CHAPTER XXXIX

“…… The sea market is more prosperous than I expected, but life is much more difficult than expected. I stayed in the room that Sister Li shared with a few colleagues, and they put on elaborate makeup and fashionable clothes every night, and only came home the next morning or noon with a tired face. Sister Li hasn't told me about her job, but I'm not stupid, I know what they're doing, so I'm more desperate to find a serious job, it's okay to be tired and hard, as long as I can give me a place to stay......"

It turns out that my mother went to Haishi at the beginning. Looking at the increasingly scribbled handwriting on the notepad, Su Nianzhen could imagine the fear and despair in her mother's heart at that time. Although Sister Li didn't seem to force Liang to become a prostitute on the surface, after she took the penniless little girl to a strange big city, she changed her previous enthusiasm, ignored people, and let the little girl who had just walked out of school be bullied by her snarky roommates, isn't she silently exerting psychological pressure and letting the desperate and helpless little girl obediently at her mercy?

“…… I had to get out of here, the men Anne was always doing things to me, and the eyes of Sister Li were getting more and more dangerous. I need to get out of here, it's too late if I don't leave......"

Su Nianzhen looked at the date with a tugging heart, and after just three lines, it took five full days for her mother to start writing again. Did Mom get away safely? Why didn't you write a word for five days? Su Nianzhen hurriedly continued to watch.

“…… It's been a nightmare these days. Like goods, people are clearly marked with prices and given away at will. I thought this was something that only happened in ancient times, but I didn't expect it to happen to me. Sadly, not only could I not resist, but I had to use all my strength to please the lord and let him take me with him when he left. Otherwise, I would be like Sister Anne and the others, and I would be spoiled by different men every day. Sister Li also quietly said cruel things to me today, saying that I would look good when Qin Shao left. I don't know why she hates me so much, maybe some people hate someone for no reason, right? Just like the one who gave birth to me, she was unmarried and pregnant, what does it matter to me if she is abandoned? You have the ability to knock on the door. But she didn't, she took out all her hatred on me......"

The words seemed to be light and light, but Su Nianzhen still felt the despair hidden by her stubborn and proud mother. Mother, after all, still couldn't escape.

“…… He took me to the capital, the city I longed for the most. Actually, I shouldn't hate him, if it weren't for him, I would be even more miserable. Now that I have beautiful clothes to wear, a luxurious house to live in, and I have got everything I dreamed of so easily, I am not happy at all. The ** square and the Great Wall that I have longed for since I was a child are close at hand, but I don't have the courage to step out of the door. I know it's not good to go on like this, but the depression in my heart can't be dispelled, and I don't dare to face the sun......"

“…… He deadlifted me to a party, and his friends looked at me in amazement, which made him proud. I saw contempt in their eyes, and they treated me with the same attitude as the barmaids who laughed and coquettishly smiled at them. I thought I was already breaking the jar and didn't care about that. But my chest was so tight that I couldn't breathe, as if I would suffocate to death in the next moment. Since you can't be insensitive, let's live well......"

“…… There is wine today, drunk today, and tomorrow is sad, and tomorrow is worried. I started trying to enjoy the moment. Gradually, there was no longer any shame in spending his money. I used the money he gave me to buy clothes, books, cosmetics, and everything I liked. It turns out that the life of money is so beautiful and empty. Fortunately, I lost my pride and self-esteem, but I didn't throw it away with my heart. He was probably tired of me, and he only came once in ten days and a half months. I didn't feel lost, I just suddenly became aware of my situation. The house I live in is his, and all the expenses are also given by him, and without him, I will have nothing. It's time to plan for yourself......"

Seeing this, Su Nianzhen's breath in her heart was calculated. Seeing her mother's "history of depravity", she was not only secretly anxious as a daughter, but of course a little embarrassed. It's just that in that situation, it is helpless for the mother to make such a choice. Fortunately, my mother was not a fool, and finally went back to the right path.

didn't wait for Su Nianzhen to continue looking, suddenly heard the sound of walking outside, hurriedly put away the notepad out of the space, and opened the bathroom door after pretending to flush.

“…… I saw the live broadcast of your trip on **, the scenery in the photo is so beautiful, isn't it particularly fun? When Zou Tong saw Su Nianzhen, he didn't pack his luggage anymore, and hurriedly came up and asked.

"It's fun, but it's also hard, do you think I'm tanned a lot?" Although she tried her best to protect herself from the sun, the ultraviolet rays could not be blocked by a scarf and a mask, and Su Nianzhen's fair and tender skin was indeed damaged a lot. However, she is young and has a strong recovery ability, and she has been nesting in the space every day for the past few days, and she has recovered most of it, and it is estimated that she will be like before in a few days.

"It looks fine, I'll try it next summer." Zou Tong is a person who is hot in trouble, and now she swears that she will not wait for next summer, and she will not be enthusiastic about this in a few weeks. "Why are the photos you put all the scenery, cattle and sheep, passers-by or something, and you don't put a picture of your own. I said that the blogger is a big beautiful girl, and some people believe me, and I also said that there is no picture and no truth, and I don't dare to show my face because I am so ugly that I dare not see people! I'm so angry, if you don't agree, I'll just put the photo......"

"What do you do with people you don't know? They love to say whatever they want, and they won't be short of meat! ”

This semester, because of the money in her hands, Su Nianzhen had a very easy time. Like other carefree college students, enjoy your college life to the fullest. She was not an ambitious person, she did not know how to invest, and she was very conservative with her money, only depositing it in the bank and charging a lot of interest in her opinion.

In the meantime, Su Nianzhen didn't expect to meet Pan Xueni, who she hadn't seen for a long time, in the yoga studio. It turned out that Pan Xueni was also taking yoga classes here, but she signed up for the class very early, and when Su Nianzhen was in the basic class, she was already in the intermediate class. At the beginning of this semester, Su Nianzhen was promoted to the intermediate class, and Pan Xueni terminated a course due to an incident and remained in this class, and the two happened to meet.

If it was before, Su Nianzhen might have been a little flustered and short of breath when she faced Pan Xueni, after all, she accepted such a large sum of money from others. But now that I have figured it out, I am calm in my heart, and it is natural to face Pan Xueni.

"I've always wanted to apologize to you personally, but I haven't found the right time. My mom may have been a bit tough that day, I hope you don't mind, she doesn't mean ......."

"It's okay, I can understand that." Su Nianzhen couldn't understand Pan Xueni a little, as if she had met her three times, and she seemed to be a different person every time. Weak and pitiful at first sight; dignified and generous when you say goodbye; At this time, she looks as gentle and amiable as the sister next door.

"If you don't mind......"

The two are just strangers who meet in Pingshui, and they are not active and enthusiastic personalities, although they meet at least three times a week because of yoga classes, but they have been polite and distant, and they can only be regarded as acquaintances who are a little stronger than strangers.