65. Resolve to go into the pit
He is also very reluctant to push his granddaughter who has been raised since childhood into the fire pit, but the hatred of the country and the family has to be avenged......
After all, the patriotic thoughts of the older generation made him choose to abandon his granddaughter, handed over Cheng Xiaoxiao to the new emperor, and let the new emperor take him to Huajie and hand it over to Feng Jinhuan.
But Cheng Cheng only knew that he liked to listen to books, he didn't know that Cheng Xiaoxiao was still in danger of being violated, and later learned about it, and his heart was always in self-blame......
Cheng Xiaoxiao listened to the "story" and was speechless for a long time.
Combining a series of words she had heard and clues she had gotten, she had finally pieced together a complete background.
The two closest people have been kept in the dark, and they have not been able to understand the truth until today, and they are deceived so badly, it is a lie to say that they are not angry, but she can't be really angry with those two people......
Whether it's a grandfather or a son, they've all experienced that kind of thing......
At the same time, she also figured out the reason why Childe had been inseparable from her for so long, and why he was entangled with Miss Xiaoxiao.
She has been a chess piece to be placed next to the Prime Minister from the very beginning, whether it is storytelling or the Upside Down Contest, it is a way for her to attract the Prime Minister.
As for why Childe later regretted finding Qingqing to replace her role, it was because he learned about her daughter's body, or because of something else, Cheng Xiaoxiao is unknown.
But when she thought that Childe might have protected her for those other reasons, the little love seedling in Cheng's little heart broke out as if she couldn't control it, and no matter how much she told herself to be calm, it didn't help.
Yes, she's just stupid, just this small possibility makes her happy.
Even if Childe and others have always regarded her as a chess piece, the fact is clearly there......
Seeing that the granddaughter in front of him didn't say a word, Cheng Cheng couldn't help but feel apprehensive in his heart, "Xiaoxiao? ”
Cheng Xiaoxiao was interrupted from her thoughts, she looked up and smiled weakly, which was a comfort to her grandfather, now she needed some time to digest the sudden facts. After not seeing her for a while, her granddaughter's mind seemed to have become much deeper, and Cheng Cheng couldn't see what she was thinking for a while.
"Xiaoxiao, you can not forgive grandpa, it is okay to hate grandpa, but you must not abandon the world and ignore it!" Cheng Cheng's voice trembled, struggling to get up from the bed, and it seemed that he was going to go down to the ground to kneel down for Cheng Xiaoxiao!
"Grandpa! Xiaoxiao was just a little shocked for a while, so many people's expectations were pinned on me, how could I quit willfully. Cheng Xiaoxiao hurriedly stopped Cheng Cheng, helped the old man back against the head of the bed, and promised with a wry smile.
Cheng Xiaoxiao looked at his grandfather with guilt on his face, and his heart was a little cold......
She has never been a great person, although she is soft-hearted, but on the premise of being able to protect herself, the poor life since she was a child has made her see too much human affection, and she doesn't care about the world. No matter how much she has expectations, as long as she doesn't care about the person who expects them, it is equivalent to nothing.
It's just that...... This person with expectations is grandpa, and she cares so much.
Since she was a child, she was by her grandfather's side, how could she not understand the old man's thoughts, her grandfather felt sorry for her in danger, but he was more afraid that his granddaughter was unwilling to help the new emperor rectify the dynasty because of his abandonment......
The matter of going to the Prime Minister's Mansion is a certainty, even if you know that it will be gone forever, you know that you will be bullied. Cheng Xiaoxiao never thought that he had any noble sentiments of self-sacrifice, but if this was his grandfather's wish......
If there was no grandfather to save her, her little girl would have frozen to death in the snow in winter, and she would have repaid her grandfather's nurturing kindness......
Cheng Cheng was old, he said so many words in one breath, and his feelings changed from excitement to relaxation, and he soon felt sleepy, Cheng Xiaoxiao covered him with a quilt to let him rest well, and he retreated silently.
Pushing open the door and walking to the porch, a long figure stood there, as if he had been waiting for a long time.
The complexion is springy, and the peach blossom eyes are slightly upturned, just one look can lightly make everything around lose color. Her son-in-law, her son-in-law......
The drizzle outside the eaves flies obliquely, and the two people in the corridor look at each other.
It hurts when my heart suddenly hurts......
She couldn't refuse because of her grandfather, and her son couldn't get out for some reason. Such a short experience has already exhausted her physically and mentally, but what about Childe?
He has been in the wolf's den since he was a child, otherwise how could he be so happy and angry at such an age. For her son, she wanted to complain, but she couldn't afford it.
Her eyes were wet, not because of what happened to her, but because Feng Jinhuan didn't show the slightest hint in her heart, but she could deeply feel the helplessness and bitterness.
Childe, he must not even be able to confide, Brother Tiger is his brother, but Brother Tiger was born in a family, fought all the way to the war, became an official and became a knight, and was happy to enmity and revenge, how can he understand the pain of Childe who is mired in the quagmire but cannot escape.
The unspeakable pain is the real deep into the bone marrow.
Cheng Xiaoxiao knew that Feng Jinhuan must have been very bitter and difficult for so many years, it must be more bitter and difficult than her, and this kind of bitterness has nowhere to tell.
However, when he was not asleep, there was always a warm smile on his face, as if he had never been hurt.
It's just that under that gentle smile, how long will the rain in his heart stop?
If you don't help the new emperor clean up the world, the son will smile one more day...... What about the traitorous appearance? Will the new emperor restore his original identity for him, or will he be afraid that he is also a prince and an imperial brother......
Cheng Xiaoxiao didn't know the answer, all she could do at the moment was to help him achieve his goal, even if she gave her life for it! At least don't let him face this lonely rain alone, at least let her be by his side......
So she stepped forward, her little hand gently covering his eyes, not wanting to see that heartbreaking smile again, and at the same time gently imprinted a kiss on his lips.
If Childe needs it, she will always be here to watch the rain, one day, two days, a year, two years, life and ...... Even if it gets wet, even if it rains heavier and heavier, it will never stop.
The tears that had been hanging in her eyes finally rolled down.
"Don't cry, little." The warm voice sounded, as if it were a sigh.
Feng Jinhuan didn't know when he took down Cheng Xiaoxiao's hand that covered her eyes and held it in her palm, put her fingers on her cheek, and wiped a few tears under her eyes.
Looking at the wetness of his fingertips, Feng Jinhuan withdrew his fingers and put them to his lips and licked them off, as if something was licked into his heart with tears.