"Like you just said, in your eyes, Saori is much stronger than my Lin Xi. %77%77%77%2e%76%6f%64%74%77%2e%63%6f%6dBut in my eyes, Lin Xi is the only one. I don't want to talk about that, let's drink. "When I spoke, I especially accentuated my voice.

Xiaodong reluctantly drank with me.

After a while, Xiaodong and I both drank too much, and our tongues began to become unfavorable.

Xiaodong said vaguely: "Xiao Luo, it's really not easy to have a woman like Saori in this society now, you shouldn't be so ignorant of cherishing, you are doing evil." There are not many people in modern society who believe or are willing to give true feelings anymore, so people are numb to look around for passion, and the relationship between men and women has slowly evolved into a game of breaking up at dawn. ”

I said, "Saori is good, but I really can't find a reason to forget the witch to love Saori." I can't. If sincerity is a hurt, I choose to lie; If a lie is a hurt, I choose to be silent; If silence hurts, I have no choice but to leave. ”

Xiaodong patted me on the head and said, "What do you mean, why did you become a victim of what you said?" Do you know who the victims are now? It's Saori! It's the fool who waited for you! That stupid woman! ”

"Since she's so good, go find her! You're going to soak her! "I'm a little angry.

"I'm going to soak her? She's sincere to you, who can go to the soak? She only has you in her heart, you know? Do you know? Did she cry when she asked me out last night so I could come and talk to you? ”

Xiaodong took a breath and said, "I treat you as a friend and I'm going to tell you this, you know? I've never seen that woman cry so badly for a man! Do you know how miserable you cry? Do you know how deep Saori's love is for you? Now you're using her like a kite, you know? ”

I said angrily, "Am I not? Isn't it true that everyone knows how deep my love for witches is? Now that the person I love the most, the most important woman in my life, has left me, I don't want to redeem it, do I have to accept other women first. ”

Xiaodong's drunkenness was woken up by me for three points, shook his head and said, "Forget it, don't talk about women, you won't return home if you don't get drunk after drinking." Dry! ”

"!"

Xiaodong stood up and said, "Okay, it's time to go home." By the way, this is Saori for you, take a good look. ”

I took the piece of paper in Xiaodong's hand, stuffed it into my pocket, and floated out with him.

When I returned to the dormitory, I opened the piece of paper: almost everyone has an unforgettable person in their hearts that will be engraved in their hearts, a back that can never be forgotten.

It may be an extremely short-lived love affair, or it may be just an unrequited love, or it may just be a kind of unreal space.

A qiē looks so calm, so harmonious. Just a light glance, that person has already captured all your attention, and you can't take your eyes off it. Why should I meet you after her, now I don't even have a chance to comfort you. Someone told me that as long as a man understands the truth, he will fall in love with someone in an instant. You fell in love with a Lin Xi who no longer loved you for a second, and now you want to spend a lifetime to forget about it, Yin Ran is such an experiment, and you are emotional for a second to forget about it.

Maybe this is true, but I know that this person who was fell in love with you at first sight will not be me, even if I met you before Lin Xi, it is impossible to change the result. Lin Xi, the name that you remember all your life, will never change to me Saori, I have always understood

But I've been waiting stupidly, waiting for one day my journal will appear in your space, one day there will be a lot of my photos in your album, and one day your mood will be more of a sentence that misses me more than thinking about others, just waiting, looking, how unforgettable you are to Lin Xi.

I want to take care of you so much, but you are firmly surrounded by yourself

I don't expect you to take care of me, I just want you to let me take care of you

pity

It's also a luxury

In your heart, I'm not your only one...

Or that in your heart, I'm just one of your many friends, or even a friend...

After reading it, I didn't know what I was thinking, so I crumpled the paper and threw it aside, and fell asleep like this.

I dreamed, I dreamed of Saori, I dreamed that Saori fell into a bottomless pit and woke up suddenly.

I drank water, lay down and couldn't sleep, turned on the computer, and casually looked, and in the mailbox, there was a letter that Saori had written to me, a letter that I used to say goodbye to last time.

"What kind of fate made you break into my world and disturb my peaceful life and all my mood. In fact, we all know so well that this qiē is impossible and hopeless. But why provoke me? Why do you want me to like you and be so cold and heartless? Sue sù me, why? You know? When you say you like me, you have feelings for me, you really miss me. , I listened to it but I was inexplicably moved, I really want to sue you, in fact, you have been deeply imprinted in my heart, no one replaces. Where the hell are you? Let such a proud and strong me be so willing to pay for you, be uncertain for you, think about you for you, worry about you, and even feel sorry for you. To be honest, no woman has ever been moved, however, since I met you, no matter how far away you are from me, as long as you say "I miss you", I will find all kinds of reasons and opportunities for myself to appear in front of you like a moth to a fire. (In fact, these are just excuses for dying to save face).

As time went by, I gradually understood that it turned out that you only think of me because you are lonely, not because you really like me. I'm just a shadow that fills in when you're empty and bored. Every time I see you despite a qiē obstacle, I know that my heart is so strong to want to hug you, I just want to snuggle on your shoulder and listen to you quietly, it turns out that the feeling of falling in love with someone is so wonderful! However, after the incident, your indifferent expression seemed to make me understand something again the moment you turned away.

If sincerity is a hurt, I choose to lie; If a lie is a hurt, I choose to be silent; If silence hurts, I have no choice but to leave. Actually, a lot of things were seen clearly later, and I really didn't feel bitter at all, but now I can't find the way I came. There is a kind of love, which is obviously deep love, but it can never be said; There is a kind of love that obviously wants to give up, but it is always impossible to give up; There is a kind of love, knowing that it is torment, but it can't be avoided; There is a kind of love, knowing that there is no way forward, and the heart has long been unable to take it back. Always such endless thoughts, trying to feel your breath, your voice, the faint smell of soap in your heart. , in the middle of the night, when no one is around, you still miss you, full of suspicion and questions, but you don't know who you are snuggling up to at this time. Always smirk helplessly in front of you, is it because you can't give me a sense of security, are you too cold, or do I want too much? It's so clear that the love you want has nothing to do with me. I know you're online, but I can't say anything to you! Every time I can only stupidly watch you go offline, my storage zài has nothing to do with you, has nothing to do with your life, is not remembered, and it is so natural, always find a reason for you, always coax yourself like this.

I still want to spend more time with you, I want to share more of the world with you, I want you to love me more and more obviously, I want to really come into your life, and you are always silent and avoidant. I will miss you, and I miss you, just like the air is everywhere, like a shadow, with every breath, natural and intimate. Why do you always make my heart ache, so painful that I am so helpless! Am I stressing you out too much or are you really tired of me? Don't know how to cherish me? In the past few years of knowing you, which has made me dream, I have loved painfully and happily, talking, missing, and I have made up my mind to forget you again and again, and I have betrayed myself again and again so eager to cherish with you, and my long life will go slowly. There is still a little heartache and a little sadness when I miss you, but I prefer to move forward with good wishes and hopes.

People are numb looking for passion, and the relationship between men and women has slowly evolved into a game of breaking up at dawn, is it to prove that they have also loved? Have you ever had a true relationship? I am a little slow to react, some can't keep up with the times, I can't understand the rules of the game, I can't say the lines inconsistently, tell myself that this is just a show. I don't understand romance, maybe loving you is a far-fetched expression, maybe in your opinion, I am so stupid in front of me. And I still can't help but miss it, and countless nights of gloomy tears.

Who can meet a few people who really love them in their life, and how many people can fall in love with? I have completely forgotten the people around me who love me and have been hurt by me, but I will continue to fall for you. Your unintentional words reveal your attitude, but in fact, these words of yours are inadvertently hurting me, so stinging, so painful that I am speechless. You trample on my feelings, destroy my self-confidence, and think that you don't understand me, and you have never tried to understand me, let alone understand the depth of my affection. Yes, you succeeded and finally conquered me who was so proud.

I cried the moment I decided to leave you, and my tears proved that I was really in love with you, even though I still don't want to admit it. Love can be a momentary thing or a lifetime thing. Everyone can fall in love with different people at different times. It's not who can't live without it, forgetting makes us strong. I love you, I miss you, I am obsessed, and you don't care, as if I never entered your heart; I think of you, I miss you, until I shed tears, and you don't seem to cherish it, as if I never met you; I love you, I cherish you, to my dreams, but you never remember, as if you and I have never been together. Is this distance the farthest? Is it sad beauty? It is said that distance is beautiful, but I hate this distance, because you and I will never be together, even if I love so much and cherish so much; It is said that distance is mysterious, but I reject this mystery, because you and I can never be beautiful in this mystery.

I was once so sincere and hopeless attached to you, but do you know my heart? When I was disappointed, I cried; When I wanted to forget you, my heart really hurt; All my true feelings went down the drain, and what did I get? It was melancholy, sadness, disappointment, and ridicule. Maybe love is just because of loneliness and needs to find someone to love, even if there is no ending. A lot of people don't need to say goodbye because they're just passing by. Forgetting is the best memory we give each other. The good is always ephemeral, as a memory it is eternal, as a process it is sad.

Flowers and flowers are flying all over the sky, and there is no one to pity the red incense!

Love is the sand in the river, if you let it slip through your fingers, you may never get it back! If it's just because you're lonely, stay away from me! For me you don't love, please be ruthless, don't be gentle with me anymore, don't say anything that makes me stupid and impulsive, maybe, you will see me sad, but after many years, you will find that being cruel to me is actually the greatest good for me!

I never know how to love myself, I always think that the person I love in my heart is happy, and I am really happy; Autumn is as cool as water, the temperature is dropping, as you have always been, always so cold? A person in the face of Liangqiu, there is no reason to let yourself be sad in this unruly emotion, you don't love me, I also have to know how to cherish myself, meet you, fall in love with you, there is no mistake, and I will not regret it, after all, that short happiness has been so clearly engraved in the memory, can only blame when we meet, our roads are different, and we can't hold hands and walk on the same road. My direction is you in the distance, and you? It's not on me after all. If you know each other and love each other, you may be wrong to love you, but my heart will always be concerned about you!

A qiē is like a dream, should remember and forget, it is a part of life, I have loved, tired, and complained, but I have never blamed. I always hope that you will live happily and no longer be alone. Maybe there has always been a woman you love in the depths of your heart, if not, meet again, cherish it, don't let her down again, you know, to be able to die down, without complaint for a woman, without any commitment and responsibility to love him, for a man needs more than just courage.

No matter how strong a person is, there are times when you are lonely, in your life, when you need care, if there is a pair of warm hands holding up the sky in your heart without complaint, there is a heart that sincerely grieves your sadness without regrets, and is happy with your happiness. What reason is there to refuse? How can you bear to be hurt?

Remember to smoke less cigarettes and drink less! Don't play hard, money is never the most important thing, or cherish your body, I hope you are happy!

Of course, I also believe that one day I will slowly forget about you in due time, because I want to be happy too."

Now I suddenly feel like I'm afraid of losing Saori. Am I really in love with Saori? Why did I feel a tingling in my heart when I read that letter in my dream, but not when Saori sent me the letter? Maybe Xiaodong is right, Saori is a good woman, but I already have a witch in my heart. Could it be that my heart is now in a Saori again. Or has the witch begun to fade in my heart now?

Love is really a tangled thing, and there is no logical law to find. Even if I wait for the witch stupidly in place for 10,000 years, the witch will not come back, after all, it is easy for two people to fall in love, but it is not so simple to get along after really falling in love.

Just because of a dream just now, the ups and downs of the past emerged.

Then go to bed, then get up, wash, eat, go out, and go to work.

"Beauty! Is there anything I need to attend to today! "As soon as I arrived at the company, I laughed with Zihan.

Zihan, who was busy on the desk, raised his head and smiled, and said, "Hehe, there's nothing for you to do, Comrade Yin Ran." ”

After a few words of laughter with Zihan, I went to my office and looked at the company's recent work reports, and I felt that there was no problem.

Thinking that there was nothing to do, I started surfing the Internet to see the latest news.

After surfing the Internet, I still habitually dived on QQ and looked at the witch's gray QQ avatar. The witch is still not online.

There has been no good news on the Internet for a long time, or those gossips or fake news from Sanzhai.

Someone on QQ talked to me.

It's Shaoyang's avatar flickering.

"Yin Ran, are you there?"

"Yes, what's wrong? Where were you last night? Why didn't you come to me and Xiaodong? I replied.

"Don't mention it, come out for a drink tonight."

"Drink again? No way! I've been drinking groggily for three days. ”

"I'll tell you something."

"You tell me the time and place."

"Come over after work, Golden Horse Hotel."

"Okay!"

"Then I'll wait for you, I'll go to the meeting first. See you in the evening. ”

"Bye-bye, see you in the evening."

What's the matter with this kid looking for me? Could it be that this kid was also bought by Saori?

If even Shaoyang was talking for Saori, I think I would really collapse.

After a day's work, go to the Golden Horse Hotel.

When I arrived, I found that the annoying Xiaodong was also there, and I felt that my guess was getting more and more correct.

Saori! You're really amazing, you bought the people around me one by one.

After the three of us got to the table, no one said anything, just Xiaodong chatted with me a few words.

Shaoyang seemed very silent, just drinking and eating.

The wine has passed three rounds, and the dishes have passed five flavors. Shaoyang also began to stop being silent and began to talk to us slowly.

After another glass of wine, Shao Yang said with six points of drunkenness: "I feel that the three of us are like a joke, the gods tell us that there are seven-colored flowers in the Taklamakan Desert that can bring you happiness, so the three of us desperately went to find it." I'm lucky enough to find the seven-colored flower, and you're still looking for it. But after getting the seven-colored flowers, I suddenly realized that each color of the seven-colored flowers represents a different feeling. Joy, anger, sorrow, sorrow, and sorrow are the true lies of the seven-colored flowers. ”

Xiaodong said: "Speak human words! ”

I handed out a cigarette to each of them and asked, "Shaoyang, what's wrong with you?" What's wrong? Career or family? ”

Shao Yang shook his head and said, "I'd rather it be these problems, but unfortunately not." ”

Xiaodong asked, "You are all a married and successful man, what else will happen?" ”

Shaoyang lowered his head and said, "It's emotional." ”

Xiaodong said with a smile: "Feelings? It's not a relationship with my sister-in-law! Little three? ”

Shaoyang took a puff of cigarette and didn't say anything, just nodded.

Suddenly I felt that Shaoyang's experience was very similar to mine, I thought for a while and asked, "Shaoyang, who do you want to choose?" Mistress or sister-in-law? ”

Shaoyang was silent, and I was waiting for his answer. I don't know if I'm waiting for Shaoyang to sue me, he will choose no one, I don't know if I'm waiting for him to sue me, should I choose a witch or Saori.

Shaoyang took a few puffs of cigarette and said, "Forget it! You don't understand! You don't know where I'm now. If I could make a clear choice, would I still drink here? Both of them have a place in my heart, and I don't know what to do. I'm not ready! ”

It seems that men all over the world are the same, they are all cheap, they are all *** eating in the bowl and looking at the pot and thinking about the granary.

Why don't I, now the witch Saori has a certain status in my heart. What can I do? The one who loves me trembles for me, but I am for the one I love.

Xiaodong smiled and said to the two of us, "Shaoyang, what else do you need to prepare?" If you can be prepared and accept it, then it's not feelings, feelings are the thing. You can't stop her when she comes, and you can't ask for it when she leaves. ”

Shaoyang didn't say anything, just looked at Xiaodong quietly and nodded in agreement. And I also silently accepted Xiaodong's statement in my heart, which is indeed the case.

Later, only Xiaodong and Shaoyang were chatting, teasing, and drinking with each other.

I didn't make any noise, I just listened quietly.

Later, when I heard them talk about Shaoyang's affair, I realized that Shaoyang said that the woman didn't work in their company at all, and he met that woman purely by chance.

Shao Yang described that the woman was not particularly beautiful, but her temperament was very good, no matter who saw her, there would always be a feeling of seeing a rainbow after the rain. And she fell in love with Shaoyang at first sight, that woman was only twenty-five years old, and now her love for Shaoyang belongs to the kind that is dead and alive, and even decided that Shaoyang will not marry in this life, and now Shaoyang is entangled by that woman.

I guess we're not all good stuff.

Although I only listened to Xiaodong, who was not willing to be lonely, he didn't talk less, and the two of them were like chicken blood.

It wasn't until the last two of them were stimulated by the alcohol that they obediently lay on the table before they quieted down.

I had to get these two drunks one by one and go to the hotel.

When Bei Shaoyang went to the hotel, he still muttered something honestly, but unfortunately the voice was too quiet, and I could only hear a little bit of the general meaning, as if he was saying that he didn't know how to choose between that woman and his wife.

Listening to Shaoyang muttering there, I really felt funny, if I was drunk today, I guess I was muttering like this, but I was not muttering about the two women he was talking about, but Saori and the witch.

After opening three rooms in the Yunshan Hotel and arranging the two drunks one by one, I returned to my room and lay on the bed without falling asleep. Every time I finish drinking, I fall asleep, but today I don't feel the slightest sleepiness. Movies started playing in my head.

I really didn't expect that the N-corner romance that often appears on TV actually happened to me. The witch and Saori flashed through my mind one by one, and every second of me with them was projected in my mind. But my heart is Saori now, and it was Saori who made porridge for me in the kitchen.

I tried my best to make myself think of the witch, but the figure of the witch was sinking in my mind, and the witch's charming smile was no longer so clear, so I tried to turn up the clarity of the witch's charming smile in my mind, and finally I was able to freeze that charming smile and save it in my mind. But the witch's charming smile was still sinking, and the only clear thing was the scene when the witch left me.

Quietly wait to force yourself to sleep.

In my sleep, I was woken up by the ringing of my mobile phone, and my dizzy head answered the phone: "Hey? Who is it? ”

A familiar female voice came from there: "It seems that I really disappeared in your heart, and you don't even know my mobile phone number." ”

Only then did I look at the caller ID on my phone and bite my tongue.

Witch! It turned out to be a witch calling me.

I quickly apologized and said, "Witch! I drank a bit high last night. I just said it habitually. ”

The witch laughed and said, "I forgot about it, right?" ”

I was about to explain something, but the witch didn't give me a chance to speak, so she continued, "I'm back, at home." Are you coming back in the evening? ”

I was excited for a long time and only held back one word: "Back!" ”

"Hehe, then I'll wait for you, be careful on the road."

"Hmm!"

After hanging up the phone, I felt a little uncomfortable in my heart.

There seems to be a hint of loss.

I don't know what's wrong with me, I should be happy that the witch is back, why do I feel this way?

I drank too much yesterday and felt sick to my stomach. I casually found reasons to prevaricate myself, I didn't want to let myself think about those tangled issues anymore, I didn't want to let myself be as entangled as Shaoyang.

This day in the company can really be said to be like a year, maybe because you can see the witch who thinks about it day and night at night.

After getting off work in the afternoon, I took the car and drove towards the road that was both familiar and unfamiliar.

I thought I should be very excited, but the more I drove home, the more I felt that I was a little excited, and even felt a slight decline, walking alone on the crowded street, looking down at the asphalt road, looking up at the street lights. I feel that the natural breath of the whole world has been replaced by modern civilization.

Only the moonlight still shines on the earth, but unfortunately the moonlight is no longer as bright as it used to be.

A fierce war began in my mind, and reason began to declare war on emotion.

Thinking back to a qiē incident that happened recently, it really feels very messy.

When I entered the house, the witch had already prepared dinner, and the dinner was very pleasant, and I forgot about Saori for the time being, and temporarily ignored that the witch no longer belonged to me.

The witch also gave complete information about the fact that she left me, and blocked it from her memory.

After the meal, we began to watch TV quietly, and the atmosphere began to seem a little cold, no longer as cheerful as when we had just eaten.

Watching passionate American blockbusters also feels like a boring soap opera, and the potato chips in your mouth also feel like chewing wax.

The witch suddenly said, "Xiao Luo, I miss you." ”

I was stunned when I heard the words that flashed out of the witch's little mouth.

Don't know what to say.

The witch then said, "I want to take a bath, can you come and wipe my back?" ”

What the hell happened to the witch? I was still thinking about what the witch had just said, and the witch had already gone to the bathroom to put the bath water.

"Xiao Luo, come and wipe my back!" I heard the lazy voice of a witch in my ears.

The witch said in my arms, "Xiao Luo, how are you doing during this time?" ”

I took a puff of cigarette ash and said, "Very good, the company's development is relatively stable now, so I have no bad reason." ”

"You're smoking a lot more cigarettes now than you used to. Do you hate me very much? ”

"Nope. How could I hate you? Okay, don't think about it, go to bed quickly. ”

After coaxing the witch a few times, she fell asleep.

I saw that the witch was really beautiful when she was asleep, and I couldn't help but kiss her quietly and press the corner for her. He took a cigarette out of his clothes, lit it and smoked it.

Why did you just feel like you were venting your bestiality when you were entangled with the witch just now, instead of the artificial love you loved? Could it be that the witch has faded in my heart? At this time, Lin Batian's disdainful eyes suddenly flashed in my mind. Lin Batian! Witch! Yes, after all, they are father and daughter, how could they give up on themselves because of me. Lin Batian has already introduced the witch to others, and the witch no longer belongs to me completely, but belongs to the kind of powerful combination of trading goods. I can linger with the witch, but what about the next second? Maybe when I contact her again tomorrow, there is already a man with her side, maybe the two of them are eating, maybe they are kissing, or even two people are together. I don't want to think about it that way, but I can't help it. The fact that the witch's fate with me has come to an end will not change because I don't want to.

Thinking of this made me feel so uncomfortable that I threw away the cigarette butt in my hand and started dressing, I wanted to leave this place.

"Xiao Luo, what are you doing with your clothes?" The witch's languid voice came from behind me.

I didn't stop moving, and said, "I don't want to stay here anymore, I'm sorry." ”

"Why? Why are you leaving? You. ”

Before the witch could finish speaking, I interrupted her and said, "Let's meet again when you and I think through our relationship." ”

I got up and left, I could feel the witch looking at me in a daze, but I didn't say anything, closed the door and left.