(374) Where is the conscience?

It's a very strange thing to be here when it's snowing, especially in weather like this. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

A woman like me actually builds a snowman here. It's like retrieving childhood memories.

Suddenly thinking that everyone is the same, becoming a person like me, there must have been a very unfortunate childhood memory.

There will be no child who will become like me in a healthy and happy environment. I quietly piled up my dolls, as if I was carving my own rag dolls.

I said that I lacked a lot in my life, so I was indecided, and everything was considered sick.

I piled up my own snowman, as if I were guarding my own piece of the world. I don't feel how cold it is, I just think it's good to vent it, but I can only choose to be patient, where can I vent my temper?

I dressed up carefully, but I didn't think it was good when I looked closely. Maybe I was too poor in my hands, so I swept the bench next to me and sat down. It doesn't matter how windy it is or how cold it is.

I just feel that my heart is already cold, and I might as well let my body be cold, and I must know what it feels like to be stiff.

My eyes were on the snowman I had built, and it wasn't much. It's good-looking, it looks stupid, it's stupid like me.

I don't know how long I've been sitting, but my mind is already very confused.

I looked at it, and the more I looked at it, the more I felt that even it was laughing at me.

The more I thought about it, the more annoyed I felt, so I simply stood up and pushed the snowman down with my hands, and then stepped on it with my feet.

Ruining everything that is good? In fact, what I want to destroy the most is myself. I don't even know what I'm doing, I just think I'm going crazy, and if I go crazy one day, don't doubt it, I'm driven crazy by myself.

I think it's funny that I'm sitting in front of my house at the moment, and I'm crazy to have to freeze here if I don't get into my home.

"Why destroy what you once put your heart into?" The voice behind me was clear, and I knew exactly who it was.

I subconsciously glanced at my watch, it was already half past twelve, and I had been sitting outside for so long, like a madman.

Yan Shaocheng is actually back at this moment, I don't know at all.

His indirectness was really deep, and he asked me to the point of being speechless. But I won't really shut up, then it won't really be Fang Jingxian.

"Aren't you too?" I am not saying sarcasm, but I am stating a fact.

What kind of person Yan Shaocheng is, everyone knows it. Won't he destroy what he's piled up with his heart? Or is it a person?

"I thought you were waiting for me with your heart, but I didn't expect you to poke me on purpose." The corners of Yan Shaocheng's mouth rose, and I wanted to laugh when I heard one of his "poke" words.

Only then did he carefully look at Yan Shaocheng in front of him, the snow was falling, but it did not block the sight of me and him. He wears a trench coat with his usual suit underneath.

Snowflakes fell on him, on the man's shoulders. He seems to be touching my heart again.

"I didn't think about you, but I thought about it when I saw you." I smiled at Yan Shaocheng like a child. Sometimes I really want to be like a child, but unfortunately, unfortunately I seem to be sick. I dream of a warm hug, but when I wake up, I just want to escape.

The unfortunate experience gave me a completely different extreme, the world is divided into only two possibilities, one is absolutely certain and the other is absolutely negative.

Management believes that human rationality is between "perfect rationality" and "irrationality", but why do I feel that Yan Shaocheng and I are a little inclined to "complete rationality"?

"Sounds like you can't live without me." Yan Shaocheng smiled at me, in the world of snowflakes, I always felt that he was really good.

"I really don't seem to be able to live without you." I looked at Yan Shaocheng with a smile, before I ignored Yan Shaocheng's unique feelings for me, I had never cared about Yan Shaocheng's feelings, it didn't matter how he seemed to me. But when I explicitly asked Yan Shaocheng to love me, I now have some choices between good and bad.

There is no such thing as the best of both worlds, and there is no one perfect solution. So I was destined to choose to turn my back on Yan Shaocheng, I used him to achieve my purpose, and then turned away.

It doesn't matter what role I play in Yan Shaocheng's world.

What I say is inseparable from what it means in practice.

Yan Shaocheng seemed to understand the ambiguity in my words, he looked at me with a pair of thoughtful eyes, and I could almost know that he was considering me.

In Yan Shaocheng's world, I can't figure out what is the most important, but I think it shouldn't be love.

If Yan Shaocheng chooses love, he must lose something. You can't have it both ways, he's smarter than me, and he must know what to do.

My hand secretly grabbed a snowball, and then threw it at Yan Shaocheng. smashed on Yan Shaocheng's windbreaker very accurately, my luck is really good.

I tightened my hat and laughed silly.

Yan Shaocheng's face finally changed, he looked at me and smiled, smiling with his eyes.

"Are you sure you want J to have a snowball fight with me?" Yan Shaocheng didn't seem to have played this kind of game for a long time, and he seemed to ask me patiently.

As soon as I was trying to answer, a snowball had already hit me, and I regretted how I got hit so quickly.

Yan Shaocheng, who was watching on the side, leaned on the railing and smiled at me, as if he was provoking me. I grabbed a handful of snow and smashed it at Yan Shaocheng, smashing it on his body.

Yan Shaocheng naturally won't back down, I was smashed. I suffered a few times in the next few times, and I was not reconciled.

Sometimes you can't use brute force and need to outwit.

I took a handful of snow and approached Yan Shaocheng. "I love you." All of a sudden, I said something like this to him, as if it was really simple to say in front of me.

But Yan Shaocheng froze, staring at me with a dead gaze, as if this sentence was a curse.

I hit Yan Shaocheng with a snowball accurately, and then I looked at him with a smile.

After a long time, Yan Shaocheng also revealed that he looked at me with a smile, and his eyes were looking at me for a moment.

He didn't throw any more snowballs, and I hugged him. It's like hugging the whole world.

"The conscience was found, and it was not smashed again." I was provocative, I smiled like an angel.

"Yes, conscience finds. But what about you? When will the conscience be discovered? Yan Shaocheng stretched out his hand to hug me, the meaning in his words was really very clear, and his words were like questioning me.

It seems that Yan Shaocheng does not want to follow my plan, and there are principles in his world that he adheres to.

(To be continued.) )