The weather in January is still bitterly cold, and what makes people feel more bitter than the cold and biting weather is the hearts of the people. New Year's Day has just passed, and today's New Year's Day is equivalent to a small year for the post-90s, and it is very ironic that my "New Year's gift" is a breakup.

The once enviable love fell apart in an instant.

Once her roommates, her friends were envious of her for having a boyfriend like me, but on New Year's Day, she asked to go to the city alone to meet a girlfriend I hadn't seen for a long time, I was afraid that it would be unsafe for her to go alone, but I was refused; I thought she was afraid that I would get motion sickness and would not let me follow, but I didn't expect to go, and it turned out to be the beginning of a breakup between us.

On January 3rd, I will never forget that day, we had lunch as usual sweetly, and at about 12 o'clock in the afternoon, she suddenly broke up, and I wondered, why did she mention breaking up in a good way? It can't be a prank of the people in their dormitory, right? I tried to reply: You're not me, aren't you? I didn't expect the other party to answer: It's me. I wondered at the time, I didn't do anything here? Since she said that I would play games and get to the young lady, I also unloaded the game? I haven't had the rest of the time except when I saw the opposite sex at dinner? What the hell is going on? I have a lot of thoughts for a while......

I sent her a WeChat message and said: Let's meet and make it clear. I put the phone down and sat for a while, and I felt a lot of emotion in my heart, is it really going to end? Didn't she say that as long as I don't abandon her, she won't abandon me; why doesn't talking count? We still made an appointment for the rest of our lives, why did we give up halfway? I don't know how I got to her. All I know is that I've been blind all the way!

When I finally saw her, I didn't dare to speak, but after a long time, she opened her mouth and said: "I want to transfer to the book (college transfer can get an undergraduate certificate), I know that you can't transfer English well, I know you can't afford to wait for me, so I took the initiative to break up with you." ”

I raised my head and looked at her and said softly, "You haven't asked me, how do you know I can't wait for you? Silly girl, I'll always wait for you!" I thought it would be like in the TV series, and the relationship would be even more glue-like from now on.

"I'm sure you'll come into contact with some women outside at school, and you'll forget about my existence, so we'll break up!" she said with a hint of urgency.

"No, who am I, don't you know? I haven't spoken to a woman since I fell in love with you. Can't I find the kind of company that only has men?" I still had luck in my heart, hoping that she would turn back.

"Needless to say, there is no possibility between us, I am a bachelor's degree, how much money can you earn as a junior college student, your family is still a rural ......," she gushed out.

I adjusted my breathing and said, "I have already said everything you said when we were together, and you said that you didn't care, it's not that I deceived you, and you will be fine in the future." I'm gone, goodbye. After saying that, he walked away quickly.

Back in the dormitory, the roommate teased, "Why did you come back so early today?

After I sat down on my bench, I said lightly, "It's divided!"

My roommate comforted me in every possible way, I said that I was fine, who hasn't experienced it, how can I grow without experiencing it?

It didn't take long for her friends and I found out that I had become a scumbag in the mouth of her roommates?

I've been thinking about it for the past few days, and I've been thinking about why I broke up. I couldn't sleep every night! Later, I was pulled out by my sister and reprimanded. My sister said: "Can you be good, you are not a small boss, don't always worry us, and why did you break up?"

I thought about it and didn't know what to say, so I said, "I don't know why, I'm also messy, I don't know how to divide it, and I was happy to eat at noon, but it changed in the afternoon." Tears rolled in his eyes as he spoke. This is my first love! Later, I didn't eat a few bites, I couldn't eat anymore, and the whole school cafeteria had the shadow of me and her.

After eating, I sent my sister back to the dormitory. It just so happened that my sister and my ex-girlfriend were in the same dormitory building, and on the way back to my own dormitory, I saw a scene that almost collapsed, she held the hand of a man I didn't know, and she looked more handsome than me. I silently walked away, and what I lost was no longer possessed.

I went back to the dormitory and thought about it for a long time, but I still wanted to make it back in the end; I thought of the bloody ones in the TV series, plus she said that she basically didn't eat for a few days after the breakup, plus I had a trace of luck in my heart; I went to the supermarket opposite the school to buy a bottle of one-pound wine, and I didn't eat a mouthful, and I was afraid of being embarrassed by acquaintances, so I ran to Xiaoxihu, which is known as the holy place of Anhuai University couples' dating, this Xiaoxihu has no one during the day, and there are one-on-one pairs here to talk about love; , Different from the glue-like attitude before New Year's Day, I only felt a thick malice and indifference as if killing my father and enemy, my voice trembled because of the blur of consciousness and asked: "Flesh (nickname when we were together before), where are you? I miss you, what's wrong with you, why did you suddenly say that you broke up, you at least give a reason? Let me die!"

She still said slowly in an indifferent voice: "There is no possibility between me and you. Don't pester me!"

There was a drunken feeling in my voice, and my consciousness slowly blurred: "I can't forget you, what should I do." Find someone to pick me up, I can't go. ”

"I'll get dressed, you hang it up first," she said indifferently, without a little room.

As my consciousness gradually faded, I seemed to realize that this would be the last phone call between me and her, and the sentence was a scoundrel: "No, what if you hang up and don't call!" I said with a slight cry in my sentence: "I'll wait for you downstairs, just like before! Just like ......" Before the words were finished, the phone hung up, and after the phone hung up, I faltered with heavy steps towards the previous happy destination;

I walked and walked, and I got up after falling many times, until finally I couldn't stand up, so I climbed to her dorm room, and I thought she would wait for me downstairs in the dorm like before......

At this time, it was the time of eating, and many people came and went, and there was a little girl who looked younger, she should be a freshman, she patted my body and said, "Are you okay, classmate? What is the building of your dormitory? Why do you drink so much?" There was no reaction in my body, and the sena was terrified!

I was also terrified, why could I see myself, what was wrong with me, was it that I was dead, was this the world that people see when they died?

"No, it's not like that! I'm not dead, I'm alive, I don't want to die yet!" I struggled and shouted until no one noticed me, they were all paying attention to the "me" lying on the ground! I flew higher and higher, higher and higher, and gradually everything on the earth became blurred, and my consciousness became blurred.