There were only three people left in the room, Grandma Li, Li Jing and me, I sat on the chair and stared at the cup in my hand: "Grandma Li, in fact, you are the one who planned this matter, right?" ”

I didn't look up and continued: "That letter was not written by Jin Fengxia to her son at all. When people are dying, their speech is intermittent, how can they still have the strength to write letters? But if it is dictated, the handwriting cannot be almost close to Jin Fengxia. The only explanation is that the letter was a bait to lure out the truth of what happened 20 years ago. The content of the letter is also full of loopholes, and I understand it so that the investigators can see the clues. The person who handled this letter is you, if you guessed correctly, the other planner is actually Professor Qin's wife, Mrs. Qin, right? ”

No one answered me, and I couldn't hold back the words in my heart and continued: "Looking back now, the whole cautious tone is very similar to the way Mrs. Qin spoke. Moreover, when we went to Professor Qin's house for the first visit, Mrs. Qin was spying on us when she heard us say 'wedding' and 'letter' to Professor Qin. And the first time we chatted with you, it was you who led the conversation to the professor and his wife, and led us down that line of investigation. So, from the beginning, it was you and Mrs. Qin who planned everything and waited for the truth to be revealed by us, right? ”

I didn't dare to look up at Grandma Li, I was afraid that what I said would eventually become true, but what I was afraid of happened in the next moment.

"That's right." I didn't dare look up at her, but I believe she must have said this with the same kind smile on her face as she had just done before.

"Why?" I asked her with my head down.

"Will you be disappointed?" Grandma Li didn't answer my question, but asked me.

I quickly shook my head: "No." I just don't understand why you know everything, but why you still allowed them to develop things back then. You should have called the police, shouldn't you? "I finally mustered up the courage to put my head up.

"There is no constant standard for judging what is right or wrong of a thing, and I know that in your opinion I did something wrong back then, myself. But if you look at it back then, it's your only choice. "Grandma Zhang looked at me.

"Then why did you have to turn this matter over again after twenty years, and why did you disappoint Jin Yuan again? If he sues him again, his mother is a murderer, he will collapse. You know he's always hopeful. I looked at Grandma Li in disunderstanding.

The old man in front of me just looked at me silently, with a soft light in his eyes: "I can't let this kid break his hope with his own hands." Even if I don't say it now, with the temper of any child, he will always follow it and know all the truth of the matter. Have you ever thought about how he would perceive the world when he realized for himself that everything he experienced was actually arranged by the people around him? ”

"Me." I was speechless for a moment.

Grandma Li poured me another glass of water: "Although you may think that I, the old lady, am making excuses for the mistakes I made back then, but whether it was then or now, we just want to protect that child and more people." Back then, Feng Xia had no relatives here, and if she left, Jin Yuan, the child, could only be sent to a welfare home. But no one can control what the future of this child will look like, Feng Xia is worried that without her care, the child will go astray, so in the end she still came to me to discuss. At first, she just hoped that I could take the child in, but the next day Fengxia came over and said that she had found another way out for her child. Xu Zilong's death originally made me feel strange, Feng Xia's character must not do such a desperate thing, plus Professor Qin and his wife, who have never liked to take care of people, are particularly enthusiastic about Jin Yuan's adoption this time, I probably guessed the clue. When I went to see Fengxia later, I asked her about it out of the words. Judging by her attitude, I can probably guess the truth of the matter. There is one thing I didn't tell you, in fact, when Feng Xia signed the adoption procedures, she was smiling. She specially asked me to bring Jin Yuan over, so she asked him to stand at the door, and she signed and laughed in the hospital room, just to make Jin Yuan think that she was abandoned and cut off all Jin Yuan's dependence on her. She endured it until she heard Jin Yuan run away and cried. ”

I can't describe how I felt after hearing this, so I took a sip of water: "Adults usually make decisions about their children's lives, and at the end they say 'it's all for your own good'. Because you have never respected the child, you are not him, how do you know that the decisions made back then were all for his good, even if Jin Yuan's mother died in the end, she still had more than a year to accompany him. Whether the decision to kill someone else was forced by someone else to make Jin Fengxia, or Jin Fengxia made the decision herself, you all ignored and deprived Jin Yuan of his right to enjoy maternal love for more than a year. ”

Grandma Li watched me lose her temper, and when I finished the long list of words, she answered with a smile: "So we were wrong." Grandma Li generously admitted, "When people reach their prime, they will begin to examine their previous lives, and most of the content is related to the mistakes they have made." Some mistakes can be remedied, and some mistakes can never be remedied, but I still want to do even one more right thing in my lifetime, so that I can have fewer regrets when I finally leave this world. People have always been selfish, and when you are alive, you will be selfish for a better life, and when you can no longer jump and run, you will be selfish so that you can leave this world with peace of mind. But in fact, in the end, I will still leave this world with regrets, because some wounds cannot be healed once they appear, and the matter of Jin Yuan's mother is the pain of my life. Just like you said, the damage we brought to Jin Yuan cannot be repaired no matter how many methods we use. But I still want that kid to know the truth, but sometimes the truth doesn't have to be so cruel, right? Grandma Li turned her gaze to Li Jing.

Li Jing looked at the little sparrow flying by outside the window, and was silent for a long time before replying, "Yes." ”

That evening, we made an appointment with Jin Yuan to meet at a vegetarian restaurant.

"Did you find the news that my mother was wronged?" Jin Yuan asked as soon as he saw us.

Li Jing shook his head regretfully: "Your mother is a hero. ”

Jin Yuan's expression on the other side paused: "What do you mean?" ”

"There were no problems with the results 20 years ago. Xu Zilong is indeed your mother Jin Fengxia said to kill, but do you want to hear the story behind that murder? Li Jing looked at the neatly stacked chopsticks on the table.

Jin Yuan still showed an injured look when he heard the result, he hesitated for a while, and finally nodded in agreement.

With the heat of the casserole, Li Jing told Jin Yuan about the case from twenty years ago. After a meal, Jin Yuan didn't move a single chopstick, he quietly listened to what Li Jing said.

"Actually, I've been checking it myself for so long, and I can more or less guess the truth of the matter, but I still can't accept it when I hear it with my own ears." Jin Yuan's eyes stared blankly at the packed meal.

Li Jing looked at him a little unbearable, he thought for a while and said, "Maybe it's not appropriate to say this matter, but your mother is a hero." ”

"Is it because you killed Xu Zilong?" Jin Yuan smiled bitterly.

"It's not." Li Jing shook his head, "It's because of you." ”

Jin Yuan frowned.

"You underestimate the courage of a mother, and you underestimate the power of maternal love. She took risks not because of hate, but because of love. She loves you, and in order for you to survive in this sinister world, she is willing to take risks to help others get revenge. She loves you, that's why she accepted the consent of others without hesitation, she was afraid that others would regret it, and she was afraid that no one would be able to take care of you after she left. The letter was fake, but it must have been a message from the person who wrote it to you, in her mood at the time. She loves you, and he has abandoned a qiē, life, dignity and connection with you in order to be able to give you better protection when she leaves you. ”

"I'll never forget her." Kim Won was in tears.

"You have to always remember her and remember that she loves you."

I don't remember my mother, but when I looked out of my bedroom window at the distant blue sky, I felt as if my mother was staring at me, covering the whole sky. - Rabindranath Tagore, "As if"