I drank a few bottles of wine in the bar, I felt that I was already drunk, when there were many people coming and going, Manqing walked out of the passage, her steps were still vain, it felt like she was drifting and walking, this time she did not continue to stay in the bar, but left the bar satisfied, I hurriedly followed her, ready to tell her what the situation was, and ask her why she had fallen so far,

Walked back to the middle of the night, followed Manqing's footsteps again, and was ready to find a quiet and remote place to talk to her, no matter what, today I must know why Manqing did this, and persuade her to come out early, at this time she is in trouble, I can't sit idly by.

Man Qing got on the bus, I also followed closely on the bus, she didn't see me, I hid in the crowd, quietly looked at her, now her face has become much calmer, her addiction has passed, returned to calm, but I have been looking at her, thinking of her I can hardly calm up the stormy mood, I think she should go back to the hotel, ready to sleep, but the city car walked the road to the West Lake, when the car stopped, Man Qing got off when I found out that she was going to the West Lake in the middle of the night. Because I deliberately avoided her, she was not in the mood to look elsewhere, so that she didn't see it when I was standing behind the back door, and when the door was about to close, I quickly got out of the car, and then I continued to follow her, I was worried that she had jumped into the lake because of drug hallucinations, and there was no one in the West Lake who could communicate with her right now.

Manqing seemed a little lonely strolling on the path of the West Lake, and now the West Lake is very beautiful! The air was good, but the hearts of the people were heavy, Manqing stopped her steps and stood on the West Lake Bridge, she turned her back to me, looking at the silent West Lake water, and I could no longer follow her like this, I wanted to go up and talk to her, and ask her what was going on.

I quickly stepped forward and walked behind her, every step forward my heart is trembling, this trembling is different from the usual beating, until I walked behind her, I struggled to stabilize my mind, looked at the close man Qing, and then moved to stand with her, and she looked at the calm West Lake, the West Lake was quietly rippling, and I said words at the same time.

"Why did you sink here? Why, exactly? Sue me why? ”

I didn't look at her, but I almost yelled, as if yelling at the West Lake, and Manqing, who stood silently, had a face full of surprise and confusion, obviously she had not yet understood the meaning of my words.

"Manqing, why do you want to take drugs? Is it because of that bastard? ”

I didn't look at the West Lake again this time, but turned around, turned my head to look at Man Qing, stared at her and said angrily, now my mind is in a state of intense intensity, I can't wait to throw Man Qing into the West Lake, when I think of Man Qing in that dirty and dirty room showing a look of enjoyment, I am very angry, and my fists are clenched fiercely again.

"You...... You ......"

Man Qing was shocked and couldn't speak, and I was waiting for her answer, there was already fear in her eyes, and the so-called tears, her love was released in an instant, as if she had been suppressed for longer than me, and the magnetic field on the West Lake Bridge seemed to be different at this moment, and it was completely in a chaotic situation.

But Manqing was silent in the end, she may have something unspeakable, or she may not be able to say it at all, she looked at me blankly, her lips were trembling, her body was trembling, the breeze was trembling with her hair hanging and trembling, anyway, her qiē was trembling, maybe for her, it was a shame for me to know that she was like this.

"Man Qing, what do you have to say to me, if you need my help, I will definitely help, you don't want to hold on, you need to quit drugs now, you can't continue to take drugs, if you continue, you will be ruined, you know?"

I gradually extinguished my anger, and looked at Man Qing, who was completely in a state of confusion, and said bitterly.

But my words seem to sink into the sea, there is no wave and response at all, in this situation Manqing may not be able to say a word, her tears have been snatched out of her eyes, she cried very fiercely, as if there are a lot of things to say, but I don't want to say, or can't say, anyway, Manqing standing in front of me is already shaky, I can't stand firmly, her love is broken, her appearance is pitiful, looking at her closely, my heart hurts, Watching her tears flow like a river and roar sadly, my fists clenched even tighter, and my bones creaked.

Manqing kept crying, crying sadly, but I couldn't say anything, do something, this feeling was really fucked, I wanted to hug her, give her a sense of security, but hesitated.

Liang Jiafeng, you hesitate to be a big-headed ghost, hurry up and act like a man, thinking about this and there all day long.

I silently scolded myself in my heart, and at the same time I quickly stretched out my palm and hugged Man Qing tightly, giving her the best warmth, the best sense of security, now she may be the most vulnerable moment in this life, I can see, her grievances can not be described in words, the suppressed emotions in her heart are absolutely beyond all, I now understand, I am not the most pitiful person, compared to the death, Manqing, I am already good, and I suffer from gains and losses all day long, it is really useless.

I hugged Manqing, angry with myself in my heart, thinking about the love I shouldn't have, I looked up at the starry sky, and suddenly wanted to sing, because of Manqing, because of the memories that came to my mind.

"I thought about it stupidly for a long time, but I still couldn't think of a reason to separate, when you left, you replaced the breakup with silence, are you too cruel or I am too serious, if love can be forgotten in an instant, why do I love you so much, the cold air, penetrates my body, freezes my heart, you can see the words I left on the screen, but you can't see my tears dripping on the keyboard, the taste of tears is like bitter water, I will remember your good life, shed the last tear for you, no longer cry, maybe one day I will laugh and think of you, The diaries I wrote are all memories, I just hope you can leave my figure in your heart. ”

I hummed softly, but full of true feelings, although I don't love Manqing now, but seeing Manqing like this, my heart softened, I sang and cried, my tears have flowed on my face, Manqing was hugged by me, did not struggle, but cried more presumptuously, listening to her choked voice my heart ached, I unconsciously hugged tighter, dinner was blowing softly, but it was fiercely squeezing our cheeks.

The waves of the West Lake have turned into bitter water, all of which are the bitter water we have formed, this moment is stagnant, the so-called time has disappeared, only we are left, only our embrace is left.

I don't know how long this moment lasted, I don't know how many lonely people walked past us, I don't know how many eyes swept over us, and finally Manqing's choked stopped, she leaned on my arms and fell asleep, yes, just asleep, her tearful cheeks showed a tired look, but there was also the so-called fear and serenity.

Manqing is asleep, I need to take her to the hotel, let her have a good rest, and wait for her to wake up about the drug use, I guess I can't go home today, otherwise I'm worried that Manqing will wake up and leave quietly, which will not be good.

I gently picked up Manqing, now she is lighter than before, obviously because of drug abuse, holding her, my heart is cramping, I think of her and I together happy and happy picture, and then it will be interspersed with what happened just now, the picture of Manqing's drug use is all crowded in my mind, I feel that I am about to collapse, holding him I left the West Lake, took a taxi and found a hotel nearby, I wanted to ask where she lived, but I saw Manqing lying in my arms sleeping with her, Because the alcohol and drugs made her sleep peacefully, I couldn't bear to wake her up.

After getting out of the car, I carried her to the hotel, and after settling down, I sat on the edge of the bed, looking at the night sky outside the window with my back to her, imagining the appearance and condition of Manqing in the future, I didn't dare to think about it, and I didn't want to think about it, but I couldn't help but think, this is the contradiction, this is where I am not a man.

I sat down in my chair and smoked a cigarette, at this time I needed a cigarette to anesthetize myself, my current worries were indescribable, I smoked heavily, my heart trembled with every puff I had, the memories in my heart, the unbearable images in my mind, completely filled my body.

There are so many things that have happened during this time, and if I continue, I will go crazy sooner or later, and there will be no time for improvement? Is my life going on like this? Could it be that the old man is really blind?

A cigarette burned out, a cigarette was lit, and it continued like this, a box of cigarettes quickly bottomed out, I don't know how long it took, but I didn't have the slightest sleepiness, I am now in a high state of mind, but the mood is extremely heavy, it is really a stark contrast, after I finished smoking, I slowly turned around and looked at Man Qing, but when I looked at her, I was stunned in an instant, because I saw her open her eyes, just lying on the bed and looking at me without blinking, because of the reflection of the moonlight, I saw the tears in her eyes.

"Why did you wake up?"

I asked, confused.

"Give me a cigarette."

Man Qing said to me calmly, just to ask me for a cigarette, I was also a little drunk.

"No smoke."

I said helplessly, and at the same time made her look at the cigarette case.

"Go buy it."

Man Qing said with a word like gold.

"Uh, okay, I'll buy it."

Now I will help Manqing if he needs my help, of course I will do this kind of thing......