"If you can't die, then you can live."

Looking at the light in front of her from the outside, it looked very dilapidated and out of place with her neighbors in the village, and was privately called a dilapidated home, Mu Hongmei whispered to herself.

After speaking, he took his younger brother's weak but soft and warm little hand, walked to the door, raised a thin and rough hand because he had done too much work, and resolutely pushed it towards one of the wooden gates that were useless and could not fall.

"Crunch~"

The old big slab door, which was about to peel off and showed some decay and vicissitudes, was also pushed open by Mu Hongmei from the outside when it made a screeching sound.

"Alas~"

Mu Hongmei followed the crack in the open door, and saw the house of more than 200 square meters again, except for the yellow weeds growing on the mound of the wall that had been poured for several years on the west side of the yard, and a few small bundles of firewood next to the mound that could be burned in about three or two days, it seemed that the dirt yard was empty and uneven, and the three-room dilapidated thatched house directly south of the yard, she finally couldn't help but sigh with a little anxiety, and then she hugged and took her younger brother over the threshold of more than half a foot high and entered the house.

Mu Hongmei had a rough life, but when she was a child, she was an optimistic girl by nature, and later, she became a rural woman with a resolute personality.

She never likes to sigh and feel sorry for herself.

But at this time, what can make Mu Hongmei, who has always been resolute and optimistic, sigh is not just because she has to face the current embarrassment at home again, but because she pushed the door just now, she obviously did her best.

However, with her body, which is less than 6 years old and has not been well nourished for a long time, she can only push through such a large crack with all her strength.

Although this is all something that 'once' has already experienced, although when she stayed at the captain Kong Mingzhong's house last night, Mu Hongmei had already made a fuller and better plan for the future than 'once'.

But at this moment, with the mind of an adult, when she clearly felt the difficulties she would face in the future, she still couldn't help but sigh because of her lack of strength.

Mu Hongmei has lived in this world for nearly 46 years, whether it is farm work or housework, it can be said that she is all excellent.

But now, after all, she is not yet 6 years old, and this small body is too small and weak after all.

It is really impractical to do a lot of farm work that is difficult for adults, to feed and raise a child who is more than two years old but is not yet able to eat dry food, and a man who is in the prime of life but gets drunk every day.

But there are some things that I have to do even though I know that they are unrealistic and know that it will be difficult.

Because of this, the livelihood of Guan Hu's family of three is, to put it more serious, the life and death of Guan Hu's family of three.

In the early 80s, although there were not many people who starved to death or died of disease, in Mu Hongmei's memory, this kind of thing was not uncommon.

In her memory, just in Daping Township, where she is located, there is a pair of old couples who were driven to live in the cowshed by unfilial descendants, and when they were old and sick, because they could not make ends meet, and they could not afford the expensive medical expenses for treatment, they had to hang themselves in the cowshed where they lived at that time.

Thinking about it, her current family situation is actually not better than that pair of old people.

And she, wanting to live. Not only herself, but also her own brother who she can't rest assured of and can't give up the most, she also wants to raise him to grow up well.

And the man who was drunk all the year round, and who might still be sleeping in the house at this time, she never thought that he would be starved to death one day, or that he would die of illness because of her incompetence as in her previous life.

Although he didn't have a few years of kindness to her, she 'was' resented, hated, and feared such a father, but he was her father after all, the one who gave her life.

He has an indelible kindness to her, and he can't fail to repay it.

After entering the house, Mu Hongmei directly picked up a long wooden bench that had been overturned in the courtyard for an unknown period of time, walked to the only pomegranate tree in the center of the courtyard, tiptoed, took off the rag on it, wiped the soil on the bench, and then pulled her younger brother Mu Hongbing under the pomegranate tree and let him sit on the bench.

"Soldiers sit here obediently, my sister will clean up the yard and cook rice paste for you to eat in a while."

After Mu Hongmei finished speaking, she took off the old coat that Kong Mingzhong had lent her this morning, and put it on the side of the bench, but she was blown by the cold wind in this new month, which made her feel excited.

After holding his arms with both hands, he stomped his feet on the spot, and he didn't care about the cold on his body, squatted in front of his younger brother, and pulled Mu Hongbing around the blue cotton coat that his mother had worn on him that had been washed white for many years, preventing the hem of his clothes from dragging to the ground and staining with dust.

When he was at the captain Kong Mingzhong's house just now, Kong Mingzhong deliberately left Mu Hongmei and his brother and sister and brother, and gave them a hot meal, so that both sisters and brothers had a breakfast that was rare in the countryside in this era.

At this time, it was already past nine o'clock in the morning, and the sun was shining in the courtyard, and Mu Hongmei was not afraid that her younger brother would freeze in the courtyard.

On the contrary, it is much warmer to bask in a courtyard with sun than in a house where the four walls are leaking and the sun is not shining.

"Hmm~Hmm~" Although Mu Hongbing, who is more than two years old, can't speak, he can understand what his sister said, and obediently points to the proportion of his body while responding, looking a little bigger, and a sweet smile on his thin but more square little face.

It's just that he didn't understand why his sister was hugging her arms and stomping her feet, so when she smiled sweetly, she looked at Mu Hongmei with curious eyes.

"Huh." Mu Hongmei's heart, when she saw her younger brother looking at her with a smile of attachment and trust, and a curious face, the apprehension and uneasiness in her heart were instantly swept away.

She was thin and swarthy and a little yellow little melon seed with a doting smile on her face, raised her hand and touched Mu Hongbing's thin but delicate white face, and after a handful of small faces that still showed a few red marks at this time, she also kissed it with a "Bo Zi~" on it, and then stood up and began to pick up the yard.

Mu Hongmei's family, because they are all poor, and her grandfather joined the army to suppress bandits back then, so when she was liberated, her family's composition was good, and she lived in a biased way, so the foundation of the house she was assigned was actually quite large.

In Caiyun Village, it is not the largest, but it can definitely be ranked in the top few.

Entering the door is more than 200 square meters of mud yard, the yard is just south, a three-room north facing south covers an area of about 100 square meters of thatched houses as the main house.

On the landlord's side, it is a stove room that covers an area of 30 square meters, also facing south in the north, but is lower than the main house.

The gate is on the south side of the courtyard, and on the west side of the gate, and between the west wall, there are two thatched houses facing north and south.

These two thatched houses are livestock pens, and one was originally used to house cattle and the other to house pigs.

It's just that the cow was sold by her father Mu Zhengfang for wine and drunk a few years ago, and last year she raised a pig of less than 200 catties and was ready to sell it to pay some agricultural taxes.

There is also a manure pit dug on the edge of the pigsty, and above the pit is a wood as thick as a large bowl after being cut off, which is considered her family's toilet.

In order to prevent rainwater from falling into the manure pit, the manure water is too smelly to fill the yard, and in order to have a shelter when going to the toilet, the toilet is still built into a thatched shed.

In addition, Mu Hongmei's family has no extra houses.

The courtyard that encloses this narrow in the south and north, wide in the east and west, and covers an area of more than 200 square meters, in addition to the existing buildings, is a wall built with yellow mud.

It's just that now the east and west walls, which are also more than 20 meters long, have collapsed in several places in the years since Mu Hongmei's grandparents died.

Today's Mu Hongmei family is said to be accessible in all directions, and it is by no means an exaggeration.

That is, because there is no one in the house, the only rooster in her family used to crow to signal the time was also stolen by hungry thieves before the Chinese New Year.

It can be said that Mu Hongmei's family is one white and two poor, in addition to being poor and white. Fortunately, apart from the agricultural taxes that have not been paid for several years, there are no other foreign debts.

has no foreign debts, not that her family's economic conditions are good, but that people like her father Mu Zhengfang will be willing to lend money.

This time for Mu Hongmei's mother's funeral, if it weren't for the fact that the village neighbors, relatives and friends saw that Mu Hongmei's family was too poor, and Li Guozhen was not crazy for two years, he was very good at dealing with people, so on the day of Li Guozhen's funeral on the tenth day of the first month, in addition to volunteering to help, someone sent some food, and some people with more comfortable conditions at home also gave some money.

Otherwise, Mu Hongmei's family would have to owe a small amount of foreign debts just to handle Li Guozhen's funeral.

Although Mu Hongmei is uneducated, although when she was a girl when she was a child, because she didn't have a mother to teach her to clean up, in the eyes of many people, she looked a little sloppy.

But as she grew older, as the conditions at home improved day by day, she also became a neat, clean, more hygienic and more elaborate rural woman than the rural women next to her.

By the time she had cleaned up the yard and the inside and outside of the house, it was already more than two hours later.

It's not that Mu Hongmei's family has a lot of things, but there are many things that need to be sorted out.

On the contrary, her family was so poor that her father had already sold what could be sold, whether it was the livestock or the furnishings in the house.

Not to mention that the courtyard and circle are empty, in her stove room, in addition to the rice jars, wooden tables and wooden benches that cannot be sold for money, there is only a large iron pot that integrates cooking rice and boiling pig food, which can be sold for a few dollars as scrap iron.

The vegetables are washed in wooden pots; The scoop water is made of home-grown gourds; Those who eat and serve vegetables are either small earthen bowls or large earthen bowls.

There is no foreign thing.

In the main house, there are only two pieces of furniture, one is in front of the house dedicated to the ancestral gods, there is an old but black-painted table of eight immortals, and the other is a large rice cabinet in the corner of the house where rice noodles are stored.

In the cabinet, Mu Hongmei checked it when she was cleaning, and it was empty, and there was not even a single mouse.

It can be seen that it has been a long time since this cabinet became an unworthy decoration.

As for the two rooms on the left and right sides of the hall, and the one on the west side, there were piles of coarse chaff, dustpans, baskets, hoes, and other miscellaneous items that were used to feed the pigs.

There is nothing to pick up in this house except to sweep and tidy it up.

The one on the east side is the house of Mu Hongmei's original family of four, and now a family of three.

But inside, except for the two wooden bed frames that no one wants to give away that no one wants to crunch at the slightest movement, her home is pitiful, and it is shabby and dirty bedding.

A little bit on the table, there is only one of the two most expensive red lacquer boxes in the dowry when her mother married into the Mu family.

However, when she saw that Mu Zhengfang was still lying on the bed and falling asleep, so in this room, Mu Hongmei just went in to take a look, and didn't pick it up.

The main reason why she has been cleaning for so long is that there are too many weeds growing too much on the mound of earth that has fallen from the wall on the edge of her yard.

When Mu Hongmei remembered, her grandparents had already passed away, and the one who could teach her to do housework was her mother Li Guozhen, who was normal at that time and sometimes sick and crazy.

In such a situation, it would be strange for a really young girl who is less than six years old, no matter how sensible and capable she is, if she can tidy up a house in an orderly manner.

It will sweep the floor, but it must not be clean, and it will not take into account the sanitary corners.

And for these thatchs that grow at home and don't even care for adults, Mu Hongmei, who is young, how could she have thought that if she had to clean it up, this house would have a little more home.

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