I was so stupid, so naïve, so self-righteous.

I'm not the only one who silently guards Lingering Dust, in terms of time and dedication, I can't compare to them, compared to them, my love is so small and humble.

After experiencing the events of that day, Yingchen temporarily lost her joy and lost her trust in me, and during that time, she was sullen all day long, and her few words became even less.

I stayed by her side, distressed on one side and sad on the other.

I thought that she didn't need me anymore and didn't trust me anymore, and I was ready to leave on the day Le'er left, but I didn't expect that in the middle of the night, Yingchen quietly came to my room when I was "asleep". She removed the red finger marks from my face, looked at me, and sighed helplessly.

"Don't pretend, I know you didn't sleep."

I smiled and sat up from the bed, but unexpectedly broke into her helpless her, she was holding me, rubbing her head against my chin, her body trembling slightly in my arms, I looked at her, let out an invisible sigh.

"Since you can't bear it, don't let him leave, now...... You're all doing it yourself......"

I sniffed the smell of wine on her body, a little helpless, I didn't know whether to cry or laugh.

In my memory, this was the first time she was so active with herself, I hugged her and patted her on the back gently, trying to comfort her, but I didn't know what to say, all I could give her was silent comfort.

"Streamer, can you hug me?"

I was stunned, I knew that this was just her momentary fragility and confusion, and when she fully sobered up, I was afraid that something would happen......

Listening to her request, I completely forgot the burning pain on my face, and I held her uncontrollably, carefully holding her in my arms, for fear that I would accidentally break her.

"Streamer, you are a water unicorn, but I didn't expect it to be so warm in your arms."

“……”

"Streamer, you sue me, do you like me?"

I jerked my eyes up and saw that she was looking at me without blinking.

I smiled and reluctantly touched her forehead with my hand, and sure enough, it was piping hot.

Really...... It's nonsense with a fever......

I curled the corners of my mouth, a slight sad smile in my eyes.

This farce should also end, and the joke should also end......

"Lord, you are drunk and feverish, and you are talking nonsense. If you ask me, you should ask Zeran. ”

I let go of her, helped her to lie down on the bed, covered her with the quilt and turned around to pour water for her, but her arm was only grabbed by her. I looked back at her in confusion and helplessness, but I didn't know where the strength came from, she dragged me to the edge of the couch at once, and rolled over and pressed me under me.

She was lying on my chest, staring at my eyes with hazy eyes, her long black hair falling from her head and slowly sliding on my chest, she leaned down, her cold breath hit my neck, the cold feeling made me a little intoxicated.

"Streamer, do you like me or not?"

"I ......"

I wondered how to answer, or what to do, whether to push her away or answer her question.

I looked into her eyes and saw that she was looking at me without blinking, and there seemed to be a thin veil in her eyes.

I took a deep breath and wrapped my arms around her waist, and the two of them completely flipped into one position.

I kissed her like crazy, kissed her on the lips, on her neck, trying to take possession of her completely at this moment. Seeing her dazed appearance, I finally came to my senses from this brief frenzy, and I stopped, straightened their clothes, and put her back on the bed.

I know that if the madness continues, it will only be followed by deeper pain and suffering.

"Master, we're all crazy."

“……”

"You have a good rest, I'll go find medicine."

"No, streamer, stay with me."

"Hmm."

"Streamer, I've been awake."

"Hmm......" I smiled, and although I agreed, I was noncommittal to her words.

"Streamer," she wrapped her arms around my neck and chuckled softly in my ear, "I think I like you...... Your embrace...... Really warm ......"

“！！！”

"Do you know how much I like you, how much I miss you when you're away. When you are in the Night Court Palace, every time you leave...... I'm sad...... I really don't want you to leave me ......."

Really...... She still treats me as Zeran......

"I will surely resurrect you, no matter what the cost...... I will raise you back to life...... Zeran, don't leave me. ”

I sat beside her and watched her, not knowing whether to cry or laugh, and I didn't know if she said "I think I like you" to me.

But it was obvious that when she woke up again, she had forgotten what had happened, she looked at me in confusion and cleared her throat, "It's getting early, you go to sleep." ”

Watching her leave in a panic, I stood behind and smiled softly.

"Streamer, you said she really likes me...... Hmmm......"

I asked myself questions and answered, and I put myself in the endless deception of myself, whatever...... As long as you stay by her side, why bother praying so much.

So, when Yu Shangshen came to me to discuss the matter, I agreed without hesitation, knowing that this was one of the few things I could do for her, and the only way for her to remember me forever.

Though...... It's a little crazy, it's a little cruel, but it's worth it for me......

He Yu and Shen Yuqing also thought the same......

All she had in her heart was Zeran, and this was the only way for her to put us in her heart. Even if such methods are selfish, bloody, and cruel...... Even if such a method will cost us our lives, we will lose the so-called eternity.

Things went exactly the most brutal way we expected, and Kazuki and I had to prepare for the final death.

That night, he asked me if I was scared?

I smiled, "I'm afraid, of course I'm afraid, but I don't regret it." ”

"When did you like her?" And Yu Shangshen asked suddenly.

I smiled and laughed, talking nonsense with Yu Shangshen, why I wouldn't tell anyone who has nothing to do with it, especially if it's a love rival.

"The first time we met her, she was very ......chic," I thought about and added, "very handsome." ”

Looking at his smile, I don't know if he believes my words, but at this time, nothing matters anymore.

"You say, will she remember us in the future?" I asked.

"I wish she remembered, but I also hoped she didn't."

"Alas, we two are really pitiful...... But it's okay...... Even if I die, I will be with you as a backing ......."

In those days, until the final duel between Yingchen and Zhuan, I chose to accompany him all the time, but He Yu Shangshen chose to disappear temporarily, I asked him why, and he just smiled lightly.

"I'm a selfish person, I'm afraid that when I see her or Zeran, I'll be selfish and regret it."

I laughed, and I wouldn't believe his words.

He was just afraid that he would be sad and heartbroken when he saw Yingchen.

In those last moments, I smiled softly at her determination and sorrow.

Don't worry, stupid master, even if you can't be with him, the streamer will always be here with you