I wanted to remember her quietly alone.

But back at home, the house is full of traces of Cheng Jiayi's life, dining table, kitchen, bathroom, her favorite blue sofa, TV, dresser...... She is everywhere.

Shu Hang only felt that his thoughts were suffocating him more and more, and finally he was irritable and casually asked someone out for a drink.

At this moment, he especially wanted to get drunk, although he already knew that there was no room for recovery, but if there was still room to dream, at least the pain was not so thorough.

"Married", he has no intention of leaving him with a future at all.

This news came so suddenly, so quickly, and so unprepared, and it didn't give him a buffer to heal by time, so it was smashed down with a head and face.

It's like a glass of high spirits, and your throat is hot and painful as soon as you eat it.

Shu Hang shook the dice with others, shouted numbers randomly, lost one glass after another, and poured wine into his mouth.

Originally, it was for drinking, and the game was played carelessly, and several times I didn't even bother to open the dice cup, grabbed the wine glass and drank it all.

My friend saw his abnormality, and he didn't ask or blame him, but accompanied him with understanding.

But he borrowed wine to drown his sorrows, and as alcohol played a role in his body, Shu Hang only felt that his thoughts about Cheng Jiayi were getting stronger and stronger, and they were becoming more and more uncontrollable.

I'm already drunk, after so much drinking, I must have been drunk, as usual, I should have entered a trance, but why am I still so sober today, I know that I miss her so much, and after I vomited by the sink, my tears fell into the rinse water without warning.

He really wanted to hear her sweet voice, he wanted to see her round little face, he wanted to hug her soft body.

But he was so aware that he couldn't do anything, he couldn't do anything, not even a phone call, and he wasn't allowed to make a call.

Why not get a little drunker? Drunk to the point of losing his mind, drunk to the point of having no scruples, drunk to do whatever he wants.

#

Shu Hang really drank too much, friends and even the security guards at the bar, many people persuaded him to take a taxi home, and some people directly called him a substitute driver, but he was low and irritable, where could he listen.

Subjectively, subconsciously, he just wanted Cheng Jiayi to pick him up.

If you can't ask for it, you can't get it, and you don't even have the courage to ask for it, so you can only stubbornly insist on driving yourself.

In the dead of night, the road was empty, and he drove at high speed for a long time, his stomach and heart were on the verge of collapse, and he braked and stopped in the middle of the road.

Lying on the steering wheel, silently weeping without compromise.

How can a man cry? He has been strong since he was a child, and he gritted his teeth and never cried when he didn't take anesthetic stitches, but every time he thought of Cheng Jiayi, he couldn't control his tears.

Later, drunk, tired, and unconsciously fell asleep.

#

I don't know how long it took, a traffic police officer woke him up by the car window.

Shu Hang looked at the blue clothes in front of him in a daze, and his brain realized sluggishly: Something is wrong!

But my heart was unexpectedly calm and numb.

People who often hang out at night and are inseparable from alcohol most of the time, in fact, when they encounter this situation, there are more or less ways to find them, but he smiled bitterly, and he has no intention of finding a way.

The traffic police seemed to say something to ask him to cooperate, and he didn't listen to it much, but he obediently did not resist the steps such as measuring the alcohol content, and showed a distressing appearance of being slaughtered, and was finally taken back to the police station.

Blood was drawn, confessions were recorded, and he was placed in a chair waiting for him to wake up.

Shu Hang felt very tired, not physically tired, but mentally tired.

I used to think that the colorful world outside was wonderful, and I felt that the glass cover imprisoned by Cheng Jiayi was boring and boring, but at this moment, I realized that the so-called outside world was so boring and empty, and in the future, without Cheng Jiayi's glass cover, he didn't know how to continue walking.

#

When he signed the confession, he probably knew that there would be a prison life, but he felt unusually calm: This is ...... It's good.

There was no hesitation, no helplessness, just a deep feeling of powerlessness.

When it came to bail pending trial, for a moment, I wanted to call Cheng Jiayi over willfully, with her easy-to-soft personality, she would definitely not stand idly by when he encountered difficulties.

But when he looked down and looked at his current wolf appearance, he could only smile wryly and shake his head, and casually called a friend.

#

That day, it wasn't until dawn that Shu Hang came out of the police station and was sent home by a friend.

I took a leave of absence and lay peacefully in bed for a day.

and return to the ordinary life.

It's just that later, in the months before the trial, he never drank again, and even went home directly after work and dinner every day, pushed all the drinking games, and never stayed outside.

Live a simple life.

During this period, a friend joked that he was transgender, and he just laughed.

Some friends guessed that Cheng Jiayi was recovered, so he was strictly controlled, and he just smiled and did not deny it. I bitterly hope that this is the end.

He had also been to Cheng Jiayi's studio a few times, and watched her walk out of the office building holding Ye Qingyun's hand from a distance across the road. Then take a taxi and follow the white Mercedes.

He didn't bother, and he didn't think he was in a position to bother, but he came anyway, he just wanted to see her again.

She was still the girl in his memory, but she was well taken care of by another man, and she had lost the gloom that she occasionally showed before, and became brighter and more moving.

It turned out that Ye Qingyun would come to pick her up from work every day, it turned out that they would buy vegetables and cook at home, and it turned out that such a daily and trivial life of firewood, rice, oil and salt was so happy.

It turns out that I can go in and out with her, right...... Make people ...... Envy.

It's just a blessing, he can't say it, knowing that he is at fault first, but looking at her happy appearance, he inexplicably has the illusion of being abandoned by her.

#

Cheng Jiayi is actually a very sharp person.

may have been too dull and insensitive when she was a child, and she was taught, but she gradually taught herself the ability to be vigilant about her surroundings. Later, he will feel the gaze projected on himself and the suspicious tail behavior.

So in the days when Shu Hang followed her, she received that gaze and also noticed the taxi behind the car.

However, firstly, there were not many times, and she was not sure whether it was really true, or she was suspicious, and secondly, in order not to worry Ye Qingyun, she saw that the other party did not mean to go further, so she did not delve into who the other party was, and then this feeling did not appear again, so she silently turned the page. (To be continued.) )