Chapter 18: Secrets
Yan Xiruo stood in her room, looking at the open window, her window was facing the garden, she would choose this room because she could see the beautiful scenery outside the window as long as she opened the window every day, and at this moment, she was standing here, although her eyes were looking at the beautiful scenery outside, but her heart was thinking about other things.
The man with the mask was so terrible, so terrible that since she couldn't resist, he knew everything he knew, he knew his identity, and even knew everything he had experienced in his previous life, he was like a shadow, he had participated in everything about her, and he had witnessed it.
Looking up at the sky that slowly began to light up in the distance, at this moment, the early maids and grandmothers in the house had already started their busy work, running around the house.
Yan Xiruo hooked the corners of her mouth, she suddenly remembered herself in her previous life, since she came back to life, she forced herself not to think about herself in her previous life, she thought she had forgotten, just remembered hatred.
But after meeting that man, she found that the man had never disappeared from her memory, but was deliberately hidden by her.
She remembered that in her previous life, she also liked to stand in this position and look at the beautiful scenery outside the window, at that time she had the same innocence as children of the same age, although she was flamboyant and willful, but she was kind-hearted, if she had never met such a man, maybe she would have been kind.
In her previous life, she gave up everything that belonged to her for a man, and even used her identity as a phantom daughter for that man to help him win the throne step by step, in order to love that man, she put down all the darkness for that man's crotch, for that man to fade his innocence, let go of kindness, his hands were stained with innocent blood, she loved humbly, thinking that as long as she cleared all obstacles for him, she could completely own that man, until in the end, her relatives were killed, and the phantom family was completely wiped out, she found out, It turned out that from beginning to end, she was just a pawn in his hand, a pawn in his hand to protect another woman, he used his own hand to eradicate all the troubles, he exchanged her filth for the purity of that woman, at that moment she knew how innocent she was, until the moment she died, she saw the man hugging the woman who was dressed in white like a fairy and knew how wrong she was.
At that time, she told herself that if she could come back once, she would definitely not fall in love with that man, she would not let that woman succeed, even if it was the same as in her previous life, her hands would be stained with blood, she would definitely protect her relatives intact, she would never let anyone touch even a single hair of her family, in this life, she would let the world know about the Phantom Family, and it would never be like in the previous life, until the entire Phantom Family was destroyed, no one knew.
It's just that she frowned, Yan Xiruo didn't remember that she had met this masked man in her previous life, or that she never remembered such a thing, and in the dark, it seemed that many things had changed from the moment she started again.
She said that she didn't know what was different, but she felt that there were many things, and she didn't know if she had been ignored by herself for all the things she hadn't discovered, had never experienced, or if she was really confused by the rewriting of fate.
But no matter what changes, she will never let her fate be as miserable as her previous life, even if it is not for herself, for the sake of her family, she will never fall to the end of her previous life.
As for those things that suddenly come out, those who suddenly come out of nowhere, they can only take one step at a time.
As long as people don't offend her, she will not take the initiative to offend, but if anyone dares to touch her family in the slightest, she will make them regret their existence in this world.
Even if her fate is destined, she will go against the tide and change that fate.
"Miss? Why are you up so early? Mama Lin brought Yan Xiruo things over at the usual time, and when she opened the door, she saw her young lady standing in front of the window neatly dressed, as if she had been up for a while.
Yan Xiruo put away the emotions in his eyes, turned around and shook his head with a smile: "If you don't feel sleepy, you will get up early." ”
"Why didn't the young lady call us, and we will serve you." Mama Lin put down the things in her hand, took off a shawl from the side, and put it on her shoulder: "It's not summer yet, it's still a little cold in the morning, you, don't wear more, it's not good if you suffer from the cold." ”
Yan Xiruo felt the warmth in Mama Lin's hands, and smiled very happily: "I know, I will take care of myself, Mama, you always protect me too well, you know that I am not a weak woman, but I have been in the Phantom Valley for ten years, how can I be so fragile after living in the hands of the master for ten years." ”
Because he figured out a lot of things, Yan Xiruo's mood couldn't help but let go, and even his tone was much happier than before.
Mama Lin stared at her, always feeling that something had changed: "Miss, how did I find that you seem to have become happy." ”
"Yes, haven't I always been like this?" Is it so obvious.
"Yes, although the young lady used to be very happy in front of us, I always felt that there was something on my mind, and today's young lady is smiling like a child." Mama Lin said very gratified, this should be what her young lady should look like, if the lord sees it, he must be very happy.
Yan Xiruo smiled and said nothing, just now, she suddenly figured out what she came back for, she wanted to change the fate of her previous life, she wanted to protect the people she wanted to protect, she used to think that it would be good to kill the man and the woman, but just now she suddenly figured out that in addition to hatred in her heart, there is also family affection, those who once believed in her with her life are her concerns, and maybe it will be her weakness and weakness, but she prefers to regard them as her omnipotent armor, for them, she has to work harderFor them, she wants to go back to her former self, the happy Yan Xiruo.
Maybe she doesn't have the innocence she once had, nor the kindness she once had, so at least, it's better to leave her happiness.
Yan Xiruo can be a ruthless woman, and Yan Xiruo can also be an unscrupulous person, but at least, in front of the people she cares about, she can still be the happy Yan Xiruo.
"Mama, I'm hungry, you help me go see if Yaoyao is up, today, I want to take her out for a walk." Yan Xiruo smiled softly, the morning sun spread behind her, and she was incredibly beautiful at that moment.
"Okay, don't stay at the window for too long, wait in the dining room first, I'll call Miss Eight." Mama Lin shook her head and left with a smile.
Yan Xiruo slowly put away her smile behind Mama Lin, she remembered the agreement with that man again, looking into the distance, she knew that she had no choice at this moment, if she had to marry someone in the end, maybe marrying Xuanyuan Mo was not a wrong choice, at least, by his side, she could ignore those deceptions, but she still couldn't bear to drag that person in.
In Daliang, if you have to ask where is the most prosperous, it is undoubtedly the imperial capital, and even the streets of the imperial capital are much more prosperous than ordinary places, of course, after all, it is at the feet of the Son of Heaven.
Yan Xiruo took Yan Xiyao out of Yan's Mansion early in the morning, although Yan Xiruo came back before Yan Xiyao, but in those days she was just a legend in the mansion or the palace, and she didn't have a good visit to the imperial capital, compared to ten years ago, it seems to be more prosperous here.
"Xiruo, look, is this good-looking?" Yan Xiyao went out of Yanfu like a fox returning to the mountains and forests, happily scurrying around, Yan Xiruo did not stop it, compared to himself, Yan Xiyao was more familiar with the imperial capital.
At this moment, Yan Xiyao was standing in a place selling lanterns, holding a delicate and small lantern in her hand, like a budding lotus flower.
Yan Xiyao held it in her hand, her eyes smiled like crescent moons, and she happily asked Yan Xiruo behind her.
"Yes, it's beautiful." Yan Xiruo also stepped forward a few steps, stood beside her, looked carefully at the lantern in her hand, and said affirmatively.
"Yes, my vision is still good, by the way, if you want to buy one, listen to this uncle, today is Lixia, it's a festival, it's a festival, it's a festival, you have to put lanterns on a festival, you can buy one too, let's put it together at night."
Yan Xiruo couldn't twist Yan Xiyao, and smiled and chose one of the lanterns in front of him: "That's it." ”
She seems to have never done anything to put a lantern since she came back, maybe because she was hurt too deeply, so she didn't dare to touch it easily, and today she brought the lantern again, but she felt nothing.
"Shiruo, I'm hungry." Yan Xiruo had just finished the lantern, and he heard a pitiful voice around him.
I saw Yan Xiyao blinking her big eyes and looking at her pitifully, her expression was like the little fox she gave her.
"Didn't you eat in the morning?" Yan Xiruo asked with a little doubt, they had just been out of the house for less than an hour, which means that it was only an hour since they had just eaten, and she was hungry again?
"Miss, don't you know, Miss Eight heard that she could go out of the house to play, but she didn't even eat?" Zhiyun, who was standing on the side, saw this and came up directly to complain, and the angry Yan Xiyao rolled her eyes at her several times.
"Zhiyun, how can you sue me." Although Yan Xiyao's voice was raised, she didn't mean to be angry at all, for her and Yan Xiruo, Zhiyun was a person who could be regarded as a sister, since she was a family, how could she really be angry?
"The slave didn't complain, the slave told the truth." Zhiyun stood behind Yan Xiruo and said mischievously, anyway, with the support of Miss Seven, she is not afraid of Miss Eight.
Many times, Zhiyun feels that she is lucky, because she has met two best masters, when Miss Seven was not in Yanfu before, she has been with the old lady, and she has been with Miss Eight for a few days, although Miss Eight has a bit of a pungent temperament, but she is very good to people, especially for their subordinates, and she has never had a fight, and then Miss Eight also left, she has been taking care of the old lady, until Miss Seven came back, Zhiyun always remembered that when she entered the Yan Mansion, Miss Seven had just been sent away, At that time, she often heard many people say that Miss Seven was a bad child, rude and willful, and her heart was particularly poisonous at a young age, every time Miss Eight heard these words, she was like a little hedgehog, and she couldn't wait to block the mouths of all the people who said bad things about Miss Seven, Zhiyun was young at that time, and she didn't understand why Miss Eight had to do that, obviously Miss Seven was so bad, but Miss Eight always said that others wronged Miss Seven.
It wasn't until later, when Miss Seven came back, and she was sent to Miss Seven's side, that she knew that Miss Seven was a particularly gentle person, maybe she was sometimes very cold-blooded, but she was very good to her subordinates, and she also knew that at that moment, Zhiyun knew that Miss Eight had always believed in Miss Seven, and their relationship was so good that they would unconditionally defend each other and do anything for each other desperately.
Because she knew that the two young ladies were hard-mouthed and soft-hearted, Zhiyun's courage gradually grew, and she could occasionally joke with them.