150 My hesitation
He looked at me with eyes that were so gentle that they dripped, and I indulged in them without paying attention. He folded his arms and brought the distance between us closer, a pair of eyes pressed over little by little, and then his lips gently pressed to mine, and whispered in a whispering gesture: "Leyi, I love you." ”
His eyes and voice were like catalysts, and I lost my armor and immediately collapsed.
"What about you?" He stared into my eyes and asked repeatedly, "What about you?" ”
I moved my mouth and made a mouth shape, but I still couldn't say those words. I just felt that it had come to this point, there was no need and no reason to say, his face tightened, he bit my lip heavily, and said with a little grievance: "Don't say that I'm angry." ”
I saw that he suddenly became a child, and my heart was very warm, and I climbed his neck, stared into his eyes, and said clearly word by word: "I love you." ”
His eyes lit up at once, and he kissed him deep and fervently......
When I woke up the next day, I saw his smiling face, and suddenly felt that last night's Yiqiē was like a dream, so I leaned over and kissed his eyes and asked, "Was I dreaming last night?" ”
"Do you want to do it again?" He asked with a smile.
I shook my head helplessly, he would try his best to change the topic if he didn't want to say something, but about marriage, I had to ask clearly, I didn't want him to fool me so sloppily.
Because I have experienced a marriage, I know that marriage is definitely not a matter of two people, it is a matter of two families. Chu Yi and I were as good as one person at the beginning, but we were not separated in the end.
Now the man next to me has been replaced by He Liancheng, he is better and more considerate to me, and he has paid more, even in all our experiences, he has always been the one who took the initiative to sacrifice, he has given up hesitation and regretted...... But now he still firmly chose me.
At the moment when he proposed to get married last night, I was not unmoved, but I couldn't be as ignorant as I used to be. I'm not the best spouse for him.
I'm not inferior, I'm not hypocritical, but I feel that he has done so much for me, and I have to do something for him. Do I really want to take Yuan Yuan and Tong Tong and marry him as a wine lady who used to be a wine lady? So how will he raise his head in the circle in the future?
He Zelin's words that day were just to the point, he said that you live together and marry you, are two things of a completely different nature, and he also told He Liancheng very clearly, do you think your marriage will not have a great impact on your business?
Since he asked such a question, the answer is naturally self-evident, and every answer should be yes.
We are not children, we are not ignorant, in this emotional training competition, we all know what we have encountered and what we will encounter in the future.
He Xiao is now He Zelin's son, if he chooses a girl who is the right person and helps his career to marry, the advantage is too obvious. Although it is not yet known what the final outcome of He Xiao and He Liancheng will be in the future, according to He Xiao's character, since he squeezed into the door of the He family, how could the purpose be small?
We have all learned He Xiao's methods, and he will definitely take advantage of all aspects and package himself as the image of the most perfect successor. Now He Zelin will only be sixty years old, and there is still a long time left for He Xiao. If he can use five or six years after returning to China to go to the group and squeeze into the He family to obtain an official status, he will be able to widen the gap between He Liancheng and him in a shorter time.
My marriage to He Liancheng will not only not bring anything to He Liancheng, but will even become a burden to him.
He gave up a qiē in exchange for marrying me, but because he loved me now. Love is a thing, you don't have to pay attention to it at the beginning, whether two people fall in love at first sight, or give in for a long time, it will quickly burn. But what about when the passion wears off? What about the real problems one by one?
I can also feel it now, He Liancheng's desire for marriage between the two of us is already at the end of his strength, and he decided to marry me with this last strength, and then broke the kettle and tied us tightly together.
And what about after that? The most feared thing about feelings is that at the same time as love disappears, both of them enter marriage with a little tiredness, and then the married life after that can be imagined.
He Zelin's non-interference made me recognize our situation and our gap, which made me feel deeply retreated.
"What are you doing?" He scratched my nose and asked me. I blinked an eye to see that he had cleaned up the moment I was stunned.
"Lian Cheng, after taking the child to choose the gym today, let's go to pick up Kuankuan together?" I smiled and hid the tangles in my heart.
"Okay, I should also cultivate a relationship with my father in advance, and I will move back to live after marriage in the future." He Liancheng smiled softly and said, "Hurry up, it's almost nine o'clock now, I'll get two children." ”
"Hmm." I answered.
His casual words made me feel that the thought in my heart was as hard as iron, and my heart ached. I just said that I wanted to pick up Kuankuan with him, not at all because I wanted to cultivate a relationship with He Zelin in advance, but because I wanted to talk to him.
I hope to hear his most honest opinion. After all, at my age, I still can't see things clearly enough, and I don't have any elders around me to ask for advice. Since he is an old friend of his father, I put aside He Liancheng's relationship, and I also want to hear his opinion on some things after he is an old friend.
Like a dutiful father, He Lian took the children and me to carefully pick up the gym, and finally chose a gym that is said to have an embassy background, paid the tuition fee and set the class time, and took the clothes of the gym to complete the task assigned by the teacher last week.
His expression was soft and patient when he did this qiē. I looked at the three men walking in front of me, especially wanting Yuan Yuan and Tong Tong to be his children. I regret it, the first man I met back then was not He Liancheng. If it were him, it would be different, right?
Yuan Yuan and Tong Tong were holding brand new clothes, and when they heard that they were going to pick up their younger brother, they were very interested, and they were talking about things all the way, and finally said that Chu Yi took them to the playground yesterday.
He Liancheng keenly captured the happy expressions on their faces, glanced at me and said, "Actually, it's good to make a step like this." ”
I'm noncommittal, isn't that good? In my opinion, Chu Yi forcibly intervened in my life again, and was still doing something to abduct the child from me. I don't like the child's radiant look when he talks about Chu Yi, I don't like it at all.
When he arrived at He Liancheng's house, Xiao Kuankuan was fiddling with building blocks in the children's room upstairs, and He Zelin took a newspaper and sat on the sofa next to him, watching him play.
When he saw Aunt Cao taking us in, he put down the newspaper and took off his eyes, and asked very casually, "Come here to pick up the child?" ”
"Well, by the way, I have a meal at home." He Liancheng walked over, sat down on his knees on the floor in front of Kuankuan, and said to Kuankuan, "Little thing, I don't look up when I see my dad coming, I play so attentively." ”
He Zelin smiled and said, "I know that you guys are coming to eat, Aunt Cao is ready." ”
Yuan Yuan and Tong Tong called their grandfather obediently, and then ran to play with Kuankuan, and the men in the room had something to do, but I stood not far away and watched, like an inconsequential outsider.
Xiao Kuankuan's attention was attracted by the pile of colorful building blocks in front of him, and he looked up and called his mother, and lowered his head to play.
"Leyi, sit." He Zelin pointed to the sofa against the wall and motioned for me to sit down.
"Uncle He, were you familiar with my dad when you were young?" I walked over to him and sat down and asked.
"Well, at least until your dad got married, the two of us were good brothers." He Zelin said frankly.
"There's something about my dad, I'd like to ask you, okay?" I asked with a smile.
"Okay." He Zelin smiled and glanced at Kuankuan and said, "It is estimated that Lao Lin would not have imagined that after going around in a big circle, his daughter would be my daughter-in-law." ”
"So let's find a place to talk? The children here are all ......," I smiled and said.
He Zelin looked at his watch and said, "Go to the study, there is still a period of time before dinner, and I happen to have something left by your father for you." ”
"Dad, what's it?" He Liancheng heard the content of our conversation with sharp ears.
"When you go back, you ask Le Yi to see if she is willing to sue you." He Zelin stood up and said with a slight smile. He Liancheng glanced up at me and said, "Dad, don't worry, there is nothing to hide between the two of us." Then he asked me, "Isn't that right?" ”
"Uncle Ho." I ignored him and opened the door to help He Zelin out.
He Zelin's study is very large, occupying a small half of the third floor, and the places against the wall are tall bookshelves that stand up to the sky, which are full of books.
He sat down on the couch by the window and said to me, "Sit down and talk, I don't think you're going to ask me about your father." ”
"Well, you can see it all?" I sat down across from him and asked.
In this windowside are two comfortable single sofas, a simple and unadorned mahogany round table, on which is placed a small pot of happy trees, growing luxuriantly and green.
"I've always said you're a smart kid." He Zelin asked with a smile, "Do you want to drink something?" ”
"No, I'll just ask a few words." I pondered my words and said slowly, "Uncle He, my parents have passed away, and I don't have any elders around me. My uncle and aunt are both abroad, and I don't even have much contact. The reason why they didn't take the initiative to contact me may have something to do with my mother's ruined marriage with you back then. So, now as an elder, you are the only one who can give me some advice. ”
"What do you want to ask?" He Zelin opened the silver cigarette case, popped out a cigarette and asked, "Can I smoke?" ”
"Feel free to do so, I used to smoke too." I laughed bluntly.
He lit a cigarette and took a puff, and said to me through the smoke: "Your parents were very strict about what happened back then, I can understand it." So there's no point of blaming you, and you don't know the grievances of the previous generation. Thinking about my attitude towards you at the beginning, I feel a little unaffordable to call you 'Uncle He'. ”
"I understand how you feel, and if something like this is on me, I'm overreacting." I think that only after a qiē has passed can I objectively and calmly evaluate the whole incident. Originally, I thought He Zelin was very targeted at me, but now that the more I contact, the more I feel that his way of dealing with it is soft