Chapter 19: The Change, That Cannot Be Done
"Let's go, by the way, Li Fei, where do you live?"
Looking at the three people with different expressions, Liu Relative spoke, and he patted Zhang Mohai on the shoulder, pulling him back from blind worship.
"I don't know if you still say it's a good way, it's insincere at first glance, don't you know everything, don't you know everyone?"
Li Fei came back to his senses from his contemplation, and he didn't know what was going on, he just wanted to ridicule Liu Zhi fiercely.
Liu smiled awkwardly and asked Zhang Mohai, "Don't you know?" ”
Zhang Mohai almost scolded his mother when he heard it, what a special Liu Zhuang, you are dragging me by yourself, I said why are you so enthusiastic.
Zhang Mohai now completely understood.
But he was a righteous person, so he didn't expose Liu Zheng in person, scratched his head and said, "Ah, yes, but I forgot about it." ”
Zhang Mohai's lame excuse even Deng Wei could hear that there was something wrong, but he was still proud, feeling that his IQ was bursting, and he looked at Liu Relative with a look of invitation.
Shaking his head helplessly, Liu said to him: "Haizi, I've grown meat these days, it's heavier, and you're tired, aren't you, why don't we push the cart and walk for a while?" ”
"yes, you're so tired, you really should lose weight."
Zhang Mohai comprehended, looked at Liu's relatively shriveled little body, he raised his legs and got off the bicycle, and twisted his waist in a hurry, Li Fei next to him rolled his eyes directly, but she was also very envious of the tacit understanding and friendship between the two, she did not expose it, and said to Deng Wei with a slight smile: "Anyway, it's still early, why don't you go for a while." ”
"Hmm." Deng Wei had no opinion, as silent and quiet as ever.
Liu Ji bypassed Zhang Mohai and walked to Li Fei's side, walking side by side with her on the road, and Zhang Mohai also pushed the bicycle to Deng Wei's right when he saw the opportunity, so that two boys guarded the two girls, and the picture was very harmonious.
"It's almost time for the high school entrance examination, what are you going to apply for? Provincial specialty, municipal specialist or No. 1 middle school? ”
Li Fei's grades can be ranked in the top five in the whole grade, and according to this score, he may still need to work hard to take the provincial college exam, but the rest should not be a problem.
In the early nineties, the provincial and municipal colleges are the first choice for outstanding students, under the stimulation of ensuring employment and agricultural to non-employment, the admission score of the provincial college is the highest, followed by the municipal college, and then the high school, but the real situation can only be witnessed by history after a few years, that is, the admission policy of that year delayed a group of students who studied very well, they could enter high school, and then be admitted to college, so as to live their lives better, but due to the wrong choice, they embarked on a completely different path.
Liu was relatively unable to understand the situation in the whole country, but this was the case with Hua Zun at that time.
There is no doubt that Li Fei's answer is provincial, although the score is a little hanging, but she wants to try.
Looking at Li Fei's longing look, Liu Zhao sighed deeply in his heart.
Maybe the people of that era did not have such a long-term vision, let them spend another three years to go to high school and then spend four or five years to go to college, this is a very long time, so long that they have a fear of this time, rather than gambling on the form of seven or eight years later, it is better to cherish the present, graduate early and earn money early.
Liu Zhao was a little distracted and walked a little slowly, while Li Fei was an empathetic girl, and she had been adapting to Liu Relative's rhythm, so that the two slowly widened the distance between Zhang Mohai and Deng Wei.
"What are you thinking?"
Li Fei looked at Liu Relative, who was walking with his head down, and spoke.
At this time, the warm light of the sunset shone on the slightly delicate boy beside him, and the boy's hair was gently raised by the wind.
He lowered his head and looked at the road under his feet very seriously, looking more serious than ever.
Li Fei had never seen such a Liu Relative, or had had, but she had never noticed it.
It turns out that this boy who likes to make trouble can be so attractive.
Liu Zhao came back to his senses and raised his eyes to look at Li Fei.
The sunlight came from behind him, and Li Fei was sprinkled with sunshine.
Her face was so close to Liu that he could see himself reflected in the other party's pupils, she was looking at her with big eyes, the corners of her mouth were slightly upturned, and her eyebrows were slightly upturned, so vivid.
Liu Zhao stopped in place, he turned to face Li Fei, and then said very seriously: "Actually, you can try No. 1 Middle School, provincial college may not be a good choice." ”
"Why?"
Liu Relative shook his head and did not speak.
This is a proposition about the future, and Liu is relatively out of reach.
Li Fei also stopped in place with Liu Zhuang's footsteps, she looked at the helplessness in Liu Relative's eyes, and her heart suddenly softened, but in the end, she still shook her head imperceptibly.
Her choice, in fact, is not her choice, the right to choose, in her parents.
"What about you? Although you are always funny, but your grades are also good, what do you think? ”
Li Fei suddenly became interested in Liu Relative's choice.
"I'm going to take the first high school exam"
Liu was very resolute and fluent in answering Li Fei's question without the slightest hesitation.
He used the word 'want' instead of 'want'.
The atmosphere is a little dull, this topic of choice is actually a bit heavy at their age, they are still at a carefree age, they can not choose, give this right to their parents, but now the two of them are discussing this issue very seriously.
Liu Zhao also realized that there was a problem with the atmosphere now, so he said with a smile: "It is estimated that my grades are a little difficult now, so I want you to do me a favor." ”
"Huh? What's busy? ”
Li Fei asked Liu Relative with some curiosity.
She feels that today's willow is relatively different, sometimes lively, sometimes old, as if she has practiced the transformation of shape** in front of herself.
"My grades in physics and chemistry are very poor, I want to transfer to the same table with you, and I want you to help me with my tuition in my free time."
Hearing Liu Relative's request, Li Fei's face turned red again, she lowered her head embarrassedly, but a hurried glance she found the clarity, seriousness, and a little pity in Liu Relative's eyes.
She suddenly realized if she was wrong.
"If it delays your studies, forget it."
Liu Zhao still looked at Li Fei intently, his voice was very soft, and he didn't mean to joke at all.
Li Fei raised her head, she looked at Liu Relative like this, the height difference between the two was a little, Li Fei raised his head, and Liu Relative lowered his head.
Li Fei was thinking about Liu Zhuang's intentions, and Liu Relative was recalling whether he told Li Fei what he liked back then.
Did he confess back then? still just told Zhang Mohai about this love, told Wei Mingming, and told many, many people, but he didn't tell her.
Li Fei confirmed that Liu was not joking, he was serious, and the reason he gave her was also serious.
But Liu Relative didn't recall his own time after all.
He forgot, forgot what he thought he would remember for the rest of his life.
"Okay."
Li Fei only said this one word, and then she nodded gently, and the ponytail rose and fell with her movements behind her head, making Liu Zhi's heart rise and fall with it.
She thought of the pity in his eyes just now and the hidden vicissitudes of life.
She thought of the seriousness with which he had walked with his head down a few minutes ago.
She also thought of the woman in the checkered dress ten minutes ago.
So she nodded without hesitation, and then she was relieved.
Liu Zhao laughed, he really smiled happily, and then sincerely said thank you to Li Fei.
His voice is smooth and emotional, flat but sincere.
This is a beautiful picture, along with the previous scenes have been preserved in Li Fei's heart, as she grows old, these pictures are like black and white photos, time has precipitated, it has not disappeared, just yellowed one by one.
"By the way, I actually lied to you today."
Liu Zhao suddenly spoke, which made Li Fei, who was confused, suddenly wake up, and then she lowered her eyes like a little girl who was suddenly knocked out of her heart and asked, "What?" ”
"It's not that I like Deng Wei, it's that Zhang Mohai likes it."
Liu had a solemn look on his smiling face, and he was silent for a moment and continued: "Haizi said that he likes Deng Wei, I said that this is very good, you can try it." ”
Li Fei's heart was beating a little fast, why did he specifically explain this problem to himself?
But her face was still calm, and she raised her head and said: "This is early love, not good, you will encourage others to do bad things." ”
Li Fei held on to the handlebars, kicked the small stones on the ground with her toes at will, and wrinkled her nose slightly when she talked about early love, as if she was still a little shy about mentioning this word.
"The notion that puppy love is harmful is problematic."
Liu Zhao began to correct Li Fei's statement.
"Liking this feeling is not a controllable behavior, it does not come because it is forced, it does not disappear because it is blocked, you want it or not, it is there, whether its consequences are good or bad, depends on the person who produces it."
Liu Zhao has become a philosopher again at this moment, like a big bad wolf with a radish to lure the little white rabbit.
"So, I don't think I'm doing something bad."
Liu smiled and gave a summary statement directly, but there were still many things he didn't say, such as about the understanding of emotions, such as about the difference between liking and love.
He didn't want to impose his ideas on others yet.
He is just a reborn, he is not an immortal, he cannot predict people's hearts, he cannot sway emotions, and he cannot force change.
Just like although he made suggestions to Li Fei, he was not resolute.
There are some things that you can't change if you want them to change, and he doesn't have the power to do that.
Just as he knew that Li Fei was finally admitted to the provincial college, he finally left Huazun, and finally got separated and never saw him again.
But he couldn't change it, he could only look at her like this, and then go farther and farther, and finally walked towards the destined, strange home.