The last semester of middle school came sooner than expected.

This semester, I became interested in "Infernal Affairs", and I was a little confused about whether it was my future career, whether I wanted to be an undercover agent?

The word "Infernal" in the title of the film "Infernal Affairs" has already established the main tone of the music of the entire film. "Infernal Hell" originally referred to the Infernal Hell, and in Buddhist scriptures it refers to the most painful layer of hell. Man in the Infernal Hell will never have any hope of liberation, will never feel anything but suffering, and will never be reborn. The religious overtones and endless pain represented by "Infernal" correspond to the mysterious and gloomy battle of wits and courage scenes with strong Buddhist religious overtones throughout the film. And the first scene at the beginning of the film is in the temple, which also has a certain hint of this. The word "infernal" actually symbolizes that the two protagonists live forever in masks, and both want to live a carefree real life, but they have to live in the darkness of no light, and this pain is like walking in an infernal hell.

But that theme song became a favorite on my phone:

Infernal Affairs

Singing: Andy Lau, Tony Leung

I'm going to live for me

and live for you

I have never been tired

Forget if I'm intoxicated

If there is a future, we still have to chase it

Life is too short, tomorrow is infinite

It's never as far away as ever

Ignore the fact that there are too many long roads in the world, and there are too few destinations

The Trojan horse is also going to continue to spin in circles

Obviously, I have walked the road ahead last night

Why hasn't the other side of the dream arrived yet?

Obviously, I have worked hard to get on the road every day

I don't die to live well

There is no end who knows.

In this earthly Infernal Affairs

……

Life is too short, tomorrow is infinite

It's never as far away as ever

Ignore the fact that there are too many long roads in the world, and there are too few destinations

The Trojan horse is also going to continue to spin in circles

Obviously, I have walked the road ahead last night

Why hasn't the other side of the dream arrived yet?

Obviously, I have worked hard to get on the road every day

I don't die to live well

There is no end who knows.

In this earthly Infernal Affairs

How to get out of Paradise Lost

It's always a pleasure to linger

It's a long way to get to Bliss

Hardship in hardship, suffering in hardship, and suffering in pain will never stop

Obviously, I have walked the road ahead last night

Why hasn't the other side of the dream arrived yet?

Obviously, I have worked hard to get on the road every day

I don't die to live well

You'll find out until you're near the end

I went back to the Biqu Pavilion and started from www.biquge.info beginning

……

"I don't die, I will live well!" I clenched my fists until my knuckles turned white.

"You don't believe me like that?" It's a special cold war again, but last time it was a brother, and this time it's dear her. I finally knew why my teachers in middle school were so desperate to keep their students from falling in love. This kind of thing is really difficult to do, unreasonable, and a waste of time;

Lin Ying's attitude is really hard, she hasn't spoken to me for three weeks, that is, I am standing at the door of the classroom, and she would rather not go to the toilet than come out to see me.

I also clearly understood that on the day of the karate gym, I did not chase it out in time, and obviously missed the best time to apologize.

For this reason, I decided to study hard, and when my grades improved, I could say out loud to her that I would go to the same university as you, and the good news would definitely make her hug me tightly, haha!

I fantasized like this, wasn't she always afraid that we wouldn't be able to be together in college? When I thought that my efforts were rewarded, I took the excellent results of the next monthly exam. "Hehe, I've written all the beautiful scripts." I'm going to jump right in front of her, take my transcript and tell her with confidence, I'm going to the same university as you!

When I think of this, I wake up with a smile in my dreams, because through my hard work, my progress has gone exactly as planned.

In the three weeks that she ignored me, I just went all the way, reading and studying day and night.

……

In order to be in the same school as Lin Ying after the college entrance examination, I continued the learning style of Tingting and studied harder. Although two years of homework are missing, it will make anyone feel sad. But that blazing hope made me as persistent as my father day by day.

This is how I lived in the last semester of my third year of high school. My learning goal has shifted from the beginning, in order to anger Tingting's father, to the ideal of going to college with Lin Ying in the future.

However, a piece of paper evaluation actually suppressed my ideals into the eighteenth layer of hell.

First I felt a tingling sensation in the back of my neck, and then I became more and more stiff in my neck, and these details were the precursors of disaster. But at first, I didn't think so.

"Ke Guoquan, do you really think that in a year, you can make those hard-working students who don't release their papers every day great?" Wang Dequan struck me in the sore spot in disgust.

"Don't you know that there is a kind of person in this world called genius?" I retorted: "Stephen Chow said: 'I'm ruthless, even I'm afraid of myself!'" Wang Dequan's contempt is not unreasonable, but I completely regard him as an angry remark that he thinks I robbed his Yang Yufei.

Actually, I'm not a genius, I just learn by being more diligent than others and being more able to learn. Everyone can talk about learning efficiency, but those who really find efficient methods can often learn the best.

So I started to be cruel to myself, others studied twelve hours a day, I studied eighteen hours a day, to see who was more ruthless than whom!

Brother fights, in addition to eating, drinking, pulling, and sprinkling, it takes an hour, and he only sleeps five hours a day, so he counts. With a total of 24 hours a day, I was able to study for 18 hours a day. What is the college entrance examination comparison? It's more ruthless than anyone!

But I didn't know that a fatal mistake was creeping in......

That is, in this world, there are people who are inherently unsuitable for diligent learning methods. Because even if the world shouts every day that people are equal, what to say: others can do it, you can do it. But in fact, there are subtle differences between people, such as diligence. Some people are outwardly diligent but not efficient at all, and some are outwardly lazy but outrageously efficient.

And after a period of hard work, I unfortunately realized that I was the kind of person who was hardworking and very inefficient, and later I actually learned my body badly!

……

"Ke Guoquan, cervical spine displacement, Jian yì suspension of school!" The school doctor's diagnosis was the end of my cultural knowledge.

"What? No! "For the first time in my life, I felt panicked, and I said that I would go to the school she liked with Lin Ying? Could it be that because of the lack of strength in the body, they parted ways like this?

"Child, you have been studying too diligently for most of the past half a year, and you have caused the cervical spine to shift, so you should suspend your studies!" The school doctor's office today is an old Chinese medicine doctor, he comforted.

……

Ever since I got sick, even if Lin Ying came to me, I turned a blind eye to her. At that time, I was too painful, because we were originally walking on the same broad road with that piece of medical records, but we dramatically became two people walking on two parallel lines.

I am like the Infernal Hell in "Infernal Affairs", I have entered the Infernal, and the legendary Infernal Hell has no reincarnation, only endless suffering.

I thought that since my future was already in hell, I should not drag her into hell again, so I refused to cross paths with her again, at least not to let her see me sink into my depravity.

Of course she is young, and no one can deprive her of the pursuit of greater thrills in life.

Ever since I got sick and couldn't study, I was like a soulless walking dead every day.

But what I didn't expect was that I, who had nothing to do, was selected by the teacher as the class president, which was too unexpected.

Obviously, I like to fight since I was a child, and I'm not a good person.

When I was a child, I fought with others, and I knew that I must not hurt the other party. And I have been fighting since I was a child, all for girls, because I watched too much TV at that time, I was heroic, and I couldn't get used to boys bullying the weak, so every time someone bullied a female classmate, I would stand up. But every time I was a loser, I was beaten all over the ground and looked for teeth.

In the end, I had to look at those girls, who obviously helped them, stood aside and laughed stupidly, laughing at me like a fool, the original hero. I knew that there were no heroes and good people in this world to do, so I didn't think about being a good person since I was a child.

Now when I see someone besieging a thief, I will also say something: "Don't fight, don't fight!" He went up and gave the little one a few kicks.

I'm not a good person!

In order to make Lin Ying die for me, I really found Yang Yufei.

Before, we acted in front of Lin Ying and Wang Dequan, in order to let Wang Dequan know that it was difficult to retreat, Yang Yufei didn't like him. Now we want to make a play, we want to do a full set of plays, and then kill another heroine, this time the target is Lin Ying.

I didn't expect this Nizi to be happy to say this, alas, I already thought of Tingting when I saw her. How good Tingting is, Yang Yufei in front of her, although this person is a gorgeous and extraordinary woman. But she feels unreal, picturesque, hazy like a distant mountain, and no one knows what she's thinking.

(To be continued...... ）