Fang Xiaoyu didn't know why she was in a little irritable in her mood.

It's not that she's cruel by nature, and it's not that she wants to show the five princes. It's just that she didn't care about everything in the past, and even the people who took the initiative to show her favor deliberately kept a distance, and in this life she decided to change her way of life, to contact those all kinds of people, and no longer let herself be an indifferent wood. It may be that she was used to such a lonely lifestyle in previous lives, and although she was trying to adapt to reintegrating into the crowd, sometimes she always felt a little overwhelmed.

So she took care of many things, not because she was nosy, but because she hoped to completely integrate herself into this era through some things, rather than everything others did, she had a sense of alienation from a bystander. So she helped herself find her stepmother, helped Haozhi practice martial arts, helped Ye Xinrou become beautiful, helped Mei Chunshui and Shen Shanruo finally become married, helped the crown prince plan the throne, helped the emperor predict natural and man-made disasters, and even reminded herself that she needed to give herself some opportunities to try to accept those who love and care about herself, and make yourself a part of their lives, not just an insignificant passerby.

However, trying to accept and integrate means that the troubles that were deliberately avoided in the past will come like a tide. But it doesn't matter, it's not that she hasn't had the experience of integrating into society, in the first few lifetimes or even dozens of lifetimes of reincarnation, she has lived vigorously, wonderfully, vibrantly, happily, disappointed, sad, and surprised. He has suffered a long life, and even lived a long life, and he once lived to die in his teens.

She has experienced a colorful life experience. Shuttling through all kinds of strange worlds, using the same pair of eyes and the same soul to integrate or reject, finally dead and alive, alive and dead, to this day, but she feels more and more like a soul without a body. It seems to be free, but it is confined to a certain sky, and it is impossible to feel the beauty of hope.

She was a little unsure of what the future path was. In what direction? What will be the end?

She didn't know anything. There is only that kind of reincarnation. has memories and abilities that others don't know, but can only watch the wonderful loneliness of other people's lives with a pair of cold eyes.

It was only recently that she began to feel a little bit of a fit with the world. Be able to take the initiative to talk to people without jumping out of an inexplicable sense of superiority, and take the initiative to contact people but not because the other party is useful.

She began to be able to communicate with people calmly. Laugh or get angry. experienced the guilt, love, pampering and even hatred of those people for her existence. She feels more and more able to exist as an 'aboriginal people' who have lived in this world since the beginning.

Therefore, she also began to open her heart and try to believe in others, to love others, to help others, even if the behavior of those most primitive 'people' should be not pure enough, but she really has feelings, she is more and more like the eldest lady Fang Xiaoyu of the Great Chengguo Zhenyuan General's Mansion in this world. It's not that reincarnation after life, constantly changing faces. kept changing names, and kept seeing and seeing off all kinds of people who appeared around her like passers-by.

But. When you start to accept everything in the world with the mindset of an ordinary person, some negative emotions are something you have to endure over and over again.

Disappointment, pain, anxiety, irritability.

Those who take advantage, those betrayals, those relatives, friends, and lovers who are smiling with you in front of you and behind your back but do not hesitate to stab you. This is an inevitability that she cannot avoid.

She suddenly felt a sense of extreme anxiety. If one day, the father's love becomes hypocrisy, the dependence of younger siblings becomes exploitation, the emperor's tolerance becomes hypocrisy, the lover's spoiling becomes a joke, the friendship of friends becomes betrayal, and the calm indifference of passers-by turns into ridicule......

She suddenly felt the urge to run away.

Although she has been alone for the past few lifetimes, once this becomes a habit, it is not a very difficult thing.

Except that she began to realize that her constant reincarnation would keep watching important people become a fine speck of dust in their lives and disappear somewhere in her heart, maybe slowly, you won't even remember their faces, and even their names will become a simple symbol, the world is so big, the world is so vast, no matter how vast the earth you are, but you alone are immutable. It's a really scary feeling.

So she began to deliberately alienate anyone, not to be close to anyone, and not to be an enemy of anyone. Whether you are wronged or cowardly, as long as you don't intersect with others, there will be no happiness and sadness, happiness and pain. In the first life, it will be difficult, you will be driven crazy by loneliness, you will want to pull someone to listen to you, you will want to have someone by your side, but after one life, this feeling will become numb. The pain goes away naturally.

When she woke up again in this life, she had thought about it. Everyone in the world wants to live forever, and the emperor took the pill for this reason but died quickly and early, and the immortal cultivators fought for their lives in order to prolong their lifespan, but they ended up dying.

And she has immortality in another sense, but when she recalls it, why can't she find a little bit of happiness worthy of making her happy? And those first lives that have almost been blurred into a chaotic period in their minds, the parents who love her but are verbose, the lover who always quarrels but has always tolerated her, the baby who waving the little hand of flesh and the first thing he said when he said 'mother', those friends who always say things like hahahaha, you are so annoying that you are going to die, but they will pull out a knife to help you when it is critical......

Since when did the most mundane and beautiful memories slowly blur in her life to the point that she can barely remember their outlines?

And what about this life? These people she knows, those who love her, spoil her, rely on her, those she loves, she spoils, and she depends on, will they gradually become unimportant? Will it be completely annihilated in memory in a future reincarnation?

Fang Xiaoyu took a deep breath, there was too much uncertainty in his gaze. The whole body exudes an atmosphere of vicissitudes that has almost spanned countless years, so that the fifth prince, the eldest princess, and even Jiang Tao have the feeling that the person standing in front of him is not a teenager. It is an old man with a long life experience, who has seen through the world and knows everything well, but he deeply feels the size of the world and understands his own insignificance, which makes people feel that they can't get close.

The eldest princess suddenly had an illusion, as if the roles were reversed. That moment. Let her have the illusion that she is a child and the other party is an elder. How can a teenage girl who has never been in the world have such an unpredictable atmosphere?

Fang Xiaoyu suddenly laughed at herself. How could she suddenly become so sad?

She glanced at Jiang Tao, who was a little stunned and guarded. I knew in my heart that it was probably the doctor of unknown origin in the mouth of the fifth prince that made her feel a deep disgust.

There will be such sentimentality, which proves that she is really slowly integrating into this world. It's really turning into that one-of-a-kind square smile. Then later. Maybe those subtle feelings that should belong to a person will gradually return to her soul. She finally had a sense of being alive.

It doesn't matter if this realism is good or bad. Because those feelings have quietly sat down on her, she is no longer the onlooker who looks at everyone crying and laughing with cold eyes, and looks at everyone with a posture like watching a zoo play monkey.

Fang Xiaoyu smiled helplessly, and squatted down where she was standing, which was right in front of Jiang Tao's eyes. Fang Xiaoyu squatted and happened to meet Jiang Tao's face. The scar on his face was clearly visible, and even a series of small expressions on his face, such as fear, gloom, and guardedness, were completely visible in his eyes.

She sighed and muttered, "Forget it, although I think he may not care, but if it is passed on, it is not beautiful after all, and I should also worry about his thoughts." ”

Fang Xiaoyu's words had no beginning or end, but everyone in the room seemed to understand what she meant. The person she said needed to be worried about, it should be Ye Xi's resignation.

"In that case, then interrogate here. It's just that you don't dislike me for being rude. Fang Xiaoyu seemed to be talking to herself, and seemed to be making a bloody warning.

The fifth prince tightened the clothes on his body, but he didn't understand what kind of level the 'rudeness' in Fang Xiaoyu's mouth was.

"What's your name?" Fang Xiaoyu's tone was very soft, if you only listened to the voice, you would never be able to hear that she was interrogating the enemy at this moment. It's like facing a stranger who has just met but has a friendly atmosphere, and those things that are called killing machines are deeply hidden out of reach.

Jiang Tao was confused by Fang Xiaoyu's expression and tone for a moment, and opened his mouth to answer. But fortunately, he reacted in time enough to swallow the answer.

He is an old ghost who has been crisscrossing the rivers and lakes, but he showed his cowardice in front of a doll, if this is spread out, what face does he have at all?

So he glared at Fang Xiaoyu fiercely, but bit his lip tightly and didn't speak.

But he seemed to have forgotten about Fang Cai's smile and wanted to rip his pants and castrate him. Fang Xiaoyu suddenly cared about Ye Xici's feelings before, and the sentence made him understand that Fang Xiaoyu was bluffing him. Thinking that he is now Concubine Mei's henchman, no matter how powerful a general's daughter is, how can he be compared with Niangniang? Niangniang is a noble concubine, the daughter of today's Prime Minister Mei Cangyun. Could it be that a prime minister who leans towards the government and the opposition and a concubine who dominates the harem will still be afraid of a martial artist who can only fight and a girl who has no hair?

But Sizhu was unhappy. What an attitude this man has! is so perfunctory to her young lady! Believe it or not, she ripped off his pants in minutes and made him a eunuch!

As he spoke, Sizhu was about to make a move.

Fortunately, Fang Xiaoyu stopped her in time, otherwise the eldest princess would have seen that thing was cut off, but she would not be able to sleep well if she had nightmares.

Fang Xiaoyu's stop made Jiang Tao think that her previous words were just bluffs to scare him. Speaking of which, which daughter's daughter would pick up a man's pants in public so disregarding etiquette, righteousness and shame? Even watching people pick up men's pants is not right.

Thinking of this, Jiang Taodun felt that he had enough confidence. At most, they would have taken him, and would never have dared to kill him. Thinking like this, he felt a little more at ease in his heart, and even gave Fang Xiaoyu a very proud and contemptuous expression.

Fang Xiaoyu couldn't help but feel a little funny. It seems that she has been underestimated.

What she just said was not a lie, she was really a little irritable, and she strongly wanted to vent this irritability and her fear of the unknown future to someone.

She said that it was not a bluff to turn Jiang Tao into a woman. She was just a little worried about hurting people, and if she would have the uncomfortable feeling of being imprisoned and bound.

But as it turned out, such a feeling did not appear. This person has cause and effect with her, and it is still the cause and effect of malice towards her, so any means, no matter how cruel they are, are not considered evil.

This Jiang Tao was originally sent by Concubine Mei to monitor the five princes. This cause and effect had nothing to do with her, and now that this feeling of being bound has not appeared, it is enough to prove that this person has direct cause and effect with her. Perhaps it can also be said that his master has direct cause and effect with her, and it is not a good cause and effect.

If the other party has malicious intentions towards her, why should she show kindness?

Fang Xiaoyu suddenly laughed, and his finger lightly touched Jiang Tao's leg that had been trampled on by him, and said with a smile: "Look at you in a cold sweat, but it's because it hurts?" ”

Jiang Tao said in his heart, "You're not talking nonsense?" Do you hurt if you get stepped on?

"The look on your face is telling me that you really feel a lot of pain." The corners of Fang Xiaoyu's mouth suddenly smiled as if he was about to grin to the root of his ears: "But what is this?" As he spoke, he took away the finger that was on his broken leg, and then put it on his other intact leg, and said with a smile: "Do you know that in the army, there are countless ways to torture people. Most of the soldiers who have been fighting abroad all the year round did not participate in the war with the intention of defending their home and country at the beginning. Some of them had poor family conditions, could not eat, could not sleep, and sold themselves to the army in order to have a way to live. Yes, there are many children in the family, and they can't afford to raise them, so they have to sacrifice one, life and death are fateful, and whether they can live on the battlefield depends on the will of God. Some are wronged and want to climb up, and they have no choice but to try to fight, and maybe they will have a chance to take revenge in the future. ”

Fang Xiaoyu smiled and gestured with his fingers at Jiang Tao's knees, and continued: "They are not like those children of the family who went to the army to gild, and they were not lucky enough to stand at the top of power as soon as they were born. Their military exploits are all piled up by one head after another, and among those heads, there are enemies, comrades-in-arms, and even in the future, there may be their own. ”

"They have no money and no power, they can't live a drunk, dreaming, eating, drinking and merry-time life, whether it's Beiyan, Northwest, or any other place, most of the places where they can do the battlefield are desolate, and hundreds of thousands of old men pin their heads to the waistband of their pants every day to live, crawling and rolling, and sweating. And women are not allowed on the battlefield, and some people have never tasted women until they die. And when such a person grows, some people will be easily irritable, and then, he will begin to think of ways to relieve his boredom, but what other way to relieve his boredom on the battlefield is besides killing people? So the captured captives and the invading enemies were out of luck. ”

Fang Xiaoyu's smile suddenly retracted, and his expression actually carried a bit of bloodthirsty madness: "And studying how to torture the captives, this is the only pleasure they have in such a desolate place, living a day that may not have tomorrow." ”

"I'm not afraid you won't speak. Or rather, I want you to speak slowly. The smile returned to Fang Xiaoyu's face, but it made the whole room shiver. (To be continued......)