Squeak, creak, stepping down the wooden staircase, Lance came downstairs again, the lights in the hall on the first floor were all turned off, Emma and Dakota two little girls curled up in the sofa, looking at the picture on the projector, unable to take their eyes off it. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

Lance couldn't help but slow down, walked around the sofa and walked from behind, and the dialogue in the movie came to his ears, so familiar, "August 23rd, what day is this, my birthday", so that Lance stopped, turned his head to look over, and then stood quietly in place, looking at the big screen a little distracted.

"You can join us." A voice came in a low voice, and Lance followed the voice to see Emma's eyes hidden behind the couch pillows, and she turned back and spoke with a blazing voice.

Lance's thoughts seemed to pause for half a second, then he smiled at Emma and shook his head, "Don't worry about me. The smile on his lips paused, but his gaze returned to the screen.

Emma hesitated for a moment, and was about to continue watching the movie when Lance's voice came, "I thought you were watching 'Home Alone'. ”

"We've already finished watching both!" Dakota turned his head and said with a look of excitement on his face.

Emma couldn't help laughing, "There are only two wonderful ones, aren't they?" Lance smiled dumbly and nodded slightly, Emma noticed that Lance's eyes were still looking at the big screen, "Are you sure you don't want to join us?" Gawain just brought over a bunch of tapes, and he said this is just part of your collection, and there are many more in San Francisco. ”

Lance looked at the pile of tapes on the coffee table, most of them had been rented before, but in the end they had forgotten to return them, so they were left at home, and only a small part was actually collected. However, when he was in San Francisco, he had just finished the movie, so he was almost zero-based, there was no standard for distinguishing good movies from bad movies, and the movies he watched were even more dazzling, and it was normal for Gawain not to understand.

"No, you don't." Lance shook his head again and refused, his gaze lingering on Emma for a moment, as if he wanted to say something, but he still didn't say it afterwards, just smiled and said, "Enjoy." Then he turned and left.

Emma looked at Lance's back as he left, a little distracted, she didn't understand what was happening, but she always felt something. Looking down at the box of the videotape, "Rudy", I can't think of anything special about this movie, is it because it tells the story of a rugby player, and makes Lance remember Gawain's life as a child?

"Emma, go back, we just missed a lot." Dakota pulled Emma's arm hard, which interrupted Emma's train of thought, and quickly nodded, "Okay, I'll go backwards." ”

By the time the movie was finished, two hours later, Emma was curled up in a pillow on the couch, crying profusely. The surging emotions were so violent that she couldn't stop at all, and her chaotic brain couldn't even organize effective thoughts, but she felt the strong emotions hitting her chest fiercely, and her heart was sad, painful, and moved, mixed together.

Dakota was just a little moved, but she didn't react much, looking at Emma who was crying almost uncontrollably, she knew that it was incredible that Rudy finally realized his dream, but there are really too many inspirational movies like this in Hollywood, and after the emotion faded in an instant, the mood quickly calmed down. But Emma ......

Dakota patted Emma on the shoulder, trying to comfort her, "Rudy finally made it on, didn't he?" Although it was only twenty-seven seconds. ”

Emma nodded vigorously, wanting to open her mouth to say something, but found that all her thoughts were stuck in her throat, and she couldn't express it at all, so she buried her cheeks in her hands, letting her emotions fall apart little by little, and hot tears slipped through her fingers. She thought of Lance, of the momentary pause he had had.

She doesn't know what Lance has been through, and he can deeply feel the love and madness of cinema in his lens, but he can say casually that "dreams are dead", as if cinema is just a tool to achieve success, and mock those young people with dreams with contempt; She doesn't know what Lance has been through, and beneath the gentleman's humble exterior lies a soul that is so cold and cruel that he can face the shattered Jessica in cold blood and cruelty, or he can ruthlessly trade his friends as props; She didn't know what Lance had been through, but there was a lingering sadness and indifference hidden under the demon-like skin, and a wound hidden under the back of a single shadow that could never be seen, as if it were invulnerable, even if she wanted to get closer, she was forever locked out of the door......

She didn't know, and she couldn't know.

But at this time, she felt as if she had touched the transparent and thick diaphragm.

Watching Rudy stupidly chase his dreams, "Chasing an unrealistic dream will only make you and the people around you feel painful, Notre Dame is for smart kids, rich kids, great athletes, not for us, you are part of our family, you can live well too." Frank would take over the second workshop, and in a few years he would earn more than John and me, and he would be in charge of the development of the factory......" said my father, but Rudy said, "I don't want to be Frank or John."

Watching Rudy stupidly persevere, persevering for seven years and still not getting the results he wanted, he almost gave up. Rudy said, I want to prove to everyone...... "Prove what?" You're a piece of waste, a five-foot piece of waste, good for nothing. You don't have any athletic cells at all, but you've been on the best college football team in the world for two years, and you're going to get a diploma from Notre Dame, and you don't have to prove anything to anyone in your life except yourself. After you've been through so much, if you still can't achieve your dream, then it's never going to be a reality. ”

Watching Rudy go on a stupid rampage and finally spend seven years in exchange for 27 seconds of playing time, for a professional athlete, it is just an offensive time, and it is garbage time in this game, but for Rudy it is the most shining moment in more than 20 years of life. "All my life I've been told what I should do and what not to do, and I've always listened to them, but I don't want to do that anymore."

In this way, Rudy used silly courage to run wildly, bravely on the road of chasing his dreams, hurt, denial, questioning, contempt, rejection, disdain, pain, torture, suffering...... Along the way, he stumbled and bruised all over his body, and everyone saw him as a joke, but he insisted on it paranoid and stupidly, he succeeded, he succeeded after all, he successfully stood on the college football field, made the impossible possible, and seven years of hard work finally paid twenty-seven seconds in garbage time, but this was the most shining twenty-seven seconds of his life.

So, isn't that true for Lance? Stupidly chasing, stupidly persevering, stupidly running, but leaving nothing but wounds. She didn't know, she couldn't know, maybe her guess was completely wrong, outrageous; Maybe her idea is just wishful thinking, and Lance is a complete jerk; Maybe she's just emotional, putting what she thinks is good on Lance, avoiding the cruel truth...... She, I don't know.

But at this moment, she was so sad, an unprecedented pain stubbornly grew from the depths of her heart, like a flower blooming on a cliff overhang, and the pain that pierced her heart erupted in the depths of her soul, and the pain reached the extreme that she could not react.

Has anyone never really understood Lance? Has no one ever wanted to know about Reims? Has no one ever dared to stand behind Lance? Was everyone deceived by Lance's deceptive appearance? Did everyone only notice Lance's appearance and ignore the soul hidden beneath this skin? Is it because of Lance's temperament that everyone is so confused that moths fight the fire or stay away? Is it because everyone has forgotten that Lance is a man of flesh and blood?

Yes, she is.

When she realized this fact, it was like drowning, she couldn't breathe at all, the tears broke completely, she hurt Lance, and she hurt Lance. It's like Jessica. She used to think she was a victim, but she was nothing more than a self-centered bastard.

Therefore, she should stop such actions at this time, stop feeling sorry for herself, and don't let all the problems revolve around herself; Also stop the flood of sympathy, Lance does not need such alms, they are all the same people, standing on an equal footing, no one is higher than the other.

Taking a deep breath, then taking another deep breath, Emma finally stopped, wiped the embarrassment on her face with both hands with tissues, and quickly stood up and went to the bathroom to take care of herself, ignoring the stunned Dakota. Looking at the slightly swollen eye sockets, Emma couldn't help but smile dumbly.

Perhaps, deep down, she has long realized this, but she has never been willing to cut through the fog to explore the truth.

After leaving the bathroom, Emma hesitated, but finally walked out the door, under the awning, only Lance was sitting alone, Gawain and Ian were sneaking on the backyard path, looking like they were going to steal grapes, and Theo was standing in a corner of the yard answering the phone.

Emma sat down next to Lance, her eyes fell on the beer in Lance's hand, and then she saw a smile on the corner of his mouth, "No, I still won't give you beer." This made Emma chuckle and asked seriously, "Lance, are you a good person?" ”

Lance chuckled, his contempt, disdain, mockery well hidden, "No, I'm not. ”

Emma nodded, but her smile grew more relaxed, and she whispered inwardly, "I know." (To be continued.) )