He approached me step by step, and I stepped back under his fierce gaze until my back hit the wall and there was nowhere to retreat.

"Lin Leyi, am I talking ugly?" He forced me, "The failure of our marriage is due to my irresponsibility, but you told me when you divorced that you were pregnant?" Did you inform my biological father after giving birth? When you're dealing with those stretched stretches alone with your kids, have you ever thought of asking me for help? ”

He said this in a fierce tone that he couldn't breathe, and he paused to look directly at me.

I didn't dare look him in the eyes, he asked the truth. I knew at the time that I was pregnant, gave birth to a child alone, and had only one purpose for gritting my teeth and living alone, that is, to let the children never know Chu Yi as a person. I never imagined that he would re-enter my life in such a sudden position.

"Okay, I can understand all this, because you hated me just after the divorce at that time, and your hatred for me cheating in marriage. But, do you know why I'm cheating? Do you understand how I feel when I come to your home every day and feel like a man who needs to live on the handouts of your whole family? My mother and I have been dependent on each other for 20 years, and I thought that I would be able to take her to my side after starting a family, but what about the facts? You said you were going to live with your parents, and you wouldn't go to my rented house to live with my mother. I put up with it, who made me love you so much. In exchange for what? After you got married, you are still so beautiful, and you are changing cups with men in the business field, expanding your Lin family's career. Did you ever think about how I felt when you were drinking with those men? He pressed my shoulders and leaned his face up to me, his eyes floating with something I couldn't read.

"Chu Yi, don't mention those old things, now that we've come this far, do you think it's still interesting to mention them?" I turned my head away from him. There is really no need to mention the past, no matter who is right or wrong, the ending has already been written.

The pressure on him was so strong that I couldn't breathe. He never said that, and I never knew our marriage was so depressing for him. If these words were said in marriage, they might not have gotten to the point where they came later, but I didn't think of them at that time, and he didn't say a word.

I didn't understand how a man's self-esteem needed to be maintained, but it was only in my relationship with He Liancheng that I slowly learned to be considerate of others and pay attention to the feelings of another person in marriage.

Chu Yi's words made me feel that I really didn't pay enough attention to him in the past, but is it useful to say these things now?!

"You have a new love, of course you don't think it's boring. I want you to know that I have also tried to redeem myself, but the result is to watch you take my two biological sons step by step into the arms of other men, and let the children follow you to make compromises. When he said this, he reached out and pinched my chin, forced me to turn my head to look at him, and continued word by word, "If you use any point against He Liancheng to me, we will not divorce, and the children will not have to look helplessly at other people's family dinners to watch all the guests, watch their mothers hold their half-brothers to laugh and socialize, and to please other people's families." ”

His eyes were sad, with a sadness that I didn't dare to look at little by little, I didn't know how to answer, but subconsciously stretched out my hand and broke his hand that was pinching my chin and said, "Chu Yi, no matter who was right and who was wrong in the past, there is no way to get back to this point." What exactly do you want now? ”

"I can't hate or love you now, and even the only guilt I have has been consumed in your ruthless rejection again and again. When I came to the imperial capital, the first time I knew that I had a child, and the first time I knew what you had done to raise a child, my heart was about to die. But Cheng Lina was still by my side at that time, I didn't want to fail my marriage again, I wanted to compensate you with money, what about you? You rejected me with invincible strength, I don't want you to work so hard, I want to take back the custody of the child, and you take it back step by step. Yes, in the past few years, you have become stronger in this big dye vat-like society, and you have become more ruthless in the entertainment of countless men of all colors, and the strength in the cloak of weakness is invincible. I lost and lost, but I couldn't bear to let the child be caught between the two of us. I filed for divorce from Cheng Lina, thinking that after the divorce, I would have the opportunity to take you and the children to my side. No matter what you do to me, I've decided to make amends with all the time I have ever had. However, I was still late, and you suddenly decided to be with He Liancheng at that time. He pinched my chin hard and leaned in and said, "Can you have a conscience!" Do you keep saying that it is for the sake of children? What did you do? What have you done to live happily for yourself? Have you ever wondered what will happen to your two children when they add a half-brother? ”

"Have you ever thought about my situation?" I looked at the man in front of me who had said that he was so innocent, and I suddenly felt ridiculous in my heart.

Who does he think he is? Why does he think that if he comes to me again after the divorce, I will definitely return to him with the children?! His self-confidence is unfounded, and he even has a valid reason for cheating!

In this world, everyone from their own standpoint will feel that everything they do is right, that they are innocent, and that they are victimized. But who would have thought that, in your own memory, you have changed all the details that are not in your favor, over and over again, over and over again, until the whole thing that has happened is close to your perfect imagination. You are in your own subconscious, in your own memory, you have finally become an innocent, a victim...... You are kind, you push all the qiē onto the other person. How ridiculous!

I don't know if my memory has been modified by my subconscious, I only remember what I once experienced, I will not forgive Chu Yi, let alone accept his compensation.

Ryunosuke Akutagawa once used a short story to perfectly explain how people can revise their memories from their own standpoint. In a simple murder incident, each witness recounts what he or she saw, and everyone feels that they are not lying, but each person's account is completely different, and the simple event becomes bizarre in the narrative of different people. That seemingly grotesque story is called "Rashomon", and its unreality is reality.

I, Chu Yi, including Cheng Lina, Chu Yi's mother...... And so on all people, we are all innocent in our respective memories, all kind, and all of them are forced to do so! Every choice made is normal and for good reason!

"Why haven't I thought about your situation, I even want to sincerely wish you and He Liancheng to grow old. But realistically, what role do my children play in your love that will grow old?! He asked angrily, staring at me with red eyes.

I don't want to explain anything to him anymore, he just wants to mess up today's qiē, and then we each have a big bang like a planet in someone else's orbit, and finally return to our own orbit with bruises.

"You're here today to mess up this qiē?" I asked infinitely tiredly.

"Lin Leyi, I've done things to be sorry for you, but I'm not as despicable as you think. I came just to take this opportunity to see the child and reconcile with you by the way. I knew that the news was very late, and even though I was disappointed and reluctant to give up, I still came. I really didn't expect that as soon as I came in, I would see two children sitting alone, unaccompanied, helpless and scared. Chu Yi raised his head when he said this, and was silent for a while before he said in a suppressed tone, "I endured the bleeding in my heart, so as not to keep my calm just now." Give me your child, you will soon have your own home, your own child, give me back my child. ”

"Nope." I heard his condition and immediately shook my head.

Whether it is Yuan Yuan and Tong Tong, or Kuankuan is the meat of my heart, I will not give it to anyone.

"Lin Leyi, you're so selfish!" He said viciously.

"My feelings for each child are the same, and I may even be more inclined to Yuan Yuan and Tong Tong in my heart. Don't take your assumptions and speculations as facts! He Liancheng is also very good to them. "I knew exactly why he was so angry today, and tried to make myself ignore his nasty words and explain again.

After the two children get married to He Liancheng, they will definitely slowly change their names to He Liancheng's father. His influence in our lives will be less and less in the future, and he is not willing to do so. I understand him, but I won't give the child to him. That's right, I'm selfish, and I don't want the child I worked so hard to raise to be taken away by him.

"Same? You're a liar, aren't you? Chu Yi said disdainfully, "Either you agree to give the child to me, or I will go out and announce the identities of Yuan Yuan and Tong Tong, announce your identity, and see if your wedding is still possible?" ”

"Chu Yi, you are so despicable!" I was finally so angry with his mean words that I lost my mind again.

"You've put on the despicable hat for me, why don't I be despicable to the end." He regained his composure, and his cold words turned into knives, leaving no trace of shame.

At this time, the door of the small rest was banged vigorously outside, I knew that it must be He Liancheng who came to look for me, stretched out his hand to push open Chu Yi, who was blocking me, and walked quickly to the door of the room, wanting to open the door and let He Liancheng walk in.

Chu Yi suddenly sneered twice when I passed him, reached out to stop my waist, pushed me against the wall, and grabbed my collar for no reason.

"What are you going to do?" I was frightened by his mad behavior, and tried to break free from his confinement with my hands to block his hands