Chapter 193: A Rare Calm (6)
Although he knew from a long time ago that his IQ was high and he began to be conceited, he did not reach the point of arrogance. The woman in front of him www.biquge.info pen&fun& pavilion, he doesn't worship her, but he admires her a little. He told his problem and asked this woman to help him, maybe it could really be solved!
He is a boy, although it is a little abnormal, a little gloomy and weird, but he is still a man, how can he be willing, in this kind of world, just an ordinary person, everything must be protected?
He wants strength! Great strength! How could he only have a brain that was stronger than anyone else? Physical strength also has to keep up!
The self-esteem and self-improvement that arise because of one's gender suddenly become extraordinarily impossible to ignore. Yusang looked at the night sky star in front of him, and after refreshingly admitting that in this last world, it was simply inconceivable that he didn't dare to kill and didn't dare to see blood, and told the night sky star the reason why he was so pretentious.
"When I was a child, I watched more than 30 members of my family being killed and brutally dismembered. From that time on, I was afraid of blood, of dead bodies, and extremely afraid, sometimes I couldn't restrain myself at all, and my body would automatically use a coma to protect me. ”
Speaking of this, Yusang's eyes darkened.
"When the end came, I knew I wouldn't be able to do that. So, I've worked hard too. I went to fight the mutant beast, and the knife was swung out, and the mutant beast was killed, but as soon as I saw the blood on the knife, I didn't have time to control my mind and told myself to hold on and not faint again, so I immediately fainted. Moreover, such a coma, the time is not short. My brother was worried, so he didn't let me go out to face the mutant beasts again. ”
"However, I am still not reconciled. I came up with an idea, and I asked my brother to bring back the corpse of the mutant beast he killed to me. I had the bodies put in a tent, and I slept in that tent in the middle of the night. My thought was that by the time I got acquainted with the disgusting severed limbs, and when I got over my fear of corpses, I might not be afraid to make them. ”
"My approach is useful. Although I couldn't sleep at night, and even when I did, I was quickly woken up by nightmares, and although I tossed myself in just two days, I still felt that I was doing the right thing. If I continue to practice like that and adapt to it, I will one day have the most basic qualifications to become stronger, just like a normal person. ”
"It's just a pity, I was going to continue practicing like that, but my brother didn't agree, and I found it troublesome later. Because I stay in the tent for a day, I have to feed myself for three days when I come out. Moreover, as soon as I have a problem, my brother will be affected immediately. Before I went to the Liuzhou base, before joining the Tianxing Training Ground, because of me, and because of my stubbornness, my brother had several accidents, and twice, even life-threatening. After almost killing my brother, I didn't dare to toss myself anymore. ”
"After joining the Tianxing Training Ground, my brother is anxious to make a result, and I can't make trouble for him, and I have to help him. Therefore, overcoming my own psychological barriers, this kind of thing, was thrown aside by me. Therefore, I am still just an ordinary person, and I am still an ordinary person who is even more cowardly than normal ordinary people, who dare not see blood, corpses, or kill. ”
Yusang smiled bitterly, and in the end, he even had a little self-deprecation.
Ye Tianxing listened to Yusang so much patiently, and while thinking that this little boy's words were still a lot, she sighed at the same time, people who seem to have nothing to do on the surface, the emotions in their hearts are often thousands of times stronger than those who reveal everything.
Yuhuai is Yusang's elder brother, when the Bai family destroyed the Yu family, the death of a large number of people such as their parents, grandparents, uncles and aunts, Yuhuai must remember it better than Yusang, but Yuhuai has no psychological shadow.
Saying that he doesn't hate the Bai family, how is that possible? He hated the Bai family so much that he gritted his teeth, otherwise, he wouldn't have worked so hard for her. However, even if there is more hatred, Yuhuai will vent through his work and some channels, so that he will not be affected too deeply.
But Yusang is not like this, he piles everything into his heart, and a person's heart is the most suitable place for all kinds of emotions to ferment. Although Yusang is still young, hatred and pain have been fermenting in his heart for so long, and the influence on him has long been deep-rooted. He had thought about his family's death for so many years, and now he couldn't even look at the corpse of the mutant beast.
"Well, what do you mean...... After your brother is gone, let me provide you with a safe space where you can overcome your psychological barriers? Night Star groaned, and then asked out loud.
"Yes." Yusang bit his lower lip and admitted that he was begging for someone.
"It's simple. But are you sure that you have to use that masochistic way to overcome your psychological barriers? If you don't get the obstacle overcome, you will kill yourself first. Again, Yusang, you must know that, first of all, by doing that, you are finding guilt for yourself; Second, when you do that, you just push the problem away, but you don't solve the problem. ”
"Is there a way to fix it?" Yusang's eyes moved.
"How can there be no way? You just have to be a little more 'self' and that's it. ”
"A little 'ego'?" Yusang didn't understand.
After Yusang said a lot, Ye Tianxing sighed and began to enlighten him. If she was someone else, she would definitely be impatient, and she wouldn't have time to listen to the other party's long list of words, and she would have to enlighten the other party again in a wordy way, but the person in front of her was Yusang.
His brother managed the Tianxing Training Ground in Liuzhou too well, so that she never thought too much, but this does not mean that she never cared about the training ground in Liuzhou. On the contrary, there have been many times when she has set her sights on this training ground in Liuzhou.
For the first time, it was because of the process of selecting, training, strengthening and cultivating new people announced by the Liuzhou base.
These things about cultivating newcomers, Eclipse Rain naturally gave her a thoughtful plan. However, she wanted to see the abilities of her subordinates, and she didn't want to see her subordinates turn their attention to her for help as soon as something happened. Therefore, after the establishment of the Tianxing Training Ground, there were many things that she did not take out all at once.
For example, the answer to the question of how to add fresh blood to the Celestial Training Ground.
She asked the people in the various training grounds to figure it out for themselves, to test it for themselves, until they were able to come up with a rough charter, and it was not too late for her to perfect it.
At that time, when the directors of the training grounds of each base were still blindly groping, the Liuzhou base, a systematic process for selecting and cultivating newcomers had already come out, and the most important thing was that it was still very good. After she filled in a few loopholes, the process of cultivating newcomers to the training ground has been slowly improved and has been used until now.
Ye Tianxing didn't know who was involved in the customization of this process at the time, Yusang, this kid didn't take credit, he was low-key to death, and secretly gave his brother a lot of tricks, but he shrank in the house as his master without showing his face. It was only today, after the little boy admitted that he gradually figured out some of Yuhuai's inconsistencies or abrupt decisions.
She didn't think Yusang would lie, she would lie to her and tell her how talented he was, how many tricks he gave his brother, he wouldn't dare, and if he really lied, his lie wouldn't last long.
Real gold is not afraid of fire. If he is really a piece of gold, no matter how he gets it, he will not show the filling, if he is just a piece of rotten iron, in her place, in less than three days, something will go wrong.
Not to mention that she thinks Yusang is very smart, he is really a fool, and he can think of this. So, he couldn't have lied to her. So, he's really a talent.
Such a talent, she wasted time and wasted her mouth to enlighten her, which is also worth it.
Then, next, Ye Tianxing said something to Yusang about appearance.
"Yusang, the reason why you are afraid of blood and corpses is because when you see those things, you immediately think of the corpses and blood of your relatives that you saw with your own eyes when you were a child, right?"
Yusang didn't speak, nodded with an ugly face, and then heard that the night sky star really didn't make sense, but it seemed to be really reasonable, and it kept drilling into his ears.
"I really don't understand, why do you think the corpse of such an ugly mutant beast is the corpse of your own family? You and your brother, to be honest, are both very good-looking. I want to give birth to your parents in the future, and they are also pleasing to the eye. A beautiful person, when he dies, he is also beautiful. What's more, I think humans really look better than most mutant beasts. ”
"In your eyes, you can easily transform the dead bodies of those mutant beasts into the corpses of your family, don't you think this is an insult to your family?"
"You also said before that the severed limbs of mutant beasts are disgusting. I agree with you, there are few beautiful mutant beasts, and most of them are ugly. When you are alive, it is ugly, and when you die, there is a pile of mucus rotten meat, ugly, dirty, and disgusting! Do you think it's appropriate for you to see such a rotten thing as the corpse of your own loved one? ”
Looking blankly at Ye Tianxing's very serious and serious face, Yusang suddenly understood what she meant by the "self".
Anything that is reasonable to his eyes, he can infinitely magnify it, and then use it to replace some truths in the normal world. As long as he deeply feels that what he is doing is right, good, and reasonable, then in his world, no matter how wrong, vicious, and unreasonable the thing he does, that thing will be right, good, and reasonable.
He couldn't make himself feel that the sentence that it wasn't the end was correct, but he felt that he was still very easy to accept this proposal made by Night Sky Star.
Corpses are corpses, blood is blood, and there is not much difference between humans and mutant beasts. This is the cognition of most people, and it is also his cognition, so as soon as he sees the corpse of the mutant beast, he will uncontrollably think of the corpse of his parents and family. Then, this caused a flurry of reactions that were not very good for him.
However, if he firmly believed that ugly corpses were not the same as beautiful corpses, and that they had little in common, if he could believe this statement as if it were the truth, he would no longer think of the death of his family because of the corpse of the mutant beast. The reason is simple, who would link two things that have nothing to do with each other at all?
As long as he moves his own vision, as long as he "self", as long as he changes his emphasis, and then creates new truths and conclusions for himself, he can easily change his view of many things. The perspective changed, and the impact of some things on her naturally decreased.
What a fool he is! Why did he always want to use the stupidest way to carry it? In this way, using the truth of the self-world to confront the truth of the normal world, as long as his psychology is strong enough, as long as he believes in his own ideas and truths, what is a psychological barrier that is afraid of blood and dead corpses?
What a fool! What a fool! Yusang glanced at Night Star gratefully, and after thanking her, he was excited to run outside, planning to try the method that Night Star said immediately.
Yetianxing, who was very relieved that Yusang had figured out the meaning of what she said so quickly, did not let Yusang leave directly, she still had something to say.
Overcoming psychological barriers with this method of immersion in the self-world is a method that Nightstar often uses when he kills people at a very young age. The effect is undoubtedly very good, but this degree must be grasped well. Moreover, sometimes, some theories in the self-world, the creator has to refute them, so that they can live a normal life.
If there is no lower limit, you are always immersed in your own world, stubbornly believing that what is red is actually green, that men are actually women, that killing people is actually right, and that self-harm is noble at all, then you are properly mentally ill.
When Night Sky Star kills someone, she will think that it is right to kill, even if it is an innocent person, she will force herself to think that it is right. But when she doesn't have to kill, she will never use the arguments in her own world.
Night Sky Star left Yusang behind just to tell him this. She wanted to help Yusang, but she didn't want to harm him. If Yuhuai knew that his brother had been made insane by her, he would probably hate her to death.
In addition, Yetianxing left Yusang, and he also wanted to give him two tricks. (To be continued.) )