At dinner time, there was silence in the room, only the ticking sound reminded of the passage of time. After Mama Qin pointed out the thoughts hidden in her heart, Xie Ning was able to face up to this trouble, which she was not aware of.

After leaving Shu and entering Beijing, she was not blinded by the prosperity of the capital, but she accidentally lost herself.

After coming into contact with the nobles of those famous families, they understood their own gaps, and gradually became reluctant to show them in front of others, and were willing to be a leaf that set off the delicate flowers, and when they were in one place, they would avoid their edge without competition. Because I feel that my skills are inferior.

What about her fighting spirit? No one is born inferior to others, even if they are far away, they can catch up. Inaction is self-aware, or self-indulgence.

When Xie Ning was reflecting, Mama Qin's voice came to her ears again, "Do you want to stay in this capital, or do you just want to be a passerby?" If it is not your wish to enter Beijing, you might as well go back as soon as possible, so as not to be embarrassed here. ”

might as well have her ask, Xie Ning's heart sank, and she said in a heartfelt voice: "Mama, when I first entered Beijing, although it was my father's intention, I was also willing in my own heart. Now that the war between our dynasty and Miaojiang has eased, and the stability of Shu is imminent, my father can also return to his hometown and enter Beijing to raise his wife. When I enter the capital early, I can adapt to life in the capital as soon as possible, and it will be more convenient to take care of everyone at that time. ”

Mama Qin sighed lowly, "I heard the servant women around the Xiang family say that your father ordered you to enter Beijing to find a good family for you. Now that the family affairs of the Wei Mansion are in front of you, you are not moved at all. Could it be that you already have a heart? ”

"Poof-what's the matter," Xie Ning looked embarrassed, looked at Mama Qin with a wry smile, and explained helplessly: "Mama still doesn't know me, although this family affair is good, it is not suitable for me, although Mrs. Wei and Allure treat me kindly, Mrs. Wei doesn't seem to be satisfied with me." What's more, with my current level, I can't afford to bear the burden of the chief daughter-in-law of the national government, so why bother myself? ”

Mama Qin glanced at her with a smile and said jokingly: "Why, don't you think you're inferior to Gao Yiyao?" ”

"It's not really, I thought too much about it before," Xie Ning touched his nose, no longer blindly denying himself, the corners of his mouth curled, and he replied with a smile: "With Mama here, how can I be inferior to others." ”

Mama Qin deliberately straightened her face, but her eyes still revealed the smile on her face, "What's the use of flattering me, you have this thought, it's better to go to Heling Courtyard and Songbai Courtyard more." ”

Her grandmother and Uncle Hou did treat her very well. Xie Ning nodded and said, "That's what Mama said." The two elders took the trouble to arrange for me, and I knew it, although I couldn't say it explicitly, I couldn't say it without it. It's just a pity that I failed to live up to their kindness. "Beyond Gao Yiyan, he arranged for himself to be a candidate to discuss with the Duke of Wei, how could Xie Ning not keep it in mind with such sincere care?

Mama Qin raised her eyes to look at her and sneered: "They are right to arrange for you, but if there is no optimism from the Duke of Wei, how can they give this family business to you, a junior who has no real name?" ”

Her mother is just the righteous daughter of the Hou Mansion, what Mama Qin said is true, and Xie Ning has nothing to refute. But despite hearing Mama Qin's assertions, Xie Ning still thanked the two elders for their kindness.

"In the eyes of the Guogong Mansion, as a candidate for the council, you are much more suitable than Gao Yiyan. That's why we will have a feast today. Mama Qin pondered for a moment, and then spoke up again, "Actually, according to your temperament, this family business may not be impossible to handle." What do you mean? ”

Shainin actually didn't think about this issue, in her heart, the most important thing at the moment is the female official exam. This so-called family affair came too suddenly, and before she could fully react, she said, "I...... I'll think again. ”

She is good friends with Wei Qingcheng, and because of the other party's fear of life, she did have a few intersections with her brother Wei Qingyang. Wei Qingyang is both civil and military, dignified in appearance, generous in temperament, and good at thinking about others. Xie Ning had a good impression of him in his heart, but he only respected him as his brother, and called him "Brother Qingyang" close one after another, but he wanted to marry him......

Xie Ning's face was hot, and he didn't dare to think about it anymore. Her father intends to ask the Hou Mansion to help her find a family business, and she also knows it. But she is only thirteen years old this year, and it is too early to think about it now.

What's more, according to her father's meaning, she wants her to find an honest person who is filial and loyal, preferably a martial arts practitioner who has a common topic with her. Brother Qingyang is good, and he is behind the gate, but the door of the Duke of Wei is too high, and it is too incompatible with her.

Xie Ning thought for a moment before he raised his head and looked at Mama Qin's inquiring eyes, and said frankly: "This matter still depends on the meaning of the Wei State Mansion and my father, I don't have any ideas, if they are happy to see it, I should not be too late." ”

Seeing her disguised prevarication, Mama Qin didn't ask anymore, but said lightly: "That's it, it's your own business after all, just know it in your own heart." I don't have any expectations for you, I just ask you to go out to socialize in the future, and don't be like today. You must know that if you are idle, you will not necessarily be timid. ”

Mama Qin's words today really benefited Xie Ning a lot. She is not a person who can't tell the difference between good and bad, so she can naturally sense the other party's cold and warm heart, which seems to be a mocking and indifferent accusation, but it hides Mama Qin's bitter care for her.

If Mama Qin didn't point it out to her, she was afraid that at this time, she would still be hidden in the dark by Xiang and others, mistakenly thinking that she was just a foil accompanying Gao Yiyao to the banquet, and she would not notice the inferiority complex in her heart that she didn't know when.

When it comes to learning etiquette, she is indeed inferior to those noble girls with prominent backgrounds. But she didn't feel that she was out of it. For piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, they are indeed proficient in everything. She acknowledges her gap, but who's to say that after a lot of effort, she can't reach the same level?

Compared to them, what she is inferior to is not the predetermined talent and background she was born with, but just the time she has studied hard. And this gap is not an unbridgeable gap, and it can be filled with acquired efforts.

With a gleam in his eyes, Xie Ning made up his mind, swept away his previous dazed state of mind, his tone became firm with his eyes, and he looked at Mama Qin and said, "Mama don't worry, I understand what to do." There will be no more fear and will make people look down on it. ”

If she doesn't understand, she can ask, and if she can't, she can learn. Now that she has a plan to settle down in Beijing, it is useless for her to cherish the old days, and since she has made up her mind to take the female official examination, she must ensure that she will not be worse than others.