478 Fear of failure
"Because of what? Come on, how did you swallow it? ”
Obviously, Xiaoyan was a little anxious, and the palm of the hand he was holding with me was also a little tighter.
"Because I'm afraid of failure, I'm more afraid of failure for you to witness, I'm afraid of disappointment, I'm even more afraid of letting you down completely, and then it turns into despair, I didn't say anything about the travel agency and no one, just because I was afraid that my first business would fail, and I admit that I was a coward after all."
My tone trembled a little, but my voice was very low, like a mosquito screaming, and I felt that I was a little embarrassed by myself.
My words fell, but the room was silent, the neat and warm little bedroom did not lack some joy, adding the so-called dead silence, I was a little afraid of such a dead silence, in fact, I was not so confident, and my heart was particularly unconfident, I couldn't guess through Xiaoyan, just like I couldn't see through myself.
This silence made me feel suffocated, how I wished that at this time there would be a strong wind to make me cold, how I wished that a basin of boiling water would be splashed on my face and make me burn.
However, this silence did not wait long, and when the palm of the silent Xiaoyan and I met became more and more compact, he spoke.
"Bingbing, what do you want me to say about you? First of all, you lack self-confidence, this is not good, even if you will succeed in something that will be successful, because you think about failure in advance, how can you succeed? The second is that I don't know me too well, don't let you fail once, even if you fail 99 times, I won't be disappointed, I think you have struggled, because you have that enterprising heart, even if you fail, I will sincerely encourage you, even if you can't help you materially, I can also silently cheer for you in my heart, I can also do something practical, such as this month, you work from 9 to 5 every day, I can cook better meals for you, wash your feet, wash your feet, and make the already warm home more warm, But Bingbing, you always think too much, so much so that you make the wrong decision that you think is right. ”
Xiaoyan said sincerely, said with a lot of emotion, said sternly complained, but every word she said was with a strong love, listening to her long words, I was touched, I only understand now, and I understand, even if I fail Xiaoyan will not be disappointed, but cheer for me with a smile, and even wash my feet with love, if this time is night, I want to make a basin of footwater for Xiaoyan and wash her feet.
I turned my head to look at her, looking at Xiaoyan with a somewhat complicated face, my mood was also extremely complicated, but I slowly hugged her, hugged her tightly, and said gently with ~ tears: "Yes, I lack self-confidence, and even worry about nothing, I thought of failure without doing it, this is Yan zhòng's wretched behavior, sometimes I feel that I am not worthy of being your boyfriend, you are with me I hurt you, and you are also blind." ”
My words made Xiaoyan's palm tightly squeeze my waist and gave me a big flower roll, and I silently gritted my teeth in pain.
"Bingbing is not allowed to say such things in the future, you have no confidence, but you are not a wreck, you are the best in my eyes, no one can compare to you, you are not with me to harm me, but to give me the best joy and happiness, and my eyes have never been so bright, so smart."
Xiaoyan leaned on me to be more compact, Xiaoyan who was like a crazy woman just now disappeared, and instantly became a warm sheep, not for me to slaughter, but to provoke my pity.
"Yes, yes, it's me taking it for granted again, I'm wrong, the shadow of my mistake is gone."
A faint bitter smile appeared on my face, and I patted Xiaoyan on the shoulder and said sincerely.
"Then you won't be able to lie to me in the future?"
Xiaoyan blushed, looked up, looked at me, and asked me.
I lowered my head and looked at her close face, both pale and red, and the slightly open lips made me a little moved, and I didn't even have time to answer her, I couldn't wait to kiss her on the lips, and the so-called quarrel ended with an emotional kiss.
Xiaoyan didn't expect that I would kiss her suddenly, and she tensed up in front of her for a moment, but she still responded to me, but the passionate kiss was the most emotional, and the emotional one made me feel a little emotionally disordered, and even there was a reaction below, and the most basic reaction of a man made my hands start to move.
However, when I became more and more presumptuous, Xiaoyan broke free of me coldly, pushed me aside with all his might, and said to me with a red face and a big kick: "In broad daylight, what should Tom do when he comes in a while?" You're getting more and more."
There was some blame in Xiaoyan's words, but I couldn't detect the anger, maybe she didn't have the idea of doing this during the day in her mind, and Tom, who was most worried, was afraid of being seen by Tom.
"Getting colored? But I, Liang Jiafeng, only treat you. ”
I tried my best to calm my mood, my palm was open and held, and I kept changing back and forth, looking at the resentful Xiaoyan and said seriously.
I was very handsome when the words fell, and I also pretended to stand up, and when I turned around and walked to the door, I was a little awkward, and I could only walk slowly.
"Flim Flam."
My words were exchanged for a word in Xiaoyan's mouth, but I was very happy in my heart, and there was already a smile on my face, the matter that was supposed to collapse was finally solved, and the things I had been thinking about all along were also solved, and then I frowned, and thought silently in my heart: I'm really drunk, why am I getting more and more colorful? If you can't do it, you have to suppress it.
"Bingbing, wait, you haven't said where you got the money to open a travel agency, and it costs hundreds of thousands to open a travel agency, right? Advertising expenses, storefronts, decorations, buses, staff, all need money, where do you get the money? ”
When I opened the door and walked out of the room, Xiaoyan suddenly stopped me and asked me one last question.
"It's the money left by Tom's mother to Tom, there are 200,000 yuan, it's really a tyrant, anyway, Tom is my son, and it's Maria's compensation to Tom, I can only borrow it for Tom's future, and when the time comes, I will return the money when I earn it."
I turned around and smiled at Xiaoyan, who had already stood up, but my eyes kept staring at Xiaoyan's body.
"Oh, then, then Mary has a conscience, so why would she abandon Tom? I couldn't figure it out, why did you keep staring at me? Are your eyes still so colorful? It's already been said that you can't do this in the middle of the day, can't you wait until the evening? Why are you in such a hurry? Lust ~ wolf. ”
Xiaoyan first said meaningfully, and there was a thoughtful look on her face, but in the end, she began to accuse me angrily, and her eyes were a little vicious.
"Uh, you're thinking too much, aren't you? You are looking at the buttons of your shirt and want to remind you to tidy it up, which is really a good person. ”
I looked at Xiaoyan, who was a little messy because of my clothes, and said with a hint of grievance.
"Huh? How so? ”
When Xiaoyan heard my prompt, she immediately lowered her head and looked at her untidy clothes, and instantly exclaimed, while I hurriedly turned around and opened the door and escaped from the bedroom.
"Liang Jiafeng, it's all because of you, I'm losing people, see if I don't kill you."
The moment I went out and closed the door, I heard Xiaoyan's roar, and I also smiled knowingly, from quarrel to happiness, just a moment, it can be seen how deep our relationship is, and how delicious life is.