The next day, Cheng Jiayi returned to normal. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

She herself, naturally, ignored yesterday's anomaly, and when she woke up, she could be called refreshed, and finished like a lively child.

But Ye Qingyun still felt a little uneasy, in fact, she had been worried about her condition for a long time, and after checking some information, she was inexplicably depressed, memory loss, slow reaction, and slight social impairment, many of the conditions that appeared in her body were in line with the clinical manifestations of depression.

So during the time when Jessica was making trouble, he had been struggling with whether to discuss with her and let her go for treatment.

But after all, mental illness, the public's acceptance is generally relatively low, he doesn't have the self-confidence, to be the bad guy who debunks the facts, it's really difficult to persuade her, he can't judge what kind of reaction Cheng Jiayi will have after hearing his speculation, even if she accepts it and cooperates, but if these things are known by both parents, there will be a very strange and difficult situation to deal with, this is a situation that he is not sure to control, so he hesitates and hesitates.

And after getting married, her condition improved a lot, during that time, the two stuck together almost every day, and she smiled happily every day, which made him have a delusion, as if as long as the two of them loved each other and took care of her, her heart knot would gradually untie, so this matter was delayed.

Yesterday, after calming down and thinking about it, I finally understood that the bell must be tied to the bell, and his wishful thinking can only play an auxiliary role, and her so-called improvement is just that she has not encountered the switch that stimulates her seizures, and she really wants to recover, or needs treatment.

After breakfast, Ye Qingyun sat face-to-face with Cheng Jiayi very cautiously, took her hand and said, "Xiaoyi, I have something to discuss with you." ”

Cheng Jiayi thought that he was still angry about her not returning at night, so he cautiously made an oath: "Yun, don't be angry, I won't be in the future, I swear, I won't go home at night again, no matter what, I will report to you first!" ”

Ye Qingyun was amused by her cute appearance, and couldn't help but relax her expression: "I didn't mean to tell you this...... However, since you are going to swear, then I will mention it again in passing, and I will try not to be angry, but I hope that you will consult with me in advance, and not explain it to me later. ”

Cheng Jiayi raised his palm to his forehead and saluted him mischievously: "Received!" ”

When I put my hand down, I remembered that I seemed to be off topic, and asked, "Then what are you going to discuss with me?" ”

Ye Qingyun held her hand a little harder, as if she was strengthening her determination to speak: "Xiaoyi, I want to tell you, I'm ...... Think, you may have mild depression, you see...... Should I see a psychiatrist? ”

After Cheng Jiayi heard this, he just blinked his eyes wide, and he couldn't see what the reaction was.

Ye Qingyun's palms were slightly sweaty, and he was suddenly a little afraid, afraid that his hasty proposal would scare her.

After a long time, Cheng Jiayi pursed her lips, still maintaining an expression that could not be seen, and nodded obediently: "I listen to you." ”

Looking at her like this, Ye Qingyun didn't know whether to be relieved or more worried.

She didn't express her opinion in the slightest, and she didn't know what she was thinking after a long period of contemplation.

The atmosphere between the two was not a tacit understanding of each other, but an undercurrent of mutual speculation, which made Ye Qingyun feel a little embarrassed.

Compared with the complete trust between good friends before they were together, the current situation is actually very unsatisfactory, Cheng Jiayi pulled out his hand from Ye Qingyun's hand, unconsciously twisted the ends of his long hair, and then smiled slightly: "Then please make an appointment with the doctor, confirm the time and say, you accompany me." ”

This unfathomable smile made Ye Qingyun's heart tremble, it seemed that she was already unhappy about this matter, and began to build a barrier between the two, using an attitude of positive cooperation on the surface, but in fact passive resistance.

If the doctor can help, it's fine, but if he can't, I'm afraid that the original loving feelings will be separated by this barrier, and it will be very difficult to repair.

The reason why Ye Qingyun is so sensitive to depression is because when he was in college, his roommate who shared a house committed suicide due to depression.

This was a very influential thing for him at that time. And Cheng Jiayi is the person on the tip of his heart, and if he is a little abnormal, he can't help but worry.

The boy who suffered from depression, his name is Cui Shuhai, who is in the same school as Ye Qingyun and has a different major, he seems to be studying computer engineering, and he is usually a typical otaku.

He is one year younger than Ye Qingyun, and when the two met, Ye Qingyun was a junior and Cui Shuhai was a sophomore.

Why he rented a house off campus, Ye Qingyun didn't remember it anymore.

I only remember that I had just found an internship unit at that time, and in order to make it more convenient for the school and the company to run on both sides, I planned to rent a house to live outside.

And Cui Shuhai met him when the real estate agency took him to see the house.

At that time, the houses around the school were divided into several small rooms and rented out, and Ye Qingyun saw the same set.

The two-bedroom and one-living room, the two-bedroom and the first-living room have been renovated into rooms, and the landlord should have planned to sublet it to three households, but when Ye Qingyun went to see it, the second bedroom and the living room were rented by Cui Shuhai alone, leaving the master bedroom with good lighting.

Ye Qingyun saw that it was a junior from the same school, so he happily rented the master bedroom.

At that time, Cui Shuhai probably already suffered from depression, but Ye Qingyun didn't know it, he just thought that he was more introverted and shy.

Because of the difference in work and rest time, and because Cui Shuhai is very homely, although the two live under the same roof, they did not get familiar with each other quickly.

Later, it was because of playing an online game together that they gradually became friends. On weekends, we will occasionally go out to eat together and chat a few days, but most of the content is inseparable from the games we play together.

The specific accident was the second half of Ye Qingyun's senior year. After the spring of the New Year, I went to the school to report and went to the residence, but after almost a month, I didn't see Cui Shuhai coming.

When the landlord came to collect the rent, he also chattered to him that he had not been able to contact Cui Shuhai, and all his things were still left here and had not moved out, and he didn't know whether he would renew the lease or not. If after a while, he still can't be contacted, and he may have to be forcibly cleared.

That night, Ye Qingyun left a message for him on the Internet, but when he got busy, he didn't remember it much.

received his reply, it was another two weeks later, one night, opened MSN, and received several messages from Cui Shuhai, to the effect that he returned to his hometown during the winter vacation, was forced by his parents to take him for a check-up, diagnosed with depression, and will be treated for a period of time. The house here will not be renewed, and there is nothing valuable, just a few laptops, I hope Ye Qingyun can help him pack and send it back to his hometown. He also said that he hadn't made any friends in college over the years, so he regarded Ye Qingyun as a friend, he didn't go back to school, only Ye Qingyun cared about him and the like.

Ye Qingyun read those words, and had mixed feelings at the time, because he only regarded him as a roommate in a shared room, and did not invest in the feelings of a "friend", so at the same time, he was shocked and deeply guilty.

He told Ye Qingyun the address of his hometown in the message, so the next day, Ye Qingyun didn't say a word, he asked for leave from the school and the company, packed up his computer and some things that seemed useful, and booked a train ticket to his hometown.

If you haven't seen it intuitively, then "depression" is an unreachable word for ordinary people.

I may have seen some in literature, in the news, in movies and television, but after all, it is very far away from me, and what will become of people with depression does not seem to matter to me, so many times, I just forget about it, and I don't really care about and study it deeply.

However, when the person suffering from depression is the person close to him, the feeling is completely different.

Ye Qingyun still remembers the scene when she stepped into Cui Shuhai's room and saw him. The shock that made him feel uncomfortable in his heart that he couldn't describe in words made him particularly sensitive to the word "depression" to this day.

Before the winter vacation, when he said goodbye to Cui Shuhai, he was still the same as usual, just a slightly introverted boy.

I don't know what happened during the holiday, when Ye Qingyun saw him again, his gaze could be described as sluggish, and the speed of reaction was obviously much slower, and when he saw Ye Qingyun's expression, it seemed that there was only a momentary smile, and he quickly returned to a daze, maybe not at a loss, but not knowing what he was thinking.

Ye Qingyun tried to chat with him for a while, but what he got was either no response, or he still didn't answer the right question after pondering for a long time, muttering some incoherent content, so that he couldn't hear a specific meaning, and finally had to withdraw regretfully.

According to Cui Shuhai's mother, he originally had a local girlfriend of theirs, a childhood sweetheart, and the relationship has always been good, but because the university is not in the same place, the relationship gradually faded.

At first, he committed suicide by taking sleeping pills, but fortunately, he was found in time and rescued, and then it slowly became what it is now. I took him to see a psychiatrist, and he was already taking medicine for treatment, but the effect was not very obvious......

Ye Qingyun was also hit hard by this trip, and after a few words of relief, he comforted his mother and went home.

After that, he himself was depressed for a long time, and then there was news of Cui Shuhai, but he went to the tutor's office and overheard that a student majoring in computer engineering committed suicide due to depression.

At that time, I chuckled in my heart, and after inquiring carefully, I learned that the boy's name was indeed Cui Shuhai, and he didn't know what his reaction was.

Sadness doesn't seem to count, sadness doesn't seem to count, loss doesn't seem to count, it's mixed, and empty.

A person who was originally so close to himself, so close that he was only separated from his life by a thin door panel, just because of broken love, because of the so-called "depression", completely left this world, how can he accept this fact?

After that, as a friend recognized by Cui Shuhai, he felt extremely guilty for not being able to help him.

So, I was very afraid of the people around me, and then left for such a reason.

During that time, he read a lot of books on psychology and gained the necessary understanding of the initial symptoms of depression and how to alleviate it. He hopes that the people around him, no matter who has this trend, can detect it as soon as possible, mental illness is actually similar to physical illness, the earlier it is treated, the greater the chance of recovery, and the longer it drags on, the more unimaginable the consequences.

Cheng Jiayi's mobile phone often receives calls from some local landline numbers.

It's usually a sales pitch, either which real estate has been opened, or which shop has been discounted, and the lending company doesn't know where to find out where she opened a studio, and asks her if she has capital turnover needs.

Cheng Jiayi did not set up automatic blocking on her mobile phone, when she saw such a number, she would pick it up and chat with the operator when she was free, and when she was not available, she would just treat it as if she didn't see it.

Of course, some of these are serious, such as the phone call of the tax authority, this kind, there is indeed something to find her call, if it is not answered, it will continue to call, so it is not really missed.

One day in early October, when Cheng Jiayi was in a meeting, another local landline number flashed on the screen of his mobile phone.

I don't know why, Cheng Jiayi sensed that this call was probably different from the sales calls he usually received.

So he grabbed his mobile phone, made a brief gesture to Liu Meng, who was assigning tasks to each department, and then exited the conference room and picked it up.

Sure enough, the call came from the detention center, and a deep and serious male voice asked Cheng Jiayi's identity information and informed her of the specific visit process and requirements on the afternoon of the 15th.

Cheng Jiayi originally wanted to ask if Shu Hang applied for her to meet, but because the other party's attitude was too indifferent, she didn't dare to ask.

In fact, according to the process, I think I know that it must be Shu Hang's application, but if I don't get a 100% affirmative answer, I can't help but feel like I'm floating in the air, as if it's not very steady.

When he returned home in the evening, Cheng Jiayi honestly explained the matter to Ye Qingyun.

To be honest, she is also a little afraid of him now, just like she was afraid of Shu Hang at the beginning, not to say how fierce the other party is, but to be afraid of rebelling against the dragon scales and being hated, and she can't be as willful and unscrupulous as before.

Maybe this is love, when you are afraid of losing someone, you are really emotional, you will care about the other person's feelings everywhere, and put the other person in a position that is even more in front of yourself. I am willing to restrain my heart for him.

Since breaking up with Shu Hang, Cheng Jiayi has been very vague about the concept of "love", she doesn't know what love should look like, and she doesn't know what kind of feelings she has for a person to love each other.

The development with Ye Qingyun has always been in a natural state, and he really knows that he loves himself and treats him well, and he also likes him and is willing to live with him for the rest of his life, so he got married.

But I have never found the feeling of loving someone.

It was only recently that I slowly understood that the "love for someone" in her Cheng Jiayi's mind should still be the same as before, the mood of thinking about making the other party good everywhere.

Therefore, when Ye Qingyun proposed to let her see a psychiatrist before, she did not object at all.

And regardless of whether she is really sick or not, if going to the doctor can make him feel at ease, then she thinks this is a worthwhile thing to do.

However, she didn't say these thoughts to Ye Qingyun, but just obediently cooperated with his arrangement.

He had made an appointment with the doctor last Sunday, and she took the sky out and took his arm to see him.

She was in good condition that day, and briefly told the doctor about the current situation, and after the doctor did the test, there was no result, so she made an appointment to see the situation after a week.

Back at home, both of them tacitly did not mention anything about depression, and they were fine.

? (To be continued.) )