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Feng Jinghua said lightly: "If thinking like this can make you feel better, you will always think like this." ”

People in the world like to find justifiable or forgivable reasons for their evil deeds, and the same is true for Feng Hanyu.

But she will not give any explanation for her actions.

Feng Hanyu stared at her for a while, and said twice: "I will leave here, and there will be no time in the future." ”

She also has her self-esteem and pride.

Now that she has turned her face with her family, and her family has completely severed relations with her, she will not stay here with a dead face.

Feng Jinghua smiled, took a few steps forward, opened the back door, and said politely: "It's good to go, don't send it." ”

Feng Hanyu held her head high, took proud and elegant steps, and stepped out the back door.

The back door quickly closed behind her, so cold and so cold that she felt embarrassed again.

She should leave this place immediately, never have anything to do with it again, and then live a beautiful life so that she can raise her eyebrows in front of this family, however, somehow, she can't move her legs.

She was like a pillar, nailed out of the back door by something invisible, staring blankly at the empty and dead night.

The world is like a huge tomb, everyone lies in the grave and sleeps, only she is alive.

I don't know what to do when I'm alive.

I don't know where to go.

At this moment, a kind of sadness suddenly rose in her heart, the world is so big, but she has nowhere to go?

yes, it's true that there is nowhere to go.

And it was the last time she stood here.

Now, she won't come back to this place.

She just stood like that, not knowing where to go.

Until a soft voice came into her ears: "Although you made a big mistake, but fortunately you didn't succeed, as long as you change your way from now on, one day, you can still step into this home again." ”

Feng Hanyu turned around slowly, and saw Zhu Ci standing behind her, looking at her with a compassionate gaze like Guanyin Bodhisattva.

This kind of gaze made her feel disgusting.

"Oh, do you want to save my fallen soul?" She sneered, "Then you will have a great sense of accomplishment, and you can become a Buddha, right?" ”

A qiē is her will and choice.

She will be responsible for her choices. She doesn't need anyone to pity her and save her.

People who think she is pitiful and in need of salvation also underestimate her.

Zhu Ci didn't defend anything, but after being silent for a while, he said: "Although this is your family matter, I didn't have a position to ask, but you were originally such a happy family, but now it has reached such a point, I really feel sorry for you." If possible, I wish you were still ...... as before."

She was born in a family like the Zhu family, and she never enjoyed the warmth of the family, but she felt it in the Feng family.

She believes that whether it is General Feng or Feng Jinghua, in fact, in her heart, she hopes that Feng Hanyu can change her mistakes and return to her family.

"Impossible!" Feng Hanyu coldly interrupted her, "Happiness is a thing that has completely disappeared when my brother died, and it is impossible for me to get what I want from this family anymore." ”

Zhu Ci said: "After your brother disappeared, your mother completely closed herself, and your father and your sister did not have enough time and energy to care for you, you must have been very lonely and depressed when you were growing up, right?" ”

She can understand this kind of mood, but the difference is that she was used to that atmosphere from birth, and she has hobbies and interests that can find happiness, so this mood is diluted.

But Feng Hanyu is different.

Feng Hanyu lived a life of family reunion and love before the family changed, but when she was a child, the world suddenly changed so much, her brother died tragically, her mother first fell ill and then entered the temple to practice, her father had been fighting abroad for many years, and her sister took on the responsibility of taking care of the whole family, so she couldn't help but take care of her.

And at her age at the time, she was probably very panicked and lonely, and she didn't know how to face such a drastic change, maybe she could only endure it, innocent on the outside, but dark and cold on the inside, right?

When this loneliness, darkness and coldness continued to accumulate, after three, five, eight, ten years, she became such a two-faced demon.

"Heh, hehe," Feng Hanyu sneered, "Yes, you're right, since my brother's accident, I have slowly changed." On the surface, he pretended to be a good boy, but in fact, he resented his family and the world in his heart, and finally became what he is now, and he will never get better again. How are you going to save me? ”

She was only three or four years old at the time, and the world changed overnight, without giving her any time to prepare.

Brother love and mother's love are gone, my father can't see each other a few times a year, and my sister has become a different person, she can only choose to continue to be a good child, a good child who is restless and lonely.

When the inner depression reaches the limit, people's temperament will change greatly.

And Brother Xian is the hope and light she saw after she was suppressed to the extreme.

She will never forget the moment when she first saw him, and the tenderness and light emanating from him illuminated her dark and oppressive life.

She felt the joy that she had long forgotten, the excitement, the heartbeat, the excitement, the meaning of being alive.

Since then, she has followed his footsteps and shadows, as if she had gone mad and could not get rid of it.

"I can't save you." Zhu Ci said slowly, "Only you can save yourself." ”

"I don't need anyone to save me." Feng Hanyu smiled, her eyes had a demonic color, "Because I'm very satisfied with my current self." I hate the Feng family. Except for Brother Xian, I don't like any people in this world. ”

Blessings: "......"

After a while, she still wanted to try again: "Concubine Yu, I can understand your reproach to the family, and I think General Feng and your sister also understand, so they didn't pursue what you did." However, can you also understand the difficulties and difficulties of your family? It's like they understand you......"

"Understand what?" Feng Hanyu interrupted her with a sneer, "Understand that they are so upright and upright and refuse to submit to the emperor?" Understand that they have chosen their morality and forsaken my happiness? ”

Blessings: "......"

After a while, she said slowly: "After your brother's accident, you are not the only one who is uneasy and painful?" Your mother fell ill in agony, so much so that her heart died, and she hid in the void. How much hidden sadness is engraved on the vicissitudes and wrinkles on your father's face? And your sister, although she was a few years older than you at the time, was still a child, but she still supported the burden of protecting this family alone, how much pain and remorse should she have in her heart, and how much suffering and suffering she had suffered? ”

She let out a long sigh: "No one wants to see something like this happen. As a member of the family, why can't you understand the pain and helplessness of your family? Why can't you work with your family to take up the responsibility of protecting this family? When you were young, you may not understand this, but when you grow up and become sensible, can't you understand and understand? ”

The dilemma faced by Feng Jinghua and Feng Hanyu is the same, but Feng Jinghua chooses to face and overcome, while Feng Hanyu chooses resentment and betrayal.

Feng Hanyu was speechless for a while after being asked.