(428) It's the New Year, and it's time to say goodbye

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"Nine."

"Eight."

“……”

"One."

It's over, Fang Jingxian, you must be in love with Yan Shao.

I smiled and counted the last second. I didn't mean to be jealous at all, but I knew that I fell in love with Yan Shaocheng. Because I fell in love with him, I felt bad.

The light seems to shine on our chic appearance, and it feels like the years are quiet. Those times seem to be stained with many things, and it seems that loving someone requires many reasons to bear the pain.

Fortunately, I can put it down. That's why they don't become humble and powerless.

Yan Shaocheng walked towards me, and the fireworks bonfire behind him looked like a person who had been reborn from the fire.

I suddenly thought Yan Shaocheng, you are so perfect that you will be punished by God?.

He is destined not to coexist with me, we are too similar, because we are alike, it is impossible to be together.

My hands were cold, but looking at him warmed. I guess that's love. Dive into the night with the wind, moisturizing things silently. I suddenly remembered such a phrase.

Because it was a crazy night, Yan Shaocheng's kiss didn't seem to be so abrupt, but it still attracted the attention of the beautiful woman.

And I don't seem to be possessive, but rather casual. Because I know that if the people in this world you ask for will not accept you, then they will still not belong to you. It's just that there are always people who are obsessed.

"Got your wish?" Yan Shaocheng sat back across from me, as if it was difficult for him to understand my request.

"Sort of." I poured myself a glass of liquor because I wanted to get drunk, I wanted to have a hangover that would paralyze my whole heart.

"You're going to get drunk very quickly if you keep drinking like this. If you have any secrets, maybe you will tell them all, and you can really get as drunk as you want? "Yan Shaocheng said this to remind me, because I have many secrets, and each secret is a cage that imprisons me, and I can't let him know it at all.

But I laughed and drank it straight away, burning all over. Because I know my secret, even if I don't say it, it won't rot in my stomach, Yan Shaocheng already knows it, doesn't he? So what's the difference between saying it and not saying it?

What will happen to me and Yan Shaocheng?

Secrets are like fish in the deep sea that will one day float up and breathe. Even if it will rot in the sea, it will be after it is revealed.

There are no secrets in this world at all, and when few people know it, it becomes a secret.

"Don't be afraid, are you afraid?" I asked Yan Shaocheng instead, I think it was destined to be missed. Because we really aren't very fit to live like this.

"Aren't you going to play a game?" Yan Shaocheng seemed to be avoiding my question.

I didn't ask any questions, just clicked on the dice and continued.

Sure enough, I lost, and everyone won and lost.

"If I take a big adventure, you won't let me hit someone, right?" My face is serious, Yan Shaocheng shouldn't let me kiss a handsome guy or something like me.

But it seems that the truth or is not very good, and his questions will definitely be attacked to the deepest.

"I owe you a game. Again. "I'm serious and want to continue the game.

Yan Shaocheng doesn't seem to be serious, it seems that he wants me to come with my temperament.

But my luck seems to be bad, and I lost this game again. It seems that there is no way to get rid of bad luck.

Yan Shaocheng looked at me with a smile on his face, as if he wanted to see me through, but he seemed to have already studied it through, at least in my opinion.

"Honestly, why don't you love me?" Yan Shaocheng looked at me with a pair of deliberative eyes, he seemed to have been planning this question for a long time, and his question was so that I didn't know what to say.

It seems that I can't hide from his problem, and his problem finally hits the nail on the head.

I can't tell the truth, but he knows it. He knew it and wanted me to say it.

I was so bewildered by his gaze that I didn't know how to answer him.

"Who can be sure whether to love or not?" I chose to look him in the eye, even though I didn't know how to make it clear to him, I just knew that love was a stupid thing and a mistake that we would not make.

I'm kind of answering his question, and although he may not be very satisfied with it, it's already answering him, isn't it?

I picked up the bottle, continued to pour myself wine, and drank. My mood calmed down.

"Big Adventure, Love Me." Yan Shaocheng's gaze didn't seem to be willing to let go of me, that feeling was almost looking at me in his heart, and it seemed that I was already in his heart.

In his heart, he does not come and go, and in the bottom of his heart, his desire becomes a wound.

So I thought, loving him, is indeed an adventure. It was an adventure that we gambled half our lives on courage.

Instead, I laughed and looked at the lively people. There doesn't seem to be anything in my world yet. What I can't do, it seems that as long as I Jingxian wants to do it, I can do it, but I really have no way to take love, or I can't do it with Yan Shaocheng.

It seems that a long time ago, I had an obsession in my heart, and I persistently met Yan Shaocheng.

"Can't you do it?" Yan Shaocheng also smiled, and his mocking smile was written on his face that was not surprised.

I think Yan Shaocheng is also a helpless person who doesn't know how to live, and two injured people like us are really not much. Fit together.

"I really don't know much about love, but I know a little bit about how to do it, do you want to try it?" I looked at Yan Shaocheng with a smile, and the evil smile on my face was really beautiful.

I don't know how to answer him, and I don't know how to love him.

I remember a sentence in "The Dream of the Covered Bridge". Love such a troublesome thing, it's best not to encounter it for the rest of your life, I'm afraid that I will fall in love with you for a second, and I will have to forget it for the rest of my life; There is nothing beautiful in the world, and living with a smile is because there is no other way.

I think I have always lacked the courage to love Yan Shaocheng, so even if I love it, I don't want to admit it, and even if I do, I laugh and strangle it in the cradle.

Yan Shaocheng: I don't know if you have ever thought about giving up on me, or do you want to give up on yourself?

As we looked at each other, the fireworks went off again. New Year's Day, the bell rings, and I look at my watch.

24:00

What a wonderful time, all the worlds are cleared.

If only we could clear everything to zero, so that you and I wouldn't be so tired.

"It's New Year." Yan Shaocheng seemed to be quite emotional.

The men and women around the campfire cheered, but Yan Shaocheng and I were a little lonely. I thought I could let go of everything, but it turned out to be impossible.

I'm still Fang Jingxian, and he's still Yan Shaocheng. So it won't change, and it won't change.

"yes, it's New Year."

It's the New Year, Yan Shaocheng. Goodbye, the best Yan Shaocheng. Yan Shaocheng: How long can we deceive each other? How much longer?

I can't fool this year.