(429) The beginning is the end

January 1

The calendar was refreshed, and I looked at Yan Shaocheng. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 infoHe's obviously right in front of me, but why...... Why is it so far away?

On December 31st, the last question he asked me was why I didn't love him, and the last thing he asked was to love him.

In fact, I want to answer, love, how can you not love? When did I say I didn't love you?

But I don't seem to be able to get it and can't forget it, what if Yan Shaocheng really becomes my plastic memory?

"What should I do, I suddenly want to hear you say that you love me." Although I was smiling, my heart was a little bitter.

Maybe it's because we were born at the wrong time, maybe it's because we are displaced, maybe it's because we are destined, maybe it's because we love and kill each other, maybe it's because we lack courage, maybe it's because we don't love and hate.

"If I say I love you, will you love me?" Yan Shaocheng's gaze didn't know when it became humble, his gaze seemed to tell me that he was also in pain, and he didn't want to give up on me.

I suddenly began to doubt, I suspected that there was no third party between us, there was no misunderstanding between us, and we both knew each other's hearts, so why did we miss it in the end?

"How could you not tell me, knowing you?" Although my face was smiling, I really didn't look like I had any heart or lungs, but my heart really hurt, and I couldn't breathe in pain.

I kind of hate myself because I'm helpless, as if I'm waiting for someone else to control my fate.

"I love you." Yan Shaocheng looked at me and said. His affectionate gaze made me wonder if he was telling me that he still loved me this year and would always love me.

Suddenly I wanted to ask how far away is forever, always the most expensive oath.

"I love you too." My confession to Yan Shaocheng, I am a serious confession to him. It's just that without a single tear, it looks like the past, but there is something hidden in those eyes that I can't hide.

I couldn't learn before, I thought I would never learn, but after I learned it, I couldn't hide it.

So I think Yan Shaocheng can see that he should know that I love him. It's just that he doesn't want to admit it at the moment, maybe because there is no benefit in admitting it. It will only increase our troubles, and if we don't think about anything, we won't have any worries.

Yan Shaocheng looked at my gaze and smiled, he seemed to be in pain, he knew it but couldn't keep it.

"If time could stand still, I hope it is now." Yan Shaocheng turned to look at the starry sky, the most beautiful starry sky.

If I am a star, he is the sun, and his reflection shines on me, but we are destined to never meet.

I drank another glass of liquor, and I didn't feel satisfied, so I continued to pour it, as if I couldn't stop.

Yan Shaocheng seems to be more drunk than me, because he has more secrets than me, and there are 110,000 secrets in his secrets that cannot be said. Those secrets are about me, about interests. It's not about love, it's about his love Sima Zhao's heart.

There is no banquet in the world that will not be dispersed, everyone leaves after the carnival, only Yan Shaocheng and I are dependent on each other, and it seems that we can never live without each other.

We are children cursed by fate, and from childhood to adulthood, we have been cursed and cursed to not rest.

Yan Shaocheng, whom I love, will eventually become a real perfect man, and he will live better without love.

I was dizzy and attached to Yan Shaocheng into the hotel, and he always felt good holding me, so good that it was hard to let go.

In fact, I really wanted to cry in Yan Shaocheng's arms, and I struggled because of the pain.

We all carried a lot because of our mothers, which made our lives much more cruel.

We had a lot of fun that night. It seems that people who do not want to separate.

We did it like crazy that night, as if trying to crumple each other into our bones. Then there will be no regrets.

Why am I getting sad because Yan Shaocheng is also grieving?

Suddenly very scared, without Yan Shaocheng, what kind of wind and rain would Fang Jingxian have in her life?

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When I woke up, I was groggy and groggy, which should be the sequelae of drinking. The brain feels like it's going to explode, and it's not good to drink regularly.

I found that Yan Shaocheng was seriously buttoning me.

"You threw up last night, so I gave you a shower and threw away your clothes, which were newly bought." Yan Shaocheng explained to me without waiting for me to speak.

Sometimes I think Yan Shaocheng treats me as his doll and always likes to buy me clothes to wear. During all my time with him, I never bought clothes. Thinking about it, when I leave Yan Shaocheng, I will have to support myself.

He buttoned the button on my chest and it was done. He seemed to be silent for a moment before speaking. "Jingjing ......"

It seemed that he wanted to say something to me, but he couldn't do it. I think it seems impossible for us anymore, he chooses to be silent, I choose to be calm and persistent.

He hugged me silently, and at the moment he hooked my waist tightly, because he was half-squatting and one knee to buckle me up, so at the moment he hugged my waist tightly.

I don't know what to say, so I have to let him hold it like this.

My phone rang suddenly, disturbing our moment of tranquility. Of course, our hearts are never at peace.

I took the phone and found that it was Qiao Yinan's phone. I hung up directly, and I couldn't get through in front of Yan Shaocheng.

Yan Shaocheng got up to look at me, and seemed to have guessed whose phone it was. "Why don't you answer the phone?"

His words were calm, but I knew what Yan Shaocheng's eyes were.

"It doesn't matter." My answer was extremely succinct.

"It sounds like I'm important." Yan Shaocheng smiled, as if he knew it in his heart. "Let's go home." Yan Shaocheng's patience skills are first-class, and I can't even match them.

His smile was really unbelievable at times.

All the way to the drive, we were unusually quiet. I know it's not going to be a few days, and it seems that Qiao Yinan is ready.

In fact, Qiao Yinan is not a person to be trusted, but I have no hatred for him.

The car passed the latest place, but in the morning it seemed unusually lonely. This feeling is very uncomfortable, and it seems that only desolation is left after the excitement.

I guess the same is true for me and Yan Shaocheng.

"Shen Muyang has been at peace recently, do you know why?" Yan Shaocheng's meaning was very clear, and he asked me directly.

I admit that I did it, and I suppressed Fang Luyao and Shen Muyang, and there was no way. But this is definitely not a long-term solution, and Shen Muyang doesn't know what kind of calculation he is making.

That's why I have to start as soon as possible, I want to be square, and I want to destroy the Yan family. I'm going to get it back.