Life, unconsciously consumed most of it in the glimpse of the light, twenty-seven, nothing to say, not even a direction can be found, the most terrible thing in life is that there is no direction, Jiang Hao silently chewed the blow of the broken dream.

He is a very thoughtful person, in his twenties, but he has a heart of forty or fifty years old, so he has always lived more tired than his peers.

To say a word from his heart, since he was a child, he has never been smooth, and the successive bad luck seems to be a lingering nightmare, so that later, even if he walks and sees the money falling on the ground, he has to go around the road.

Young and frivolous, strong in blood, my life is up to me, Jiang Hao once had, like countless hot-blooded young people, firmly believe that people will win the sky, and firmly believe that sincerity is the golden stone!

However, only those who have really crawled and rolled in reality will know how sad and helpless it is, the road of dreams will always be thorny and bumpy, and what is more painful is that as long as you still have a little strength, you will continue to stumble forward on this unknown road of life.

Jiang Hao, who was lying on the bed, thought of Su Mengqi's moving shadow, and a helpless wry smile appeared at the corner of his mouth, could the flower of love that had just sprouted withered like this? Just strangled in the cradle?

Now this virtue, what to talk about love? If he sues Su Mengqi at this time and doesn't chase him, I'm afraid that the other party will be able to tear him up, and he will be completely labeled with all the derogatory labels.

You swore an oath a few hours ago, and you just promised it, and then gave up, isn't this a trick, this is simply a naked insult.

Jiang Hao shook his head helplessly, could it be that he had done something wrong in his previous life, and he was destined to be punished in this life?

Sometimes, he really wants to die, what is the purpose of living, he is busy, he has worked hard for most of his life, and in the end he may not get anything.

He even felt that some people were born to be blessed, while some people were born destined to atone for their sins, and what is even more tragic is that in the face of a bad fate, you don't even have the right to give up your life.

Jiang Hao was lying on the bed, the corners of his eyes were a little moist, thinking of what had just happened, and the scenes he had experienced since he was a child, he couldn't help but feel sad.

At the age of seven, the family experienced its first change, and his sister, who was more than ten years older than him, found a so-called social person, and took all the savings from the family plus many borrowed debts, on the grounds of doing business, but the result was that the business came to nothing, and finally the person disappeared without a trace, and the family was in debt.

At the age of ten, his father was sick and bedridden, and at the age of twelve, his father, who had improved slightly, was crushed by an ox cart pulled by his own wild cattle during the busy farming season, and the embarrassing family situation was even worse.

It took a lot of money to treat the disease, and the old debts did not come back again, Jiang Hao will never forget it, on the day of the late autumn of the twelve-year-old, his mother accompanied his father in the hospital, and he was the only one at home at that time, and suddenly heard a noisy voice outside the door.

He didn't know why, but he only saw a group of people driving ox carts to move all the grain in his house, and later learned that he had no money to repay his debts, and his mother promised to use grain to pay off his debts.

And these creditors were afraid that their father would sell the grain for treatment, and there would be no money to ask for at that time, so they took advantage of the fact that there was no one at home, so they went to the door to get things, because of the mother's previous promise, although they were angry afterwards, they did not say anything.

In addition, the Jiang family moved over later, and they belong to people with foreign surnames, so if they are really stiff, they can't get any benefits, after all, they also owe debts to others.

At that time, there was no such developed network as it is now, so if there was anything to ask for help and expose, I had to go to the village committee to make a phone call, so I could only endure this breath.

In those days, Jiang Hao will never forget jì, when he was in elementary school, his friends went to buy ice cream after class, as long as two cents, and he either hid in the classroom or hid alone in a corner of the playground, secretly watching other friends frolicking and tasting the sweet taste.

In the three years of middle school, he didn't buy any textbooks, his father borrowed them from a cousin of a relative's house, he was just one year older than him, and every time the class collected money, it was Jiang Hao's most embarrassing time, and he couldn't take out even a dollar.

He will never forget that every time he has to pay tuition, he will run to the door of the head teacher's office before dawn and wait, begging the head teacher to be accommodating.

When I was in high school, I was the most interesting, at that time, I didn't swipe my card in the cafeteria like I do now, but I used meal tickets and dish tickets, which were similar to the rectangular slips of paper used to roll dry tobacco, and the meal tickets were a pile of 30 tickets, each of which said the date, breakfast, lunch, and dinner.

When eating, tear off the corresponding date and which meal is the corresponding and hand it over to the aunt who eats, if you don't eat this meal, it will be invalid, this meal ticket is only a bowl of white rice, and it is not expensive for a month, until now Jiang Hao still remembers it very clearly, thirty-eight yuan.

A stack of food tickets is fifteen yuan, Jiang Hao is careful to calculate, a month's food ticket needs three yuan, a month's food needs 45 yuan, a month's food needs more than eighty yuan, the conditions are slightly better, a month's food is almost two or three hundred, although it is not very high, it is also several times that of Jiang Hao.

Until now, Jiang Hao still feels that he was very lucky at that time, although it was an ordinary high school, the gap between the rich and the poor here was not very large, and most of them were ordinary families, which made him not have too much gap and shadow psychologically.

Later, Jiang Hao found a trick, each page of this dish ticket is three of the same denomination, the largest is a piece, and there are a few dimes, normally this one is three yuan, and it can be torn three times.

However, once he accidentally discovered that the dish ticket could be torn into four parts, just like tearing RMB apart, and each of the key places was accounted for.

The size of the tear off cannot be less than the normal area, which is also a technical job, so that three yuan can become four yuan, 15 yuan a month can be saved, and more than 60 yuan a month can be used.

Today's Jiang Hao's body is still a little thin, which is caused by malnutrition during that difficult period, but he has never complained, because his parents don't eat as much as him.

It wasn't until he went to college that his family's fortune began to slowly improve, but fate did not stop mocking him.

At the age of twenty-four, Jiang Hao graduated from university, and soon after, he got the news of his sister who had not been heard from for more than ten years.

For his sister's memory, Jiang Hao is still stuck in the last memory of his childhood, in the memory left in his mind, every time his sister comes home from a part-time job, he will buy him a lot of delicious and fun, and for more than ten years, he has always hoped to get his sister's whereabouts.

I still remember the shock and excitement in my heart when my mother told him the news about my sister on the phone, but the news I got was not optimistic, and the whole family committed suicide by poisoning. At that time, his mother sued him behind his father's back, and under the urging of his mother, Jiang Hao didn't say a word, bought a ticket and immediately went to another city.

I haven't seen him for many years, Jiang Hao is very worried about the sister who committed suicide by taking poison, and he still remembers that in his impression, his sister disappeared after a big quarrel with his father.

In his young heart, he always thought that it was his father's fault, especially after learning that his father knew about his sister's situation and didn't plan to take care of it, Jiang Hao added even more resentment to his father.

Jiang Hao, who is not deeply involved in the world, was pinched by his brother-in-law, who has been in the society for many years, and used his concern for his sister's family affection to make himself stunned and antagonistic to his father, forcing his father to take out the family's savings again.

To this day, he still remembers the way his father looked at him, it was anger, and the disappointment of hating iron is not steel, including all kinds of complicated helplessness...

When the money fell into the hands of the two, the result was the same as more than ten years ago, and the reason was the same, doing business, including tens of thousands of yuan that Jiang Hao borrowed from a friend, and threw it into the water in a blink of an eye.

At this moment, Jiang Hao understood the truth of more than ten years ago, and sadly, more than ten years later, in the bureau carefully designed by the two, he helped them realize their plan for the second time.

And all the relatives and friends put the blame and accusation on the father, no one knew that the real culprit was Jiang Hao, and the father alone bore all the faults, and everyone blamed.

"I've been deceived once, why would I be deceived a second time? Children don't understand, why are adults so confused? It's self-inflicted! This is the sentence that the Jiang family heard the most after the incident.

At the age of twenty-five, his father couldn't think about it for a while, took a desperate poison, and died, that year, that day, was the second day when Jiang Hao's first online article was signed on a well-known website, and Jiang Hao cherished this precious contract.

But the sad thing about fate is that he never goes the way you expect him to go, and he was just basking in the surprise of signing when he received a call from his mother.

That day, it was afternoon, Jiang Hao was revising the beginning of the Xianxia novel that had been signed, this was the task given to him by the editor, his mother's words caught Jiang Hao off guard, and the thoughts that flowed from the spring of literature disappeared in an instant, and became a blank.

The constant life changes in the family completely disrupted Jiang Hao's plans and life, and a work that took a lot of effort and dreams also died because of it.

When he saw his elderly father impulsively end his life in such an extreme way, Jiang Hao's heart was torn apart, people, maybe only at the last moment of life will they realize something!

Although, his father regretted his impulsiveness in the end, but a qiē has long been unable to return to heaven, Jiang Hao always feels that this qiē, he has an unshirkable responsibility, self-blame and guilt filled his whole heart, that year, Jiang Hao spent the twenty-fifth spring and autumn in a daze.

Today, at the age of twenty-seven, fate once again gave him a blow to the head, and along the way, he walked step by step into the gate of the university amid ridicule, and along the way, in the face of ridicule and ridicule, he never gave in to fate.

However, at this moment, he suddenly felt a little tired, in the face of fate, he suddenly found that he was so small, and suddenly remembered the words of Zhuge Kong's star Luo Wuzhangyuan, 'Everything is not decided by others, and it is difficult to fight for fate!' ’

For the first time, Jiang Hao felt the powerlessness and frustration in the face of fate, looking at the ceiling with empty and confused eyes, and muttered to himself: "Where is my road?" ”

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