The Buddha said: One thought becomes a Buddha, one thought becomes a demon.

Those wounds that could not be seen slowly festered in unknown corners, until the flesh and bones pierced, and they became terminally ill, and finally the medicine stone was in vain, and they completely fell into the devil's cave.

The malicious ridicule of his classmates, the heavy pressure of the exam, these little things that seem to us adults are insignificant, but they almost crushed the thin shoulders of the young man, Huang Jue became more and more silent, even Liu Yan rarely saw him happy, and finally one day, he said to Liu Yan with a rare smile that he saw his grandmother.

Although in fact, he had never seen his grandmother at all, but he just decided that the old lady was his grandmother, Huang Jue told Liu Yan that his grandmother promised him that she would take herself to a very beautiful place, where there were no vicious mockery, no endless exams, where everyone was equal and loved each other, as long as there was one condition, he could leave here and go to that real paradise.

And that condition is death, in Huang Jue's view, death does not mean the end, but another new beginning, he is not afraid, even full of expectations, he is tired of this bad world, he wants to go to another place, a new world without pressure, relaxed and happy.

Hearing him say this, Liu Yan couldn't help but be surprised, at first she thought that Huang Jue had strayed into some kind of cult, but then after careful questioning, she found out that all the reasons were just a nightmare, so she finally relaxed a little, but after asking carefully, she was even more uneasy.

It turned out that this nightmare was like a maggot on the tarsal bones, tormenting Huang Jue's already fragile body and mind day and night, seeing that Huang Jue was getting more and more emaciated, his eye sockets were deep, and the whole person was as thin as a withered hemp pole, Liu Yan was really worried, what would happen to him if he continued like this, she wanted to call his family to tell Huang Jue's situation, but Huang Jue refused to tell her about her own home phone at all.

Later, when he asked in a hurry, he simply deduced that he had no parents at all, Liu Yan was helpless, but she was really worried that something would happen to Huang Jue, so she had to ask for Huang Jue's home phone from the teacher, but when she finally called, it was Sister Li who answered, and Huang Jue quickly snatched the phone, and no one answered the phone after that.

Hearing this, Huang's father almost burst into tears on the spot, 'no parents', what kind of mood did his son feel when he first said this?

At this moment, in addition to his distress, he also has deep self-blame, he is not worthy of being a father at all, he did not take good care of his son, and his concern for his son is not even as good as that of a female classmate who has nothing to do with him.

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After sending Liu Yan back to school, Huang's father immediately drove back to the hospital.

Lunch time has passed, Huang Jue is lying on the bed, sleeping unsteadily, there is still a meal on the bedside that has cooled down, seeing Huang's father come back, the staff immediately explained that Huang Jue said that he would not eat anything, he did not listen to persuasion, and vomited after feeding, which was very difficult.

Huang's father waved his hand, signaling the embarrassed staff not to care, and after the staff left, Huang's father sat in front of his son's bed, looking at his almost skinny son, and wept silently.

In my memory, the last time I cried, it was when my mother died, Huang's father was stubborn and refused to admit defeat, others only saw his current scenery, but few people knew that when he first went to the sea to do business, he suffered many hardships that others could not imagine.

No matter how difficult and tired he is, he never says it, just a person who carries it silently, his son is too much like him, so he will fall into today's field, and it is all his fault.

Xu felt that someone had been watching him, and Huang Jue, who was asleep, suddenly woke up, and saw his father looking at him with tears on his face, and Huang Jue inevitably showed a little panic on his face.

Huang's father held his son's hand tightly, and he couldn't even spare the energy to wipe away the snot and tears on his face.

"It's all Dad's fault, it's Dad who doesn't care enough about you, Dad won't go anywhere in the future, just stay at home with you, okay?"

Huang Jue is obviously not used to this kind of physical contact, he has lived with a nanny since he was a child, Aunt Li takes care of him very carefully, but no matter how attentive he is, he is not his parents, he woke up from a nightmare, she will not hug him and comfort him, he was bullied by his classmates, and he can't put himself into her arms to cry and complain, for him, no matter how good Aunt Li is, she is just an outsider after all.

"Is what you said true?"

"Of course it's true."

Huang's father wanted to say more, but suddenly his throat was so blocked that he couldn't say anything when he choked, so he could only hold his son's hand, and his tears crackled and fell more and more fiercely.

"But my grandmother said she would stay with me......"

Huang Jue's words made Huang's father stiffen violently, and it took a while for him to wipe his face fiercely, and he smiled as much as he could:

"Grandma is gone, she can't accompany you anymore, is it okay for Dad to accompany you? In the future, mom and dad will accompany you, don't go anywhere, and stay with you every day, okay? ”

Huang Jue hesitated for a moment, then nodded, and it was rare to show a little smile on his face, but soon, he collapsed his face and said:

"But"

The college entrance examination is coming soon, what should I do? He worked so hard, or did he get a mess in the exam, his parents must dislike him, right? They gave birth to such a stupid son, no wonder they never wanted to see him.

As soon as he saw his son like this, Huang's father immediately guessed what his son was worried about, and hurriedly said:

"Son, you don't have to worry about the college entrance examination, there is a father here! Let's not fight with those poor people, what we have is money, which school do you want to go to? The top ten famous schools in China, you can choose, if you don't have a domestic one, let's go abroad, as long as you want to go to, my father will arrange for you to go. ”

In these days, what else can't be solved with money? As long as money can solve it, it doesn't matter.

Recalling the past, Huang's father almost regretted that his intestines were almost green, what was he so confused that he actually wanted his son to pretend to be poor, if he was rich, he would show off his wealth, he would have to be angry, and his son would be touched by Lao Tzu's light, isn't it natural? I still have to be bullied by those bunny cubs, it's really special that the more I think about it, the more angry I become.

"Smash, let's take care of our illness, and my father is here to go to school! You are different from them, the college entrance examination is an opportunity to change the fate that only children from poor families need, you don't need these at all, you don't need to stand on the starting line with them, because you have been born at the end of the line. ”

Raising his hand and gently touching Huang Jue's short hair, Huang's father was dumb and choked up:

"Smash, just do it well, Dad doesn't ask for anything, I hope you can do well, it was Dad who didn't do well before, and Dad will protect you in the future, be your mountain, and shelter you from the wind and rain, okay."

Huang Jue nodded lightly, and after a long time, two lines of shallow tears crossed his emaciated cheeks.

.................................................... (To be continued.) )