Chapter 10: Personality Memory Recovery
The attending doctor and his deputy walked into the interrogation room and replaced Li Jing and Shi Hao, leaving only Team Xiao to help at the scene. After they sat down across from her, they began to appease her on trial.
"Miss Cui, don't be nervous, there are still some things that Team Xiao needs to know. Let's reminisce together, shall we? The doctor's voice became muffled.
Cui Yuling suddenly became alert, and she looked at the attending doctor suspiciously.
"Don't be nervous, we're here to help your daughter." The attending doctor comforted and made a sinking motion with his hand.
Cui Yuling obviously didn't believe the doctor's words, she closed her eyes and chose to ignore the doctor's hand movements.
The doctor saw her close her eyes, knowing that she was rejecting her hypnosis, he was not angry, but gently persuaded Cui Yuling's current personality: "Actually, you also know that your current personality is unstable, and it will be easier for you to distract yourself if you close your eyes, so it will be easier for me to wake up your other personalities, and you still can't protect her." You're here to protect him, aren't you? â
Cui Yuling's eyelids moved, but she still didn't open her eyes.
The doctor continued to reassure: "You don't have to open your eyes, you just have to listen to me." I know you're in a mess right now, because you know that your responsibility is to protect the real Cui Yuling, but have you thought about it, if you keep resisting like this, Cui Yuling will be locked up in such a place for the rest of your life, is this the result you want to see as a mother? The doctor paused for a while, seeing that Cui Yuling still didn't respond, and continued, "You have already helped him become a deserter, do you still want her to be a fugitive for the rest of her life?" If you continue to help her in this way, she will be trapped in a cage forever. Only you can help her, you know, he wants to tell us the truth, let her come out and tell us personally. â
Cui Yuling's brows became tighter and tighter, and her body trembled when she opened, and the attending doctor glanced at the deputy, who understood, took out a tranquilizer from the medicine box, and injected Cui Yuling. After more than ten minutes, Cui Yuling gradually woke up, she looked at her attending doctor, and turned her eyes to the ceiling again.
Teacher Lu walked in and sat down on the chair next to Cui Yuling: "We have investigated and know that your husband has domestic violence against your daughter. So, maybe your daughter was just defending herself at the time. Maybe she killed her husband by mistake while defending, and we need to hear her clearly. She was so flustered that she chose to ask you for help, she can trust us, we can re-investigate the case, we have our own judgment. But we need her to come out and make it clear in person. â
Hearing Teacher Lu say this, Cui Yuling's expression became painful, and her closed eyes suddenly overflowed with tears: "She's so pitiful." â
No one continued, just listened quietly to Cui Yuling's sobs.
After crying for a few minutes, Cui Yuling calmed down: "She's so pitiful. "She was insecure, so her father's illness was the biggest blow to her, and the doctor had clearly told her about his father's condition, and she knew that his father's time was short." But because he is her only support, she can't accept the facts, and she tortures herself every day. She wanted someone to help her soothe her inner turmoil, but everyone convinced her of the damn truth. She watched as the day of her father's departure drew nearer, she became more and more anxious, no one could give her the comfort she wanted, but he needed such comfort so much, she remembered her former mother, she needed a support, so she created me. At first, she just pretended to talk to me to escape her inner torment. â
Telling the truth seemed to make her feel better, she opened her eyes and continued: "But then things became more and more out of control, and she found herself drowning in painful memories of the past, and every day she was thinking about her mother's tears when she was a child, and she began to fear that she would fall into another kind of uneasiness, and she realized that she could no longer control me, because I was always trying to convince her to believe the truth. And I began to immerse myself more and more in her memories of her mother, I realized that I became an independent personality when I was in that car accident, I thought that I had experienced the fear of a car accident, I involuntarily began to think of myself as her mother, I repeated what her mother did in the hospital, and only when I was occasionally awake could I realize that I was just another personality of hers, and she realized this, and more often than not, I took the main character, so in a situation where I was asleep, she accepted the doctor's day. Hypnosis temporarily sealed me. â
"Because of that chaotic time, she missed the last time she saw her father, in fact, her father's death and her slumber only missed a few minutes." Speaking of this, her eyes began to turn red again, and we all know that being able to have this kind of affection shows that her personality as a 'daughter' is slowly recovering, "She has a high self-esteem, so she can't face those former friends and her boyfriend who have seen her most vulnerable side, and she can only choose to leave." Before her father died, she had found a job in England to take care of his father's treatment there, which was also an opportunity for him to leave here. She started a new life at that time when no one knew her, and by chance, she met a man who also worked there. Because she was too lonely, and because she wanted someone to talk to, this man's initiative made her experience a little sweetness close to a sense of security. After two months of dating him, I decided to marry him. â
Cui Yuling turned 'her' into 'me', and we know that the real Cui Yuling is back.
She sat up straight and looked at Teacher Lu, and there was no longer the banter in her eyes: "But after getting married, I found out that he is not only an alcoholic but also a tyrant, and he will use violence against me after drinking, but I really can't tell others about it, I don't want to admit that I married such a husband." But everybody knows it. â
Teacher Lu nodded: "So you didn't choose to call the police when he hurt you." â
Cui Yuling closed her eyes again and shook her head in pain; "My self-esteem wouldn't allow me to call the police. Knowing that I was no threat to him, he intensified his violence against me, and finally one time I couldn't bear him anymore, and I drove out of the house, and there was a car accident on the way, and when I was taken to the hospital, I learned that I was pregnant with a child, but because of the car accident, I lost the child like my mother. Speaking of this, she gently touched her stomach, "The doctors at the hospital found other injuries on my body and helped me call the police." The news that my husband was violent spread out, but fortunately no one in the company knew about it, so I quit my job in order to keep it under control. Because of the stimulation of the car accident, I began to subconsciously awaken myself to another strong personality, I listened to psychology classes in college, and knew that hypnosis can only temporarily seal my other personalities, and I also know how to awaken the sleeping personality. But at first I just wanted her to talk to me as a 'mother' that I had never gotten before, because I was so scared to be alone in that kind of life, and I needed someone to support me. â
"But after the accident, you let her take over your personality." Team Xiao said on the side.
"I'm sorry." Cui Yuling apologized: "I didn't expect my husband to find out my secret. At first, he just thought I was talking to myself, but then he didn't know where he found out my admission records and knew that I had schizophrenia, so he paid special attention to me. When he found out the truth, he began to verbally humiliate me, and even this became the reason for his violence against me. The last time, I couldn't bear it anymore, I don't know where I got the courage to start resisting him, we were in the stairwell, and I accidentally pushed him downstairs while resisting him. I panicked and I wanted to save him, but I remembered how he usually treated me, and I didn't know what to do, so from then on, I completely woke her from sleep. She took care of the rest of the matter in my place. By the time my consciousness returned, I was back here. â
"Does another personality have your memories and you don't have hers?" Team Xiao asked, looking at the notebook in his hand that had been recording.
Cui Yuling shook her head: "I don't want to have her memory, I don't even want to have my own memory." â
After listening to Cui Yuling's answer, Team Xiao suddenly looked up at Cui Yuling and asked her, "So it was your other personality who entrusted Fang Shihao to help you find things at the beginning?" But as you just said, your other personality does not have amnesia. â
"Nope." Cui Yuling looked at Team Xiao, "I asked Fang Shihao to help me recall." â
"Huh?" Team Xiao looked at Cui Yuling suspiciously.
Cui Yuling bit her lip, lowered her eyelids and said, "I don't want to live under her protection all the time, she is not my mother." â
Because of these words, the entire interrogation room fell silent.
"I made her, but I didn't get the company I wanted, I was just using her to escape life. She wasn't trying to get me out of my loneliness, she was trying to erase my memories so that I didn't feel guilty. But what about after my memories are gone? Will I still save zĂ i? When she erased my worst memories, so did my best memories. When these memories are gone, I am gone. So, when I returned to my main personality as myself, I decided to ask Shi Hao for help, I had no way to contact Li Jing, but I knew that he would definitely try to help me contact the person I wanted to contact the most. No matter how bad the memories or the horrific experiences, I need to know, and I know I can't run away from them. I'm sorry I took advantage of Shi Hao. â
I turned my head to look at Shi Hao beside me, who was staring at the screen expressionlessly, but I noticed that there was some more sparkling water in his eyes.
At the end of the interrogation, I came out of the monitoring room, just in time for Cui Yuling who came out of it, and I wanted to go up and tell her what I didn't say to her that day, but Li Jing stopped me: "There are some things that don't make sense to say now." â
"Do you know what I'm trying to say?" I turned my head and asked her, there were some things I was afraid that if I didn't say them now, it would be really too late.
"I know. You want to tell her that I still love her, and I love her no matter what she looks like. "Li Jing didn't look at me.
I was suddenly a little discouraged: "You know all about it. â
"I sent you back that day, I heard you cry when you closed the door at the door, and I thought you would definitely find a chance to say this to Yuling."
"Then why don't you let me say it?" I asked him anxiously, you still love her.
"Because there's no going back." When Li Jing said this, Cui Yuling passed by him, and I saw her smile relievedly, "Thank you." Then she bent her eyes and cried.
"It's the last thing I can do for her. She knows, she knows everything. â
I looked at Li Jing, the first time I saw him in tears, I turned around and hugged him, I patted him on the back like coaxing a child who had lost his treasure.