Chapter 33: The Past Is Empty
Ling Nan was a little dissatisfied, "Qianqian, he's just a child." Liu Qianqian pursed her lips and wanted to speak, but when she saw Ling Nan's unhappy face, she moved her lips and nodded obediently. followed Ling Nan into the sedan chair, and the two fell into silence.
Closing his eyes in the sedan chair, Ling Nan suddenly remembered that ten years ago, he and Liu Qianqian had dinner together, and a little maid accidentally broke Liu Qianqian's favorite tea set of Yue kiln celadon, and that set of teacups was enough to redeem the girl's deed of sale, Liu Qianqian was naturally angry, and originally wanted to punish the maid, but she saw that she was pitiful and interceded for her.
Later, I went to the house again, the maid gave herself a handkerchief, embroidered with a Nan tree, at that time she just said a faint thank you, she said to you is just a word of things, but I can be exempted from punishment once, I don't like to owe favors, but I don't have silver two, even if there is a young master Nan, I can't look at it, so embroidered this veil, it is considered to repay your kindness. He didn't know how to embroider, but he could also see that the handkerchief was finely workmanlike, and he accepted it at the time, but he unexpectedly hurt her.
Liu Qianqian somehow knew about this, thinking that the maid had something in mind about herself, and actually framed her and beat her to death, he didn't know how a little girl could be so ruthless, a handkerchief cost a life, he felt guilty for a long time.
Later, my father sent him to Nanqi, he didn't object, but he met Luoxue, she seemed to be good to everyone, but she never had a deep friendship with people, she saw everything clearly, smiled on the surface, but in fact, she was distant from everyone, and she never wanted to confide in her heart, just like that day when she had a heart-devouring Gu attack, didn't she hide on the roof and endure it, if she hadn't seen her sad appearance in her sleep in her room, she would really think that she was a big carefree girl, But suddenly he saw the coldness and fragility hidden beneath her fiery exterior.
At that time, he suddenly remembered the maid who gave him a handkerchief, she has always been a breezy appearance, even if Liu Qianqian said that she would punish her, she was only symbolically begging for mercy, and he who was present at the time did not see a trace of fear on her face at all, and he was also a little curious at that time, as the master, if he wants to punish people, which one is not to lose a layer of skin? But why isn't this maid who looks like she is just over ten years old?
Later, he also asked the maid, she just smiled slightly, a baby face was particularly cute, she said that the young lady's temperament must be punished, what is the use of begging for mercy? What should come is always coming.
It was as if the snow was giving alms that time, and I asked her why she didn't look for the antidote, and she said that she couldn't find it, so it was better to do something.
He couldn't understand how a child could say such an old thing, but he remembered what the maid looked like. Later, when he saw the falling snow, he was in a trance for a moment, and the memories that had been sealed for ten years suddenly poured out, these two people were so similar! With the same eyebrows and eyes, the same calmness, he even wondered if Luoxue was the maid back then, but how could Luochen leave the people of Northern Qin by his side?
It may be the guilt of the maid, or it may be attracted by the liveliness and calmness of the falling snow, he always can't help but want to get close to her, although he knows that the two of them are impossible at all, but he is still like a moth to a fire, and when he wants to wake up, her voice and smile have long been imprinted in his mind, and he can never forget it.
He actually didn't understand Luoxue's feelings for him, all the judgments were just the glances she looked at herself with unwillingness and expectation at the palace banquet, thinking that maybe she was really self-inflicted, she didn't want to marry Luochen, he knew, Luochen wanted to marry her, and he also knew, so when she went to ask Luochen, Luochen would definitely not agree, and she didn't know others, so she could only come to beg herself.
Yes, it must be like this, and then she went to visit herself in the prison, probably just because she was in prison for her reasons, he didn't have much contact with her, and they didn't know each other, so how could she be lightly moved? Luochen has guarded her for ten years, doesn't she only take Luochen as a friend?
He thought, as long as she was willing to go with him, he could not do anything, wander the world with her, live in seclusion in the mountains and forests, and pay one person from now on, and never ask about the world, but she let him leave, she said that it would not be bad for him to fall into the dust, what kind of cold affection can make her so? If she really has affection for him, why doesn't she show anything at all?
And she still blocked the sword for Luochen, she will go to the prison, maybe she doesn't want to die by herself, after all, she can even help beggars, but when life and death are at stake, she still chose Luochen after all, isn't it, maybe Luochen was moved by her, so she agreed to her request to let herself go.
Ling Nan's mind kept flashing all kinds of pictures, as if they were all related to her, he suddenly found that his heart was so painful, but why did it hurt? In the end, she didn't even look at him with her eyes, she said that she didn't want to see her friend die, it turned out that she was just a friend to her. Is he hurting that he is in love with someone he shouldn't love, or is he hurting her for not loving him? Ling Nan thought about it for a long time and couldn't come up with an answer, but his heart became more and more painful, so he couldn't help but open his eyes and cover his chest. laughed self-deprecatingly, what does it matter if you love or not, she is the princess of the dust, the past is like smoke, and it should have dissipated a long time ago.
"Brother Nan, what's wrong with you?" Liu Qianqian, who was sitting opposite him, asked with some concern. Ling Nan's expression all fell in her eyes, from the initial softness to the painful to the final self-deprecation, she didn't know what he was thinking, she suddenly felt that her Nan brother had become so strange, he no longer seemed to be the original Nan brother who played with him and spoiled him.
"I'm fine." Ling Nan shook his head and put down the hand covering his chest, "Qianqian, I hope you can be kind to others in the future and be a kind girl." Liu Qianqian was stunned for a moment, and nodded as if she didn't understand, "I remembered Brother Nan." Ling Nan smiled, looking at her gaze softened a lot, remembering the sloppy appearance when the snow fell, the wide apron, the half-rolled sleeves, the stained face, and the bright eyes, as if her crisp call was coming from her ears again, Ling Nan, here. He muttered in a low voice, "Actually, the beauty of the soul is the most important thing." ”
"What?" Liu Qianqian didn't hear his words clearly, Ling Nan smiled, "I think, then you should be the most beautiful woman." "The most beautiful?" Liu Qianqian didn't understand, wasn't she already a famous beauty in Northern Qin? What does this have to do with being unkind to people? Further, what is there about those people who are worthy of their own kindness?