Cheng Jiayi got up earlier than Ye Qingyun, and when he saw his tall body shrunk in the sofa one yard smaller, there was a steady burst of warmth in his heart. The pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info promised to be the best friend forever when I was a child, and it really wasn't covered.

She followed his example, left him a note, and hurried back to her room. I spent the whole day yesterday, and today I have to pack up and think about the next arrangements. MC's pass expires tomorrow.

Since she ran away from home last March, she has been wandering outside.

She was afraid, she didn't dare to face every familiar street in her hometown, she could be overwhelmed by thoughts wherever she went, she was also timid, she was afraid that she would watch a movie and meet him holding the hand of another woman in the theater; She was afraid that she would buy a snack, and when she met him in the supermarket, she smiled and paid the bills for other women; She was afraid that she would eat a Western meal, and met him in the restaurant ordering with other women......

She fled, and in her confusion and panic, she mustered up her courage and embarked on a strange journey alone.

At first, Shu Hang called her a lot, but she didn't answer, and then he changed to text messages or WeChat, admitting mistakes, apologizing, and redeeming, she also pretended not to see it, and cried and ignored it.

It's not that she hasn't been moved, and she also believes in her heart that he is just playing in a daze, but her imagination for love is too rich, and she has already woven too many sweet pictures of him with other women in her mind. For a long time, she didn't dare to watch things related to love, novels, movies, and television, but she didn't dare to read anything related to love, and she didn't know what structure her brain was. I really don't know how to accept him anymore.

She also thought that the real society is different from the fairy tale world after all, and there are very few people who can go from first love to white heads. But it is precisely because of this rarity that she was once proud and vain of her happy love.

She also thought about whether she could accept it if she met him, he was an experienced person in love, but the current situation was different from that one. She can tolerate that there is a person living before her in his heart, no matter how deep and heavy the position the other party occupies, it can only show that he is deeply affectionate, but she can never tolerate him stepping on two boats, her pride does not allow her to be chosen by him like a cargo.

Later, there was less news about Shu Hang, and she also built a hard and indifferent shell for herself during the journey.

MC was the last place she and Shu Hang had been to together, and she originally wanted to stay here for half a month, so that she could say goodbye to the past, and then muster up the courage to go home. Now that I have met Ye Qingyun, it seems that it is not bad to go back with him a little earlier.

Cheng Jia Yizai carefully freshened himself, ready to buy some skin care products and souvenirs while he was free. I didn't walk a few steps after getting off the elevator, but I was hugged by a person who rushed over.

This person is none other than Shu Hang.

Even if she hadn't seen him for more than a year, from the strength of the hug, from the faint fragrance on the clothes, and from the warm airflow between her breaths, she knew that he was Shu Hang.

He hugged her with such force that he wanted to rub her into his heart. He rested his chin on the top of her head, and it took a long time to choke up and spit out a sentence: "Xiaoyi...... I've finally found you......"

Cheng Jiayi struggled and pushed for a long time, and finally broke out of his arms. She put her hands on his chest and kept half an arm's length from him: "Why are you here?" ”

"Xiaoyi...... I've worked so hard to find you......" Shu Hang withdrew his hand and held hers.

Cheng Jiayi reflexively struggled, but didn't break away: "How do you know I'm here?" ”

"I inquired with my friends about your MC, and I guessed that you would live here, but I didn't expect to find you. Xiaoyi...... I have a lot to say to you...... Xiaoyi...... Can you forgive me? ”

Cheng Jiayi struggled with her hands again, but she still didn't break away, her voice was soft, and she called out: "Shu Hang......" I wanted to think about saying a ruthless word again, but her eyes turned red first.

She couldn't ignore the truest feelings in her heart, and she was glad that he could come to her.

Shu Hang hugged her tightly again in distress, and said softly over and over again in a low voice, "I'm sorry." Until Cheng Jiayi's mobile phone rang, she pushed him away and picked up the phone.

The call was from Ye Qingyun, and it could be heard from the tone that he was in a good mood today, he was like an old friend, and without waiting for her to say "Hey", he went straight to the topic and said: "Morning, my parents and they will go back today, I will send them off first, if you have nothing to do, wait for me to have lunch together." ”

Cheng Jiayi sniffed, exhaled a long breath, and simply replied "Okay" for fear that he would hear something different. ”

But Ye Qingyun still sensed something and asked with concern, "What's wrong?" ”

Cheng Jiayi shook his head, completely unaware that the other party couldn't see it, and only said in a low voice, "It's nothing, you call me when you come back." He hung up the phone first.

Shu Hang let go of the hand that had been holding her, and asked cautiously, "Boyfriend?" ”

Cheng Jiayi shook his head: "No." ”

Shu Hang took her hand again: "Xiaoyi...... Shall we start over? ”

Cheng Jiayi raised his head and looked at him: "Shu Hang...... We can't go back......" he said, breaking his free hand with the hand he was holding hers.

Shu Hang let go of her playfully and slowed down the offensive: "Xiaoyi...... Shall we talk? ”

"Okay."

Shu Hang accompanied Cheng Jiayi to Yaohan, he still remembered that the last time they came here, she was very excited to try countless kinds of lipsticks, different brands and different colors, she tried each one and asked him with a sweet smile if it looked good, in fact, her skin is white, and the naturally upturned cherry mouth at the corners of her mouth is also very pleasing, so it looks good to paint each one, and he is not sensitive to color, so except for the too ostentatious red, crimson and too non-mainstream dark purple and the like that made him shake his head, almost all the others paid.

Although Cheng Jiayi is mostly without makeup on weekdays, she has a hobby of collecting lipstick, and there are two large drawers at home for her to put lipstick. On the day she ran away from home, when he woke up and saw that both drawers were empty, his heart felt as if it had been emptied.

He really loves her, he is the first and only person he really loves, since he was a child, he has always held it in the palm of his hand for fear of falling, and he was afraid of melting in his mouth, and he relied on her for every detail, and he spoiled him for eleven years.

He also always felt that she was worthy of his favor.

For eleven years, she was only coquettish in front of him alone, and refused all external temptations for the first time, after graduating from college in high school, there were many people who pursued her, but every time she moved him out to cut off the thoughts of those suitors, she never had an affair with others.

She is also rarely unreasonable, always gives him enough face in front of her friends, not only financially independent, but also independent in thought, and often comes up with thoughts that make him admire.

He really made up his mind to give her the best wedding in the world, and then spoil her for the rest of his life, as he has done every day for the past eleven years.

However, the concept in the men's circle is different from the women's circle, and the man who has lived for almost 30 years has only had one girlfriend from beginning to end, which sounds strange and faceless, so he can't help but desert after he gets engaged. I thought that I would hide from her and find one or two times of stimulation and retract my heart, but I didn't expect that I would make a mistake and regret it.

Cheng Jiayi has lost contact for more than a year, he has been looking for her like crazy, and even quit his only hobby of drinking in order to calm his guilt.

In the past, he often complained that she was too hypocritical to post on Weibo when she had nothing to do, and she also took pictures of dinners together, the scenery of travel, the gifts she received, and even movie tickets...... He didn't understand why she loved taking pictures so much, and he was disdainful of her Weibo content, until she ran away from home, didn't answer the phone or responded to text messages, and didn't know where to start, so he remembered to look at it.

The content of 4 years, the bits and pieces of happiness with him, careful thoughts, small troubles, and small inspirations...... The bright smile when taking a selfie, every word, every photo, has become an unforgettable memory in the days and nights when he misses her.

After reading her Weibo, he realized that the record was so valuable, and he didn't care about her as much as he thought he did, and his uncooperation every time she took a selfie before also made them miss too many beautiful moments, and there were very few group photos.

However, after she ran away from home, there were fewer updates on Weibo, except for the occasional information related to her hobbies in order to maintain her popularity, only in the early morning of the day she left, a message "The whole universe ends here." ”

He knew that this was the name of a book by a certain author she liked, and he also knew that the "whole universe" in her mouth was himself, so whenever he read this sentence, the words "the end of the play" broke his heart.

He knew that she would definitely be on Weibo, but he didn't dare to disturb this quietness, nor did he dare to face this "end of the play". So he never commented or sent a private message. It's just a daily brush, trying to find a trace from her feed.

The hard work paid off, and I finally found a clue in the photo of a book she sent the day before yesterday. The yellow-covered "Theory of Relativity" sits on a rattan coffee table, with a little pedestal of the swing chair in one corner and a blurred high-rise outside the glass window in the other.

He had an impression of the place, so he made sure that she was in the MC.

With Shu Hang following, Cheng Jiayi's mind can be described as a mess, affected by years of deep-rooted habits, she unconsciously turned back to ask his opinion as she walked around, every time she saw him clasping his hands on her chest, responding to her a long-lost deep smile, she didn't look back like an electric shock, she didn't buy the good ones, and went away in a panic.

When he said that he wanted to talk, she also weighed it, although it was embarrassing to go shopping with him, but really finding a place to sit and talk face-to-face would make her nervous and at a loss. As it turns out, either choice is wrong.

In the end, Cheng Jiayi only bought a small bag of things that were not in the planned list, and he couldn't beat the shopping plot that made his thoughts overflow, and hurried back to the hotel.

Her mind had been confused from the moment she saw him. I thought that after more than a year of traveling, I had figured out a lot of things and could face him calmly. But when he really appeared, she found that she was still the same as the moment she noticed his split, and her whole person was in a mess, and she only thought about running away and hiding.

Under the pretext of being unwell and resting, Cheng Jiayi hurriedly rushed back to the room and isolated Shu Hang from the door. Unexpectedly, he didn't ring the doorbell to urge, and only sent her a WeChat message after a while: "Have a good rest, I'll wait for you on the sofa in the elevator room." ”

Cheng Jiayi exhaled a long breath, and began to sort out the more than a year of travel in his mind, which was originally defined as a "journey to find oneself" in literature and art, thinking that the mind and body were on the road, and they would definitely be able to open up a new world for themselves.

At first, I was afraid to face it, on the one hand, I felt that I was hurt, and on the other hand, I felt that I could understand him, after all, if there was really only one girlfriend in her life, it seemed that it was indeed too dreamy and fairy tale, and a little more experience and experience was worth it and a "must" for him.

When he clearly knew that he had a change of heart, he also remembered the statement of a cheating grandmother in the movie "33 Days of Broken Love" that he watched together before, to the effect that in the current era, people's habit is to replace it if it is broken, and in the past era, the broken one would find a way to fix it, so she fought over the mistress, kept her lover, and grew old together.

At the moment of watching, I feel that those words are not unreasonable, but when it is really my turn, I still feel that the love that has changed has changed is like the food that has changed and spoiled, and I am reluctant to swallow it. After all, the thorn was stuck there, and it was impossible for it to really be pulled out, and with the passage of time, at most it changed its thickness.

But there is no way for me to compromise my understanding of love so easily because I was hurt. She loves him very much, and loves him so much that she values him more than herself, so as long as it is something he feels happy, then she is willing to fulfill him to do it. But she can't accept him to turn back, she prefers that the rest of her life is that he will go to another happy path, and she retains the love for him, and it doesn't matter if she goes forward or not.

Ye Qingyun's phone call interrupted her thoughts. is still straight to the point: "I'm back, where are you?" Where to eat? ”

Cheng Jiayi replied confusedly: "I'm in the room." ”

"Eat at the hotel or go out?" I haven't been here before, do you want to accompany me to visit the famous attractions or something after eating? ”

"Uh...... I ......" Cheng Jiayi obviously hasn't come back to his senses yet.

"What's wrong?" Concerned tone.

So Cheng Jiayi took a deep breath and said with a kind of open-mindedness: "Shu Hang came to me, and now he is still waiting for me at the elevator, I don't know what to do......

“…… Come back together? A tentative tone.

"Uh-huh......" sounds a bit low.

Silent, no one spoke again.

After a long time, Ye Qingyun asked tentatively again: "Then what do you plan?" ”

"It's just that I didn't plan to get entangled...... Cheng Jiayi said and scratched his head with his hand, "And now...... It seems like...... Not so good to come out......"

Ye Qingyun was silent for a while, on the one hand, she wanted to encourage her to face it, but on the other hand, she was afraid that she would really go with Shu Hang, so she finally decided to meet first and settle down, so she asked in a low voice: "Room number?" ”

"Huh?" Apparently haven't reacted yet.

Ye Qingyun: "I'll go to your place to find you." ”

"Oh...... 3115。 Cheng Jiayi paused for a moment, and said timidly, "...... By the way, take a look at it...... He's not there. ”

Ye Qingyun: "Okay." ”

Ye Qingyun walked out of the elevator and saw at a glance that in the sofa in the direction of the balcony, a man in a long gray trench coat was waiting there with his body stretched, and he couldn't see his expression clearly in the backlight, but it felt that Shu Hang was not wrong.

Ye Qingyun only glanced at it, and then turned into the corridor as usual.

The doorbell rang several times, and Cheng Jiayi opened the door with a confused expression as he thought.

Ye Qingyun walked in, sat down on the sofa with her, hesitated again and again, but said the truth in a low voice: "The message he sent you in the early hours of yesterday morning, I accidentally saw ......"

"Hmm......" Cheng Jiayi still didn't come back to his senses, and after a few seconds of pause, he suddenly realized and raised his eyes to look at him, "Huh?" ”

Ye Qingyun: "The WeChat that he said he wanted to start over...... I accidentally saw ......"

"Oh......" Cheng Jiayifu lowered his head again, "It's not a secret......

Ye Qingyun: "What are your plans?" ”

"I don't know...... I ......" Cheng Jiayi raised his head and looked at him, frowning lightly, as if he was doing a difficult psychological construction.

Ye Qingyun looked back at her encouragingly: "It's okay, it's better to say it......"

"Hmm......" Cheng Jiayi nodded, exhaled a long breath, and then slowly spoke, "Isn't it more than a year?" …… This way...... In fact, I already knew that he had a change of heart...... But I can't help it...... I always felt that he should be held accountable for what he did...... In the past eleven years, we have doted on each other too much, so although we have grown so big, we are still like two wayward children, doing everything as we like and recklessly...... Because of the small mistakes we make, it doesn't matter if others don't understand them, we will understand and tolerate each other, or, to put it more seriously, we will indulge each other...... Take the casino as an example, in the sense of elders or common sense, it should be far away, or at most point-to-point...... However, in our concept, no matter which one of them has an increased interest in it, we can squander it without thinking about the outcome until we are comfortable with our body and mind......

"Maybe it's a bit high-sounding...... I actually want to say that I think that in love, including his cheating, it should be worth considering...... I think as long as he feels happy about something, he should be brave enough to try and experience it...... So...... But...... If you don't even mind cheating, then it's not love...... So how could I not mind at all? I minded, but I also hoped that he would find other happiness......

"I don't hate him, I can even bless him with all my heart, but I can't forgive him...... And...... I still love him so much, I feel that loving him has become a physical instinct, and when I run away, I don't feel that once he appears, I will mess up everything...... What if he says that all he wants is to be with me? …… I finally decided that I wanted to grow up, and I was ready to be on my own...... You can live well with memories...... But...... It's time for him to grow up and learn to take responsibility for what he does...... Maybe we're separated...... Will he be able to think twice before he acts? ……

"Huh...... Sometimes I feel like I'm thinking too much about myself...... I don't know...... Maybe...... I'm nothing to him...... I don't really know ......."

Cheng Jiayi said, gradually becoming incoherent, Ye Qingyun listened silently, while feeling extremely distressed, and on the other hand, she could experience the kind of love that spoils people as children, and only by being infinitely understood, can her every move and gesture still be the same as the little girl back then, harmless, soft, and consistent...... But he didn't know how to comfort him.

Finally, he reached out and grabbed her shoulder, let her head rest on his shoulder, and patted her head again and again, as if comforting, and as if silently transmitting strength to her: "Since it has been decided, let's face it bravely...... Better a finger off than always aching...... I believe he can understand what you said......" (To be continued.) )