After running for a long time, I finally stopped.

The lights on the side of the street were dim, and Ye Gui turned his head for the first time to look seriously at the face of the girl he was leading.

She has fair skin, and her eyes are clear like a lake under her long eyelashes.

“……”

The two, who finally met again after many years, fell silent.

Ye Gui was driven by the outburst of emotions in his heart just now, and it was the first time he did such an impulsive thing, but now that he calmed down, he didn't know what to say.

An Yan pulled out his hand from Ye Gui's palm, and then looked at Ye Gui quietly, with a hint of stubbornness in his eyes, like a little beast that was abandoned and refounded.

"I'm sorry." In the end, Ye Gui, who faced those cold eyes, was defeated first.

An Yan thought about many possibilities, but she didn't expect Ye Gui to open like this, a simple sentence made her suddenly forget the thousands of answers she had once fantasized about when she was facing Ye Gui.

"Why?" An Yan finally asked what he wanted to say the most.

This sentence seems to be asking Ye Gui why she is sorry, and it seems to be asking Ye Gui why she hasn't come to her, a former friend, for almost three years, why she is left alone to believe in the promise of her childhood like a fool.

For An Yan, this agreement has nothing to do with love or integrity, but about the purest feelings in the most precious childhood that everyone will only have once in their lives.

Why did this brother who was closest to him when he was a child, the boy he trusted the most back then, and the partner he had always hidden deep in his heart deliberately ignore his eyes when he met him, and he didn't come to him for more than two years when he knew that he existed.

Ye Gui looked at An Yan's thin shoulders under his white shirt, took off his coat and handed it to An Yan.

An Yan didn't stretch out his hand, he still looked at Ye Gui seriously, his eyes were so calm that he panicked.

After so many years, the girl has not forgotten him as Ye Gui imagined. On the contrary, she cherishes her past feelings more than herself, and for so many years, it is Ye Gui herself who has been snubbing this innocent feeling.

Ye Gui knew that at this time, An Yan needed an explanation that she had missed her appointment, which might make her accept herself again, but it might also make her miss An Yan again, and this miss was that her childhood feelings and years of perseverance would end today.

The latter is completely unacceptable to Ye Gui, he doesn't know what the point of his rebirth is if he comes over again but still misses his words, even if he succeeds in becoming famous and has countless money after many years, but he can't share it with the people he wants to be with the most, how can these be regarded as a life without regrets.

Ye Gui said in a low voice: "Because I used to be timid and cowardly, I wanted to go to you on the first day of high school, but I was scared, I was afraid that you would forget me when we met, because you were already too good, and I was nothing, even if we used to be best friends, but too many years have passed." ”

Like countless ordinary teenagers, when facing the best person in his old dreams, Ye Gui would look forward to Monday school morning every weekend, just to see that girl when he was doing exercises; will pay special attention when hearing others talk about that name, will care about what others praise her, and will care more about what others slander her; At the same time, it will also make this ordinary teenager even more ordinary, and completely lose himself in front of that person's light.

In the past, Ye Gui didn't know what that feeling was, or if he knew it in his heart but didn't dare to admit it, because that young man only had weak ribs when facing An Yan, but he didn't have strong armor.

So, is this the answer that has been waiting for years?

An Yan's eyes were slightly red, and his tone was aggravated: "Is this me in your heart?" A snob, forgetful person? ”

Like all women in the world, even if she is still a girl's An Yan, the focus of her view of the problem is also how the boy she cares about sees herself, even if this is the explanation of things.

She has waited for so many years and has never forgotten this person who was once the closest person, and she even remembers how surprised and excited she was when she saw Ye Gui one day in her first year of high school.

She had wanted to go to Ye Gui and say, Ye Zi, do you remember me, and then Ye Gui would look at her and smile stupidly as before. But the truth was contrary to An Yan's imagination, seeing Ye Gui's stunned eyes and the subsequent evasion for the first time, she understood that time not only made her better than those ordinary people, but also made the longing in her heart disappear.

The boy also became like everyone else, and the simple feelings were degenerated.

Like all men in the world, because of love, respect is born, and respect makes love alienated, not all toads can call themselves Lao Tzu, love and respect are always a dead proposition for an ordinary teenager, Ye Gui opened his mouth, but found that he couldn't say anything at this time.

Be? But how could Ye Gui think about An Yan like this. No? Then why didn't Ye Gui let them trust each other for almost three years, overcome the gap in their hearts, and go to An Yan.

Seeing Ye Gui who was silent, An Yan sneered, after so many years, as she guessed before, the boy did not withstand the eyes of the world, and the boy who said that he would always protect himself when he was a child had disappeared long ago.

This girl, who is now in school and will always be longed for by countless people in society in the future, looked at Ye Gui seriously, as if she wanted to engrave his appearance in her mind, and then turned around.

An Yan raised her head slightly, she was afraid that tears would flow out of the corners of her eyes, the more excellent people are, the more lonely they are, and the relationship with Ye Gui is a precious memory that she has cherished in her heart for many years, she feels that every step she takes in the opposite of Ye Gui is stepping on the soft place in her heart, and there is a tingling in her heart.

"Because I don't want to lose you!"

Behind him, a boy shouted.

"Because I don't want to ruin that memory in your heart, because I don't want to lose the only chance to be with you."

Ye Gui choked up, he was reborn once, he finally had the opportunity to tell An Yan what he had hidden in his heart for many years, these two sentences he had suppressed for too long, until the afternoon in his previous life, watching An Yan leave farther and farther away but unable to catch up, so long that he could only silently bless An Yan and plan to bury the words in his heart for a lifetime, so long that he heard An Yan struggling but could not do anything.

An Yan's raised foot did not step out, but fell slowly, but she still didn't look back, her back to Ye Gui and she was silent.

Such a scene, the girl's back made Ye Gui's heart ache, and a song suddenly came to mind in his mind, at this time, there was nothing better than the melody of this song to express the feeling in Ye Gui's heart.

This song is the peace of mind in Ye Gui's heart.

……

I am a child of God

Although in this corner of the world, living in the world has lost everything

How am I going to survive in a place like this

Not for the sake of that

I was born into this world

…

…

A burst of singing came, it was a melody that An Yan had never heard before, the melody was very beautiful, but after listening to it, he felt very sad in his heart.

This is already the second song that Ye Gui sang today that made her want to cry.

Today, she has indeed shed more tears than all these years combined.

In this song she hears a struggling child, a longing and difficult feeling.

There is no beautiful piano, no gorgeous strings, Ye Gui just sings like this, he may not sing so well, and even a little choked, but An Yan seems to hear the truest voice in Ye Gui's heart.

This is indeed the truest feeling in Ye Gui's heart, not only for the beautiful An Yan now, but also for the An Yan that he can't save in the future life.

You are like a child of God, I longed for you but could not get near you, watched you live in chains but could not protect you.

…

…

As the clouds erased the pace

Just open your heart like that

But I can only wait for your voice

……

"An Yan, I don't know what you think of me, how you look at our relationship, I had low self-esteem before, I thought I couldn't complete our agreement, but now I understand, other people's opinions don't matter, what matters is our persistence."

Ye Gui shouted to An Yan in front of him after singing, then walked behind An Yan's back and helped her shoulders turn her around, and then wrapped his hands behind her and draped the coat in his hand on An Yan.

The fragrance on An Yan's body wafted to Ye Gui's nose, and he looked at the tall girl in front of him with red eyes, and his heart was hot: "Give me another chance, let me protect you, okay?" ”

It turns out that this is his feelings for himself, and it turns out that he is complicated because he is too precious.

This boy appeared in front of him again at this time like the protector god he once had, obviously hated him very much, hated him for letting him down for so long, obviously didn't want to see him again, but why did he feel so painful when he thought of really saying goodbye to this boy in his life.

Nodding slightly, big tears flowed from the corners of his eyes, and An Yan covered his mouth and cried silently.

……

At the gate of the Yinzhu Community in Tongshi, two people said goodbye.

"You go upstairs, be careful, and explain it to my aunt when you go back."

It was Ye Gui who sent An Yan home who spoke.

An Yan glared at Ye Gui with eyes that were still a little red and swollen: "You were so bold just now, and you made me cry, now you know that you are afraid." ”

Ye Gui said stupidly: "I didn't think about it so much just now, and besides, I didn't want to make you cry..."

"It turns out that you came to me to explain that it was impulsive, then what you just said is also a lie."

“……”

Ye Gui was speechless, this girl looked cold and cold, but she still loved to be angry with him as much as she did when she was a child, and in the face of this situation, Ye Gui chose to admit it directly as she did when she was a child.

Taking the coat that An Yan returned to him, Ye Gui said confidently: "Anyway, my life and death will be handed over to you, when I was a child, I ran around with you, Aunt Li didn't complain to my mother and hurt me to be beaten, if I was so old and let my mother receive a call from Aunt Li, it would not be a violent beating that could be solved." ”

An Yan looked at what Ye Gui said pitifully, and laughed softly: "Hehehe, I can't guarantee this, maybe before you go home, my mother's phone will call." ”

After An Yan finished speaking, a cold wind blew, and he couldn't help but shiver.

Ye Gui saw that he was afraid that An Yan would catch a cold, so he stopped chatting and hurriedly asked An Yan to go back.

"Hey, Ye Gui."

Before entering the community, An Yan turned around and shouted as Ye Gui, who was standing at the gate of the community and was still watching her.

"Huh?"

"I haven't forgiven you yet, whether we are best friends in the future depends on your performance in the future."

After the girl finished speaking, she turned around and entered the door, and then disappeared into Ye Gui's field of vision with brisk steps.

Ye Gui looked at the girl's light figure, as if it overlapped with the back of the memory who was happier than running up and down the river than herself, and slowly revealed a warm smile.

Friend?

It seems to be more than that.

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The original song in this chapter is "Moonlight" by Chihiro Onishi, and in addition to the original version, I prefer the cover version of Taeyeon and Tokunaga Youngaki.