The spring breeze is warm with a faint fragrance. The locust tree at the back of the yard is in bloom. Xia Shuang got up early in the morning and shouted to make acacia flower buns, and after breakfast, she took a few little girls to pick flowers happily.

Xiyan teased Jing Yi in the room.

Jing Yi is about to be two years old, and it is the time when he loves to talk, and he is very cute with his small mouth every day. Taking advantage of Xiyan's inattention, he quickly grabbed a walnut from the box where the dried fruit was preserves, and when he saw that Xiyan found out, he stared at a pair of innocent big eyes, pursed his lips and smiled at her.

Xiyan didn't speak, just looked at him with a smile.

Seeing that Eniang was not angry, the little guy was even bolder, pinched and bit the walnuts in his hand, and tossed seriously for a long time. In the end, the little fat hand was raised in front of Xiyan's eyes, and the immature voice was not aggrieved, "Eniang, this is bad, hard, and not delicious!" ”

The whole room was amused by him.

Xiyan looked at Jing Yi, and there was warmth in his eyes that could not be dissolved.

At least...... She still has him.

…………

It had been a long time since she had regained her memory. Every day, she only takes care of Jing Yi's diet and daily life in the Forget Worry Pavilion, as if all other people and things have nothing to do with her.

It really doesn't matter anymore.

Think about the side Fujin in everyone's mouths in the past, and think about the day when she met the Song family in the garden, she saluted herself...... She just thought it was funny.

He hid it so well - the whole house followed the show, even the mother......

It wasn't that she didn't want to leave: the side room of the next hall, and it was just a joke to stay here. But whenever I see my son's round and lovely little face, whenever his fleshy little hands are attached to the corners of his clothes, he softly calls his mother...... Her determination was shaken again and again - she was reluctant to regain this lost family affection, and she was no longer willing to be separated from Jing Yi.

No one dared to ask her what she said to Li Xuan that day, but from that day on, her indifference and indifference to Li Xuan were obvious to all.

Everyone is looking forward to Xiyan's speedy recovery, but when she really recovers...... Everything seems to be completely different from what everyone expected.

The two of them had a cold war for half a month, and finally they couldn't even look at Mama Yun, and couldn't help but be a lobbyist for Li Xuan in front of her-

"Song Gege and Guerjia Gege in the other courtyard are both people rewarded by the Queen Mother, and the master can only accept the ...... if he is unwilling."

"Since I knew that your whereabouts were unknown, I rarely even entered the backyard......"

“…… I asked the ins and outs that day, and the master was so angry that he immediately asked the housekeeper to find a servant to sell the girl who didn't know whether she was alive or dead, and the Song family was also fined three months of grounding......"

Xiyan listened silently, and gently patted his hand on Jing Yi's body. The little guy ate and drank, and when he was tired of playing, he fell asleep, so that he could take it very well.

"Ye really feels sorry for you, and I don't want you to be wronged......"

"Mama......" Xiyan finally spoke quietly, but it was a soft voice that interrupted her.

“…… It's the slave who talks a lot. ”

"I know what you're saying." She carefully put her son's lotus-like white arms into the quilt. "I'm not angry about these things - he's good to me, I know." Even though she wasn't conscious at the time, she remembered how well he cared for her.

"Then you ......," Mama Yun couldn't help but say tentatively.

She was silent.

She's just ...... I don't know how to deal with it.

He was kind to her, taking care of her diet and daily life in every detail, and she seemed to have nothing to complain about.

Can...... And who made her what she is today?

She's been crazy, she's been stupid, she's sick, she's hurt...... and almost ruined the bad guys......

He explained for a long time that day.

He said that when Ning Ruo had a miscarriage, she admitted that she didn't want his child, and he was very sad and desperate, so he divorced her...... He said that he had sent someone to inquire about her whereabouts, thinking that she had left with Yun Heng......

…… He kept saying that he liked her, but he didn't even give her the most basic trust.

Now that he had found it all out, he had brought her back and did his best to be good to her......

And what about her? Should she accept it with gratitude?

If everything can really be erased so easily, then what should the devastation and torture she endured, Chunxue's innocent and young life?

She also wanted to blame him, hate him, and give back everything he had put on her...... But...... When she saw him holding her hand so guiltily and helplessly, her eyes were red and she begged for forgiveness......

She had no choice.

Hate or forgive, original...... It's all that hard.

………………

In the evening, Li Xuan came to her room to eat together as usual. In the name of watching Jing Yi, Xi Yan couldn't catch him up.

It's just that she hasn't spoken to herself much for more than half a month, even if she occasionally talks a few words because of Jing Yi, she is always faint and doesn't look at him.

After eating, the people cleaned up the dishes and chopsticks, and she got up and was about to leave her seat, when she was suddenly grabbed by the wrist and brought into her arms.

She struggled to break free, but he clamped tighter.

The two men were silently frozen for a moment, until she was powerless to compromise. He lowered his head and pecked at the corner of her lips, and she remained motionless.

"Xiyan, don't ignore me......" he begged in a low voice, "you want to cry, you want to make trouble...... Whatever you want. Just ignore me......"

She just shook her head tiredly, and her tone was calm, "Li Xuan...... Don't you do that...... Don't push me...... Good no good? "A heart full of holes always takes time to heal.

"I know you hate me in your heart, and you hate me for causing you to suffer so much—and I hate myself."

She listened blankly...... Perhaps, it's not all. He likes her, and he likes Ning Ruo. But they can be so ruthless to them...... She didn't know...... She was saddened to find that she could no longer trust him as unconditionally as she had before.

"Where is Sister Ning Ruo's burial......" she suddenly raised her head and said softly, "Can you take me to see it?" ”

His eyes sank. Although he explained many things that day, he never let her know about his grievances with Ning Ruo - there was no need for this. After being silent for a while, he still compromised, "Okay, I'll take you there when I'm busy for a few days." ”

She nodded, and then asked softly, "Can you let me go?" It hurts a little. ”

He quickly let go of his hand, and a red mark immediately appeared on his originally white wrist.

"Xiyan, I didn't mean to, I'll give you the medicine-" He explained, a little confused.

"Out of the way." She took a step back, lowered her eyes, and said, "It's not too early, please go back." ”

Deferential detachment.

………………

Ten days later, Li Xuan took her to worship Ning Ruo.

Although she knew early on that he hadn't buried Ning Ruo in the family cemetery, she still ...... when she saw the lonely grave on the top of the mountain at this time From the bottom of my heart, I feel sad.

How could he treat her like that...... The person he once loved deeply, the person who used to accompany him with the best years...... (To be continued.) )