After singing "Nanshan Nan", at the strong request of the bar owner and the crowd, I sang another song, which was the song "Butterfly" that I sang at dusk, and also named me Butterfly to congratulate me.

At the end of the second song, these free people changed from ignoring me to watching me closely, and even a few men and women greeted me and beckoned me to drink, but I didn't want to be lively, I just wanted to sit quietly and drink a bottle of draft beer.

I took my guitar and sat down in a corner, asked for a bottle of draft beer, ordered a bowl of noodles, and it was my dinner today, but I sat on the chair and had to hold my stomach all the time, because the stimulation of alcohol hurt even more, and I was a little bit of a tooth in pain.

"What's wrong with you? Is it sick? Such an ugly face? ”

As I continued to drink beer and stimulate my stomach, the female star sat down in front of me and asked suspiciously.

"It's okay, it's just a bit of a toothache."

I endured the pain and said indifferently, and then gulped down the noodles, and the long noodles were eaten in one bite, and they all made a sound, but I didn't think there was anything, as for the female star sitting in front of me, it had nothing to do with me, maybe no one would know anyone tomorrow.

To my surprise, the female star didn't turn around and leave because I didn't have a vegetarian zhì, but sat across from me all the time, watching me finish my noodles in silence.

After drinking the last bit of soup in the bowl, I put the bowl on the table, and the noodles were really delicious, also because my stomach hadn't eaten for a day, and whether I was sick or not, I just ate like crazy.

I wiped my mouth with a napkin, and asked the female star who was still sitting in front of me suspiciously: "Miss star, is there anything to find me as an ordinary person?" Aren't you afraid of being recognized here? ”

"I don't have anything else to do with you, and even if I am recognized, won't there still be you?"

The female star looked at me very calmly and said indifferently.

"Tell me something, I don't want to drag you all over the city anymore."

I threw the napkin on the table, and said with certainty, at this time, I was not even in the mood to talk to celebrities, I even felt that I didn't like women a little, if it was normal, I couldn't wait to meet a star who could talk more, but now

"I was asking you, are you really called a butterfly?"

The female star seemed to ask me very seriously, but I couldn't see her expression clearly at all.

"The real name is definitely not called Butterfly, but the name is just a code name, everyone who comes to Dali is just a passerby, and no one will know anyone after tomorrow, so I took a pseudonym."

Originally, I didn't want to deal with this arrogant and mysterious female star who was strictly hidden and had never wanted to show the true face of Lushan, but when it came to the name butterfly, I wanted to say that it was best to tell such a stranger sad things, no one knew who was fine, and no one knew anyone.

"Indeed, most of the people who come to Dali are here to heal, and they will leave when the wounds are healed, and the people they meet will not meet again, just passers-by, and the code name is good, but you are a big man called butterfly such a feminine name, does it have any special meaning? Is the person you like called a butterfly? ”

There seem to be a lot of problems with female celebrities, and I can't help but take a closer look at her, and she covers her face with her hands intentionally or unintentionally, as if she is particularly afraid that I will see scars.

I had some doubts, but I was quickly dispelled, she didn't want me to know which star she was on the screen, which was a normal thing, but when she said the meaning, the whole heaven bar seemed to change into black and white, a little heavy, especially depressing, so that I unconsciously clenched my fists.

My eyes glanced to the side and saw her sitting in the opposite corner, the familiar table, the familiar stool, the familiar smile, the familiar red wine bottle crystal glass, but she was disappearing little by little, I wanted to reach out and grab her, but the only remaining reason still stopped the confused thoughts.

"Hey, what's wrong with you? What are you looking at? ”

The female star's bird-like voice pulled me out of my confused thoughts, I understand that this qiē is all an illusion, I understand that I can't forget her, even if she kisses with other men, I can't forget her, is this dedication? Is this not forgetting the original intention? This must be a fool, right?

"Butterflies, as the name suggests, are colorful, are beautiful and exist, but I am a black and white butterfly with folded wings, ugly, weak, can only fly secretly, and the weak one is about to die, but I don't know where the warmth of the palm is, which is why I named the butterfly."

I didn't look at the female star, but looked at the empty table, drunk, and said in a trembling tone, it seemed that the surface was light and light, but in my heart it was like overturning the five-flavor bottle and the five flavors were extremely mixed.

"Why? Why do you say you're a black and white butterfly with folded wings? Is it because you see your loved one kissing someone else? ”

"Delusional love, lost color, transformed into black and white, falling butterfly, no future."

I said in a daze, I stood up while talking, took the guitar, walked to the opposite corner, staggered, ignored the eyes of others, and came to the empty table, knowing that this was not a bar in Hangzhou, but the table in my eyes was a table in a Hangzhou bar, I touched the very clean table with tears, and recalled the time when I pretended to be a ghost face to deceive her.

At that time, although I was angry and hateful, I lived a very happy life every day, even if I thought that happiness was pretending at the time, but now, at this time, at present, I can never go back to that time.

At that time, she was full of smiles, and she liked ghost faces very much at that time

I stood in front of the empty table for a long time, many people went to Heaven Bar and many people entered, I looked up and sighed, bit my shriveled lip, carried my guitar, and walked out of Heaven Bar wearing a SLR, I don't know how long I stayed here, I don't know what time it was, I just know that my stomach hurts, it hurts.

Some people are calling me by my pseudonym, Butterfly, but my mind is so muddy that I can only be a free person, ignoring others and only myself.

Although the night breeze in Dali is not big, it is quite cold, moving the pace, staggering on the bar street, here is the paradise of Dali at night, erosion and innocence are intertwined, each bar here is a different style, welcoming the travelers who belong to this bar, and I understand that at this time I am not suitable for any bar, suitable for me The place is just the abyss of black and white.

Walking on the road, facing the cold wind, I couldn't help but spit out blood, looking at the blood stains on the ground, I squatted down in pain, I couldn't hold it anymore, I hid my face with the strength of wine and cried bitterly, but after a while, I saw a pair of white riding boots as white as snow appeared in front of my eyes, it was so real.