But our first impact didn't work, my heart was anxious, but without any hesitation, I yelled again and the neighbor fiercely slammed the door open, and when we frantically slammed the door, the imaginary thing did not happen, Xiaoyan did not choose to cut her wrists, drink medicine, jump off the building and other suicide methods, but curled up in the corner of the window in her home clothes, her body trembled slightly, and her long wet hair had submerged her face.

Looking at her I really can't speak, I feel like my heart is about to break, I don't know why I'm like this, anyway, standing at the door I am very uncomfortable, my legs and stomach can't help but tremble.

"It's nothing, where is suicide? What nonsense. ”

At this time, the man standing next to me said with a face full of anger.

"What? Do you still want something to happen to her? What kind of heart do you have? Black Heart? ”

I was so distraught that I got angry when I heard the man say something indignant, and I turned around and yelled at him, completely instinctively.

"Fuck~ groove, I helped and helped out something, it's a fucking disappointment, get out of here."

The man is also a violent temper and immediately roared at me, and while he spoke, he pulled his fat son away, and scolded while running, listening to his scolding, I was even more upset, I didn't want to look back, I didn't want to see Yu Xue's pitiful appearance at this time, when I thought that I had become like this because of her, my heart hurt like a knife, and my fist was released and clenched many times.

Yu Xue's choked sound made me want to cover my ears, but even if I covered my ears, my mind and heart were messing with me, I didn't seem to be out of breath anymore, now I seem to be telling her, I'm sorry, it's all my fault, I because you all went to my house yesterday, my mood was messy, I did something wrong, and I slept with Ou Kuangda when I was drunk, but I still didn't dare to say it, and it was even more difficult to speak, so I didn't do what people did for me, and I only now understood how wrong I was. I've become the scum of the lowest moral class.

"Yu Xue, Yu Xue, what's wrong with you?"

I finally turned around and looked at Yu Xue who was huddled in the corner in pain and asked knowingly, I only now really understand how cheap I am, how shameless, and how sanctimonious.

Of course, she didn't continue to curl up in the corner, but stood up, wiped her tears indiscriminately, and then changed from a bitter face to a smile, and said to me with a smile: "It's okay, I saw a cat downstairs being crushed to death by a car in front of my windowsill, and I felt very pitiful, so I cried sadly." ”

"Ugh"

Yu Xue obviously didn't want to say what happened, she didn't have the face to say it to me, but I didn't have the face to say it to her, just looking at Xiaoyan's smiling face, I felt even more uncomfortable, this was definitely the biggest blow to me, Yu Xue was obviously very painful, and she had to give such a non-nutritious reason, smiling at me beautifully, but was I worthy of her in front of her?

"Xiaoyan, I"

"By the way, why are you here? Shouldn't you go with your parents and your fiancée? I can't believe how I came to my humble house, the sun is really coming out of the west. ”

Yu Xue directly interrupted my words, and continued to deliberately disguise herself, not wanting me to see that she had something, and should I cooperate or not cooperate now? What choice do I have now? I don't have a moral bottom line, I don't deserve to stand in front of Yu Xue and remind her of what happened last night, I'm waiting for Ou Kuangda, as long as Ou Kuangda comes, I'll leave, don't appear in front of her, maybe I'm just a cowardly escape, right? But what is left but to escape? What I did to Yu Xue was simply intolerable, and I deserved to be struck by lightning, pushing the woman who liked me deeply into the abyss, and I felt that I was really shuddering.

"I'm just here to see you, after all, you're very lonely for the New Year alone, so I want to ask you, do you need to buy something to eat, I'll buy it for you, and what do you want to eat? I'll do it for you right away, you must be hungry because your face isn't very good, right? ”

I also deliberately disguised myself, and said sincerely to Yu Xue who was crying in front of me, but my heart was trembling when I spoke.

"Huh? Liang Jiafeng, what's wrong with you? It must be nerves, walk fast, I don't want to see neuropathy. ”

Yu Xue looked surprised, and gave me an order to expel her, she may not want to see me now, not Ou Kuangda, I was pushed hard by Yu Xue, but I didn't want to go, because Ou Kuangda hadn't come yet, and now I don't feel at ease when I leave, I think I'm really funny, obviously I've done things with no lower limit, but now I have to pretend to be a so-called good person, and it's a considerate inquiry, and a concerned cooking, I'm really a great actor, and I'm a great.

"Yu Xue, don't be like this, I can't leave yet, I'll cook you a meal, just one meal, okay? You must be hungry. ”

I was pushed at the door by Yu Xue, but I grabbed the door frame in an instant~ and said to her anxiously, but now Yu Xue is like an angry tiger, and she is determined to send me away.

"I'm not hungry, I don't need you to cook, you go quickly."

Yu Xue said to me like a roar, but as soon as the words fell, her stomach was gurgling, but Yu Xue's expression immediately changed, and the pretended anger disappeared immediately, full of sadness and embarrassment.

"You see your stomach is screaming, let me cook for you."

I hurriedly said to Yu Xue, persuade her to leave me to cook for her, not for anything else, just for a small apology and peace of mind, of course, a small meal is not worth what I did to her, I feel that I am very powerless, powerless to want to faint, there are no happy days every day, every day is upset, I feel that I am going crazy, maybe I have gone crazy, just looking at Yu Xue's embarrassed and sad appearance, I will cover up my madness, take Yu Xue's hand that has no strength, and prepare to cook in the kitchen, I couldn't calm down when I faced her, and I wanted to cry, so I had to run away.

The rather luxurious house has always been filled with a lifeless atmosphere, which can make people upset and confused, feel that the heart is not in a hurry, the body is not their own, and all the qiē is not their own.

It's just that when I stepped on the cotton-like ground and walked to the kitchen door, I heard Yu Xue's meaningful and trembling words, her words made my heart break instantly, and the melancholy aura emanating from all over quickly reverberate, as if to crush the beating heart, I stopped trembling.

"Liang Jiafeng, if a person is not clean, can she still stick to the love she has always adhered to?"

Yu Xue's question made me not know how to answer, I just fell into silence for a while, as if the whole world was silent with me at this moment, and this silence was about to make me crazy, how do I answer Yu Xue, this sentence has been floating in my mind, but I don't have the slightest answer, my brain is completely messed up.