so how could she allow herself to let go like this?

Just as Fang just rushed up and hugged Zhao Zaicun tightly under the gaze of everyone, Chen Shuyi took a step forward again, narrowed the distance between her and Zhao Zaicun, and then bravely reached out to hold Zhao Zaicun's hand, refusing to let go.

"Husband, this world is so big, even if you don't have a goal now, as long as you move forward, you will always find your own way, and the concubine will always be by your side!"

"We can go to the beach and hear that the sea is blue, the same blue as the sky......"

"You can also go to Jiangnan, the scenery of Jiangnan is the most elegant, and there is a Jiangnan house in my mother's marriage, and no one will know us when we get there......"

……

Between them, it has always been Zhao Zaicun who has always been dominant, but at this moment, it is Chen Shuyi who keeps talking about the imagination of the future.

Zhao Zaicun lowered his head and looked at the hands of the two clasped together.

One black and one white, one big and one small, but when they are held together, they fit so well.

He couldn't help but shake it back hard, in exchange for Chen Shuyi's surprise and shyness.

He remembered that once on the shore of the lake, the girl in Tsing Yi shone into his world like a beam of sunshine.

But at this time, he suddenly realized that the sunshine he wanted had always been by his side.

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