"Bottle, I ......" I wanted to say that I quit, but I swallowed this sentence back, letting her know that my job with a monthly salary of six or seven thousand was gone, and I wondered if she would be more upset than me.

"Say whatever you want!" She said.

The mobile phone rang, eighty percent of the application materials thrown today, a recruiting unit called, I hurriedly ran out to answer the phone: "Hey, hello." ”

"Yin Ran, you're busy at work, right?" It's the father.

"It's fine, not very busy."

"The weather is hot and cold, remember to pay attention to your body."

"Yes, I know, and so are you, Dad. It's okay at home. ”

"Good. Yin Ran, your two younger sisters have got good grades in the exam, and I am happy that the eldest sister has been admitted to a good school, but the tuition fee really worries me, and the eldest sister is also very sensible, so she said that she wouldn't read, but how can this be? If you are rich and do not study, you will not be rich for long, and if you are poor and do not study, it will be difficult to get rid of poverty. I have no hope in my life, so I want you three brothers and sisters not to be looked down upon like my father. The younger sister's tuition fee is nothing, but the eldest sister ......"

"Dad, I'll pay for my eldest sister's tuition."

"Yin Ran, you are a sensible child, Dad doesn't say anything, and he is busy feeding the pigs."

"Dad! Help me greet my two younger sisters and my mother. ”

My father was afraid that the phone bill would be expensive, so he couldn't wait to hang up the phone.

My heart was a rare warmth, and as soon as I put the phone in my pocket, Li Bei'er rushed to me: "Eldest sister's tuition, I'll give it?" Your family's phone? ”

"yes, what's wrong?"

"Are you rich? You have to send money to your two younger sisters every month, and you have to pay for your two younger sisters' tuition, what a good brother! ”

Li Bei'er is so sneering, where did I provoke her? "What's wrong?"

"Yin Ran, you sent all the thousands of yuan of your salary a month to your family, how can we live?!"

"Why can't you get by? Aren't we doing well now? Don't you have anything to eat right now? ”

"Eat? I still secretly packed it out of the restaurant! If I'm like any other girl now, buying this and that, can you afford it!? ”

"What's wrong with you?"

"If I ask you to buy a watch like this now, can you buy it for me? You'd rather throw the money to your sister than buy it for me. As he spoke, he shook his new watch.

"Who bought you the watch?"

"What's your business, you didn't buy it anyway!"

I know why she was angry, for the living expenses I sent to my sister every month.

I didn't speak again, and ate silently. Li Bei'er also felt that she was too excited just now, sat down and gently persuaded: "Yin Ran, you will be about 6,000 every month, and it will be more than 1,000 every month to your home, that's it, and you have to bear their tuition, then the money you earn will be given to your family, you also have to think about the two of us, we don't save some money, if you want to provide for a house or something in the future, what will you use to provide for it, and what will you pay for it?" ”

Li Bei'er said a lot of words, helping me analyze the benefits of not sending money to the family, and then she looked at my indifferent appearance, annoyed and angry, shook her hand, and slapped the lunch box I was eating to the ground, and asked fiercely: "Are you deaf!?" ”

I was on fire: "What do you want!?" ”

"Do you have to pay for your sister's tuition!?"

"Yes!"

She was so angry that tears flowed out: "I still think that the two of us have to live well and work hard for our future, and now it seems that I can't count on you to fight with me." If you are given a choice, choose me or your family. ”

I didn't even think about it, so I replied, "Family." ”

"Let's go." She turned her back to me, her shoulders moving rhythmically, and I knew she was crying.

I couldn't bear it so much, so I walked over and hugged her from behind: "Bottle Bottle." ”

She shook it hard: "Get out!" ”

I gritted my teeth: "The parents who receive the skin, the family is the root of a person, and in my heart, the family is always the first." ”

"I've had enough of you! You have ambition! You are filial! But you don't have any money, so your girlfriend runs away with someone else who has money! Deserve! ”

"You***!" I slapped it over, and halfway through I withdrew my hand.

She looked at me viciously, wiped her tears and walked into the bathroom to make a phone call, and a few minutes later, a car drove downstairs, and a middle-aged man who was a little familiar was waiting downstairs, his hair fell out a lot, and a few long hairs were twisted into a few strands like an octopus.

"Who's that man down there!!" I was furious.

She ignored me, ran downstairs, got into the car, and the car drove away. It was the black Audi sedan that sent Li Ping'er back last time, that man was a little familiar, as if he had seen it, who could it be?

That person must be one of Li Ping'er's bosses, Li Ping'er called him, he came to pick up Li Ping'er, needless to say, he must have done something unsightly at night, I broke up with Li Ping'er, so can this still be a cuckold!? ***！ I slammed the door and went back to my kennel, drank a few bottles of liquor, and fell asleep drunk.

When I woke up, it was already afternoon, dizzy, I looked at my phone, I got more than a dozen resumes yesterday and sent them out, but none of the employers contacted me, although the basement was rotten, there was a mobile phone signal. I got off the g and put on my clothes, I was smoked by a rotten smell, I wanted to vomit, there was a disgusting green liquid on the wooden table, the peaches I bought a few days ago had fermented into pulp, moldy, and became a feast for cockroaches and ants, these disgusting guys like me don't know if they were overfed or food poisoning, and a few of them actually died next to them.

I cleaned up with nausea and lay down on the edge of the g's to light a cigarette. In my life, there is no subway, no meeting plan, no business trip arrangement, no afternoon coffee, no black tea, no after-work appointments, no music in the taxi when I get home late at night.

I was alone, lying quietly, as if waiting for a dead old tree. I resent the unfairness in this world, resentment can spread like mold from the cold floor of the basement to the ceiling, it can't be removed, the spring breeze blows and grows again, I think I should go out for a walk, otherwise I will hang myself in the basement in despair, I have been disgusted to death in the basement before I died, and I don't want to be in the basement forever after death. This basement is not patronized, and there are several basement landlords like this who can't rent it out, I guess only people like me who are about to rot want to live in this kind of place, and the landlord won't come here, if I hang myself here, my corpse will be like that peach, and I will see a lot of disgusting animals eating my meat, and my meat will eventually be eaten by animals, and even the liquid that will turn into a pulp will not be spared, and a skeleton will be left in the middle of the air...... Walking in the streets, I found that the afternoon when I didn't have to go to work was so terrifying, and there were almost no people of my kind on the streets of the city, except for housewives, merchants, and migrant workers, and occasionally a young man hurried past me, and they looked a little like me, because they also had anxiety written on their faces. But their anxieties are different from mine, and they still have briefcases in their hands, which means they still have something to do. What do I want to do now? In short, it is not about writing a will.

These people are the same as me, they are all young chicks that have just broken out of the shell of the university incubator, but they have not yet grown the embarrassing birds of the workplace, they are generally poor, they are generally inferior, they are generally cheaply dressed, so they are generally ugly, I'm sorry, forgive me for being such a weak person and still being so brave, but I must admit that we have come to the era of the most important appearance in history. This era is also the era of the most disgusted unemployed in history.

Our eyebrows are compact, our faces are sad, and we are usually worried about the opportunity to come, but we will release a professional smile when we meet people, with a little youthful and cheap humility and calmness, utilitarianism in the eyes, and competitiveness in the face.

I walked into a shopping mall, it was very deserted, a group of old people sat in free chairs and rubbed the cold air, before, I had never paid attention to them, but now I suddenly realized that they must have been here since the afternoon, each occupying the position to which they were accustomed, and then, sitting like this, sat all day, until the sun went down. It was as if I saw a great desert, barren and barren with only a large expanse of time spread out in vain, and their cheap watches and crutches in their hands were worth more than their time.

It seems that I have gone crazy, to use this narrative to chatter, let's change the analogy, seven, eight, nine heads, based, very good bowling, built into Mei Chaofeng to practice the neatness of the nine yin and white bone claws, but, to explain, the bodies of these heads are too old because the meat is too old, and no one eats them. I got goosebumps.

Looking at the other corner of the mall, two young and fashionable girls were sitting happily drinking tea, and the sun shone on them through the tree, which was half yellow and half green, gilding them with an alternative and dazzling gold. There's such a good side to the world, why should I make myself look like a stiff corpse pulled out of the freezer and steaming cold? Is it just for a job? Is it just for a few sluts? Or is it for a few women who want it but can't get it?

***！ Lao Tzu must find a way to live!

There is a sign in the mall that says that part-time employees are being recruited for a long time, and the sign may have been in place for a long time, and even the color has faded a lot.

Anyway, I didn't have a job, part-time for some time, and then I found a good official job, and then made the next step, I applied for a very smooth job, I thought it was a part-time job in the mall, the personnel department took me to the parking lot on the first floor of the mall, pointed to a car wash shop on the side of the parking lot and asked expressionlessly: "Car washer, sixty a day, nine o'clock in the morning to six o'clock in the evening, five yuan for an hour of overtime, are you willing to do it?" ”