In the wee hours of the morning.

Xiao Yao had already entered the guest bedroom's room. Zhang Qiang squatted in front of the sofa. Reaching out and stroking Eva's long hair. A bitter feeling came up in my heart.

Thinking about how many years I have been in the army. I don't know how many times I have wandered on the line of life and death. But the last few times. They were all saved by Eva. Combined with the words of the Buddha Buddha. Zhang Qiang's fate on his own. Finally, there was a trace of confusion and doubt.

"You haven't slept yet,"

Footsteps could be heard behind him. Then Holly's voice came.

"Ahh Why don't you sleep. I'll look at Eva,"

Zhang Qiang who heard the voice. Looked back at Holly and said.

"I'll wait for you. Eva isn't awake yet?"

Huo Li squatted down beside Zhang Qiang. Said playfully.

"Hmm. Don't wake up tomorrow morning. I'm going to have to figure it out,"

Saw Holly crouching beside her. Smell her body odor. Zhang Qiang moved to the side. Turning his head and saying.

"Why are you avoiding me? I can still eat you, giggles,"

Holly reached out and touched Eva. looked at Zhang Qiang pursed his lips and smiled.

Zhang Qiang squatting aside. It can be said that there are mixed tastes in my heart. Because he knew Holly's thoughts. also knows that Holly is a good girl. The two have known each other for a long time. Relationships are gradually escalating. by the initial distancing. To the several kisses that followed. It can be said that the heating up is very fast. But Zhang Qiang has concerns in his heart. Although I have a crush on Holly. He was telling himself. This woman can't be touched. I don't know what the future holds.

"Holly. Why did you come to the East China Sea?"

Get up and sit down on the couch next to you. Zhang Qiang stared at Huo Li's side face. asked in a low voice.

"I'm going to talk about cooperation. There's a film and television company. It was opened by a friend. Let's see if we can cooperate. I'm going to help you. Although I don't know. What exactly are you doing? But I know you're certainly not a bad person. You soldiers have a secrecy policy. Not to mention the special operations captain,"

I saw Zhang Qiang sitting on the sofa. And shifted the subject. Holly stood up with her hands on her knees. Brushed through the loose strands of hair. Walk over to the couch. sat down next to Zhang Qiang. The head rested on Zhang Qiang's shoulder. Said with dancing hands.

"I'm not a soldier anymore. It's not a mission either,"

I want to move my body. But after thinking about it for a moment, I stopped. Zhang Qiang's words. Even he felt perfunctory.

"Giggles. How so. Don't believe me. I won't ask. I know you special operators. It's like what TV shows. It's all very mysterious. It's very cool. I won't ask. As long as you're by my side,"

Looking up at Zhang Qiang's Huo Li. The gaze is particularly gentle. kissed Zhang Qiang lightly on the face. Said softly.

"Whew. Holly. You're a good girl. But you're not right. Let me explain it to you. Outside of the rules of secrecy, of course. What you know. They are all special operators on TV. But do you know what a real special operator looks like?"

His gaze swept over Huo Liqiao's face. Zhang Qiang felt a trace of guilt in his heart. This woman has real feelings for herself. If we talk about the secrecy regulations. I have already committed it. So take a deep breath. Said seriously.

"How's that, as handsome as you are, hehe,"

Holly smiled cutely. It's like the little girl next door.

"Special operators are not what you know. It's not reality on TV after all. Not as tall and mighty as that. Handsome and dashing. Mysterious. Wear a state-of-the-art outfit. Hold the best weapons. I look like I'm Rambo. No matter what the circumstances. Even if it is artillery fire and indiscriminate bombardment. can be unscathed image. That would be misleading. It can also be said to be a kind of beautification,"

Zhang Qiang glanced at Huo Li. Pick up the cigarette case from the coffee table. I clicked on one and said slowly.

"You're so sad,"

Hear Zhang Qiang's words. Huo Li reached out and hugged Zhang Qiang. Said weakly.

"Those trainings on TV. Not a tenth of what we trained. We're not that laid-back. You can also fall in love or something. I remember a time when I was on a mission. When I brought out one of the team members. Wounded by enemy fire 40. There is no effective treatment. Finally, when I was about to lose my breath. Do you know what he said?"

After taking two puffs of cigarette. The corners of Zhang Qiang's eyes began to moisten. Because he has stirred the wounds in his heart.

"What,"

Reached out to wipe the tears from the corners of Zhang Qiang's eyes. Huo Li was also infected by Zhang Qiang's emotions. Asked softly.

He said. Captain. Damn it. I haven't been in contact with a woman yet. I'm leaving,"

Speaking of which. Zhang Qiang's eyes were blood-red. His voice became hoarse.

"You've got me,"

Holly was silent for a moment. looked at Zhang Qiang firmly and said.

"When we were lurking behind enemy lines to decapitate. As soon as the gunshot goes off. It doesn't matter if you hit the target or not. As long as the change of position is slow. Waiting for us. It was a mortar bombardment, and there were no parting words on the battlefield. Not even nonsense. The only thing that can be had is combat terminology. And the roar of guns and cannons when striking **** at the border. We were chased and beaten by machine guns. I remember after I returned. One of the team members asked me. Captain, what did you think at the time? Here's what I said. I said I wanted to live. Only by surviving can you complete the mission,,"

Smoke a cigarette. Zhang Qiang snuffed out his cigarette butt in the ashtray. Speak slowly.

“”

Holly was silent.

"Confrontation exercises with conventional troops. Later at the commendation meeting. and the front page of the newspaper. See how invincible a certain unit is. But who knows. That unit was my special operations squadron. The army is defeated. I remember. One of the team members asked me. Isn't this a hypocrisy, that's how I answered. I said those are just empty names. It is used for window dressing. When you die on the battlefield. The moment when the red flag was draped. is your highest honor. on our Wall of Fame. I will engrave your name with my own hands. But that's not what I want,"

His eyes narrowed slightly. Efforts to control the tears no longer flow. Zhang Qiang said in a deep voice.

"I understand now. But you remember. Later in your life. There's my presence,"

Holly's cheeks were wet with tears. But he reached out to wipe away Zhang Qiang's tears. Whimpered.

"No one knows about our suffering. No one knew we were tired. Go deep behind enemy lines to carry out missions. When there was a fierce fight with the militants. You at home. is still singing and dancing in life. Still discussing the plot on TV. Which special combat officer is mighty. Which special combat officer has a handsome role. All these years. My comrades-in-arms who I sent away with my own hands. There are dozens of people. They don't have parents, they don't have wives and children, they do, but they can't do filial piety under their knees. You can't have fun with your wife and children. I can't enjoy the family anymore,"

Cover your cheeks with your hands. Tears in the corners of Zhang Qiang's eyes. It flowed down the fingers. His voice grew hoarse.

"Woo. Zhang Qiang. I'm not afraid. Are you trying to drive me away? I'm going to follow you,"

hugged Zhang Qiang. Holly burst into tears.

"No, I didn't. You're thinking too much. I remember when I first joined the special combat team. Some comrades-in-arms received letters from their wives. Show off with us for a few days. What is that. That's their concern. My good partner squadron instructor. When forming a special operations squadron. No contact with the outside world. The training is all closed. His sister-in-law came. Waited outside the troops for two days. When I saw it later. An iron gate that can only be separated by a railing. Reach out and stroke your sister-in-law's hair. The above few words are all specially approved. That's the kind of scenario. It's something you can't imagine. But can you complain, no. Because we're military,"

Pick up the paper towel on the coffee table. Wiping tears from Holly. Zhang Qiang continued to speak with gentle eyes.

"Didn't my sister-in-law say anything?"

Took the tissue in Zhang Qiang's hand. Holly asked softly.

"Now my sister-in-law can see him every day. Because he sacrificed. When I gave my sister-in-law a relic to me. My sister-in-law just said two words,"

Pick up the cigarette again. Take a deep breath after igniting it. Zhang Qiang's voice gradually choked.

"Say what,"

Holly asked, looking up.

"My sister-in-law read his suicide note from a few years ago. and post-war recordings of testaments. Tell me with a calm face. Their children are still young. Even if you grow up. She also doesn't want her children to join the army. Another sentence is. Cai Yunlong is a man who stands up to the sky. But not a good husband. A good dad ,,,"

After all that is said. Zhang Qiang bit his lower lip. Try not to make a whimpering sound.

"Woo. My sister-in-law must be very sad and sad,,"

Lying on Zhang Qiang's shoulder. Holly said bitterly.

Hear these words spoken by Zhang Qiang. Holly was apprehensive at first. But I heard Zhang Qiang finish talking about the instructor. Instead, Holly strengthened her faith. She told herself silently in her heart. No matter what Zhang Qiang does in the future. She will always love him. Because in her heart. Zhang Qiang is an excellent man. is a hero. It is her life's dependence. It is the concern of her life.

"So to speak. I know your feelings for me. But you don't understand my suffering. Find a good guy to marry, as a special operations soldier. You can't carry a can of gas for your family. You can't carry a bag of rice for your wife. Cannot attend parent-teacher conferences for children. And even in the days to come. We can see each other once in a few years. Or rather. So far, Yin and Yang will always be separated. What a pain it was. What is it like to be separated from life and death? Did you know,"

Reach out and pick up Holly's pretty face covered with tears. Zhang Qiang looked down at her. Said word by word.

"I don't care. I don't care. I just want you to remember. Whether you accept me or not. I will always love you. We came together. Even if there was a day. I will also honor my parents. Alone with older children. After the child grows up. I'm going to tell him (her) personally. His dad deserves my love. is out of this world. The finest man. is a real man,,"

Huo Li looked at Zhang Qiang in a daze. After Zhang Qiang finished speaking, he shouted loudly, reached out and hugged Zhang Qiang's head, and kissed him directly.