Most of the time, I would be an otaku and squat in the house, and only occasionally go to Dandan's house to sleep after finishing work.

Sometimes when I calm down, I think, what is Dandan trying to do? Don't figure out anything, whether the head has been shot or not. However, with her, she really didn't ask for anything.

In this way, it makes me a little scared.

I've been very busy during this time, and I haven't been to Dandan for a while, and we sometimes have time to meet outside during the day. She also understood me and had nothing to ask of me. Occasionally I would get a text message from her and say something inconsequential. Our lives are moving forward slowly and steadily.

Early that morning, I received a text message from Dandan - although we can't stay together every day, but I am very happy with you every minute and every second, thank you, Yin Ran.

When I saw her text message, I felt very comfortable. I wanted to broadcast the phone over, but I'm not the kind of person who would talk sweetly on the phone, so I ended up texting her.

I said, "I also want to experience that simple happiness with you every minute and every second, I love you Dandan." ”

That should be the first time I said the word "love" to Dandan.

After the text message was sent, after a while, Dandan replied, she said, "Come over tonight and surprise you." ”

In the evening I went to Dandan.

But for a while, a short 10 minutes.

"Give me a cigarette," I pressed Dandan on the shoulder, knowing her.

She lit me a cigarette and handed it to me, and we curled up.

"Have you figured it out?" I took a hard sip and said.

"Have you thought about it?" Dandan is a very intelligent woman, although I only asked briefly, she has already pondered about it, and for a few seconds, I think she is very clever and sad.

I continued to blow a cigarette and shake the dust in my hands.

I couldn't bear to look into her eyes, because I could guess that I knew that the more I looked, the more my chest would hurt.

"I'll tell you that it's actually just that, try to find another companion and experience it, maybe I've bothered you a lot these days, but I really can't find a better way to deal with it. In fact, this life is very short, if you experience it, maybe you will know that another life is far better than the present. ”

After saying this, I let out a long breath, and I think I have made it very clear.

"Tired of playing? Want to run away from you? ”

At this time, she also took a cigarette from the cigarette case and lit it.

"It's not a matter of playing or not playing, it's that I'm afraid that from now on, it will delay you, do you know clearly? What can I bring to you? Tell me about it. "That's it, and I don't want to keep anything.

"Well, I've got you covered. I'll show you, this is what you said, you want me to find it, don't go back. ”

"What are you angry with me? I'll tell you to look for it, is it wrong to do it another way? "I was both distressed and angry at what she just said.

"What do you want me to change? You've completely taken over all of me, and I treat you as my object, do you? I've always been with you quietly, I never ask you for anything, I think about everything for you, I'm afraid of putting pressure on you, but, do you have it? You remember, have you ever had? She was so excited, and the moment these very catchy words came out of her mouth, I could guess that she had a lot of dissatisfaction.

I just don't know how to go on.

After a moment of stalemate, I said, "Experience it, if it doesn't work." "It's ridiculous, but after I said it, I thought it was funny.

"Yes, I'll look for it again, and be a lover with you while being with someone else, right? And then be your little lover, right? Okay, then I'll satisfy you. ”

With that, she lifted the sheets, got up, and went out to shower.

I hit my head hard with my fist, it hurt. I thought about separation, but I didn't really think about how we would get along after separation. Both of us are the kind of people who are called emotional, in other words, and wordy, if you put it ugly. I thought about being a bosom friend seriously after separation, talking, eating, and sharing happiness together in a moment of annoyance. It's true, I also thought about it, after the separation, let her future other half or her husband take care of her, and we have a date in a moment, secretly, I know, it's very self-centered, very self-centered. No more waiting for Saori or the witch, and then with Dandan.

These are all serious thoughts of mine.

After Dandan came out of the shower, he decisively turned off the lights and went to sleep, with his back to this side. There were a few times when I tried to get her to turn around and say something, but she got her to say no.

I know that this time Dandan and I are actually over.

When you get back, take a quick band-aid and cover up the mark on your neck to avoid unnecessary trouble.

Between me and Dandan, I never got a phone call, as if we had never met in this world

Life seems to be a TV series, the plot has been decided, just waiting for the actors to be in place.

If it weren't for the drunkenness that day, I don't think I would have had a chance to see Dandan again.

I still have to accept that my indecisiveness, my selfishness, and it can be said that I still like Dandan.

Accompanied the customer drunk and couldn't wake up, after going back to the house, listening to songs on the Internet, suddenly a familiar music came out; "I'm not the only general in your eyes, but I'm an inconspicuous creep. I'm like a chess piece, and I can't help myself to come and go. That's right, it's Faye Wong's pawn. The last time I saw Dandan's QQ name, I saw the chess pieces. Hearing this music, this feeling of tears in my heart has not been seen for a long time.

I know, this and this, I want to hear her voice, her voice, to know her condition, it is just the sound of words, let me hear it, and I will be satisfied.

Actually, that's it. I hesitated at least three or four times, but the phone rang anyway. The bell that came was also a chess piece.

I listened, and the taste was beyond words. All I knew was that my eyes were moist. I held my breath and waited for the moment when the call would go through, perhaps at the last second.

The other end didn't speak, only a slight breath could be heard. I didn't know if it was good to say something, so I let the phone go and didn't speak. I let out a long breath to sober myself up and speak first.

"Okay, this time."

On the other side of the earpiece, she still didn't speak, and I could guess I knew she was listening.

"I just want to know if you're okay or not, and I don't mean anything else," I continued. I took a cigarette from my desk and lit it. During this time, I smoked a lot more cigarettes than before, as others said, smoking is not a cigarette, it is loneliness.

Still no sound.

"Talk, okay? I want to hear your voice, Dandan," I said as I waited for her response, "I can't forget you," I continued.

"Think, what's the point?" She finally spoke, "Smoke less." It's good to live hard. ”

"Well, I can guess I'm clear." After a pause, I continued, "I want to see you, this will." ”

"Okay, it's too late, it's inconvenient, hasn't it been like this all along? What else does that mean? ”

"Meaningful, I want to see you." Before I called, I just thought about listening to the sound of her voice and her scream, but when I heard the sound of her voice and her voice, I actually wanted to see her.

"Let's find another time, it's so late." She said calmly on the other side of the earpiece, "It's nothing, I'm hanging." ”

Before I could finish speaking, she cut the phone.

I collapsed on the stool, looked at the phone in my hand, and closed my eyes. That's it, I sue myself, it's already like this, what's the point?

After a moment of daze, I sobered up my wine and went to take a shower. At this moment, the phone rang suddenly. I could guess that I knew it must be her, and I didn't have time to wipe my body dry and rushed out.

The phone was picked up, and it was her.

I suppressed my excitement, "Dandan,"

"Are you drunk?" She spoke.

"Drink a little, and accompany the customer today. How are you doing during this time? "I was anxious to know what was going on with her.

"Not good." She answered me neatly.

I guessed she would say yes, and suddenly she said something bad, and I didn't know how to take it.

"How are you, are you good?" She went on to say this.

"What's good or bad about me, that's it."

Maybe it's been a long time since I've chatted with Dandan, and I don't know if I can say something, but I don't want to hang up like this.

"Do you have a partner?" I continued to ask.

"Yes." Again, she replied neatly.

It was like something was stuck in my throat, and I groaned, not wanting to go on.

"Isn't that the answer you're looking for?" She then said, "Haha, weren't you just listening to the chess pieces? I'm not your pawn, what do you want me to be, I'll do it?

I was silent for a long time.

She also froze for a long time and said, "I miss you so much." ”

"Wait for me to pass. It will. ”

"Hmm."

I put on my coat and went outside.

When I got downstairs, I remembered that something had been left in the house, and went upstairs again, took the box of the ring from the gap behind the sofa in the room, and put it in my pocket. I drank too much, I smelled of alcohol, and I didn't want to cause trouble, so I went downstairs and called a taxi, and moved quickly in the direction of Dandan's house.

The road is still the same, but the mood has changed a lot. I was thinking along the way, I didn't know what would happen when I saw Dandan.

Asked the driver to drive all the way, arrived at the familiar downstairs of Dandan's house, hurriedly went upstairs, and rang the doorbell.

The door opened, and Dandan was standing in front of me dressed and thin.