A gust of wind hit, with a hint of coolness, which woke up Situ Shaonan's silent thoughts, looked up, and inadvertently crashed into Jin Yiming's hopeful eyes, which made her heart tremble unexpectedly.

opened her mouth, and the words stuck in her throat didn't know how to exit, this was the deepest wound in her heart, and it was also the reality she didn't want to face the most, but she had to accept.

After struggling for a long time, Situ Shaonan slowly exhaled, changed his words, and asked Xiang Jin Yiming: "Do you like children?" ”

"Huh?" Hearing this, Jin Yiming was stunned, paused for a moment, and then nodded slowly, and said with a gentle smile: "Of course, I hope to have more babies in the future,"

Then as if thinking of something, her eyes darkened, and she said in a low voice: "My mother had a difficult birth when she gave birth to me, and she hurt her body, so she always hoped to have more babies after marriage, so she pinned her hopes on me, and looked forward to having a few more grandchildren to make up for her regrets." ”

When he mentioned the child, his soft face and loving smile subverted the previous evil and unruly, and it can be seen that he is a person who likes children from the bottom of his heart.

At his age, it is really rare to have this state of mind.

Situ Shaonan bit his lower lip lightly, his heart was desolate, he lowered his head silently, and his eyes were scattered.

The child, I am afraid that it is an unattainable dream for her life, and even the right to pursue happiness with her is disillusioned.

Jin Yiming was infected by the sadness she suddenly released, and couldn't help but raise his hand to cover her slender hand, hold it slightly, and ask softly, "What's wrong?" ”

Situ Shaonan pulled out his hand in a panic, and shook his head with evasive eyes, "It's okay,"

Then he took a deep breath, as if he had made a lot of determination, and suddenly raised his head and stared at Jin Yiming,

Zhu lips lightly raised, and said indifferently: "Jin Yiming, there is one thing, I think it is necessary to make it clear to you, and then you are deciding whether you are willing to give each other this opportunity with me." ”

Listening to her words, Jin Yiming just frowned slightly, expressing doubts, but did not say anything to ask, just held his breath and waited for her next step.

Situ Shaonan let out a long breath, then stood up, walked to the window, looked at the blue and clear sky, and his eyes were as cool as water, as if he had passed through the long river of time and returned to five years ago.

It was the most tragic operation she had experienced since she joined the Crazy Leopard Special Brigade of the Special Operations Brigade.

After five days and nights of hard fighting with well-armed criminal groups abroad, food shortages, ammunition dwindling, and no backup arrived.

I also watched the comrades-in-arms around me fall one by one, and the anger and grief in my heart reached its peak.

Therefore, she was young and conceited, ignoring orders, and risked her own life, infiltrating the enemy camp and preparing to decapitate the enemy.

Of course, she had already put her life and death on the line, just to end this fight as soon as possible and win a precious chance for her comrades to live.

However, impulsive punishment is always cruel, because of the heroism of the various people she ventured into, not only did not achieve the expected success, but also allowed herself to fall into the enemy's cage.

That was the second time she had met Lu Jie, and at that time, he had already become a powerful henchman of the largest criminal syndicate outside the country from a foreign special forces.

Actually, Situ Shaonan was not very surprised, because Lu Jie was such a person,

Back then, the special forces of the two countries exchanged exercises, and as an instructor, he formed a bond with Situ Shaonan and others because of his ruthless methods.

So after he captured Situ Shaonan, he took revenge.

And Du Junsheng went alone in order to save her under such circumstances, and experienced a vicious battle.

In the end, Du Junsheng sacrificed himself in exchange for a glimmer of hope for Situ Shaonan's survival.

Situ Shaonan was seriously injured and fell off a cliff and fell into the sea, but fortunately the troops who came to support rescued her and saved her life.

It's just that she lost far more than the weight of her life.

Thinking of the painful time spent lying in the hospital bed for more than half a year, Situ Shaonan's left hand on the windowsill couldn't help but clench into a fist.

"So, I lost my lover, I lost myself, and I lost my ...... The right to be a mother. ”

Speaking of this, Situ Shaonan suddenly turned around and looked at Jin Yiming in astonishment with his eyes like torches.

Without allowing him to breathe, he continued to say with burning words: "Do you still want me like this?" I have no way to extend the heirs for you, for the Jin family, and there is no way to be a qualified wife, I have a mission that a soldier must undertake, I have a burden that I can't unload, my life does not belong to me, nor does it belong to you, it belongs to the country, it belongs to the people, for the oath made under the military flag, until death, I only want to protect this territory and be beautiful. ”

"Therefore, what I can give you is very limited, and what you give will be far more than you can imagine."

The first time I heard her talk about her past, Jin Yiming was a little shocked, so he looked at her in a daze, forgetting his words.

He always knew that she was a person with a story, but he didn't expect her story to be so touching and poignant.

His silence made Situ Shaonan hook his lips bitterly, and continued: "Moreover, I agreed to go on a blind date because of my mother's death, in fact, people who have really experienced life and death will be afraid of death, and I am the same." ”

Hearing this, Jin Yiming's body stiffened, his eyebrows were frowned, and it seemed that there were thousands of mysteries around him, but he couldn't sort out the most critical one.

Subconsciously asked: "So, no matter who you are on a blind date with that day, you will marry him without hesitation, right?" ”

Situ Shaonan's heart suddenly flickered, his eyes flashed slightly, and he hurriedly looked away, looking sideways at the delicate oil paintings on the wall, "Maybe." ”

Hearing this, Jin Yiming was silent for a moment and asked, "I also asked you why you didn't refuse, so can you give me a better answer now?" ”

At this moment, he suddenly felt that the answer given by Situ Shaonan that day was not complete, it was probably only most of it, and the final key, she did not say it clearly, I don't know why, he felt that this answer would be very important to him.

Asked about the key to what he had been concealing, Situ Shaonan panicked in his heart, pondered for a moment, and said slowly: "I didn't have a better choice for the situation at that time, and your situation was the same as mine, so you are the most suitable person." ”

"And now?"

"Now?" Situ Shaonan chewed on these two words, as if asking himself, "Do I still have now?" ”

Looking up at Jin Yiming's eyes, he smiled sadly, "I don't have a chance." ”

Jin Yiming looked at her with burning eyes, and walked towards her step by step, his thoughts turned a thousand times,

He empathized with her sadness at the moment, although he would be jealous and eat when he knew that she had a lover, but the most was respect and gratitude.

It was he who used his life to interpret his love for Situ Shaonan, so what reason did he have to give up on her and let the past continue to torture her.

Looking at Jin Yiming, who was standing in front of him, Situ Shaonan involuntarily took a step back, lowering his eyes and being silent.

"Situ Shaonan"

Overhead, his voice was as clear as the breeze, and his name was particularly pleasant.

"I don't care."

The four words, which were as heavy as a thousand gold, slammed on Situ Shaonan's heart, and her eyes were sour in an instant, which actually made her lose the courage to raise her head.

"Maybe you don't believe it, but I want you to know that my feelings are pure, not sympathy, not pity."

"And then I'm going to say......" He cupped her face in his hands, his eyes met...

"You will always be my chief, or that sentence, forgive me, I really can't let you go, because I will feel sorry for your loneliness and indifference."

(To be continued)