Immersed in the recollection, he soon came back to his senses. An Ruyi looked at the embroidery work in her hand with a wry smile, and hurriedly lowered her head and continued to embroider. Embroidering a purse can earn ten cents, she embroiders better than others, she can get two more cents, she can get twelve cents, and she can earn about five or six cents after deducting the needlework and cloth money.

A bucket of rice costs ten cents, firewood, rice, oil, salt, clothing, and all kinds of miscellaneous expenses need money everywhere. And at the end of the day, she has to take care of Yue'er, who is only two years old now, and she is busy with household chores and food, Rao is her fast hand, and she can only embroider a purse in two or three days at night.

At this time in the last life, she was reluctant to eat the only little food left because of the lack of food, and finally starved and almost died, and her son, who was only seven years old at the time, suddenly became a lot more sensible, and would never run to play with his own friends.

In the past few years, until my son was eleven or twelve years old, he was able to independently go up the mountain to set a rabbit, hunt a few pheasants, and find some herbs, and gradually harvested more, and he could get the collection to sell for money, so that he gradually did not need to help his sister-in-law's family.

Whether it was in the previous life or in this life, it was the sister-in-law's family who saved the lives of their mothers, if she had starved to death at the beginning, she didn't dare to think about what would happen to her children who were so young?

I thought that in the future there would be an opportunity to repay their great kindness. Who would have thought that in those years, life would have been more stable. The towns and villages on their side were in trouble again.

Their village is located in a remote area, and the disaster is not great, but the sister-in-law and her family live in the town, except for the brother-in-law and the eldest son, no one else has survived.

Later, my brother-in-law was so sad that he died after a few years, leaving only his eldest son, Jiang Jianwen, alone.

Later, after the husband came back, he took him to the capital with him. Although he helped marry his relatives, he also found a good job. It's just that children who have lost their parents are pitiful after all.

Thinking of the tragic experience of her sister-in-law's family, An Ruyi secretly decided that no matter what in this life, she would find a way to let their family avoid that catastrophe in advance and change the fate of her previous life.

Thinking of the past life, thinking of the husband, how did they become like that in the end?

Before Yue'er was full moon, her husband was summoned to the border pass. She had a very difficult time at home alone with two young children, and she couldn't live happily several times, but fortunately, with her sister-in-law's family, her mother's family and the help of her neighbors, she was able to barely survive until her husband came back.

When the husband returned, Huairan was already fourteen years old, and Yue'er was nine years old.

When she said goodbye, because of the pressure of life, she had been tired for many years, and her face had already aged, and her twenty-eight-year-old face looked like an old woman in her forties.

And her husband, who was a few years older than her, wore an ink-colored satin robe, with delicate moire embroidered on the cuffs and placket, and a jade belt around his waist, riding on the back of a tall horse. The still handsome face not only does not see age, but also has a breathtaking momentum, which shows a mature charm. Let her fade into filth to the point where she hardly dares to look at it directly.

Fortunately, her husband is not a person who thinks differently, and she doesn't dislike her in the slightest when she is rich.

The first days in Beijing were still good. Until, the daughter of her husband's battle-killed comrade moved into their house, and it seemed that the days began to change slowly, slowly.

First of all, Yue'er began to dislike her, feeling that she didn't love her and didn't care about her. felt that he was too rustic and couldn't dress up, and he began to be reluctant to go out with her to attend a party between her husband and his colleagues.

Then, then the husband came to discuss with her that he wanted to keep the woman as a concubine, but she wanted to refuse, but finally held back her tears and smiled down. She forgot the pain in her heart at that time, and the pain became more and more numb later.

Gradually, Yue'er became closer and closer to the concubine, but became more and more alienated from her mother-in-law. Even the husband praised the concubine, saying that she was well-informed, and in the end, even the power of the housekeeper in the family fell into the hands of the concubine.

Slowly, she, a serious housewife, was reduced to begging for a living in front of a concubine, and the servants in the family slowly began to be co-opted, and what she said became less and less heard. Although her food and clothing have not been deducted, she is also tight, not only is there no extra a little, but there will even be shoddy conditions.

She endured those days for a long time. It was so long that she didn't know how she endured it.

Until that day, Yue'er was going to be sent to the Second Prince's Mansion as a concubine, and her husband, who had not come to her courtyard for a long time, was so angry that he broke into her courtyard, pointed at her nose and scolded her for not teaching Yue'er well. The noble concubine was soft and weak, and she persuaded her earnestly and sorrowfully, but her words made her husband's anger more and more vigorous.

Looking at the small courtyard that suddenly became lively, watching Yue'er look at the concubine she had always liked and admired with hatred, and rushed over to slap her, but her husband wanted to kick it, so she relieved herself and pounced on Yue'er to take the kick, and finally lay on the bed for half a month before recuperating from her injury.

It was also that time that she begged her husband for a long time, but she couldn't change her husband's decision to expel Yue'er. That was also the first time she had a grudge against her husband.

That life.

Yue'er was finally sent away in tears, and when she left, she pulled her and said sorry repeatedly.

Actually, how could she blame her? She only hated herself for not being able to keep her, even if she was reluctant, she couldn't think about it.

When she left, the noble concubine changed her kindness and weakness in front of her husband, and in a condescending tone, she ironically said in front of them that her husband meant, and Yue'er was not allowed to take anything away.

In the end, when Yue'er left, all she took with her was the private room she secretly stuffed into her and almost all of her valuable jewelry.

And then?

Because of Yue'er, Huai Ran was angry and couldn't fight with others, her legs and feet were crippled, and she not only wanted to fight on the battlefield, but her wish to earn her own future like her father was disappointed, and even the errands she already had were lost. can only be idle at home, day by day with wine to drown sorrows.

She was worried about Yue'er and secretly inquired about her news, only knowing that she was having a bad time, but she didn't know why, so she had to carry someone to hand things and silver in. It's just that after a few years, I can't even hand over the money, and I can't hear any news.

She went to the front yard to ask her husband for a thought, only to get her husband to look at her deeply with an unknown look that she couldn't explain, and finally sighed and told her not to waste any more effort.

At that moment, she suddenly realized that in just a few years, when she returned from the brocade clothes, her high-spirited husband was also old, and it seemed that he was aging faster than her.

And in the home that she no longer pays attention to, the noble concubine has long disappeared without knowing when.

……

She had a messy life in that life, but the days of glory and wealth made her live more bitterly than Coptis chinensis. Do all over again, will she still follow the same old path?

No.

What her husband said was right, she didn't raise Yue'er well.

She has spoiled her since she was a child, always feels that she owes her, and is obedient to her. Although she never starved her even if her life was difficult, she still felt sorry for her and lived a hard life with her, and doted on her everywhere.

It was she who didn't teach her well, and didn't teach her the truth of how to behave as a person. I didn't teach her that people are sinister and that they should be defensive.

In the end, it was not entirely his fault that he and his husband went to the step of centrifugation.

If she could resolutely refuse to become her husband's concubine at that time. What's more, if she was on guard at the beginning and didn't let the woman successfully design her husband, wouldn't everything happen later?

She found out later.

The husband didn't mean to accept her, but the woman set a trap and spent the night with the drunken husband, although nothing happened. But when she insisted on being a concubine on the pretext that her name had been lost, her husband was actually hesitant.

She didn't know that her husband actually hoped that she would refuse. Even if she finally accepted a concubine, her husband rarely entered her courtyard, and it was because of this that she finally attracted great resentment and crazy revenge.

Even Huairan's disability has her secret handiwork.

From the moment her husband returned, she lived in inferiority, suffering from gains and losses, and was afraid that her husband would accept new people like others, and then spoil his concubine and kill his wife. A **** day is trembling, and she keeps being suspicious in her heart, although she doesn't dare to say it, but in her consciousness she no longer trusts her husband.

So when the husband came to take that woman as a concubine, she said in her heart that it had finally come.

She was afraid that she would lose her husband's heart, and she was afraid that she would be angry with her if she rejected her husband, so she didn't dare to disagree. Step by step, she gradually immersed herself in the shadow of her husband's change of heart and couldn't get out.

The husband is actually slowly disappointed in her.

"I hope that your heart is like my heart, and I will live up to my love."

The vow she made when she was young was like a dream, and she never imagined that it would be herself who broke this dream with her own hands. It was her low self-esteem and cowardice that ruined everything.

The stars changed, and when they met many years later, the huge gap between the two made her timid first.

If she hadn't had low self-esteem to the dust, if she could have believed in her husband even a little more, wouldn't the ending be different? Her Huairan, her Yue'er won't end like that?

Heaven has mercy on her and can let her start over in another life, how can she still follow the old path of another life?

In this life, she will rely on her own heart to hold her own happiness in the palm of her hand step by step. It will not give people an opportunity to take advantage of it because they don't know the so-called inferiority.

Yes, in the previous life, she was actually defeated by her own inferiority, and then countless days and nights, she asked herself, why did she live a good life like this?

In the end, she figured it out: it's all because of low self-esteem. When her husband finally earned glory and wealth by fighting for her life, she felt that she was no longer worthy of her husband in terms of appearance, identity, and even words and deeds, so she fell into extreme inferiority and couldn't extricate herself, so that she finally caused such an ending.

It will take seven years for the husband to return. In this life, she knows the end, and she no longer has to worry about being afraid that she will never see her husband again.

As long as you want to fill the stomachs of the mother and son, it is enough to take the sister-in-law's family to avoid the disaster in advance.

In the previous life, because he couldn't eat enough all the year round, although he practiced martial arts, Huairan's body and bones were still very poor.

She herself is the same, only Yue'er is slightly better, but not much better.

The body is lost, and no matter how much you make up for it in the later stage, you can't make up for it.

In this life, with his knowledge of living one more life, it shouldn't be difficult to have a full stomach. What to do is to make a good calculation.

Absentmindedly embroidered the embroidery in her hand with a needle, and her finger was pricked carelessly, and blood beads came out, and before she put her finger in her mouth to suck it, the wishful pattern on her wrist stretched out a slender pattern to the crack and frantically sucked her blood.