160 Afraid
After Bei Jinghe finished speaking, Jin Yi seemed to come back to his senses, looked at Bei Jinghe's gentle and weak appearance, cleared his throat, and asked, "Why don't I forgive you?" It's not your fault. ”
"No, it's my fault, you don't understand, in fact, back then" She raised her head, with a hint of panic and embarrassment on her emaciated face, looking at Jin Yi's eyes were big and moist, and her pale lips snorted, "Back then, I was in the know, I watched you being exchanged, I was in the know, I was very weak at the time, but I acquiesced, our life back then was actually really bad, I just, I don't want you to follow us for nothing." ”
Life is a game, never know what kind of cards fate will play for you next time, in fact, just before Jin Yi was born, Jing Huahan's chances of being able to go on stage for surgery are decreasing, plus Bei Jinghe's family is also burdened, in addition to both parents, there is also a Pei Shichang who is studying, and they are all raised by Jing Huahan, and their lives are really stretched.
There was such a chance that Pei Jinghe and Yu Fengjiao were admitted to the hospital together to prepare for delivery, she saw with her own eyes how rich Yu Fengjiao was, and how shabby she was, she was also a mother, and it was natural that Bei Jinghe would have an imbalance in her heart.
So the two of them were pushed onto the operating table together, Yu Fengjiao was going to have a caesarean section, so the situation was more strict, she didn't know what was going on around her with anesthetics, but Bei Jinghe was a natural birth, she saw it very clearly, Jing Huahan, who was in charge of the operation, successfully replaced Jinyi and Sheng Hege with the help of a bunch of mechanical assistants.
She watched this qiē happen under her nose, opened her mouth, and stretched out her hand to the little Jin Yi, but in the end she didn't call out, so she contributed to the success of this exchange, every time she thought of that moment, Jin Yi's small body lay beside Yu Fengjiao, who didn't know what was going on, crying, but Bei Jinghe could only hold someone else's son to feed, her heart hurt like a knife.
This is also 20 years. The reason why she didn't dare to go to Jin Yi, didn't dare to look at Jin Yi, and didn't dare to talk to Jin Yi, she was afraid that her feelings would leak out. She was afraid that after seeing Jin Yi, she couldn't help but hold this child and ask this child if she was doing well in the Sheng family, and she was afraid that Yu Fengjiao would doubt Jin Yi's life experience. So as to do something that abuses and owes Jinyi.
A lot of fears overwhelmed Bei Jinghe and Jing Huahan, Bei Jinghe never thought that she would live for a long time, Jing Huahan was just one step ahead of her.
"Oh, you're in the know."
Jin Yi repeated and affirmed Bei Jinghe's words, and didn't think there was anything shocking about it, Bei Jinghe said this matter as a big secret, but she didn't know that Jin Yi already knew, she looked at the tears that Bei Jinghe dripped on the table, and sighed.
"In any case, it's all over, the letter of understanding has been signed, as long as you bite yourself to death and don't know, Yu Fengjiao can't help you, it's all over, all the sadness and pain will be turned over."
"I saw the letter of understanding you signed for me, do you really forgive me? Forgiven you also my husband? ”
In Bei Jinghe's heart, she has always been entangled in whether Jin Yi will forgive her after knowing the truth. So no matter what Jin Yi said, Bei Jinghe kept asking repeatedly, and she wanted to say "your father", but immediately paused. changed this title to "my husband" because Bei Jinghe thought in his heart that he and Jing Huahan were not worthy of being Jinyi's parents at all.
Jin Yi grew up in the Sheng family, and she lived a rich and noble life since she was a child, she was not sure if Jin Yi could face her life experience, so even if Jin Yi signed a letter of understanding to her. Pei Jinghe was guilty in the face of Jin Yi, and felt guilty that he didn't keep this secret well.
If it was her, Bei Jinghe felt that she had no way to accept it, after all, she had been the eldest lady of the Sheng family for 20 years, and suddenly one day she fell from the clouds to the dust, so she really wouldn't have a grudge against her and Jing Huahan?
It is also appropriate to have complaints, she and Jing Huahan have not fulfilled their parental responsibilities for a day against Jin Yi, and they inexplicably ran out to destroy Jin Yi's happy life now, Bei Jinghe felt that she had no face to recognize Jin Yi at all.
That's why she carefully hid in the dark, silently imagining the life that Jin Yi would live every day, if she could, Bei Jinghe was willing to use all her efforts to exchange Jin Yi's life experience from being exposed, but Yu Fengjiao was too rich, and a large sum of money was smashed down, Bei Jinghe just used all her strength, and finally let Yu Fengjiao find out.
So for a long time recently, she has been in a more anxious mood, all kinds of panic and fear, worried that Jin Yi can't accept it, worried that the Sheng family will treat Jin Yi badly, worried that Jin Yi hates her, and worried that Jin Yi will be disgusted with her complicated feelings and intertwined, and finally Bei Jinghe can't bear the pressure, so she went to the hospital.
There is golden sunlight, penetrating the transparent glass wall, falling on Bei Jinghe's face with protruding cheekbones, looking carefully at her calm expression, in fact, there is a faint kind of nervous and timid feelings floating, because I haven't eaten anything during this time, and most of my skin looks pale and bloodless.
Jin Yi looked at it for a long time, and suddenly said softly, "Huh? With a sigh, he looked very curious, stared at Bei Jinghe's eyes, and said in a non-questionable voice: "I think your demeanor is somewhat similar to Sheng Hege, but you look a little like me." ”
Talking about the topic of forgiveness or not, in fact, there is no need anymore, for Jin Yi, this topic has passed for a long, long time, so long that she is a little tired, she is willing to come here today, just hoping to start a new life, and she doesn't want to always be entangled in the topic of the past tense.
Bei Jinghe in the sunshine looked stunned, and then laughed out loud, shook his head, looked at Jin Yi and corrected: "You should say that Sheng Hege's demeanor is somewhat similar to mine, but you look like me, it's the opposite, it's the opposite." ”
Sheng Hege was brought up by her, Jin Yi was born from her belly, naturally one looks like her, the other looks like her, she is the template, not that she is similar to Sheng Hege's demeanor, nor does she look like Jin Yi.
As Bei Jinghe laughed, the previous gloomy atmosphere was swept away in an instant, and Jin Yi also laughed, nodded pretendly, catered to Bei Jinghe, and said:
"Yes, just be happy like this, let the past pass, I don't think this incident has any negative impact on me now, so we still have a long way to go in the future, if you are tired and sick now, how can we continue to talk and laugh?" (To be continued.) )