"Brother Chenyi?"

Xiahou Chenyi listened to Xiaoxiao's words, only to feel that a basin of cold water was splashed on his feet from his head, and he instantly forgot about his nervousness, excitement and distress and anxiety, and for a moment his face was a little pale, his brows were furrowed together, and he couldn't believe that his ears were like asking Xiaoxiao.

"Brother Chenyi." Xiaoxiao plucked up the courage to sit up, his face was also very complicated, but his eyes finally fell on Xiahou Chenyi on the side.

"Is it for the previous thing?" Xiahou Chenyi didn't move, looking back at Xiaoxiao, his eyes met Xiahou Chenyi felt that something seemed to be beginning to waver, but in his heart he was infinitely resistant to such thoughts.

Xiaoxiao shook her head slowly, her brows were squeezed together, and she felt a panic in her chest, but she knew that it was the most cruel thing to do if she didn't say it clearly, so she closed her eyes and took a deep breath, Xiaoxiao secretly cheered herself up.

"No matter what it is for, Xiaoxiao, I must apologize for the previous incident," Xiahou Chenyi calmly looked at Xiaoxiao with his eyes closed, "Whether you accept my apology or not, I must admit that it was my fault before." ”

"Because of my selfishness, you have been hurt, whether I mean it or not, the fault is mine, and the person who failed to fulfill his promise is also me, Xiaoxiao, I'm sorry."

Xiahou Chenyi looked at Xiaoxiao with a tangled expression earnestly, he knew that superfluous explanations were meaningless, and if he was wrong, he was wrong, but he felt that his Xiaoxiao would forgive himself and give himself a chance to make amends, but he didn't know how. Looking at the person in front of him, for the first time, this thought in his heart began to waver.

Xiahou Chenyi suddenly felt that he was panicking, inexplicably because of Xiaoxiao's calmness. He felt as if he was about to lose her, and subconsciously Xiahou Chenyi clenched his fists, but his eyes were still stubborn and refused to leave Xiaoxiao's sight.

"I don't blame you, I can understand your struggle." Xiaoxiao smiled sadly, this man is not a blind eye, he is at least willing to admit his own problems, and will not embellish his selfishness. That's enough.

Then ...... "Then why are you doing what you are now?" Xiahou Chenyi couldn't say this because he felt that he didn't deserve to ask.

"I'm the one who should apologize!" Shino got off the bed and stood beside the bed. Stepping on his shoes, Xiaoxiao bowed deeply to Xiahou Chenyi.

"Brother Chenyi, I am the one who is sorry for you, and I am the one who should repent today. It's my selfishness that harms you now. It was my selfishness that deceived your feelings, I'm sorry. ”

Xiahou Chenyi's eyes widened in disbelief, what does Xiaoxiao mean now? Deceived yourself? How is this possible, although he Xiahou Chenyi is emotional, he doesn't dare to say how sophisticated he is, but whether a person is sincere or false, he can still see these things. Xiaoxiao's previous liking for herself, and her desire to join hands with her is definitely not a joke. What is that now?

"Brother Chenyi, I admit that I like you, and I also believe that in your heart, there is also a place for me Gu Xiaoxiao, but between you and me, it's really just like, you don't love me, and I don't love you, we just misjudged our feelings and put each other in the wrong position, and the price is that I almost lost my life for this, and you almost lost the goal you have been fighting for for many years."

Xiaoxiao stood in place, calmly looking at the stunned Xiahou Chenyi, Xiaoxiao only felt that his heart was indescribably uncomfortable, not the pain of a knife cutting and needle prick, but like a muffled fist directly hit the heart, there was no blood, no wound, but he couldn't breathe in pain.

What do you mean by that? You're still blaming me, aren't you? ”

Xiahou Chenyi felt panicked for the first time, for the first time, he felt that his hands and feet seemed to be wrong, and it seemed that he had forgotten how to breathe for a moment, only to feel cold numbness in his limbs, and goosebumps all over his body, so he could only gasp in place so as not to feel the pain of suffocation.

But even so, he still held his head high, looking at Xiaoxiao who was standing there with sad eyes, his expression was still painful and tangled, he didn't know what he wanted to find in her, but he knew that if he didn't look at her now, probably all the pain in his heart would turn into tears and flow into his eyes.

"No blame!"

Xiaoxiao shook his head hard, pursed his lips stiffly, looking at Xiahou Chenyi's heartache, Xiaoxiao only felt that his vision suddenly became blurred, and his eyes seemed to keep flashing that afternoon, the man smiled so gently under the sun, his hands, his arms......

"Why! Why are you? For Han Xuantian? He's the one who threatened you, right? ”

Xiahou Chenyi looked at Xiaoxiao with red eyes, this was almost the last excuse he could find, although he also knew that this excuse was fragile and vulnerable, and that proud and cold man would not bother to use such a method at all.

"It has nothing to do with him, Brother Chen Yi, you don't love me, do you understand, it's not love between us, it's just an illusion, an illusion that you love each other!"

Xiaoxiao took two steps forward excitedly, not far from Xiahou Chenyi, and they could clearly see the grief in each other's eyes, but they would not touch each other.

"Brother Chenyi, in your heart, I will not be more important than your future, I will not be more important than fame and fortune, I am not the must-have in your life, I am just the icing on the cake in your beautiful future, you want to have too much, but in your subconscious, with me you will be happier, but, Brother Chenyi, you pat your chest and think about it, without me, your life can still continue, right? Your plans can still go ahead without me, can't they? ”

Xiaoxiao gently grabbed Xiahou Chenyi's clenched fists, and opened his slender fingers one by one, but they were pale because of too much force.

"Brother Chenyi, your future has me, because you have always been asking for it, you want to get me, just want to prove your worth, I have long been not a deep-rooted lover for you, I am a symbol of your victory over the imperial power, I am the embellishment of your final dream, you can give up me, but you will never let go of the position in front of you, right?"

Xiaoxiao only felt that the palms of the two of them were full of sweat, and for the first time, she felt that this man who had warmed her countless times, it turned out that the palms of her hands could be so cold.

It turns out that the words in the bottom of my heart are not the ease of a stone falling to the ground, but the indescribable abruptness, it turns out that liking is not simpler than love, but it is destined to be less profound than love.

The person in front of him can't afford it, but he really wants him to be happy, maybe he can't understand it now, but I believe that one day, he will be glad for the separation of the two people today.

"Xiaoxiao, you are not me, you will never know what you mean to me in my heart, maybe in your heart I give not love, but like, maybe in your heart I think that your existence is dispensable to me, but I Xiahou Chenyi is not clear, what my feelings for you are."

Xiahou Chenyi said, and his figure shook a little and stood up, "I love you, it's enough for me to know myself." ”

Xiaoxiao tilted her head in disbelief, watching the sunlight shine in through the window, Xiahou Chenyi's tall figure enveloped herself, so that his face completely existed in shadows, but she clearly saw that the light that crossed his cheek, she even felt that her heart really felt real pain at this moment!

'She's not him!' ’

Knowing that Xiahou Chenyi's figure disappeared from her sight, what she remembered in her head was still this sentence, she was not him, she didn't understand him! (To be continued.) )

PS: Actually, in today's section, I have been thinking about it for a long time, but I always feel that I still can't write the feeling I want, but sometimes it's really like this between people: you are not me, so you don't understand my heart, but it is precisely because you are not me, so I thank you for not needing to experience my heartache!