It was late at night, and my daughter and wife were asleep.

I sat alone in my study and smoked, and it was very quiet.

Looking at the desk calendar on the table, I suddenly realized that before I knew it, I had known Lin Leyi for four years and eight months. During this time, I tried to get close to her more than once, but she skillfully avoided her. In her eyes, there is only He Liancheng. The former playboy, now Cheng Xin.

The more tortuous the experience of the two of them, the more others can't get in.

Even if she is still lukewarm to Cheng Xin now, it is better than her inexplicable familiarity with me, because this deliberate coldness just shows that in her heart, she still cares about Cheng Xin.

I paid attention to everything about her, and found out Cheng Xin's identity one step ahead of her. However, I had that information, but I didn't want to sue her.

Someone once said that to truly love someone is to make her happy. I am the same with Lin Leyi. But this time I really don't want her and He Liancheng to recognize each other again, her acceptance of Cheng Xin is equivalent to accepting a complete stranger, which is unfair to her.

What's more, thinking back to the things that happened to them together, I always felt that she would not be happy with him, there were too many accidents.

If I stood in He Liancheng's position, I would definitely not compare the family property and inheritance rights, and I would stay away from the He family's right and wrong circle with Le Yi early, and come out alone.

But he didn't, he wanted everything, and he became more and more entangled.

Perhaps, this kind of thinking is just my outsider's idea, and I will be entangled in how to connect when I am in the game.

The cigarette burned out, and I hadn't taken a puff yet, looking at the inch-long cigarette ash, I smiled bitterly in my heart.

It's not fair to me in such a state, I have my own wife and daughter, and I'm still thinking about whether other women are happy, what is a scumbag.

That night, I didn't go back to my room to sleep.

The next morning, I got up early to prepare breakfast myself, and my mother happened to be in the kitchen, and when she saw me, she was surprised and said, "Sleep a little longer, what are you going to do when you wake up so early, I'll have breakfast ready right away." ”

"Where's Auntie?" I asked.

"Auntie asked for leave today, and now I obviously need to make up for my body, so I got up a little early." Mom said.

"I'll come, you go and rest." Me.

My mother looked at me, looked outside, and asked in a low voice, "Tiantian, to be honest with my mother, is it awkward with Mingming?" Recent. ”

"Nope." I immediately denied it.

"You two aren't in the right state." Mom whispered, "During this time, you moved back to live, and Mom saw that there was no such politeness between the two people." It's okay to look at each other, respect each other, and understand each other, but to Mom, you feel like polite strangers living under the same roof. ”

"That's there." I'm busy denying it.

"Every day, you take care of it, some women are suitable for marrying into the family, and some women can only experience Lin Leyi, she is destined not to be your lover." When my mother saw that I denied this, she couldn't explain it more clearly, so she finally persuaded her.

"She and I are ordinary friends at most now, and we only see each other once in a while, and we can't say a few words, don't think about it so much." I said I went to heat the milk, and the slice of bread my mother baked was almost out of the oven.

"You really don't know how many things you've done for her with your connections?" Mom asked, "If your father said that if Ming Ming knew about this, our Liu family would be at a loss." ”

I stopped what I was doing for a moment, and after a while I said, "Not anymore, my daughters are so old." ”

"It's best if you think so, after two years of stable feelings, you will have another son, a son and a daughter will make up a good word, and we will be complete, don't think about those who have or don't." After Mom finished speaking, she walked out with the finished sandwich.

I watched the milk bubble little by little, thought about my mother's words, and finally sighed and left the kitchen.

From now on, let's take our own responsibilities.

I deliberately forgot about her for a while, buried in my own company and family affairs. Every day after work, I help my mother and Ming Ming take care of the children together.

The arrival of my daughter has indeed made me a lot more docile, except that I think of her occasionally when I have insomnia.

I tried my best to restrain myself, not to let myself go to her to think about her, and not to pay attention to her.

One day, when I suddenly thought of her, I couldn't help it for a moment, just like after enduring it for so long, all the qiē accumulated in my heart, and I wanted to find a channel for catharsis.

I threw down my job, ran downstairs to her company, and called her landline, saying that she was not in the company and that it would take about a month to come back.

I was in a hurry, and I inquired around, and she and Cheng Xin went abroad for treatment together.

The feeling of loss came over me and it all clung to my chest, leaving me breathless.

I don't know how I got home, I was absent-minded for several days, thinking I was sick and told me to rest for a few days.

In the face of her concern, I felt guilty and sad in my heart.

The good news over her side spread frequently, and Cheng Xin regained her memory, but she still had a somewhat unfamiliar face.

They are finally reunited!

At this moment, I really don't know what I think in my heart, and I can't help but vent that sourness.

After so much time, I think back to my proposals, those wishful thinking, those moths that didn't care about a single qiē to put out the fire...... A qiē is both like a dream and a joke.

My intentions were in vain at this moment.

Finally, let's just give up.

Watching their family celebrate, I stood alone on the street for a long time, and finally came to a small and inconspicuous bar around the corner, and drank calmly, glass after glass, as if drinking water.

I don't remember how much I drank, I just remember that the more I drank, the more sober I became, and the past flashed in front of my eyes.

Drinking it like this, a spicy slice in the throat is a relief.

There were more and fewer people around me, and when I walked to the store to close, I still held my wine glass and refused to put it down.

"Sir, we're closing." The waiter at the bar came over and said, "Are you going to find a friend to pick you up, or are you going to ......?"

I didn't listen to him, I took it out casually, settled the bill, and walked out step by step.

In Lingli, the imperial capital, there is no one on the street, only sanitation workers are silently sweeping the streets. The street lights were dim, and the shadows of every pedestrian were stretched out.

I walked into the house, and everything was asleep.

There was a floor-to-ceiling lamp next to the sofa in the living room, and someone was waiting for me.

"Why did you come back?" She looked up at me with doubts in her eyes.

I shook my head: "Why don't you sleep yet?" ”

Mingming stood up, still three steps away from me, she frowned and asked, "Have you drunk?" Socializing? ”

I nodded and shook my head, she suddenly understood, looked at me and said, "I called the company and said you came out after work." I guess as a wife, I should know where you are, I can't make more than ten calls to your mobile phone, and none of them get through. Later, it simply turned off, what do you want to do? ”

Subconsciously touched my pocket, the phone was not there, and I couldn't find any trace of the phone all over my body, I said, "I lost my phone." ”

"Why are you drinking? Since there is no entertainment. Ming Ming looked at me and asked.

I don't know what I thought at the time, but maybe it was alcohol that made me lose my mind.

Sitting down on the couch, I said, "Mingming, you know what? Cheng Xinhui remembered, he was He Liancheng, and now they have come together again. In short, when the family is reunited, they will live happily. ”

At the time, I thought these words were commonplace.

But for some reason, Mingming's face became ugly, she looked at me, turned her head into the room without saying a word, and slammed the door shut.

Because of this sound, Tianyue woke up in a deep sleep and cried heartbreakingly.

I walked into the baby's room and didn't stop coaxing for a long time. In the end, Tianyue was tired of crying and fell asleep, and I sat on the floor and felt that I couldn't open my eyes.

From the beginning to the end, he never came out of the bedroom again.

In hindsight, what woman can bear her husband to have another woman in mind.

What's more, she is obviously a strong woman, and she can't rub sand in her eyes. With her conditions and character, it is really worth a better man to treat her with heart. She has no worries about food and clothing, and is worth more than 100 million, so she is really wronged by me. Because after satisfying one's own idiosyncratic life, what people need is spiritual and spiritual resonance. She and I are never on the same frequency.

Obviously filed for divorce, and I agreed.

I have no reason to marry her when I don't have the heart and ability to love someone, and this qiē is my fault in the first place.

Both parents were very surprised by our marriage, and the only one who was calm was my mother, who sighed and said: "Our Liu family is always sorry for Mingming, don't talk about the property, and share more with her to make up for it." ”

I nodded.

She didn't ask for property, she didn't want children, and she left the house with all her clothes.

Looking at her resolute back, I really don't know if I regret it in my heart.

That's it, after a big turn, I went back to square one.

I know that it is impossible for me to forget Jì Lin Leyi in this life, but I can only hide her in my heart. When I was most possessive of her, I lacked the courage to act; When I had the courage to act, I lacked the opportunity.

A qiē is a miss, a wrong step, a wrong step.

After the divorce, my heart was inexplicably relaxed and I threw myself into my work.

My father despised me for being so depraved as a woman, and I could see that he was impatient with me, and found a reason to start his own business.

Some people are right when they say that the so-called entrepreneurship of people like us is also because of the relationship between our parents, which is much easier than others.

I paid attention to what had to do with her, and finally waited for my chance.

That piece of land should be able to multiply her worth dozens of times, and then have the capital to stand shoulder to shoulder with He Liancheng.

Her all-round trust in me made me feel a sour sense of helplessness.

I was by her side, a true friend, and nothing else.

Cheng Xin...... Oh, no, it was He Liancheng who talked to me, and he said it was also very sincere, saying that he was very grateful for my care of Le Yi when he was away all these years, but I hope that I can stay away from Le Yi from now on, because he wants to take over all the days behind her.

This kind of thing can only be said so confidently by a legitimate spouse, I was not angry, nodded in agreement, and said in a very cooperative tone: "Don't worry, she and I are just ordinary friends." ”

He Liancheng laughed, patted me on the shoulder and said thank you seriously.

Caring for and liking her has become a habit, and I am glad that I can always be in the same city as her, and I can watch her happiness from afar.

I don't think about martyrdom for love or anything like that, but I was educated to keep it from thinking about it.

It is also a kind of happiness to like someone, keep it in your heart, and pay attention to her silently.

None of us know what we will experience in the future, but after all, each day will get better and better. Watching her with her beloved from afar, I was so indifferent, and it was also a relief.

It's just that no one knows that when I'm alone, my eyes always flash her orange smile from time to time. That smile was sweet and warm to no one.