Chapter 59: I Can't Afford It
Zhao Shu would rather him leave angrily, even if he is a stranger from now on, it will make her more calm than seeing his tolerant and warm smile now.
It's hateful that his conscience suddenly discovered, if it weren't for that accidental soft-heartedness, how good would it be to keep going like this? You don't have to pay anything to get his help.
At this moment, Zhao Shu regretted it a little, but it was more of a relief, after all, her heart was not hard enough.
"Since that's what I've said, let's make a decision, although I have a vicious mind, I'm not the one who drags mud and water." She looked into Wei Tingsi's eyes with a cold face, not allowing him to escape.
Wei Tingsi handed over the chicken leg again, and said with a gentle smile: "Even if you want to drive me away, eat something first." ”
As if he could see through Zhao Shu's heart, there was suppressed nervousness and depression in his words, which made people feel distressed and wanted to cry.
Zhao Shu took it and took a bite, but she didn't know the taste.
"If you can't eat it without salt, it must be unpalatable, if you really can't eat it, I'll take you back to Beijing." The smile on his face has never changed, but Zhao Shu's face is too cold, no matter how warm the smile is, he can't hang it, but he wants to do his best to give her a warm smile.
He didn't laugh often, but at this time, he wanted to let her see himself and be willing to smile a little more for her.
Zhao Shu turned her head away and spit out a turbid breath, "I don't have Sun Yun's elegance and nobility, I don't have Concubine Hao's charm and touching, I'm ruthless, vicious, and calculating, I'm just using you, such a woman is not worthy of your good." ”
"So what?" He looked at Zhao Shu, with nervousness and panic in his eyes, but more firmness and disapproval. "Others are elegant and noble, charming and moving. What does it have to do with me? Even if you are ugly and unsalted, even if you are full of calculations. To me, you are just a woman who wants to protect herself and her relatives, easy to be soft-hearted, kind-hearted, and use me, but you never thought of my life, and that's enough. ”
Zhao Shu raised her head and looked at the starry sky. Bright, full of sky, cool breeze blowing through the mountains green, rattling, the world is set off, quiet, harmonious.
"Why should you bother, knowing that I can't give you what you want." This man is belatedly in love. But unlucky to touch himself, if he were to be any woman, he would have been so careful, and he had already secretly promised it.
In the world of feelings. The most helpless thing is that your fledgling simple love is like the sea. And I was disheartened when I set sail.
"Why?"
They all know why this sentence is after. What will be the result, maybe hand in hand for life. Maybe it's because they've been strangers since then, and they don't know each other.
Zhao Shu first asked herself, why? It's timidity, it's being bitten by a snake for ten years and being afraid of the well rope, it's the exhaustion of feelings, it's discouragement, too much and too much rejection.
Living in Dayong, born in the royal family, it is impossible not to marry, but at this time, it is not just about the marriage letter, not just about the status of husband and wife.
If he just wants to marry himself, he can ask for it directly, why do so many guards, what he wants is equivalent to his affection.
I can't afford it, it's full of affection, she can't afford it, and she doesn't dare to give it, for fear that fate will repeat it, and she is afraid that it will hurt her heart.
I don't have the strength to really love someone, and I don't have the courage to ignore a qiē, for the so-called feelings, if you say what kind of definition love is in her heart, it must be unknown and worthless.
What's more, Wei Tingsi is for her, carefully guarding, silently paying, apprehensive and expectant, clumsy and sincere.
is too similar to her original self, cautiously wanting to get a wholehearted relationship, and making a lot of efforts and sacrifices for this relationship, in the end it is just a deception and use, no one knows better than her.
How can you bear to hurt someone who treats you sincerely? How can you bear to deceive and take advantage?
If you have been hurt, you have no principle, no conscience, no humanity, then what is the point of being born again? Pulling the banner and wearing it, just because he didn't want to be responsible for this feeling, Zhao Shu laughed at herself, timid and suspicious, this is you, Zhao Shu.
"Sook, don't say it, please." He suddenly grabbed Zhao Shu's arms and pleaded.
Zhao Shu wanted to cry, but for some reason there were no tears, her eyes were very bright, and they were as cold as winter snow.
"I'm sorry, I understand your intentions, but I can't give you what you want, it's not that you're bad, it's that you're too good, you don't like a person, you won't like it from the beginning, for you, I used it at the beginning, and I will still use it in the future, it won't change, I can't extricate myself now, I advise you, don't be sentimental."
Little by little, little by little, he broke his hand around his arm, his strength was too great, she broke it for a long time, but she couldn't break it off, "You hurt me." ”
He let go slowly, the loss, disappointment, and intense grief in his eyes whipped Zhao Shu's heart like a whip, "Actually, the more people like me, the more I hate him, I wasn't soft-hearted just now, I just can't control my hatred for you." ”
If you use the four seasons to describe the mood at this time, Wei Tingsi is in late autumn and cold winter at this time, desolate and lonely, and the fire in his heart is ruthlessly extinguished by the winter snow and ice.
He looked at Zhao Shu, wanting to see the joke in her eyes, and the teasing, but no, only the dazzling coldness, and the indifference and disgust that made her heart ache.
Zhao Shu looked at him directly, took off the cloud chain from his neck, and ordered Yipinju and the token of the Borrowed Dao Pavilion, "Return it to you." ”
didn't answer, stared at Zhao Shu directly, her eyes were full of injuries, "Since it was given to you, how can there be any reason to get it back." ”
"I'm disgusted with a qiē related to you." Forcibly stuffed the cloud chain into his hand, don't look over, and said coldly: "Why don't you leave?" Do you want me to say no to it? ”
If words are not enough, what is enough? Did you want his life? Careful care, for fear of doing too much, she feels that she is useless and unhappy, and if she does less, she is afraid that she will not feel her own savings, so anxious to cherish, it turns out, in her eyes, it is just disgust, it is her own self-inflicted amorous.
"Sorry to bother you." He said softly, and after speaking, he jumped over, and the person disappeared into the mountains, leaving only the words that broke his liver and intestines, which made Zhao Shu's heart feel like numbness.
Looking at the place where he disappeared, Zhao Shu laughed at herself, sure enough. She's a complete scumbag, and her hypocrisy is no longer enough to describe that despicable heart. Seduce others, take advantage of others. But he doesn't intend to give, or even say those hurtful words.
I don't want to find any reason for myself not to hurt him, in fact, I have already found it, but I just don't want to admit it, look, what a hypocritical person, this is going to be retributed.
If it's a little more despicable, what about marrying him? But why can't it be done? Tears are crackling, and I will lose a big help after today. What should I do if I don't have the right to fight?
In the future, he must hate himself to death, and he will never help himself and the prince again.
Sitting silently in the banana house, watching the two pheasants roasting on the fire, I was too lazy to move, and my stomach was not hungry, but I was full of distress for the lost military power.
Is it just distressing about the lost military power? Zhao Shu was a little confused.
If he does not seek superfluous affection, it would be better to respect him as a guest and benefit each other.
Shake your head. If you want to do this, you will be a stranger in the future.
"County Lord, Lord Liu and Lord Zheng are here." I don't know how long it took, Zhao Shu looked at the fire. From the original exuberance to the slow extinguishment, and finally turned into ashes that dissipated when the wind blew.
Gao Dan spoke, but Zhao Shu didn't react. He stubbornly said again: "County Lord, my subordinates have stopped Lord Liu and Lord Zheng. They want to see you. ”
This sentence is too loud. Zhao Shu finally came back to her senses and asked blankly, "Something?" ”
Gao Dan didn't dare to come out, and said: "Lord Liu and Lord Zheng are here, do you go down the mountain to meet them, or let them come into the mountain?" ”
Zhao Shu stood up, suppressed the chaotic thoughts in her heart, cleaned up her feelings, patted the ashes on her skirt, and walked out, "I'll go see them." ”
Gao Dan was carrying a torch and carrying a large package behind his back, Zhao Shu glanced at it, there was a futon and dry clothes, thinking that it was brought by his subordinates.
Seeing Zhao Shu looking at the package behind him, Gao Dan hurriedly explained, "The county lord forgives the sin, it was sent by General Wei's orders, and his subordinates called you several times, but you didn't respond, so his subordinates didn't bother you anymore." ”
Zhao Shu retracted her gaze and shook her head slightly, "It's okay, go back." ”
When I saw Liu Huan and Zheng Hongsheng, it was half an hour later, and there were water droplets on my body, which was **, there was no way, I still used the dry clothes in the package, his subordinates were very good at doing things, and they took two thin cloaks, and the rest of the new clothes did not move.
The body was covered in the cloak before coming out from behind the tree, Zheng Hongsheng and Liu Huan hurriedly saluted, both of them knew that they couldn't look at Zhao Shu with the eyes of an idle lady, and she didn't feel so strange when she was here.
The two of them each brought their henchmen and guards, and stood behind them separately, and when they saw Zhao Shu coming out, they each retreated, leaving the space to the masters.
Liu Huan, much older, very thin, but it is a breeze with two sleeves, the wind and bones are better than back then, there is one more fairy wind bone, and the whole person looks more indifferent and elegant, which is incomparable to Wei Caitao's kind of fairy wind bone, although the appearance is not as good, but the temperament is as reliable as a mountain.
Zheng Hongsheng, on the other hand, is much inferior, still with such a big belly and squinted eyes, but he is very strict.
Zhao Shu also left only Gao Dan alone, "Why did the two adults enter Beijing together?" ”
The two glanced at each other, and Liu Huan said: "Dissatisfied with the county lord, Qianzhou is far away, as soon as the lower official received the holy decree, he came quickly, but it took so long to arrive, and the lower official met Lord Zheng in the last post house." ”
"Xia Guan has been in Guanzhou for six years, and after the handover with his new colleagues, he came here, and he did meet Lord Liu at the last post house." Zheng Hongsheng raised his hand and saluted in confirmation.
Zhao Shu bowed her head, and originally wanted to pull out a smile so that the two adults could relax, but she couldn't laugh, "The words in front of the emperor, presumably the two of you have already made a good draft, so I won't say much here, natural disasters have been raging in recent days, Lord Huo must be taking this opportunity to reshape order, I don't know what the two adults think?" ”
The two glanced at each other again, thinking that they would talk happily on the way here, and after a short look at each other, they were silent, Liu Huan is the prince's person, and he is not a new party, but he only cooperates occasionally, but there is a relationship between the Huo family.
Zheng Hongsheng can barely be regarded as her person, and at present, he can barely be regarded as a new party, but he has not done anything yet, and he is not a new party.
Zhao Shu was not in a hurry, and waited quietly.
About two quarters of an hour later, Liu Huancai said: "Your Highness listened to Your Highness, and received a message from the flying pigeon, Your Highness will go to Jiangnan to control the water, and the county lord will be asked to take care of it in Beijing." ”
This statement has explained the attitude, over the years, many people have been thinking about a question, which side to stand on, in order to continue the family, many people are watching from the wall, and many people have already made a conclusion.
Although the two hesitated for a long time, they had already made up their minds that the answer at this time was well thought out, and they were not afraid that he would change it lightly.
Zhao Shu nodded, "Brother Crown Prince must hope that Lord Liu will respond positively when Lord Huo changes." ”
Liu Huan sighed and nodded, when Huo Baichuan first entered the court, he was still very happy, Zeng Chunfeng was proud for a while, the Huo family was his foreign family, in his heart, he also felt that the reform was excellent, and raised his hands in favor, but after all, his surname was Liu, and he didn't believe Huo.
Family is a help, but also a burden.
"Lord Liu is an understanding person, and the lord of this county is here to wish your lord prosperity and prosperity in the future, and show your ambitions."
Liu Huan looked at her a little reluctantly and helplessly, this **naked threat, she was stunned to be so nice to say, it is really difficult for a woman to be a villain.
"County Lord." Zheng Hongsheng hesitated for a while, and said very sincerely: "The lower officials have been soaring from the time they joined the government to today, and they have to thank the county lord for cultivating, the Zheng family is weak, and I am willing to serve the county lord for the work of dogs and horses." ”
His considerations are different from Liu Huan, he just wants the family to grow and develop, and the Liu family and the Zheng family cannot be compared.
In this way, it is to put the life and family honor and disgrace on the new party and Zhao Shu.
"Okay, two adults, please bother more, be sure to suppress the local forces in the three counties, let them accept the new policy, if anyone dares to resist the decree and disrespect, although the two adults let go of the suppression, I, Lord Huo, and the emperor, will not let the heroes chill, but sometimes if you are wronged, please wait patiently, I will not let it go."
Counting the promise, since ancient times, there are not many people who have changed the ministers, but anyone who has read the history books knows that these words, Zhao Shu is a promise, but also to dispel the concerns of the two, sometimes the change, is to be more than others are not afraid of death, so as to win.
"Thank you, Lord Shire." Both of them knew Zhao Shu's methods, although Liu Huan had little contact with Zhao Shu, but the last time he returned to Beijing from Guanzhou, he originally wanted to seek justice for the prince, but he was demoted to Qianzhou the next day, which shows that sometimes his methods are slightly inferior to Zhao Shu.
Zheng Hongsheng not to mention, what was the original situation in Guanzhou, what is the situation now, he knows better than anyone else, it can be said that Guanzhou was brought up by Zhao Shu, so he was lucky and met Zhao Shu, so he said that he was soaring.
"The two adults should enter Beijing to meet the emperor as soon as possible, and it is best to take office as soon as possible." I'm afraid that it will be difficult for the two of them to sit in a stable position.
The two raised their hands again, Zheng Hongsheng glanced at Zhao Shu, and stopped talking.
"What else does Lord Zheng have to say?" Zhao Shu lived up to his expectations and asked.
"The county lord, the insider is newly mourned, the lower official has a son and a daughter who are still young, and now they have also entered Beijing with the lower official, and I ask the county lord to take care of it." Speaking of his old wife, he became gloomy.
Taking care of the children for others is just a matter of matching a few more subordinates, nodding, "I don't know how old Zheng Gongzi is?" ”
"Dog Seventeen, the little girl is the same age as the county lord, it stands to reason that the dog and the little girl should take care of the county lord, but the lower officials know that their ability is far inferior to the county lord, so they have the cheekiness to ask the county lord to take care of it." He said that he blushed and became embarrassed.
"Zheng Gongzi can go to Guozijian to study, and Miss Zheng often comes to talk to me, which is also very good." To get an individual into the Guozijian, Zhao Shu has 10,000 ways.
In the eyes of readers, Guozijian is a holy place, and those who can enter Guozijian are elites, Zheng Hongsheng was immediately excited when he heard it, and he bowed and beat thousands, and he had good words again and again.
Zhao Shu could only wave her hand and let the two of them return to Beijing quickly.
And she, looking at the way and the way to go, didn't know which way to go. (To be continued.) )
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