This time, because of the wedding dinner, I said too much, listened too much, and saw too much, looking at Li Qingshu's smile, looking at Ling Chao's fake face, looking at Luo Meng's very kind appearance to Ling Chao, I drank a glass of white wine, I don't know what kind of story will happen to eight people at this table, I just know that I drank too much and drank drunk.

After all, I can't eat peacefully with Li Qingshu at a table, I can forget about her, the premise is that I don't want to see her again, damn together, the smile on the surface, the bitterness in the heart, can finally come to an end, the lively banquet is over, I was helped by Xiaoyan to get into the car, when the door was closed, I saw Li Qingshu who was also supporting Ling Chao, the blurred hair fluttered with the cold wind, drifting farther and farther, and then disappeared, unconscious

I don't know how long later, my head ached and I opened my eyes, the world in front of me was dark, the room was even more deserted, I eased my mind a little, but I felt a twitch in my stomach, I knew that I was going to leave the soft bed immediately, but when I wanted to move my body to get out of bed, I found Tom, the little guy, curled up in my arms, sleeping very peacefully, looking at him in my arms, even if it was particularly uncomfortable at this moment, it was also showing a faint smile.

I gently took Tom's little hand away and prepared to get out of bed, but when I turned my head to look to the other side, I saw Xiaoyan crawling on the head of the bed sleeping soundly, looking at her messy hair image, she must have become like this because she took care of me, she seemed to be very tired, very tired and tired.

I wanted to stroke her hair, feeling that she hadn't returned home, not even a bed, but the damn stomach really made me uncomfortable, so I got out of bed gently, and the moment I got out of bed, I ran into the bathroom barefoot in the dark, and began to vomit wildly, as if I was vomiting my stomach out

I drank too much today, the taste of drunkenness was so uncomfortable, I washed my face with cool water, I stood in front of the mirror and looked at me in the mirror, the bathroom was dark, there was no light, I could only see my unreal self in a daze, I knew very well why I drank so much alcohol today

Some colorful mirrors reflect the unreal me, but let me see myself clearly, I have tasted what it means to roll red dust, I summed up two words, that is, torment, hysterical torment.

The water stains on my face have not been wiped off, and the water is still slowly falling, falling on my feet, falling on the ground, and in the quiet and cramped bathroom, I can even hear the sound of water droplets, which is so real.

Even if the faucet has been turned on has not affected my hearing, listening to the sound of running water in the middle of the night, I suddenly feel a little weird, looking in the mirror in the middle of the night, and not turning on the light, I feel like a psychopath.

I have been standing in front of the mirror and looking at myself in a blur, until the cold soles of my feet feel the erosion of the ice water, I unconsciously retreated, I hurriedly looked down, and found that the water in the white sink had diffused out, and the faucet was still flowing water.

I turned off the faucet, turned on the bathroom light, prepared to take a shower, and flushed away a mood that did not belong to me, of course, I thought that I had forgotten her, and the so-called love could be eliminated casually, after all, there was already Xiaoyan around me, but the moment I saw Li Qingshu at the wedding scene, I knew that love was not so light and could be erased.

This kind of disordered love and non-love makes me disturb my mind, 'light' body is drenched in water, and I am in a daze all the time, if I see it will make my love xù become bad, then I will simply not see it, people who don't cherish me, and even people who often ignore me, why do I keep clinging, now I should pity Xiaoyan who crawls on the side of the bed and sleeps tiredly and soundly.

From tomorrow onwards, my struggle is no longer to be able to stand in front of her calmly, but to be able to give Xiaoyan happiness, Tom happiness, and parents happiness, this is what I need to do, I must sit in the position of director with my own efforts, Meng Long, Liang Hao, don't try to stop my pace

After taking a hot shower, I walked out of the bathroom, I felt that the so-called torment disappeared, whether it was temporary or forever, I would not be cranky anymore, came to the bedroom, and saw Xiaoyan who was still crawling on the side of the bed, I was a little unbearable, even very guilty, I slowly picked her up, put her on the bed slowly, maybe she was drunk, I didn't wake her up with such a big action.

Watching Xiaoyan and Tom sleep together, my heart was in a trance, at this moment the three of us are very much like a family, very warm, I hope to be able to maintain this state, when I covered the quilt for Xiaoyan and Tom and prepared to go to sleep on the sofa, Xiaoyan suddenly reached out and grabbed my wrist, and the murmuring words sounded at this moment.

"Bingbing, don't go, I'm afraid, I'm afraid that you will come and leave me one day, don't go, okay?"

Xiaoyan, who had been closing her eyes, said a dream with a crying voice, but it was also true words, looking at her sleeping, I slowly lay down beside her, holding her slender palm and saying firmly: "Don't worry, I won't leave, I won't leave, I'm by your side." ”

The bedroom is dark, and the atmosphere is a little ambiguous, after all, this is the first time I have slept with Xiaoyan like this, but my thoughts are not a trace of dirt, it is very good to lie quietly next to her like this, especially comfortable, I feel that even if the world collapses, I will not feel afraid, Xiaoyan has given me a great sense of security, a sense of security that men also need, but Li Qingshu can't give it to me, and it won't give it to me.

I lay motionless on the edge of the bed, hoping to lie down like this until dawn, and at this moment, Xiaoyan, who was sleeping on Tom's side, suddenly lay in my arms, and her arms tightly wrapped around me, so that I couldn't move a bit, because I had just taken a shower, and my upper body was not dressed, I could even feel the squeeze of my 'chest', I was helpless for a while, and said with emotion: "God is really testing me, it seems that I am destined to be sleepless tonight"

The company of beautiful women made me feel a sense of happiness, and I also truly experienced the taste of a family of three for the first time, but according to the picture in the TV series, Tom should sleep in the middle, and we sleep on both sides, instead of maintaining an ambiguous posture like now, unable to move a bit, it is really a painful happiness

I didn't fall asleep until dawn after a night of insomnia, I always looked at Xiaoyan in my arms, she slept in my arms like a docile kitten, causing me a burst of pity, I didn't pay attention to it, and I didn't really look at it, and this time I watched it for a long time and witnessed the beauty of her sleeping.

I gently stroked her somewhat messy hair with my hand, there was no movement all night, and I couldn't help but kiss her forehead when it was dawn, and then I was ready to get up and wash up, and get out of the scene of no crime, but when my kiss was just separated, Xiaoyan suddenly opened her big hazy eyes and looked at me blankly, with a look of surprise