Xiao An remembers that when she was a child, she would often follow her older siblings to the big playground of so-and-so college near her home, where they spent a lot of happy times together. She was too young to play anything, so she could only watch her older siblings challenge one difficult move after another on the playground – they would sneak out of their elders' bikes and then stand on the speeding bikes and practice juggling.

This was originally a very warm scene, if it weren't for the unwarned yellow and clear liquid, everything should belong to the beauty of innocence.

Xiao An's memory began to pop up some unpleasant factors, she simply didn't think about them, and continued to pay attention to the eighties self on the screen, who was only a few years old.

On the screen, the little girl, that is, herself, is still sitting on the rostrum, it is summer, and she is a child, so she doesn't feel cold, and she doesn't know how dirty. From her point of view, she seemed to be staring at something in front of her to the left. Xiao An thought about it carefully, and remembered that at that time she used to sit there and watch her brothers and sisters practice juggling, and sometimes if they rested, they would basically stay in a certain place and keep a safe distance from themselves, that is, if something happened to Xiao An suddenly, they could run to the rostrum as fast as possible to avoid unnecessary dangers and losses.

My brothers and sisters have always been very strong, and Xiao An has always been proud of them. But she ignored one point, that is, although they are very powerful, they can only be compared with children of the same age, and more often than not, they can't even protect themselves, because they are still children, let alone protect the younger Xiao An.

At this time, I don't know why, although the self on the screen is looking in a fixed direction, but there is always only the three or four-year-old self in the screen, and I can't find the shadow of my brother and sister at all.

That's weird, since there is me in the image, there should also be my brother and sister who were with me at the time! Moreover, the playground at that time was deserted. But after all, it is in the center of the city, and occasionally some mothers-in-law and grandmothers who live nearby pass by. So, even without my family, my playmates. But there shouldn't be just one me in the huge playground!

Xiao An originally wondered if someone had quietly recorded the scene of the playground with a machine that was beyond the level of most equipment at the time, and there have been such videos and photos often in recent years. It was filmed many years ago and has not been broadcast, just to make everyone surprised to realize the changes of the times over the past few decades. And most of them are foreigners. So, could it be that there was a foreigner at that time who didn't alarm everyone in order to get the most natural effect?

But even so, how can I be the only one in the whole picture? That kid, that kid should be me, right, otherwise, who else looks like me? Even if there are people in this world who are very similar to me in all aspects, but their expressions and clothes can be so similar? Although it is technically achievable, and it is not very difficult to do so, but. Who would do such a boring thing with such a full stomach?

Especially in the early eighties of the last century?

At that time, there didn't seem to be too many entertainment programs, Hong Kong had them, and there were them abroad, but at that time, Hong Kong had not been taken back, abroad, everyone did not have the Internet, and computer classes were only slowly popularized in the early nineties.

To be exact, the common people at that time. I don't even have this concept in my head, let alone ordinary viewers, and maybe even many TV workers who haven't gone out to investigate much don't know what entertainment programs are.

In Xiao An's memory, although it has been a few years since the reform and opening up in that era. But after all, it's only been a few years, everything is not yet mature, and people are still in a stage of exploration on this road. At that time, some of the occasional entertainment clips on TV were just some popular and dedicated singing and dancing programs. It's like today's children, because of the development of information, they have been influenced by all kinds of undisciplined exercises since childhood. You can talk about it with your eyes closed.

Xiao An: They were really a bit like a certain country in the east at that time, a red heart was baptized so that they only knew that they loved the country, the party, the people, and wanted to be a PLA when they grew up. It is only after the erosion and indoctrination again and again in the long years of growth that I know that people still have to be themselves, which is a matter of course, otherwise it will be destroyed by heaven and earth.

People will always encounter all kinds of collisions in the years of growth, but some people understand quickly, then they can be less stimulated, and some people understand slowly, and the impact on the natural soul will be greater.

Xiao An obviously belongs to the latter category, because her parents have protected her well since she was a child. But she didn't like it, she was inherently insecure, and this protection from her parents would increase her insecurity. Not only did Xiao An's parents not realize it, but she herself didn't expect that her parents' conservative behavior would be so confused that they would make a huge mistake, and how fatal this mistake was, I am afraid that neither they nor Xiao An had ever anticipated.

Yes, until now, this nearly thirty-year-old mistake has not been discovered by everyone, and the longer it drags on, the deeper the damage will be. But maybe this is fate, some damage is destined to be digested alone, and Xiao An is gradually approaching the harm of that fate, at this time, she doesn't know anything.

She was still engrossed in looking at her three or four-year-old self on the screen.

I haven't been a creative child since I was a child, like my older brothers and sisters who have ideas and courage, but they are still born in the 70s, and their access to information at that time was even more limited. So this is innate, don't blame the society, Xiao An was born a stupid child with a lack of creativity.

At this time, the stupid boy was sitting obediently on the rostrum, without any toys in his hand, not even a hair grass, Xiao An was a little embarrassed: If this show is really seen by the audience, then my classmates and colleagues who know me will have to laugh at me for being stupid!

I often listen to people around me tell interesting stories about my childhood, all of them are bullish and coaxing, which really makes Xiao An envious, why don't I have such a glorious history? Later, she also felt that it was wrong, she had never heard that the city she lived in had many outstanding people, so why would there be such a disgraceful hero? It's only a big place in total, and these heroes have to account for most of the total population, just like when they were in elementary school, everyone competed to say that their parents were the class presidents in the class, so how many ordinary students can be left in this class?

Isn't it an elite society now, and the last elimination system is implemented. is so overflowing with elites that it doesn't let people live. Could it be that you have returned to the era of over-talent in the Three Kingdoms? You're awesome, I'm even better than you. Brother Liang's mission is to make people sigh and understand. His birth itself was a rhythm that drove people to death.

So there's no need to be too strong, if you lose, you lose, even if you lose, you're still glorious. Therefore, for the inner world of Zhou Dudu, a woman like Xiao An will never understand.

If you don't understand, you don't understand, not to mention that I was just such a small child at the time. Xiao An happily comforted herself. Thinking about himself as a bear child, even if he is seen by his friends, even if he is ridiculed, it shouldn't be too bad.

Xiao An continued to look at his childhood self on TV with an appreciative look, but at some point, a back suddenly appeared in the camera, the back of an adult, and the back of an adult man.

Who could he be?

It's not like a family member.

Xiao An doesn't have such an elder in his impression. Judging from the back of this man, he was about thirty or forty years old, and he was also dressed in clothes that matched the style of that era. walked towards his childhood self unhurriedly, and the self on the rostrum didn't seem to be aware of everything around him, as if he didn't know that a living person was walking towards him.

Who is he, and what is he going to do to himself?

The self on the screen seemed to be completely indifferent to this, but Xiao An, who was a viewer outside the screen, really sweated for himself.

He's not going to kidnap himself.

I thought about it again, no, didn't I still watch TV here? Therefore, there is no such thing as flower abduction and trafficking.

Sure enough, that person did not abduct her as Xiao An thought, and there was not even a little physical contact. A certain distance was also maintained. I just walked and walked, and then found a suitable place to stand suddenly.

He stopped suddenly, and Xiao An kept his attention as he turned his back to the camera. So I don't know what he's doing now, but it just looks like he's bowing his head. He lowered his head, what was he looking for, what was he looking for?

Xiao An also wanted to help him find that thing as soon as possible, because she was worried that it would be something that would be bad for her young self.

But the last thing she wanted happened, even though the man had never had any physical contact with her. But with his unusual wit, he took a clever approach to his young self indirectly—he was now bowing his head and intently aiming his not-so-clear excrement at Ann's feet, which had been dangling beyond the railing of the rostrum.

Not.

Xiao An was a little impressed.

It's the bastard, the bastard who can't remember what he looks like all along. Xiao An can only vaguely remember that there seems to be such a person, always expressionless, as if he is doing an extremely sacred thing, a huge playground, there are no gods above his head, no mirrors, and no cameras everywhere today, so he is bold, freewheeling, and unscrupulous to drench Xiao An with the fertilizer he has accumulated for an unknown number of hours.

Ha ha.

Come to think of it.

Uncle, you are okay, your body, you are still healthy, your children, you are still filial. Why don't you leave an address, so that I can greet you more!

Xiao An remembered that the person seemed to be a veteran at that time, and he operated in front of his brothers and sisters, and soon the people were finished, and the people left, but the brothers and sisters were frightened. After the man left, they came over and asked curiously but worriedly, "Xiao An, what did that man just do to you?" Didn't take you to anything! ”

As a result, when I was a child, I just looked up at my brother and sister innocently, and then said very decisively and loudly, "I don't know!" ”

Meaning, when I was only three or four years old, I didn't know what that person's behavior was.

She was young at the time, and she didn't know what it meant to her, and of course she knew to be afraid, but what about being afraid? He was only three or four years old, and it was broad daylight at the time, and his brothers and sisters were by his side, so he didn't realize any danger at such a young age. What's more, maybe this may not be a danger to her when she is young, isn't it just "watching" it?

For many years afterward, she didn't know the exact definition of what the man had done until she actually grew up. Oh, so that's supposed to be obscenity.

Although not every girl will encounter this kind of bad thing in her formative years, there will still be a considerable number of girls who have encountered various degrees of groping. Fortunately, after all, he did not suffer any substantial harm, so there is no shadow. As I grew up. She also often talked about these things with her classmates and colleagues, and shared with each other what happened in their growing years, and found that many of her sisters had experienced similar incidents, but none of them were too serious.

Well, one thing to be sure of and be thankful for. Although the city where I am located still has this and that shortcomings, it may not be prosperous enough, but it is also passable, and the most heartwarming thing about this city is that the security is not bad, or rather, the people's customs are not bad.

In other words, while there are still annoying things about the city and its people, in general, the people here. It's pretty simple and doesn't feel too uncertain and insecure.

Of course, there are some friends who they meet, and those they meet are actually nothing at all, and they actually leave a so-called shadow. Some people will jokingly say, "Oh, if you even have to take this seriously, then don't get a boyfriend in the future!" But after saying that, they all know very well in their hearts that jokes are jokes, and as a woman, you still have to be aware of all kinds of dangers around you.

But. Xiao An doesn't care about these things now, or rather, she has been concerned about these things for a long time and has been caring. There is no need for additional reminders, any more will become a frightened bird, and you will not be able to appreciate the beauty of life.

Alas, in fact, eighty percent of those men are also poor people, think about how embarrassing they have to rely on voyeurism to maintain their lives, how embarrassing it is to be forced to embark on this road that makes them feel unbearable.

In high school. The damn toilet had to be built on the street, and the school was in the cluttered city center, and there were often all kinds of people waiting to die to peep. As a result, some classmates cried and begged for death after learning about this. Xiao An only thinks it's ridiculous, so to put it this way, in order to prevent X-rays in the future, you can't get sick, really, can this be avoided?

In this regard, unless there is an accident, Xiao An is still very open.

Therefore, many times, Xiao An will even be glad that she is a woman, a woman living in today's era, and women who do not need to live in the old society need to rely on fasting and chanting Buddha to ask the Bodhisattva to bless themselves from becoming a man in the next life, so as to avoid all kinds of pain and troubles of being a woman. They may never have thought about it, but in fact, men are just as bad, not happy, especially in this day and age.

That person finally disappeared in front of the camera like history, and only the young Xiao An himself remained in the camera. The "older" Xiao An off the screen was thinking, what's the matter, is this the evidence provided by whom? Do you want everyone to flesh that person again in more than 20 years? But how many years have passed, and the statute of limitations has long since expired.

And, is the man still there?

Looking back on this bloody history in this naked way again, Xiao An's heart will certainly not be comfortable. But she is already an adult woman, and if she were other peers, if she hadn't had a bumpy love path, she would have been the mother of several children, and she would have snuggled in her mother's arms all day long.

Therefore, she will look at this matter more rationally and objectively, and will not be too impulsive or angry. is probably also a character that has been cultivated for a long time, so that even if she encounters people and things that are more embarrassing than this, even in the face of people who bring more harm to herself, she is also patient and self-blessed, believing that God has justice, one thing is lowered, and if she doesn't work hard, someone will rectify those ugly and evil ones for herself.

That's what she thinks, and she's always done, unless it's time to really need to do it, otherwise, she won't be easy

Shot.

Xiao An thought that history was replayed here, and it should be over, although it was a bit weird that he hadn't seen his brothers and sisters in the picture, but maybe the photographer deliberately avoided it in order to protect them.

After all, I was still young at the time, and there was a certain difference between the appearance of children and adults, especially myself, if I didn't tell others, most people still thought that they had plastic surgery, although I was still a person when I looked closely, but the changes in facial expressions over the years have led to changes in skin lines, even if this video is made public, it will not cause much trouble to my current self.

Brothers and sisters are different, they were gradually entering the development period at that time, and they were somewhat adults, if they were seen, they would definitely be affected. Therefore, it is not difficult to see that the videographer is still very professional.

At this point in the show, Xiao An has been looking forward to standing up to a host and talking about this matter well, and also letting her understand what is going on and what is the purpose of this video. But the host she was looking forward to in her heart never came out, and the yellow Chengcheng on the ground that the person had left behind gradually turned from yellow to orange in front of Xiao An's eyes, and then turned into blood red, dazzling blood red.

What is this playing with my sister?,What the hell is that person just now?,Or is it a monster.。

Xiao An, who was already relieved, suddenly became messy again.

Indeed, how could she not be messy.

If the child on the screen was not herself, maybe she would still think that this was a movie or a program on which station, but it was herself, genuine, undoubted. Although, I can't touch it myself, but that's right, it's definitely herself, so this bottomless confusion makes her even more uneasy, who is this prank made by me? Didn't he think the joke was a bit too much?

At this moment, in addition to confusion and uneasiness, Xiao An also has a kind of anger, a kind of anger that has nowhere to vent, because she doesn't know who the culprit is and who to look for.

Who am I offending here, or have I eaten too much meat lately, why are you disgusting me with this fishy stench, am I so rubbish?

Xiao An was sad, regardless of it.

She was thinking, maybe her actions were in the eyes of the other party at this moment, and the other party must be snickering in a dark corner when he saw her bear-like. (To be continued.) )