(065) Memories of the alma mater

I really don't understand what Yan Shaocheng was thinking, why he wanted to go to my old school so suddenly. I don't really understand his behavior, but maybe it's because I'm overthinking it.

It seems that it has always been like this, and I always thought I was a fool in my confrontation with Yan Shaocheng.

I sat in the car and was nervous, looking at the man next to me all the time, and it felt like my seat belt was about to strangle me.

"You look like you doubt my driving skills." Yan Shaocheng really drove and ridiculed both. He probably got into a car accident like this.

"I've heard that there is a high probability of a car accident sitting in my seat." I follow his words, in fact, with his current single-minded Cheng dù, I can't help but worry a little.

"You're worried that I'm in an accident and I'm going to turn around on your side?" Yan Shaocheng didn't dodge, as if this problem was really good, and he continued to denounce it.

"With your business model, that's normal." I'm telling the truth, and it goes without saying that an ordinary person would do it for the sake of his life. He is also a man with a completely self-interest theory, and there is no reason why he should not do so.

"So what would you do if it were you?" Yan Shaocheng seemed to acquiesce in my thoughts, and came to ask me instead. Although his eyes were looking ahead, he had a clear sense that he was waiting for my answer.

"Of course I'll leave the danger to you." I laughed, isn't this answer Yan Shaocheng completely clear? Why bother asking again?

What kind of person am I, it is estimated that he Yan Shaocheng basically wants to see me through, and this answer should have been familiar to him for a long time, it seems that he wants to confirm it again.

"It seems that none of us are selfless people." Yan Shaocheng didn't have any doubts, and he might have been familiar with my words for a long time.

I looked at Yan Shaocheng and laughed out loud unconsciously.

Yan Shaocheng looked at me sideways, of course, he was quite focused on driving, and there were not many office workers at this time, and the roads were not crowded.

"What are you laughing at?" Yan Shaocheng was very puzzled about the reason why he was smiling so happily at the moment.

"It's nothing, it's just that there may really be such people in this world." When I laugh, I am reminded of the financial support I received during my school years.

"How so?" Yan Shaocheng was very curious.

"Because there was someone who supported me from the time I was in the orphanage to the time I was in college." I couldn't stop laughing, and during that time I was always curious about why someone would choose to sponsor someone like me, maybe in the eyes of that sponsor I was very competitive, but in my eyes it was not, I became more and more ridiculous, and it was not the beautiful appearance that others imagined.

Yan Shaocheng looked at me with a smile, that kind of gaze seemed to be a smile but not a smile. To be honest, I didn't really think about the meaning behind his face at this time, and my mind at the moment was more like an empty state.

"Will you remember this person who has been giving to you?" Yan Shaocheng didn't seem to believe me very much, and his appearance was more like a feeling of suspicion.

"Remembering doesn't mean anything." I don't mean to say this to be deliberately opposed to Yan Shaocheng, in fact, I do think so. What's the point of remembering or not remembering? I'm not going to do anything for it, I'm not going to give anything back to that person, I just have to go on like this.

"It's hard to have a place in your world." Yan Shaocheng looked at me, he is really in a very dangerous state driving now, and I have reason to wonder if he is planning to take me into the ditch and have an absolute martyrdom.

But when I looked at his eyes, his words were very serious. The kind of eyes that are as pure as a cloudless sky, like an endless sea.

It makes me doubt my worldview a little.

Until he came back to his senses and continued to drive, I couldn't take my eyes off it, and I was dazed by his eyes for a moment.

In my world, there are very few people in my heart, and he will definitely not be an exception. It seems like I'm the only one in my world.

I've asked myself more than once if I'm lonely?

It seems to have gotten used to the voice that has been heard countless times in the bottom of my heart, and then it becomes numb. thinks that if there is no man in his life, he can still live proudly.

Maybe I'm also a fatalistic person, because of fate, I walked into this labyrinthine whirlpool, because fate had to sell my soul to the devil, and because fate I did a lot of things that fate asked me to insist on.

So I was destined to be an unhappy person, and no one could control me.

Perhaps in Yan Shaocheng's world, he is also a man with a tragic fate. His world may not be much more glorious than mine, and his life is full of stories of fate, a fate that is born to fight.

I laughed, why is there always someone in this world who is burdened with the so-called fate, and why I and Yan Shaocheng have changed beyond recognition.

There is really no answer to this, I don't know, and Yan Shaocheng doesn't know.

Perhaps it is because of this that I am curious about his eyes, and I am curious about what is eternal in his strict world. It was because of my confusion that I wanted to find answers from him even more.

But there seems to be no answer, because we are of the same kind.

I always like to think about metaphysical problems, as if I can really solve these things that even scientists can't solve.

Along the way, I was in a trance until the car stopped.

When Yan Shaocheng turned his head to look at me again, those eyes no longer had the expression of confusion that I had before. At this moment, as if wearing a mask, he has become the invincible Yan Shaocheng, the high-ranking Yan Shaocheng.

His dark eyes are like a deep well that will take people by temptation.

I unbuckled my seatbelt, opened the door and got out of the car. Avoiding Yan Shaocheng's gaze, it also retracted my boundless imagination.

As soon as I got off the bus, I saw this alma mater. I never had any nostalgia for school, my college career wasn't that interesting, I didn't have any boyfriends and girlfriends, in fact I didn't even have friends. In my college dorm room, I resent everyone who laughed in front of me. Or in other words, I'm a monster in their eyes.

No one is going to advocate or learn from a monster, so it's normal for me to have no friends. At that time, I was just an ordinary person living at the bottom of the ladder.

If Yan Shaocheng brought me here just to humiliate me, then his wishful thinking was wrong. I don't mind someone opening my humble wounds, because only comparison can tell me how brilliant I am now.